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by C. S. Lewis


  ‘All this is the side he shows us day by day: but there is more behind, for he is a war wreck and spends his nights mostly awake. He will die game. His heaven would be a cosy public house with a billiard room and a bet won from a man who could afford to lose it: his hell, a pupil.’

  WELDON, Thomas Dewar (1896–1958). He took a BA from Magdalen College in 1921 and was Fellow and Tutor in Philosophy at Magdalen 1923–58. Lewis wrote of him:

  ‘Determined to be a villain. He is a man of the melancholy complexion: his face very pale, his hair very black and streaked down with oil over his head without a parting: his mouth long and thin: the features clear cut, and very little flesh on the face. He is a frequent and loud laugher, but the expression of his face in repose is fierce and sullen. He carries a great deal of liquor without being drunk. His light talk is cynicism and bawdy: when he grows serious without anger (which is seldom) he likes to rap out his sentences very sharply and close his mouth after them like a trap. In anger—which always rises unless he is opposed—he is not at all hot, but grows paler, smiles a great deal and is powerful in dialectic. He is insolent by custom to servants and to old men, yet capable of kindliness, though not to be depended on. He showed himself courageous in the war and is so in peace. He has great abilities, but would despise himself if he wasted them on disinterested undertakings. He gives no quarter and would ask none. He believes that he has seen through everything and lives at rock bottom. He would be capable of treachery, and would think the victim a fool for being betrayed. Contempt is his ruling passion: courage his chief virtue.’

  INDEX

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  Adventure of Living (Strachey), 235

  Aeneid (Virgil), 145, 147

  After the War (Repington), 20, 22, 27

  Ainley, Henry, 124–25

  Alchemist (Jonson), 191

  Alexander, Samuel, 538

  Alice and a Family (Ervine), 485

  Allchin, Basil Charles, 40, 56, 100, 357, 615–16

  Allen, Carleton Kemp, 65, 71

  Allen, Hugh, 45

  Amelia (Fielding), 566

  Anglo-Saxon Chronicle, 245

  Anglo Saxon Reader (Sweet), 159

  anthroposophy, 450–51, 453, 587

  Antigone, 69, 73–75, 104

  Antony and Cleopatra (Shakespeare), 323

  Appearance and Reality (Bradley), 99

  Appleton, E. R., 40

  Aristotle, 20, 21, 49, 580, 581

  Arnold, Matthew, 212n136, 250

  Askins, Edith ‘Edie’, 154, 408, 417

  Askins, John Hawkins (Doc), 19, 26, 41, 44, 54–55, 64, 96–97, 100, 154, 179–80, 193, 203, 205, 206, 208, 239, 241, 255–56; breakdown and death, 269–292, 294, 305–7

  Askins, Mary, 274, 292, 293

  Askins, Robert ‘Rob’, 154, 269–74, 279–85, 288–91, 305, 616

  Askins, William James, 306, 616–17

  Asquith, Herbert Henry, 45, 191

  Asquith, Margot, 35, 45

  As You Like It (Shakespeare), 191, 448

  Atlantis, 19, 473

  Austen, Jane, 424

  Autobiography of Margot Asquith, 166, 181

  Autobiography (Trollope), 231–32

  Bacon, Francis, 176, 196

  Baker, Leo, 35, 38, 39, 43, 45, 47, 48, 49, 51, 54, 56, 57, 58, 60–61, 63, 65–66, 72–73, 75–78, 84, 89, 95–96, 98–103, 142, 149, 401, 617; dreams about, 48, 51, 205–6; illness, 72–73, 75, 76, 78; Jack visits family, 124–27; theatre career, 35, 45, 47, 49, 50, 51, 78, 95–96, 100–101, 103, 104, 126, 209, 448–49

  Baker, Miss, 21, 31

  Baldwin, Stanley, 511, 517, 518, 519, 524, 526

  Barfield, Matilda ‘Maud’, 209, 304n43, 369, 587, 608

  Barfield, Owen, 51, 52–53, 70, 76, 81, 86–87, 89, 209, 247–49, 304n43, 369, 370, 400, 453, 585–86, 587, 608, 617–18; dancing, 45, 47, 80; sub-editor of Beacon, 35–36, 37, 40, 247

