by Nevada Barr
“And anybody who knew somebody they could lean on,” Holden put in, and Anna was reminded of the usually friendly but still existing rivalry between federal land management agencies, in this case the NPS and the Bureau of Land Management. Ostensibly the Park Service was dedicated to total conservation. The BLM espoused a more commercial view, leasing and exploiting some of the resources of public lands.
“Hey, it’s who you know,” Oscar said equitably.
The closing of Lechuguilla was an old bone of contention. “How do we know where we’re going?” Anna asked, bringing the conversation back to a subject nearer her heart.
“If you don’t know where you’re going, you’re liable to end up someplace else,” Holden said philosophically. Anna heard telltale crackling as he unwrapped a Jolly Rancher.
“House rules,” Iverson told Anna. “You survey as you go: maps, sketches, measurements, the whole enchilada. No scooping booty.”
“It happens,” Holden said. “Somebody gets excited and boldly goes where no man has gone before. But it’s severely frowned upon.”
“Do they lay orange tape like we’ve been following?” Anna asked.
“Them’s the rules,” Holden said, and she found herself immeasurably relieved, though she knew the tape was laid more for the cave’s protection than that of the cavers. If each expedition followed precisely the same trail, never veered from between the lines, a majority of the cave would remain untrammeled. Oscar looked at his watch. “Seven P.M.,” He said. “We’ve been on the go just over two hours. With luck we’ll be there by midnight. Everybody holding up okay?”
“Okay,” Anna echoed.
“The Wormhole,” Iverson said. Clicking on his headlamp, he ran the beam along the traverse to where it was anchored on the far side. Below the jug handle securing the line was an irregularity in the stone about the size and shape of an inverted Chianti bottle. The opening was flush with the wall: no ledge, lip, or handholds; no nooks or crannies to brace boots in.
“You’re kidding,” Anna said hopefully.
“I’ll admit it looks tricky,” Iverson said. “You want to go first, Holden?”
“And rob you of the glory? No indeed.”
Iverson peeled off his pack and began strapping on ascenders.
The one time Anna had been on a tyrolean traverse it had been a simple horizontal move over a river valley under kind blue skies with the music of frogs to keep her company. They’d not used ascenders, just strung the traverse line through a trolley on the web gear and scuttled across with much the same movements used when shinnying along a rope. Because of the steep tilt of this traverse—close to forty-five degrees—ascenders were needed.
Mechanical ascenders were a relatively simple invention that had revolutionized climbing. A one-way locking cam device about the size of a pack of cigarettes and shaped like a tetrahedron was strapped to the right boot above the instep. An identical device was attached to the left foot but on a tether that, when pulled out to full length, reached the climber’s knee. This ascender was tied to a thin bungee cord and hooked over the shoulder. Once this awkward arrangement was complete, the rope to be climbed was hooked through both ascenders and a roller on the climber’s chest harness. Thus married to the rope, it was a not-so-simple matter of walking, as up an invisible ladder. Raise the right foot; up comes the Gibbs ascender. Put weight on the right foot; cam locks down on the line. The foot is firm in its stirrup, and the body is propelled upward. This movement tightens the bungee, which in turn pulls the second ascender up along the rope. When the left foot steps down, the cam locks and another “stair” is provided.
Anna had used Gibbs ascenders enough that she was proficient, but she always enjoyed watching a master. The ascenders, so arranged, were called a rope-walker system. On the right climber that appeared literally true. Anna had seen men walk as efficiently up two hundred feet of rope as if they walked up carpeted stairs in their living room.
“Croll,” Iverson said as he rigged a third ascender into his seat harness. “Ever used one?”
Anna shook her head.
“Like falling off a log,” he assured her.
Rotten analogy, Anna thought, but she didn’t say anything.
“Get the packs ready,” Iverson said to Holden. “Once I get settled, I’ll bring them across with a haul line.”
“We’ll use the haul line, too,” Holden told Anna. “Ever so much more civilized.”
