He stared at me for a minute. I could read his frustration easily in his eyes. Youre serious about this, arent you? Theres no changing your mind.
Yes, Im serious and, no, Im not changing my mind.
Another sigh. Fine. I cant believe Im even saying this, but if youre absolutely positive this is what you want to do, Ill support you in any way I can.
What? His sudden about face caught me off guard.
I think youve completely lost your mind, but Ill be there for you, he said with just a hint of a smile. His smile broadened a bit as he shrugged and added, Hey, what are best friends for?
Scratching backs? I said hopefully. His smile turned into a full-fledged Aidan Special Grin, complete with dimples.
Coming right up!
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I called Joeys mom that afternoon. She sounded as upset as one would expect. I had intended to just offer my sympathy, but she surprised me by asking me to come over. It wasnt something I was looking forward to, but I knew it was something I had to do. I drove over by myself, after convincing Aidan that I was fine going alone. 156
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She was seated on the couch when I got there, between two older women I didnt know but assumed to be family members. For as close of friends as Joey and I had been, I realized I really didnt know any of his family. He never talked about them. I knew his mom of course, and I knew his dad had run off when Joey was two or three, but that was it. I was introduced to the two women as Joeys oldest and dearest friend. They turned out to be Joeys aunts. The one on the left looked like a hungry bulldog, complete with hanging jowls and stubborn expression. The one on the right looked like a scared chicken, gangly, thin, and beady-eyed. Joeys mom, who I had always thought looked much too young to be a mother of someone Joeys age, suddenly looked old, although it might have been because it was the first time I think I had ever seen her without any make-up. She looked vulnerable without it. I found myself feeling very uncomfortable.
Mrs. Taylor grabbed my hand and held onto it like it was a lifeline and she was drowning. Which maybe in a way she was.
When they called me last nightI just couldnt believe it, she said, her eyes filling with unshed tears.
They were red and swollen as if shed been crying a lot.
I kept saying that they must be wrong; that it couldnt be my Joey. But then I had to go identify him. They called him the body. We need you to come identify the body,
they said. I said, hes not just a body, hes my son. She almost seemed to be talking to herself. It was Joey...
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but there.
I stayed for what I thought was a decent amount of time and then made my excuses and headed for the door.
Will? Mrs. Taylor called just before I escaped. You werent at that party last night were you?
I felt my heart drop. Well, actually I was, Mrs. Taylor, but just for a few minutes. I didnt stay.
She seemed surprised. Then I think the police are looking for you.
What? I gasped.
They described you and asked if I knew anyone who fit that description. I told them you did, but they said you werent on the list of people present when they arrived. Several people said they saw someone fitting your description go upstairs with Joey and come back down in a rush. They said you might be the last person who saw him alive.
I- I left beforehe was alive when I l-left, I stammered.
She nodded as if it was what she had expected to hear.
I told them you were a good boy. Tell me, Will, how was he?
What could I say? Honestly, Mrs. Taylorhe wasnt very good. He was drunk. He wasnt himself.
She started to cry again.
Im so sorry, I said helplessly. Im going to miss him very much.
I turned to leave once more but she called out again.
Was he wearing his necklace?
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ing from it. It had been the only thing left behind of his fathers, who had been a devout Catholic. Joey cher-ished that necklace more than any other possession he owned. As far as I knew, the only time Joey had ever been inside a church was when he was baptized as an infant, but he never took that necklace off. I tried to remember if I had seen the necklace or not. It was so much a part of him I just took it for granted that he had been wearing it, but now I tried to recall if I had actually seen it or not. I mentally walked though the painful encounter with Joey until I found what I was looking for.
Yes, he was, I said. Why?
It wasnt on him when they found him. I would have liked to have had it.
She turned back to the bulldog aunt and I took the opportunity to finally slip out of the oppressive home which already felt empty without Joey.
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CHAPTER ELEVEN
Joeys funeral was held graveside on a suitably dreary and dismal Monday morning. The clouds hung heavy with the unrealized threat of rain and the wind whipped through the gathered mourners like an angry spirit.
Despite the inclement weather, quite a few people had shown up to remember Joey. Most of them I didnt know, family, I guess; but I saw a few familiar faces, old neighbors and people from school. Beth was there, of course. It was the first time we had seen each other since we broke up. When she gave me a hug, it was an awkward moment that only served to confirm the realizations that I had come to over the last few weeks. It struck me how much I had changed since we had dated.
I felt like a completely different person.