  Bateson, Fredrick Wilse, 316, 426–27

  Battle of Maldon, 192

  Battle of the Books (Swift), 293

  Bayliss, Lilian, 78, 84, 96

  Beacon (magazine), 35, 39, 40, 247, 413

  Beauchamp’s Career (Meredith), 220, 230

  Beckett, Eric, 112, 116–17, 405–7, 618

  Benecke, Paul Victor, 550, 557, 635–36

  Betjeman, John, 526, 535, 536, 580–81, 583–84, 597

  Blakiston, Herbert Edward, 424–25

  Blunt, Henry Pyot, 34, 39, 48, 55

  Book of the Duchesse, (Chaucer), 156

  Boyd family, 227

  Bradley, Francis Herbert, 66, 99

  Bride of Lammermoor (Scott), 498

  Broad, Dorothy, 30, 32, 78, 105, 107, 150, 159, 260, 287, 343, 344, 347

  Browning (Chesterton), 395

  Burton, Robert, 150

  Bussy D’Ambois (Chapman), 206–7

  Cahen, Andrée, 105, 107, 111, 113, 120, 121–24, 127, 134, 137

  Campbell, Archibald Hunter, 553

  Campbell, John Colquhoun, 583, 591, 598

  Canterbury Tales (Chaucer), 164, 165, 168

  Carlyle, Alexander James, 152–53, 156, 200–201, 250–51, 300–301, 401, 473, 601, 618

  Carritt, Edgar Frederick, 44, 48, 53, 57, 60, 65–68, 71, 73, 102, 110, 115–16, 169, 201, 313, 370–71, 388–89, 401, 404, 425, 436, 618–19

  Catlin, George, 439–40, 444

  Catullus, Gaius Valerius, 257

  Cenci (Shelley), 185

  Chance (Conrad), 496, 498

  Changeling (Middleton & Rowley), 207

  Chatham and Clive (Macaulay), 459

  Chaucer, Geoffrey, 156, 158, 174, 178, 604

  Childe, Rowland, 199

  Childs, William Macbride, 73

  Christian Reflections (Lewis), 619

  Christina Dreams, 26, 53, 76, 80, 557

  Chute, Anthony William, 511–12, 520

  Clarke, Alured George, 27–28, 54

  Coghill, Nevill, 253–60, 256n21, 257n22, 258n23, 281n34, 321–22, 325, 551, 552, 619–20

  Confessions of a Young Man (Moore), 409–10

  Coriolanus (Shakespeare), 546

  Country of the Blind (Wells), 519

  Courthope, William John, 610–11

  Cowper, William, 319

  Crabbe, George, 319

  Craig, Edwin Stewart, 511, 514, 518, 519, 521, 586, 594, 636–38

  Craig, James, 555, 556

  Craigie, William Alexander, 330, 340, 588

  Cranny. See Macran, Frederick Walker

  Croce, Benedetto, 48, 52

  Curtis, Geoffrey William, 167, 168

  Daedalus (Haldane), 382–83

  Darlow, Thomas Sherrock, 201, 246–48, 257–58, 268n30

  Dauber (Masefield), 559

  David Copperfield (Dickens), 412, 415

  de Bergerac, Bernice, 96, 104

  De la Mare, Walter, 179, 293, 387

  Delanges, Maurice, 348–56

  Democrat (newspaper), 27

  De Regno (Patrizi), 565–66

  Development of Greek Philosophy (Adamson), 20, 21

  de Villiers, Iris, 131, 133

  Ding Dong Bell (De la Mare), 445

  Dixon, Arthur Lee, 514, 638–69

  Dodds, Eric, 67–68, 72, 82–83, 144

  Don Juan (Byron), 59, 176, 381

  Donne, John, 223, 242

  Dotty. See Vaughan, Dorothea ‘Dotty’

  Dover Road (Milne), 124–25

  Dryden, John, 262, 611

  Dymer (Lewis): and Christina Dreams, 26n15, 577; comments on, 43, 47, 53, 56, 60, 71, 81, 123, 176, 190–91, 339, 369, 434, 468, 586, 593; published, 527, 547–50, 554, 564, 568; reviews, 573, 574, 582–83, 596, 606; writing of, 20, 27, 36, 50, 63, 67, 69, 70, 72, 75, 77, 88, 92, 98, 103, 148, 149, 153, 236, 239, 331, 375, 417