As Iverson rigged himself to the traverse, Anna watched with a keen interest. One lesson, then the test. It crossed her mind how much better a student she would have been if in school the options had been learn or die.
Crouching on a thumb of rock as big around as a plate, eighteen inches of it thrust over the chasm, Oscar attached his safety, clipped his Croll into the rope, wrestled his two foot ascenders onto the line, then pushed till his torso and buttocks hung like a side of beef a hundred twenty feet above God knew what.
Anna kept her headlamp trained where he would find it useful, kept the light steady and out of his eyes. It was all she could do. There was no room for a second pair of hands to help him.
Holden was occupied with the business of tying the packs into trouble-free bundles that could easily be hauled across. Along with personal gear were medical supplies requested by Dr. McCarty, among them oxygen. In the case of a head wound it might be the only thing that could keep Frieda’s brain tissue from permanent damage.
Iverson finished and snaked an elbow over the line so he could hold his head up. “Check my gear?” he said to Holden.
“Right-o.”
Having been checked out by a fresh pair of eyes, Oscar began rope-walking over the rift. Suspended at four points along the line, his body was nearly horizontal, spine toward the center of the earth. As always in a traverse, there was an element of sag. It made the operation of the ascenders inefficient, and progress was measured in inches. As the line began to angle, rising steeply toward the Wormhole, the slack was taken up. After a few strangled kicks to get the cams to lock down, Oscar climbed like a pro, covering the last thirty feet in as many seconds. The rig was a work of art; not so much slack that he was head-down at the bottom, but enough so that he was standing upright when he reached the hole.
In the scattering light, Anna could see his skinny arms weaving some sort of magic near the top of the traverse, where his shoulders blocked her view.
“That’s the tricky part alluded to earlier,” Holden said. Anna was startled at the nearness of his voice. She could feel his breath against her cheek. In their absorption, they’d knelt shoulder to shoulder on the edge of their limestone block like a couple of White Rock fairies in a troglodyte nightmare.
“What’s he doing?” The words gusted out, and Anna realized she’d been holding her breath.
“There’s no place to be, and the Wormhole’s so tight it’s sort of pay-as-you-go. He’s changing ropes. Hooking onto the rebelay. He’ll let himself loose a little bit at a time as he gets that part of himself into the hole. The hard bit is feeling for the Gibbs down at your feet. Sort of like tying your shoelaces when you’re halfway down a python’s throat.”
Iverson squirmed a moment more, Anna and Holden so entranced they forgot to talk. Then it was as if the rock swallowed his head. It was gone, and only the body remained, twitching with remembered life. The shoulders were next, melting seamlessly into the cliff, the pathetic stick legs kicking in short convulsive movements. Hips vanished, and Anna and Holden’s lights played over a pair of size-thirteen boots flipping feebly. The image was ludicrous, but Anna didn’t feel like laughing. Hands reappeared, only the hands, gloved and bulky. With no assistance from a corporeal body, they fussed and fluttered and danced like a cartoon drawn by an artist on acid.
“Removing the foot ascenders,” Holden said. “Last link.”
Abruptly, the hands were sucked back into the limestone. The boots followed. All that remained to indicate that any life-form had ever existed was the gentle swaying o
f the rope.
“He’s good,” Holden said admiringly. “The man is good. He could thread himself through all four stomachs of a cow and never even give her the hiccups.”
Anna eased back from the edge of the rock and rearranged legs grown stiff from too long without movement. “Me next,” she said, and was pleased at how normal her voice sounded.
“Not yet. Oscar will holler when he’s ready. There’s no room to turn around in the Wormhole. He’s got to crawl on up a little ways. There’s a chimney. He’ll go up, spin himself about, then come back down so he can get the gear and pull you in. One of you guys will do the same for me.
“The creepy-crawly part of the hole’s fifty feet or so.” Holden answered Anna’s unasked question. “Then it opens right up. Big stuff like we’ve been doing.”
