by Eva Luxe
“You know…”
She begins, and I can tell she almost thinks better of telling me whatever she was about to say.
“What?”
“It’s just, when I was talking to Jesse, he mentioned that he’d asked you to come to his surgery, and had never heard another word from you. I mean, he was really understanding and nice about it, and I knew that you had gone to visit him because Lance told me he saw you there, but I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t sure…”
“Fuck,” I say. “Fuck fuck fuck.”
“What?”
“Damn Dr. Davis. I did go to see Jesse but his surgery had just finished and he was too doped up to recognize me. I left a card for him. Dr. Davis acted hella sketchy, which makes perfect sense now. He said he would make sure he received it, and would let him know I dropped by.”
“Well, lo and behold, Dr. Davis didn’t live up to his word. Shocker,” Whitney says, and I nod.
“How can I get in touch with him? I need to explain what happened.”
“I may be able to get you some contact information from his file,” she says, with a sly smile.
“Awww. You’re the best. I knew there was a reason I was into you.”
And I knew she’d bend the rules when the right situation presented itself.
“Very funny,” she says. “But let’s get back on track. We are using this patient as an example, correct? He deserves further treatment, correct?”
I nod.
“But Dr. Davis doesn’t want to work with him,” she concludes, marking a big X next to his redacted name. “Or him, or him, or her, or any other average service member.”
Soon her X’s line the page, and it’s obvious how angry she is. And it’s touching to see how much she cares.
“So, this is where I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it affects you.”
“Okay. Shoot. I’m ready.”
I’ve been on such a roller coaster ride since meeting Whitney— or since my helicopter crashed, actually— that I shouldn’t think it’s possible for me to be surprised by anything anymore. But I never expected her latest revelations, and I know I can’t be sure of what’s coming down the pipeline. I just want her to tell me, so that we can deal with it together.
Chapter 49
“Well, the three of you who were referred for more treatment are really cream of the crop type scenarios,” Whitney continues. “You’re all in some type of Special Forces, and although your accidents were certainly traumatic, they didn’t affect you to the extent that some of the others were affected by their accidents. You also had an advantage when it came to possessing natural strength and willpower after your accidents. Much of what Dr. Davis is taking credit for, you would have already done naturally on your own.”
“But. I was helpless without Dr. Davis,” I protest. “I couldn’t even write my own name. Neither could Alex.”
“And don’t you think that’s just a little coincidental?” Whitney asks.
I pause. Just when I think I had figured out all the clues, she has to go and point out something obvious.
“Look,” she continues. “I thought about all of this. I’ve had a lot of time to work on this, since I was jilted by my lover for the heinous crime of trying to help him out.”
“Very funny,” I sneer, but I still feel a strong twinge of guilt.
“When I first saw Dr. Davis’ videos of you, and even the modern day version of you on the stage, I thought he was somehow exaggerating your current condition to make it seem better than it was. There was no way that someone could go from nearly brain dead— which is how Dr. Davis portrayed your original condition— to fully functioning and normal, in such a short amount of time.”
I crinkle my eyebrows at her, not entirely convinced.
“I mean, I’m no neurologist,” she continues, “but neither is Dr. Davis. And that got me thinking too. I’ve never seen or even heard of a patient making much such giant strides in my experience in physical therapy school, and Dr. Davis isn’t even a physical therapist. He’s a facial reconstructive surgeon. His latest technologies in that field are definitely very impressive, and he deserves credit where credit’s due. But I started to wonder why he’s trying to take credit in fields in which he has no experience.”
“Yeah. That is pretty weird.”
“So then it struck me that Dr. Davis is exaggerating, or flat out lying, in the opposite direction than in the one I originally assumed. You weren’t nearly as bad off as Dr. Davis claims.”
I look at her, not sure if I want to believe her or not.
“You did have a bad accident, and you required facial reconstruction surgery if you ever wanted to look like anything resembling normal again,” she continues, gently. “You also benefitted from physical therapy-type exercises, but you would have been doing those on your own anyway. Basically, Dr. Davis had little to nothing to do with that part. And you didn’t have brain damage.”
Whitney spins her monitor to face me and then she pushes “play” on a video. It’s the one where I can’t write my name, except that it’s a longer, uncut version, showing wider angels and obviously unedited.
“See, there’s an IV. You’re hooked up to morphine. This was right after one of your surgeries. You were clearly drugged out of your mind.”
“And who could write their name when they’re in that state?” I wonder.
“Exactly. It’s the same with Alex, and the other guy. Once the medication wore off, you were perfectly fine to write your name or do any other task.”
“Hrmph. This really is making so much sense now. Especially because I saw Jesse Morrow right after his surgery, and he was definitely on a lot of meds. Couldn’t tell up from down.”
“Now you’ve got it,” Whitney says. “I imagine Dr. Davis soon had him try to write his name in that condition, just in case he needed to show it later, as ‘evidence’ that he was so bad off and had come so far.”