  Earp, Thomas Wade, 199

  Egoist (Meredith), 341

  eidee theory, 21


  Eliot, T. S., 546, 547–48, 551–52, 553, 557

  Ellis, Havelock, 59, 100

  Emerson, Ralph Waldo, 176–77

  Empedocles on Etna (Arnold), 212

  Empty Room (Harwood), 196–97

  Endymion (Lyly), 202

  Energie Spirituelle (Bergson), 379

  English Literature in the Sixteenth Century (Lewis), 634

  English Review (magazine), 25

  Erasmus, 564

  Erastae (Plato), 609

  Erewhon Revisited (Butler), 569

  Essence of Aesthetic (Croce), 52

  Evans, Valerie, 460, 543

  Everlasting Mercy (Masefield), 24

  Ewart, Isabella Kelso ‘Kelsie’, 139, 213, 232

  Ewart, Mary Gundred, 139, 194

  Ewart family, 213, 231, 620–21

  Ewing, Alfred Cecil, 65, 144, 311, 314, 398, 428–29, 436, 530

  Faerie Queene (Spenser), 220, 381

  Faithful Shepherdess (Fletcher), 230

  Farquharson, Arthur Spenser, 57, 78–79, 92, 106, 157, 389–90, 470, 621–22

  Fasnacht, George Eugène, 199–200, 241, 266, 446

  Featherstone, Miss (landlady), 19n1, 23, 24, 27, 30, 36, 38, 42, 43, 62, 92, 146, 289

  Fool Errant (Hewlett), 381

  Forsyte Saga (Galsworthy), 140

  Foster (Lewis), 178, 181, 381

  Freeman, John, 531

  Freud, Sigmund, 55, 58, 59

  Friar Bacon and Friar Bungay (Greene), 507

  Gallipoli Diary (Hamilton), 150

  General Strike, 511–25

  Glorious England (de Bergerac), 96, 101, 104

  God in the Dock (Lewis), 629

  Godson (Tolstoi), 132

  Gonner, Lady Nannie, 23, 30, 60, 90

  Goode, Dr., 279, 280–81, 283–84

  Gordon, George Stuart, 174, 184, 185, 190, 196, 201–2, 246, 256, 294–95, 320–21, 322, 622

  Gower, John, 173, 174, 603, 604

  Graves, Robert, 82

  Greeves, Arthur, 6, 12, 79, 81, 89, 97, 141, 218–19, 342–44, 622–23; painting, 76, 85, 86, 87, 89, 90, 92–93, 95; visits by, 72, 77, 78, 79, 82–88, 93–98, 341–45

  Greeves, John, 217–18, 229

  Greeves, Mary Gribbon, 140, 215, 221–22, 227–30, 234–35

  Gulliver’s Travels (Swift), 295, 569

  Haig, Edward Felix, 34, 66–67

  Hamilton, Augustus Warren ‘Uncle Gussie’, 212

  Hamilton, Thomas Robert, 217

  Hamilton-Jenkin, Alfred, 42, 46, 50–51, 58–59, 74–75, 91, 158, 177, 178, 186, 187–88, 198, 265, 273, 277, 293, 315–16, 337, 362, 370, 442–43, 445, 556–57; on chivalry, 162; Dymer comments, 60, 195; horror play idea, 318–19; on humanitarianism, 89; mining concern, 88, 163–64, 318; real ideal discussion, 188

  Hankin, Mrs., 151, 152, 153, 155, 164, 169

  Hardie, William, 514, 523, 524–25, 536, 548, 552, 557, 601–2, 605, 623

  Harper, Annie, 216

  Harwood, Cecil, 50–51, 53, 55–56, 70–71, 76, 81, 86–87, 89, 196–97, 225, 304, 304n43, 337–38, 345–46, 365–70, 431–34, 446–53, 540, 624

  Hassan, (Flecker), 370–71

  Hawes, Commander, 114, 131, 133–36, 139

  Hawes, Maisie ‘Moppie’, 113–14, 115, 118 , 121, 125, 127–39, 143–46, 149, 151, 183, 209, 240, 241