There was one person in attendance who particularly caught my attention because of his seemingly odd behavior. He stood in the back and off to one side as if he didnt want to be seen. He cried through the whole service and left as soon as the last prayer was said.
The service itself was mercifully brief and poignant.
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ure out what he was trying to say.
I didnt go back to the house afterwards; instead, I drove directly from the cemetery to Avant Guard. Today was my first day at my new job.
Nikki started talking before I was even all the way through the door. The first thing we need to talk about is the one-man show, she said. Do we need to cancel it?Iuh
I mean weve lost a lot of time and Im assuming you didnt paint any masterpieces while you were in that coma.
No, I meanI
Will, Im kidding. Dont bug out on me here. But seriously, we are getting pushed for time. We need to have at least fifteen to twenty paintings for a one-man show. The show is scheduled and the invitations have been sent, so were locked in unless we just cancel it altogether. That only gives us three weeks. That means you need to do at least a painting a day. Think you got that in you?
What ever happened to hi, Will, welcome to your new job? How was your weekendsomething like that? I said weakly, feeling more than a little overwhelmed.
Hi, Will! Welcome to your new job! How was your weekend? Think you got that in you?
I laughed. Hi Nikki. Thanks for the warm welcome.
My weekend was horrible and, yes, I think I have it in me.
Nikki frowned. Why was your weekend horrible?
My best friend died. Thats why I was late coming in th
is morning. It was Joeys funeral.
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Oh my God! That was your friend on the news?
Yeah.
Im so sorry, Will.
Well, wed grown apart lately. Actually we had a huge fight just before he died.
Its still hard to lose someone who was a friend. Were you friends long?
Since we were kids.
Do they know what happened yet?
If they do theyve not told me. I know they think alcohol was involved. He was really drunk when I left him so I guess he could have fallen in and drowned.
How sad! What a waste. Are you sure youre up to starting work today?
Yeah, Im fine. It helps me to keep my mind off of things, you know?
She nodded. Sure thing. Then lets get to work.
We went over my responsibilities, which for the most part consisted of standing around and doing nothing while I waited for customers to wander in. She showed me how to work the cash register and how to read a potential client by asking them leading questions and then steer them toward the kind of art they would be most interested in. The only thing I didnt learn was how to do Derricks little appearing trick. Once she was confident that I was ready, Nikki retired to her office.
It was some time later when I noticed a well-dressed couple heading for the front door. I felt my palms begin to sweat as I anticipated my first customers. I stepped forward to greet them wishing I could pull Derricks trick since that seemed to put the salesperson in the dominant role right from the start.
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or what I hoped was smoothly. If I can be of any assistance, please let me know. I hoped I sounded more sincere than Derrick had the first time wed come here.
Were looking for Will Keegan, the man said while the woman looked carefully around.
Uh oh. That didnt seem like the kind of thing potential customers said, especially considering it was my first day here.
Im Will Keegan, I said hesitantly.
The man reached into his jacket pocket and produced a badge. Im Detective Grafton and this is my partner, Detective Bernhardt. Wed like to ask you a few questions if you dont mind.
I looked closer at them and wondered how I could have mistaken them for a couple. They practically screamed law enforcement. Both wore no-nonsense expressions and business attire in dark, muted tones. Detective Grafton was middle-aged, with graying brown hair and a craggy, clean-shaven face. His bushy eyebrows hooded his dark eyes making him look slightly sinister. Detective Bernhardt was younger, in her thirties maybe, with a round face, pleasant if unremark-able. She had her light brown hair pulled back into a bun at the base of her neck. Am I in trouble? I asked, instinctively directing the question at Detective Bernhardt. I sounded guilty even to myself.
Detective Grafton gave me a sharp look. I dont know, are you?
Detective Bernhardt stepped forward. Were you at the party held at David Kemps house this past Friday night?
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wasnt even sure what a material witness was. I suddenly wished I had paid more attention to the police shows my mom liked to watch on TV.
Is there somewhere we can speak a little more privately? Bernhardt asked.
Nikki? There was a note of panic in my voice. Authority figures had always scared the pants off of me.
Id been sent to the principals office once when I was in the 5th grade for something Joey had done and Id gotten blamed for. I cried all the way there and was so hysterical by the time I got there they had to call my mom to come pick me up. I was feeling a bit like that now.
Nikki came out with a huge smile, obviously thinking I had gotten in over my head with some customers.
These are detectives, I told her and watched the smile vanish. They want to talk to me about Joey.