“Oh my god. Dr. Davis is the worst.”
My normally confident attitude is fading. I’m glad that most of my recovery has been something for which I alone can take credit, but I feel stupid for letting Dr. Davis dupe me. And I can’t even figure out why he would do it. But before I can wrap my head around it, Whitney drops even more devastating news.
“Now here’s the part that I really wish didn’t exist,” she says, pushing my file over to me. “But I think you need to take a look at that.”
I open it up to notes from the military about my progress. The board says I’m “cleared for service,” but Dr. Davis says I need more treatment first. According to the minutes from the sessions, the board took testimony from Dr. Davis and then decided I did need additional work, but wanted a third party to treat and evaluate me.
“So everything Dr. Davis has told me has been a lie!”
I can barely control my anger. I want to go find him and wring his neck right now.
“It’s been the exact opposite of what’s really going on!” I nearly explode.
“Apparently,” Whitney confirms. “He was telling you that he recertified you but the military wouldn’t accept it. In reality, it was the other way around.”
“But why? Does he just get some sick pleasure in screwing with people’s lives? Or only with mine?”
“The way I see it is like this,” Whitney says, reaching across the desk and gently squeezing my hand.
It’s clear that she’s had more time to think everything through, and I appreciate her telling me, but I feel like such a putz.
“Dr. Davis needs funding, and then he needed to sell his company. He needed to have the military on board. And for a while you were his only good candidate: the perfect turn-around patient success story. He needs you to trot across the stage for him and demonstrate how he helped you overcome all your issues. He needs you to talk other service members into being treated by him, and not giving up or having a bad attitude, etc.”
“I sure did that job well,” I admit, feeling guilty.
“Well, at least I’m not the only sucker anymore,” I say. “But I don’t know whether that should make me feel good or bad.”
“Yes, exactly. That’s what I needed to talk to you about. I was all ready to turn Dr. Davis in. I think he’s a despicable human being who is using the military, and military members, for his own selfish goals. But then I realized…”
“…that if you do that, he will probably retaliate against me,” I say, finishing her sentence for her.
She nods solemnly.
“And to make matters even more complicated,” she says, one side of her sexy mouth twisting into a concerned “o,” “I’m pretty sure he’s about ready to send you back to your unit.”
I sit up straight when I hear this: excited, although I know I shouldn’t be.
I want it to be true, that I can be an active SEAL again— and it definitely sounds as if Whitney has figured everything out— but I don’t want to have my hopes dashed yet again.
“How do you figure? He just took you off my case because you were saying I was ready. He just stressed all the ways in which I still need help.”
“I think he was dragging it out a little longer, for the sake of insurance,” Whitney says. “He wasn’t quite ready to cut you loose, because he needed to make sure the sale of his company went through, and he also needs to make sure that one of the other two names I highlighted in green is fit enough after surgery to be his new poster boy.”
“I see.”
I think about how eager Dr. Davis was to introduce me to Alex, and to have me be the spokesman for how great it is to work for Dr. Davis. He was definitely setting up this transition all along. Alex was even getting paid to be the new me, whereas I was the sucker who had been doing it for free.
“But he knows he can’t continue this forever, or his gig will be up soon. He knows I’m on to him, although he thinks I’m easy enough to shake off his trail. He probably suspects that Lance has his reservations, although he knows that Lance values his job enough that he will keep his head down and do what he’s told. And he knows that sooner or later you’ll be onto him— sure, you could be a little more flexible and strong but, really, what is there to work on? You deserve to be back in the military.”
“I do.”
We stare at each other, as if silently asking each other what we should do now.
“I was thinking,” Whitney says, “that we can keep everything on the downlow and wait until he recertifies you. Once you’re back with your unit, I can expose him. I don’t think he’d have the power to do anything against you at that time.”
I take a deep breath.
“It sounds so tempting,” I tell her. “But what kind of hypocrite would I be if I turned out to be the one who is afraid of risk, after lecturing my girlfriend about the very same thing?”
“Girlfriend. I’m already really liking the sound of that.”
“Me too.”
“Well, Boyfriend, don’t feel any pressure to make a decision just yet. At least we have the information, and we can decide what to do with it as the timing feels right.”
“No,” I tell her, decisively. “The timing does feel right. For everything. For you and me, and to shine the truth on Dr. Davis, who has been living in the shadows for too long, while forcing everyone else into his limelight. Let’s do this.”
“But what about your recertification?”
“Staying state-side wouldn’t be so bad,” I say, squeezing her hand. “Now that I have a reason to be here.”
I start to wonder if maybe I was searching for an escape, when what I really needed was here right along. That reminds me.
“Okay, now look up this HR Policy and see if there’s a loophole for us to be able to be a real couple,” I tell her.
“Yes, sir,” she says.
I love when she does as I command.
She turns to her computer monitor and searches for the document. Then she pulls it up and begins reading it.