  Hawes, Mrs. ‘The Bitch’, 114, 121, 127, 131–34, 183

  Hegel, Georg Wilhelm Friedrich, 149

  “Hegemony of Moral Values” (Lewis), 397, 429

  Henderson, Keith David, 553

  Henry V ( Shakespeare), 192

  Henry IV (Shakespeare), 127, 189

  Henry VI (Shakespeare), 99

  Heracleidae (Euripides), 392

  Hetherington, William Dixon, 523, 531, 541

  Hichens, Dr., 269, 270

  Hinckley, Mrs., 69, 90–91, 101–2

  Hippolytus (Euripides), 393

  Holmes family, 431, 432–33

  Hope, Edward, 635, 639–40

  Hugon, Marianne Cecile, 95, 113

  Hume, David, 69, 442

  Idealistic Nihilism, 199–200

  Iliad (Homer), 295–96

  Il Penseroso (Milton), 150

  “Infatuation” (Lewis), 537–38

  Instinct and the Unconscious (Rivers), 85, 89–90

  Insurrections (Stephens), 296–97

  Introductory Lectures (Freud), 58

  Irish Fairy Tales (Stephens), 140

  Irrational Knot (Shaw), 82

  Ivy (maid), 128, 138, 139, 149, 150, 159, 197

  J.A. See Smith, John Alexander

  Jellicoe, John Basil, 520–21, 522

  Jenkin. See Hamilton-Jenkin, Alfred

  Jerusalem Delivered (Tasso), 356–57, 359

  Johnson, Patrick, 606

  Joseph, Horace William, 102

  Jowett, Benjamin, 43

  Joy (Lewis), 29–31, 35–37, 50, 381, 383, 413

  Jude the Obscure (Hardy), 214, 215

  Kalevala (Lönnrot), 567, 585–86

  Kant, Immanuel, 42, 44, 48, 398

  Kaufmann, George Adams von, 450–51

  Keir, David Lindsay, 264–65, 472, 512–13, 521, 591, 624–25

  Kemshead, Chaloner Thomas ‘Uncle Bunny’, 192–93

  “King of Drum” (Lewis), 575, 577, 580, 585, 597, 609

  Lady Rose’s Daughter (Ward), 381

  Lama Sabacthani (Barfield), 248

  Lawrence, Thomas Edward, 112, 406

  Lawson, Frederick Henry, 468, 512–13, 521, 625

  Lear (Shakespeare), 263, 604

  Lee, Stephen Grosvenor, 635, 640–41

  Lee Shore (Macaulay), 566

  Legend of Good Women (Chaucer), 164

  Leibniz, Gottfried Wilhelm, 427, 467

  Letters of C.S. Lewis, 2–3nn5, 7, 6n11, 8n16, 10n19, 334, 382, 421n27

  Lewis, Albert James (father of C. S.), 32, 48–49n44, 52, 117–18, 141, 185, 206, 207, 233, 299, 328, 359, 388n9, 395n14, 568, 625–26

  Lewis, Clive Staples ‘Jack’: academic career, 28–29, 48n44, 55, 57, 60–63, 65, 67–68, 71–75, 82–83, 171, 267, 297–99, 300–301, 312, 346–47, 394, 395n14, 413, 503–4, 606; All Souls’ Fellowship candidacy, 391, 394, 406–7, 444; on anthroposophy, 450–51, 453, 587; on art, 126, 260, 263–67; British Museum visit, 447–48; on Christianity/religion, 29, 38, 64, 126, 162, 188, 259–60, 395, 435, 482, 505, 599, 602, 613; Christina Dreams, 26, 53, 76, 80, 557; Clevedon holiday, 408–21; Cloud Farm holiday, 478–502; concert going, 179, 180, 184, 198, 438–39, 510, 519; critical of Maureen, 94, 204, 460, 571–72; as detached, 234; in Discussion Class, 246, 252–53, 267–68, 316–17, 320–21; dream accounts, 48, 51, 83, 127, 147–48, 185, 205–6, 311, 333, 417, 445–46, 550–51, 561–62; Eliot parody, 546, 547–48, 551–52; English School, 156–57, 159–60, 173, 324–26, 340, 342, 344; examination correction work, 458–61; feelings about Warnie, 112, 124; financial concerns, 22, 24, 28, 233–34, 303, 561; General Strike observations, 511–25; good emotions discussion, 167–68; Greek studies, 31, 33, 37, 54, 62–63, 69, 74, 392, 400; Greeves disturbing to, 79, 81, 89, 97, 141; Hillsboro house, 303, 305, 307, 309–12, 328; horror play idea, 318–19, 355; housing/moving, 23, 30, 31, 32, 37, 181–82, 192–94, 202, 296, 300, 335–36, 559, 613; on imagination, 576–78, 600; intimacy with Mrs. Moore, 106, 111, 120, 229; Ireland visits, 139–42, 210–38, 371, 568; Karraways visit, 124–27; Magdalen Fellowship candidacy, 142–47, 153, 156, 169, 476–77; on marriage, 59, 65–66, 88, 101; Martlets meetings, 42, 71, 167, 200–201, 255, 263–67, 436, 469, 473; Mermaids society, 594, 610; motorbike tour, 454–58; Norse studies, 577, 599; O.E. work, 159, 161, 164, 165, 171, 243, 572–78, 580; Parson’s Pleasure bathing, 52, 55–56, 57, 337, 343, 351, 562, 566; philosophical society meetings, 396–97, 404, 428, 437, 439–41, 467–68, 474, 601, 605; philosophical thoughts, 24, 53, 199–200, 203, 338, 386, 390, 399, 400, 541; play attendance, 44–45, 104, 124–25, 142, 383, 448, 467, 545–46, 604, 608; on publishing, 22, 25, 34, 256, 499; “real joy”, 64, 178, 235, 360, 396, 499,
542; reviewing books, 363–64; Sarastro poem idea, 149, 155, 166; on sex and perversion, 57, 58, 59; Sortes Virgilianae attempt, 522–23; on spiritualism, 54–55, 258–59; substituting for Carritt, 425–26, 436; Trinity candidacy, 390, 391, 424–26, 428–29, 437; tutorial and lecturing work, 463–66, 468, 470–74, 504, 506–7, 525, 580–81, 583, 590–91; on war, 152, 254; at Watford with Warnie, 109–10; on women, 193, 195, 260; writing/story ideas, 147, 248, 261, 313, 314, 354, 433, 537–38, 558