Use my office, she said immediately.
I led the two detectives to the office where they quickly took over, telling me to have a seat and rearranging Nikkis furniture so that they were facing me.
How do you know we want to talk to you about your friend, Joey? Bernhardt asked as soon as we were seated.
I blinked. Why else would you want to talk to me about the party?
She smiled. Fair enough. Ask a dumb question
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working on.
Did you speak to Joseph Taylor on the night in question? Grafton asked.
Joey? Yes
Do you know what time it was?
No.
What did you talk about?
I wanted to talk to him, thats the whole reason I was there. Im not really into parties. I knew I was giving them more information than they really needed, but I was nervous and having trouble organizing my thoughts. He was drunk. He suggested we go upstairs, so we did.
What happened when you got upstairs?
We talked.
Where and about what?
Joey took me in a bedroom; he seemed to know where he was going. We talked aboutour friendship.
Was it an argument? Did you raise your voice at any time?
Iyeah, we had an argument.
Over what?
I felt my already flushed face blaze. I was getting quite dizzy. I-Iuh, recently told Joey that I wasum
gayand he didnttake it well.
Did it become physical?
I started. What do you mean?
Detective Grafton looked up from his notepad. Were any punches thrown?
Iuhhit Joey.
Why? Did you feel threatened?
I opened and closed my mouth a few times but nothing came out.
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Look, kid, youd better tell us everything. Were going to find out eventually anyway and its better if it comes from you.
Its not like that, I said quickly. Its justJoey
tried to force himself on me, I managed to choke it out then rushed on, He was really drunk or he never would have done anything like that.
Is that why you hit him?
I nodded. I kneed him in the balls then hit him with my cast, I told them, indicating my broken arm as if I was presenting Exhibit A in court.
The two detectives looked at each other, exchanging meaningful glances. And then what happened? he asked.
Nothing. I mean I ran out. Ran back downstairs.
And then you left?
After I got sick in the bathroom.
Grafton flipped the notebook closed. Thank you for your help, Mr. Keegan. If we have any more questions well be getting in touch with you.
Thats it? I asked in surprise.
You were expecting more? Bernhardt said with a sardonic smile.
JustI mean, why were you asking me those questions? How did Joey die?
They exchanged glances again, this time they almost seemed to be having a discussion without words. Finally Bernhardt sighed. When the coroner checked your friend over there were some unexplained injuries; a slightly dislocated nose and some bruising in the groin area. Our job was to explain those injuries. Youve just helped us do that. As long as he was alive when you left him
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He was! I asserted firmly.
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sp; then the official finding will cite the cause of death to be accidental drowning. We have to write our report up, but I expect that after you left he somehow managed to get downstairs and onto the pool deck without anyone seeing him. Everyone agreed that the yard was pretty much deserted and considering the amount of drugs seized at the party that isnt really as hard to believe as one might think. Then in his drunken state, which is supported by other statements and his blood alcohol levels by the way, he fell into the pool, maybe hit his head and drowned. The medical examiner confirms that he had enough alcohol in his system to stun a bull elephant.
Detective Grafton seemed eager to leave. Once again, Mr. Keegan, thank you for your time and cooperation.
Youve helped us close this case.
I nodded uncertainly and walked them out. I returned to work with an unsettled feeling in the pit of my stomach. Something didnt feel right about this whole thing.
***
The next several days were uneventful except for the everyday business of living, work during the day and painting at night. Aidan and I were cautiously making an attempt to rebuild the trust I had broken and in turn, piece our friendship back together. It was a slow process. We were sleeping in our own rooms after that first night, but he would sit next to me while I painted, sometimes reading or doing homework, sometimes just watching, sometimes talking to me softly. The pictures I had taken had turned out great, so I had plenty of material to work from and it was a welcome escape from my thoughts. 167
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Not a day went by that I didnt think about Caitlin, but on Aidans advice, I waited for her to call me. The next move had to be hers.
A week went by, then two and still I hadnt heard from Caitlin. I did, however, have fifteen paintings finished that I was very pleased with. I was at home painting when she finally called. I was alone for a change; Aidan had gone out with some friends from school. Id received a half-hearted invitation, but hed known before he asked that I would stay home to paint. I was in a place where I couldnt stop when the phone started ringing. Eventually it stopped then immediately started up again. With a sigh, I dropped my paintbrush in the water well and grabbed up the insistently bleating instrument, stabbing the talk button as if it was the phones fault I was being interrupted.
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