by E. K. Blair
“No. I’ve never wanted to hide you, but if anyone found out now, my mom would lock me in my room, and she’d find some way to have you kicked out of my school. We just have to wait until I can leave.”
“It was always there in the back of my mind that you were ashamed of me.”
“I could never be ashamed of you. Never.”
He pulled me down, so I was sitting next to him on the bed.
“I sound like a needy girl, but that makes me kind of happy. I thought we had things figured out when we were in London, but then everything went to shit as soon as we got back.”
“I know, and it’s my fault. I promise to fix this.”
“All right, I believe you.” He leaned over and kissed me.
“Let’s go to my house to hang out. My mom has a dinner thing, so she won’t be back until tomorrow. She always prowls those parties for some poor unsuspecting guy to sink her claws into.”
He laughed. “Poor bastard. I can’t wait until I get to meet her. After she hears what I have to say, she’ll love me even more.”
“It’s impossible for anyone to not love you. Well, except for her. I mean, you met my dad when he caught me naked in bed, and he still liked you. That’s charisma right there.”
“I’m lucky that he didn’t break my neck. Your dad is one scary motherducker.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Motherducker? Really?”
“Well, I didn’t want to call your dad a motherfucker, so I tamed it down.”
I shook my head. “Only you.”
He held my hand as we walked out of his room and down the hall to where his mom was taping boxes. Her eyes lit up when she noticed our linked hands.
“I see you two worked things out,” she said happily.
“We’re working on it,” I told her truthfully.
While we had made amends for right now, I knew things would still be uneasy between us until I could prove to him that I wasn’t ashamed.
“I’m glad to hear it. I told Emma that she’s in charge of taking care of you once I leave. You know I’m going to worry about you constantly.”
“I’ll be fine. We both know that I can take care of myself.”
“You know, I was just telling Jesse that I’m going to see if my dad will rent a place for me until I finish high school. Jesse could always move in with me instead of killing himself by working two jobs.”
“While I appreciate the thought, I don’t think that’s a good idea. I don’t approve of you two living together.”
“I’d make sure that it was a two-bedroom apartment,” I added.
“And I’m sure you two would sleep in your own beds. I’m not stupid,” she said as she grinned.
Jesse shrugged. “It’s not a bad idea as long as her dad lets me help with the rent.”
“Jesse—”
“It’s no different from me staying here by myself. You’ll be gone, and you won’t know how often Emma stays the night.”
This was getting awkward fast. It was embarrassing how he was basically telling her that we were having sex, and there was nothing she could do about it.
“Anyway, I’m ready if you are,” I said, hoping that he would stop talking.
“Let’s go. I’ll see you later, Mom.”
“Bye, Jesse. Be good.”
“Always am.”
“Why do I even bother?” she mumbled under her breath.
“I have no idea,” Jesse called as we walked out the door.
“You should be nicer to her. She is your mom, and she’s just trying to look out for you.”
“I know, but I’m kind of pissed at her for really leaving with this guy.”
“She’ll be thousands of miles away soon. You shouldn’t stay mad at her.
You need to take this time and cherish it. I’d kill to have a mom like yours.”
“I’ll kiss and make up with her before she leaves tomorrow. I promise.”
“Good. Now, let’s go. I haven’t been alone with you for weeks. I need some alone time.”
“Naked alone time?” he asked hopefully.
“Definitely naked.”
“Let’s go.”
Emma straddled me as she ran her hand down my bare chest. She’d practically carried me up the stairs and to her room as soon as we’d made it to her house.
“I’m so glad that we’re finally alone. I’ve been waiting forever for this,” she said.
“For what?”
“This.” She undid the last of the buttons on my shirt and kissed a trail from my belly button to my neck.
I moved my head to the side to give her better access. Things had been so tense between us lately, and I planned to enjoy every second of this. I felt my dick jump as she ran her tongue behind my ear.
“You’re killing me here,” I mumbled as I closed my eyes and relaxed.
“My apologies. I’ll stop.”
She started to get off of me, but I caught her around her hips and held her in place.
“Oh no. You’re staying right where you are.” “I thought I was bothering you,” she teased.
“You are but in a good way. I like it when you bother me like this.”
She smiled as she leaned down and kissed me on the lips. I slipped my hands into her shirt and skimmed my fingers down her back. She shuddered, and it was officially on. My hands slipped around to her stomach and slowly made their way to her breasts. I kneaded them through her bra, and she bit her lip as a small moan escaped her.
“Now, you’re killing me,” she whispered.
I pulled her shirt over her head and flipped her onto her back. “Good.”
She ran her hands through my hair as I started kissing her neck, heading down and down until I reached her breasts. Her breath came in short gasps when I pulled the cup of her bra down and ran my tongue over her nipple.
I needed to unbutton my shorts, or I was going to bust my damn zipper. I reached between us and unbuttoned them, sighing in relief. I pulled my hand away, making sure to brush her sensitive spot as I went. She jumped and dug her fingernails into my shoulders.
She’d opened her window when we came in, and we both froze as we heard a car door slam below us.