Anna nodded. She’d not wanted to ask, but the Wormhole was eating away at her hard-won control. Fifty feet; she measured it out in her mind. Frieda’s backyard in Mesa Verde was fenced to keep her dog, Taco, from wandering. The posts were eight feet apart. Anna had helped replace four of them at the beginning of the summer. Fifty feet: six postholes. She could swim that far underwater. Sprint that far in high heels and panty hose. Fifty feet. Nothing to it.
“All set.” The words reverberated across the chasm, and Anna and Tillman trained their lights on the orifice that had swallowed Oscar. A disembodied hand waved to them from the solid fortress that was their destination.
“Now you next,” Holden said. “Have fun.” He smiled and she smiled back, glad to know him, glad to have him with her. Holden Tillman’s smile was better than a bottle of Xanax.
Anna was always careful with climbing gear. This time her attention to detail was obsessive. The contortionist movements required to hook ascenders with half her body bobbing over a crevice she couldn’t see the bottom of required that each movement be thought through before it was attempted. She was glad the ranger from Rocky Mountains who had taught her to climb had insisted she practice everything one-handed, and by touch, not sight. Tillman trained his lamp on her hands and watched.
“Looks good,” he said when she had finished. “See you on the other side.”
Anna nodded and pulled herself hand-over-hand along the rope till she could begin to kick in with her rope-walkers. For a brief eternity she floundered like a fish in a net. Because the Gibbs wouldn’t lock regardless of how she angled her feet in an attempt to get the cams to catch, she was muscling her way along, using the strength of her arms and shoulders. Bad form, and something she couldn’t maintain for any length of time. Exertion made the line sway. Coupled with the wild dancing of shadows every time she moved her head, it was dizzying. Adrenaline, already high, rose to poisonous levels.
Closing her eyes, she forced herself to relax, let the rope and metal take the weight. After a steadying breath, she began again her crippled walk, this time with more success. The rope inclined, tension increased, the cams locked and unlocked fluidly. Much to her amazement, she found she was enjoying herself. Deep in the bedrock of the Southwest, and she was probably as high as she’d ever climbed. She laughed aloud and hoped Holden wouldn’t mistake it for hysteria.
The ascent was over too soon. Head against the wall, feet over the rift, she dead-ended. By craning her neck she could look back far enough to see the opening she was supposed to get into. It was nothing short of miraculous that Iverson had managed it without aid. She felt utterly helpless.
“Oscar?”
“Right here.” An ungloved hand, looking sublimely human, came out several inches above her face and the fingers waggled cheerfully. “Put your arms over your head like you’re diving.”
It took a minor act of will, but Anna got both hands off the traverse line and did as she was instructed. Fingers locked around her wrists, and she was drawn into the Wormhole. Stone brushed against her left shoulder and her face was no more than two inches from the rock above. The dragging pulled her helmet over her eyes. Newly blind, her first sense that the environment had changed was the warm sweet smell of sweat mixed liberally with cotton and dust. An unseen hand tipped her hat back so she could see. Rock had been replaced by a maroon tee-shirt with pink lettering so close to her face she couldn’t read it. She was less than an inch below Iverson’s chest. The space was closing in. Her lungs squeezed and her throat constricted. An image of fighting like a maddened cat, clawing back out to fall into the abyss, ripped through her mind.
Now’s not a good time, she warned herself. “What next?” she asked, needing to move.
“Is your rear end in?”
“Feels like it.”
“Okay. There’s space to your right. You’re going to have to stretch over, reach down, and let loose your foot ascenders.”
Anna bent to the right at her waist. She tried to bring her knee up but cracked it painfully against the rock. Second try and she could feel the ascender on her boot. After a moment of fumbling she pulled the quick-release pin securing the cam and plucked the line out. “Got it,” she said.
“Left is harder, but you’re short and flexible,” Iverson said encouragingly.
Anna grunted and pretzeled farther over in the slot that sandwiched her in. The left proved easier. Small blessings. She’d take what she could get. “I’m loose.”
“Get your body as straight as you can,” Iverson told her. She squirmed her bones into a line. Every movement was dogged by difficulty. Clothing and gear caught and dragged. Her hard hat pulled, choking then blinding her. Fear built. She began to count in her head to drown out the distant buzz of panic, a sound like a swarm of angry bees.