“Well this sucks,” she says. “It is a violation of this policy in order for any treating medical provider to have any physical or romantic relationship with any patient.”
She slumps down in her chair.
“That’s pretty all-encompassing. And hard to prove. Physical or romantic? How would they even know about ‘romantic’?”
“Wait,” I tell her, squinting to make out the words on the screen. “There’s more that you didn’t read. An exception. See? I told you. A loophole.”
“Oh, that just says, ‘unless they’re married or engaged,’” she says, with another shrug and another slump.
“That clearly doesn’t apply.”
I raise my eyebrows at her.
“Well, not yet…”
“Harlow Bradford, don’t you dare,” she says, reaching across the desk and playfully slapping me on my shoulder. “I know you’ve never been in a relationship but they don’t work like this. You don’t go from saying ‘I love you, be my girlfriend,’ to proposing. Especially not when you haven’t even met my parents. They would kill me.”
But she’s smiling. I love it. She wants to marry me. I just know it.
“You’re right,” I tell her. “It’s too early for that. But it’s never too early to just pretend.”
“To just pretend?” she asks. “You mean, like playing house? Like little kids do?”
I shrug, grinning at her.
“What if the only way for us to have a real, out in the open relationship, is to have a fake engagement?” I ask her.
She nods her head, suddenly understanding what I’m getting at.
“That would be crazy,” she says.
“Well, I don’t know about you but no one has ever accused me of being sane,” I tell her.
Now she’s shaking her head, but she’s grinning. A lot.
“Harlow, this is truly insane. Who are we going to lie to? Everyone?”
I shrug.
“Why not? Dr. Davis has been lying to everyone. And this is a good lie, not a bad lie. It’s to help people. And it’s even kind of true.”
“Kind of doesn’t count,” she says, laughing again.
How I wish I could get down on one knee and propose to her for real, instead of just for pretend. But that would be truly crazy. For now, I have to worry about saving her job, not indulging in some fantasy of the future that I can completely imagine having with her.
“Look, I’m sure you can explain the situation to Lance,” I tell her.
“And Mae,” she agrees, nodding.
“Yes, and Mae too. So to Dr. Davis and anyone else, we just tell them we’re engaged, so we’re allowed to be together.”
“But he’ll be like, you only just met!” she protests.
“So what?” I shrug. “It was a whirlwind romance. People do it. Those people are crazy, but no one can accuse them of not really being engaged. Like you were just saying, how do they even know the level of emotional involvement or commitment between two people? Are they going to make us sign a statement in blood? Swear under oath? Take a lie detector test?”
She laughs, slowly shaking her head back and forth.
“You know what? This might be crazy enough that it could just actually work.”
“Great,” I tell her, getting up and walking over to her. “Now that you see it my way…”
I get down on my knee by her computer chair and hold her hand. I look up into her eyes and get a glimpse of my real future. Except I’ll be holding a small box with a very large diamond ring inside.
“Whitney Reid, I love you and I want you to be happy now and in the future. Therefore, I’m asking you to do me the honor of being my fake fiancée. Whitney, wi
ll you be fake engaged to me?”
She bends over and kisses me, and now it’s her turn to cry a little bit.
“Harlow Bradford, I most certainly will.”
Chapter 50
I rush into Lance’s office, not bothering to worry about who sees or hears. Everything will come to light soon enough.
“Not you again,” he says, dead-panning. “I hope you brought sushi. From the place you hate.”
“No, but I brought news.”
“Gossip? Out with it then.”
“Gossip about myself,” I laugh. “Harlow and I are together. Like, in a relationship.”
He looks at me skeptically. “I know I’m expected to extend congratulations here, but I’m not sure this is the greatest idea…”
“I know. You think he’s a player and that it’s bad for my career. But you’ll just have to wait and see on the first argument, and I’m about to do something that will be even worse for the second argument.”
“Let me guess. It involves Dr. Davis?”
“Yes. Based on the documents I… acquired…”— I wink at him— “Wait, hold on a second. First, I have to tell you something confidential.”
I lower my voice, and he looks intrigued.
“We’re engaged,” I tell him, and he nearly jumps out of his chair in shock.
“You’re what?”
“Oh crap, I said that wrong,” I tell him. “I just have so many things to tell you that I got them out of order. The engaged part isn’t a secret. As far as you and everyone in the office knows—I’m about to walk out there as soon as Harlow brings me back a ring, and it better be a pretty one, and announce it—we’re engaged. But,” I say, lowering my voice even more. “The secret is that it’s fake. We’re fake engaged.”
“I see,” rubbing his temples. “I’m assuming this is because of that part of the employee handbook that says—”
“Yes, that says we’re allowed to be romantically or physically involved if we’re engaged.”
“Girl, you don’t have to go telling me about your sex life,” he says. “TMI. But I get it now. So go ahead with the other stuff, the real stuff, not the fake stuff, about Dr. Davis.”