“Oh my god, my mom can’t be home yet,” she squealed as she pushed me off of her and ran to the window. “Shit! It is her! We have to hide you!”
I dropped my head onto her comforter and groaned. Her mother had the worst timing ever. “Where do you plan to hide me exactly?”
Her eyes searched the room frantically. “There—in my closet. Hurry!”
“You’ve got to be kidding me. I’m not hiding in your closet!”
“Please, Jesse! I can’t let her catch you here. She’ll never let me see you again.”
“Fine,” I growled.
I was pissed, really pissed. Not only did I have the worst case of blue balls on record, but I also had to hide in a cramped space for God knew how long. I stood and buttoned my pants back up as I walked to her closet and opened the door. Holy shit. I’d expected a regular closet, but Emma’s was bigger than my room at home.
She shoved me inside just as we heard a knock on the door, and I searched for someplace to hide in case her mom decided to search in here. I didn’t think she would, but Emma was the most transparent person on the planet, and I was sure her mom would know something was up. I noticed a small gap between where her clothing was hanging and a dresser next to the door. Figuring it was the safest spot, I walked over and crouched in my makeshift hiding spot. I could hear Emma and her mother talking, but the words were a bit muffled. I strained my ears, trying to hear what was being said. I caught the end of the sentence as her mom spoke.
“...you so nervous?”
“I’m not,” Emma said.
From in here, I could even tell that there was a nervous edge to her voice.
I need to teach her how to lie better.
“Todd here?”
“No!”
“If he is, I don’t care.”
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sp; “I swear, he isn’t.”
I held my breath as the doorknob turned. Shit. If her mom caught me in here, we were done.
The door opened, and I could hear the panic in Emma’s voice as she spoke.
“Seriously, do you not trust me? Todd is not in there!”
The door was wide open now, but her mother didn’t come inside. I breathed a sigh of relief as her voice came from farther inside Emma’s room.
“Of course I trust you. I know you’re not going to hide someone in your room. I’m sorry. I just thought you were trying to hide something.”
“Well, I’m not.”
“Okay. I talked to Todd’s mom again today, and she said he told her that you were upset with him. I thought you two might be together by now.”
I was so sick of her mother’s obsession with Todd. As far as I was concerned, the guy was an ass. She’d just stated flat-out that she was okay with him being in her daughter’s room, but I knew I’d never have the same offer. Just because his family had money, he was automatically the golden boy while I was the nasty kid from across town.
“No, we’re not together, and we’re not going to be. Todd is an ass.”
“I don’t understand why you won’t give the boy a chance. Is there someone else who you’re interested in?”
“Of course not. I’m not interested in Todd or any of the other trust fund guys at school.”
“And why not?”
“I don’t know. Does it matter?” Emma asked.
This was a train wreck that I couldn’t tear my ears away from.
“Of course it matters! You need to learn your place in life, Emma.”
“Are you even listening to yourself? Maybe I don’t want to take my place with all of those people who you try to force on me. Maybe I want to choose my own life.”
“I’m not even arguing with you about this. I don’t know what’s gotten into you lately, but it stops now. Get your act together, or you’re grounded.”
With that, her mom slammed the door behind her as she left. I stayed where I was just in case she was still in the room. I didn’t want to get Emma in any more trouble than she already was.
“You can come out now,” Emma said as she stepped into the closet.
I stood and walked out of my hiding spot.
“I assume you heard all of that?”
“Kind of hard not to,” I replied.
She went back into her bedroom and sat down on the bed. I followed, but I didn’t sit on the bed with her. I was so pissed with the entire situation. All the emotions I’d been feeling these last few weeks bubbled up to the surface, and I couldn’t ignore them any longer.
“I don’t even know what to say. I will never understand her,” she said.
“I’m not sure what there is to understand. She’ll never accept me, and we both know it. I’m so tired of hiding us from everyone in your world. It’s like you’re ashamed of me.”
Her head snapped up to stare at me. “Are you kidding me? Of course I’m not ashamed of you! I want to shout that you are mine from the rooftops, but I can’t. If anyone found out, she’d force us apart.”
“You’re almost eighteen. What can she really do about it? You won’t have to stay here anymore soon.”
“You want me to move out of my mom’s house right now? Where would
I go? I’d have nothing, Jesse, and my dad can’t help me until I turn eighteen.”
“You could stay with me until your dad gets you a place to stay.”
“I can’t just give up my entire life!”
“Of course you can’t. I don’t know what I was thinking, asking you to come to the trailer park with me after living this kind of life.”
“It’s not even about that, and you know it.”
“It will always be about that. Even if we were together ten years from now, I’d never be able to provide this kind of life for you. Never,” I said as I realized it was the truth. I would never be able to take care of her the way she’d come to expect. She’d have to lose everything to be with me. “I’m so tired of this game we’re playing, Emma. I just...I can’t do it anymore.”
“What are you saying?” she whispered as tears filled her eyes. “Are you breaking up with me?”