“Okay. Good. Grab my knees and pull yourself the rest of the way in.”
Anna worked her arms back over her head and felt the warmth of Oscar’s thighs. Hooking her fingers behind his knees, she dragged herself toward them.
“Watch your light!”
She stopped just before she rammed his groin with the apparatus. “Caving is not conducive to human dignity,” she grumbled.
“Nope. Just to long and meaningful relationships,” Oscar said, and Anna laughed to let him know she appreciated the effort. “You’re home free. Take off your helmet and push it ahead. Keep going till you come out in a place that looks like it’s made of cheese. Wait for us there.”
Inching along like a worm, Anna oozed between Oscar’s legs. The passage opened enough so she could roll over onto her stomach, then closed down again so tight she had to turn her head sideways to make any progress. The bees whined, the noise threatening sanity.
She scratched ahead with her toes. Tugged forward with fingertips and stomach muscles. Humped along like a caterpillar, ignoring the rake of stone knives down her shoulder blades. Each foot achieved was a goal to be celebrated. When she thought she couldn’t take any more she was granted a reprieve. The Wormhole bored out of the wall into a large room, and she spewed gratefully to the floor.
Oscar Iverson’s choice of metaphor had been apt. As if she had entered a mouse’s dream of paradise, Anna had arrived into what looked like a giant piece of Swiss cheese. Uniformly pale round passages twisted away in all directions. Without moving she could count twelve openings, some as small as the Wormhole, some big enough to walk through upright. The place was a three-dimensional maze, confusing and disorienting. But it was bigger than a bread box, and Anna contented herself with that.
In less than twenty minutes the men joined her. “Eight thirty,” Iverson said, looking at his watch. “We’re way slow. Everybody okay to pick up the pace?” Too tired to speak, Anna nodded. Packs were redistributed, and they resumed travel. Again Oscar set a brutal pace. Anna worked until there was no room for thought, for observation, no room even for fear. Holden’s promise held true; there were no more creepy-crawly bits and only a handful of places they had to chimney- or stoop-walk. The earth’s interior was so riddled with airspace it was a wonder great tracts of the Trans-Pecos didn’t collapse periodically.
Wonders flashed past in a sweating stream, caught i
n light fragments like views from a rain-streaked train window. Falls of liquid stone the color of old brass emptied into a lake so clear that the bottom, thirty feet down, looked no farther away than Anna’s toes. There was no way around it, and the three of them stripped naked lest their filthy clothes sully water kept pure for millennia. Clothing was put in zipper-lock plastic bags to keep it dry. For the climb back out of the water-filled room, they donned rubber beach shoes so they would not scar the perfect surface of the flowstone, tumbling in a waterless fall frozen in place for all time.
After the lake, they dressed and laced on their boots for Razor Blade Run. Aragonite bushes, white and as freeform as coral, bloomed in the utter stillness. The slightest touch by a passing caver was enough to snap the delicate crystals. Tunnels of these fragile, razor-sharp feathers were eased through with aching slowness and a constant mantra of “be careful. Look out. Big one. Take it slow . . .” from Iverson.
“Watch those big feet. Laymon says Oscar walks like an elephant on a pogo stick . . .” from Holden.
Anna’s legs carried her. Hands grasped rope. She poured water down her throat. Miracles passed by.
By the time they arrived in Tinker’s Hell, where Frieda lay, it was after two in the morning. Anna hadn’t slowed the cavers down. She hadn’t gotten hurt. And she hadn’t gone nuts. All in all, a successful day.
Tinker’s, where the survey team was camped, was an immense chamber; Shea Stadium could have been tucked inside with room left over for a taxi stand. Anna, Holden, and Iverson entered through a jumbled corridor devoid of decorations and uniformly dirt-colored. The passage emerged halfway between the floor and the ceiling of Tinker’s, spilling onto a high balcony guarded by a natural parapet of stone. Oscar was astraddle this wall drinking water when Anna came into Tinker’s Hell.