  Lewis, Warren (Warnie) Hamilton, 8, 32, 61, 83, 117–18, 214, 217, 233, 342, 568, 613; motorbike tour, 418–22, 454–58; visits by, 108–24, 301–4, 313, 536–38

  Lewis Papers, 5n8, 11n21–22, 13–14, 217n142, 342, 354n71, 388n9, 395n14, 631

  Life of Henry More (Ward), 387, 388

  London Mercury (journal), 22, 23, 25

  Lord Jim (Conrad), 554

  Love’s Labour Lost (Shakespeare), 186

  Loyalties (Galsworthy), 142

  Macbeth (Shakespeare), 160

  MacKeith, Malcom Henry, 641–42

  Macmurray, John, 428

  Macran, Frederick Walker ‘Cranny’, 29, 44, 91–92, 154, 184–185, 244, 261, 306, 627

  Macran, Violet, 162–63, 185

  Magic (Chesterton), 46

  Magic Flute (Dickinson), 149, 154

  Maid’s Tragedy (Beaumont & Fletcher), 204

  Malcomson, Miss, 79, 82, 83

  Malory, Thomas, 428

  Man and Mystery in Asia (Oddenowski), 436

  Man’s Man (Hay), 128

  Mary Rose (Barrie), 468

  Masson, David, 147, 150, 154

  McNeill, Jane ‘Janie’, 59, 61, 216, 225, 228, 232–33, 234, 626–27

  McNeill family, 223–24

  Meade, Dr., 119

  Memoirs of the Life and Correspondence of Mrs. Hannah More (Roberts), 527–28

  Metamorphoses (Ovid), 90, 317, 335

  Milton, John, 146–47, 149, 150, 154, 196, 573–74, 589

  Milton (Raleigh), 578–79

  Misfire (Lewis), 21, 77

  Modern Utopia (Wells), 141, 554–55

  Moore, Courtenay Edward (Jane’s husband, ‘ the Beast’), 22, 353, 613

  Moore, George, 409–10

  Moore, Janie King ‘D’: concerns with Maureen, 18, 31, 37, 570; financial worries, 20, 22, 24; housing challenges, 23, 24, 30, 37, 192–94, 613; ill health/depression, 38, 54–55, 71, 103, 106, 178, 179, 186–87, 195, 198, 199, 202, 226, 245, 262, 296, 327–28, 369–70, 371, 460, 486–90, 496, 519, 564, 565, 601, 611; and Jack’s friends, 72, 84, 86, 89, 96, 98, 587; on Jack’s prospects, 54, 61, 65, 75, 76, 82; upsets with, 430, 528–29, 562, 575; watching Jack’s finances, 555, 561, 578, 579; work projects, 32–35, 64, 67, 68, 90, 128, 129, 154, 165

 

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