“I don’t know what I’m doing. We both knew that we came from different worlds when we started this, but we ignored it. Well, I can’t ignore it anymore.”
“Jesse, please...”
“I have to go.” I walked to her bedroom door. Getting out of here without her mom seeing me was going to be tricky.
“I drove you here. At least, let me take you home,” she pleaded.
I shook my head. I needed to be far away from her. “I’ll call Andy or something. I’ll see you later.”
“Will you?”
“Will I, what?”
“See me later?”
I opened my mouth to say yes, but I closed it. Will I? I had no idea at this point.
“Bye, Emma.”
I slipped silently into the hallway and crept to the stairs. I could hear her mom talking on her phone in her room when I passed it, and I begged the powers above to keep her on that phone until I could get out of the house. I moved silently as I walked down the stairs and to the front door. It creaked just a bit when I opened it, and I froze, but no one appeared at the top of the stairs to see what had caused the noise.
When I reached the end of the driveway, I breathed a sigh of relief. I’d made it out without anyone catching me. I pulled my phone from my pocket and dialed Andy.
“Hello?”
“Andy, it’s Jesse. Can you come get me?” I asked.
“Sure, where are you?”
“I just left Emma’s.”
“Okay...I’ll be there in a few.”
“Good. And call the guys. I need to blow off some steam.”
“Fuck yeah! I’ll message them and tell them to meet us down at the beach.”
I disconnected the call and sat down on the curb to wait for Andy to show up.
I tipped back my beer to get the last few drops out of the bottle.
When Andy said he’d message the guys, what he had really meant was that he’d message half his school. Soon after we’d arrived at the beach, car after car had pulled in until the lot was full.
We were a good four hours into this party, and it showed no signs of slowing down. I’d already had too much to drink, but I didn’t care. I just wanted to forget about my stupid fight with Emma and relax for a while. Things were always so complicated with her, and quite frankly, I was sick of it. I just wanted a normal relationship where I could go anywhere with her and not worry about someone seeing us.
“Having fun?” Ally asked as she sat down beside me in the sand.
“Tons.”
“Please contain your enthusiasm,” she replied sarcastically.
“Sorry. I’m not in that great of a mood.”
“There’s a shocker. What’s wrong?”
“Emma.”
“Trouble in paradise? Did she get mad because you couldn’t afford a
10,000 dollar purse or something?”
I shot her a glare. “I don’t need your mouth tonight, Ally.”
“Okay, gesh. What’s wrong?”
“Everything. I won’t ever measure up to the standards that she’s used to.”
“Why do you say that?”
“Look at my life, and then look at hers. We’re from totally different worlds. I can’t give her that kind of life. I’m the flat-ass broke kid from the trailer park.”
“Who gives a shit if you can’t give her a mansion and a Ferrari? If she loves you, what you have to offer should be enough. I know you’ve realized by now that I don’t like her. She’s a stuck-up twat who thinks she’s better than me. But I don’t like seeing you unhappy. If you really care about her, you can’t let the obstacles get in your way.”
“Of course I love her. But will she love me when she’s living in a trailer park?”
“
If that’s what she’s worried about, then she’s a bigger bitch than I thought.”
“It’s not her who’s worried about it. It’s me.” I stared at the fire in front of me that someone had started earlier.
Ally reached over and pushed my hair away from my face. “You’re an amazing guy, Jesse. You just need to realize how lucky she is to have you.” “Thanks, kid. I mean it.”
“I’m not a kid. I’m the same age as you.”
“Yeah, yeah. Whatever.” I grinned at her.
She threw her hands up in the air. “I’m tired of this moping shit. I’m going to go get a drink. You want another one?”
“Yeah, if you don’t mind.”
“I’ll be right back.”
I watched her as she walked away. I wished that Emma could be Ally.
Then, she would be a part of my life, and I wouldn’t have to feel the guilt that I was feeling now. Ally would never question the life that I could give her because she knew nothing else—unlike Emma, who was used to the finest of everything.
I spent the rest of the night drinking beer after beer until the fire in front of me started to spin. I cursed myself as I tried to focus. I had planned on driving back to my house in Andy’s car, but now, it looked like I would need to find a ride since both of us had been drinking way too much.
Lying down in the sand, I stared at a pair of feet that had come into my range of vision.
“You okay?” Ally asked as she bent down in front of me.
“Fine, but I need to find a ride home.”
“I can take you. I only had one beer, so I’m fine.”
“Thanks. Can you help me up?”
She laughed as she grabbed my arm and hauled me to my feet. I leaned into her as she led us to the rocks.
“You’re really out of it.”
“I’m fine,” I mumbled as she helped me climb over the rocks. Damn, the girl is strong.
“Sure you are.”
She somehow managed to get me back down the trail and into her car. She closed my door, and before I even realized she wasn’t standing beside me, she was already in the driver’s seat.
“Holy fuck, you’re fast,” I slurred as the car started moving.
I must have dozed off because before I knew it, we were in front of my house, and Ally was trying to get me out of the car. I stumbled and nearly fell, but she caught me and continued dragging me to the door.