by Amelia Wilde
He lets me stand up but runs his hand down my arm so that our fingers can twine together. “We’re not done yet.” It’s almost a question, almost a prayer.
“We’re done for now. Remember?” I wave a hand between the two of us. “Enemies.”
“Enemies,” he repeats, and all I can think about is his thickness between my legs, the way he spread me to my absolute limit, the way I fucking loved it.
“See you on the battlefield,” I tell him, and then I steal away out into the night.
There are too many people waiting outside Medium Roast.
Way too many.
Lou’s car is parked where it always is, down the block, but there are eleven others parked downtown.
Yes, I counted.
What are they doing here?
I can feel them watching me while I drive to my usual spot down the block, and it sends a shiver down my spine. After wearing Dash’s clothes all night, my hoodie feels too tight. I should be naked. I should be in his bed. If I can’t be there, I should be somewhere I can clear my mind. A lot happened last night. Spaghetti hitting the ground and covering me with ground beef. Admitting to him the reason I didn’t become a photojournalist.
Plus, there was the middle of the night, when I woke him up to add to the story, which is not something I ever want to do.
It struck me like lightning as I was drifting off to sleep in his bed, and I’d rolled over so quickly it freaked him out.
“What is it?” he’d whispered, the dark already settled over both of us.
“She made it,” I whispered back. “I didn’t tell you. And I didn’t want you to get the wrong idea about what happened.” The worry had risen in my chest, drowning out everything else. What if he thought I was using this other woman’s horrible misfortune as an excuse for running back to Lakewood?
“Who?”
“The woman I saw. The woman who—”
“Right. Yes. I remember,” he’d said quickly, trying to shield me even then from the memory. “She lived?”
“Yeah.” My throat went tight. “There was an article in the paper about it. They called me a hero, but I wasn’t a hero. I took pictures and dialed a phone number.”
Dash had curved his arm around me, pulling me close. “You saved her.”
I’d turned away then, pressing my spine into the long lines of his body, and tried to fall asleep. I didn’t tell him that I might have saved her, but I didn’t know if I could ever save that version of myself. The one who had a dream. The one who went after it.
I’m still half-stuck in that moment when I throw myself out of the car and hustle my ass down the block to Medium Roast. Eyes everywhere. Jesus. Couldn’t they wait until six-thirty like normal people?
I start the coffee brewing and go over the stash of coffee. There’s one bag left of medium roast. A late-afternoon rush depleted it pretty well. There’s plenty of dark, though, and the espresso should last, as long as nothing crazy happens.
Famous last words.
It’s not Lou who’s first to the door. It’s Morris.
“Evelyn,” he booms as soon as he’s pulled the door open. “We’ve had enough.”
“Enough of what, Morris? Morning, guys.” Lou’s coming in right behind him, and a few other guys who I know for a fact normally fuel up at the local gas stations before they go to their hunting camps for the day.
“The usurper,” he says with a scowl, and steps up to the counter, bills already in hand.
“You mean The Coffee Spot? It hasn’t opened yet.”
“It won’t open, either, if we get our way.”
First the mob action at Dash’s house. Now this. It’s cute, in a way, and weird as hell in another. I’m glad they care about Medium Roast. I’m really glad.
But I also care about Dash.
All the feelings I’ve had about him swirl together in one giant superemotion that hits me like a sledgehammer, right in the center of the chest. The way he makes me feel safe. The way he makes me feel challenged, bright, alive. The way he makes me feel so turned on I could die. I trusted him enough last night to tell him why I dropped out of the only career I’d made.
I care about him a lot.
I might even love him.
No. That’s crazy.
Isn’t it?
I’m so dumbstruck that Morris’s words don’t register until he’s already over at the other counter, pouring himself coffee. “Wait—Morris, what do you mean? What are you planning to do?”
He turns with a fierce determination on his face. “We’re going to have your back, Evelyn. Don’t you worry.”
30
Dash
Have I ever felt this much excitement?
Have I ever felt this much dread?
Aside from the day that Rosie was born, I can’t remember ever feeling this way. She’s safe with Norma, and I’m driving toward the unknown.
People did not like my little announcement yesterday. They came to my house. I don’t think the old guy meant to pound on the door quite so hard, but you never know. Maybe he was trying to be intimidating.
Well, I’m not going to be intimidated.
I’m doing this.
There’s an added sharpness to my vision that makes everything seem weightier, including the mist that hangs in the air at this hour of the morning. I park behind The Coffee Spot and take a deep breath.
Last night was incredible. There are no other words to describe it. Ellie didn’t hold anything back.
I did.
I didn’t tell her about Serena. I didn’t tell her about the rage that comes over me when I think about her leaving our daughter behind. I didn’t tell her how disconnected that rage has become from any feelings that might have lingered for my ex-wife.
Ellie’s the one I care about now.
Want the truth? It’s making it really fucking difficult to open the Coffee Spot. I have to do it in two days, and I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t a pull in the center of my gut telling me to back off the whole enterprise. How could I hurt her when she’s already been hurt, shocked, right out of her life? How could I put that kind of pressure on a business that’s already unsteady?
How could I assume she can’t handle it?
I’ve seen Ellie handle monstrous crowds with serious grace under pressure. She keeps her wry humor, her command of a room, even when there’s good reason to panic. It would be condescending as hell for me to not open because I thought she’d fold from the pressure. No. She’s resilient.
This was supposed to be simple. It’s not simple anymore.
That’s the thought rolling around in my mind as I come up the alley to go into The Coffee Spot.
The last of the furniture is being delivered today, and I go in through the side door, planning out where all of the tables will go. The espresso machine is installed. All the sinks are functional. The final deliveries we’ll need to open will arrive tomorrow morning. Tomorrow night is the city council meeting where apparently this town plans to rally against me.
I only notice something is wrong because the color red catches my eye.
The man standing by one of the tables in front of Medium Roast is wearing the reddest shirt I have ever seen in my entire life. It’s bright even in my peripheral vision. It would be the most interesting over on that side of the street...if it weren’t for the crowd.
The crowd.
These aren’t people waiting in line to go into the shop, though there’s one of those as well. The line itself is a little smaller than the Saturday rush that put me behind that counter with Ellie. That makes sense—it’s a Wednesday on the first week of tourist season in Lakewood. Things will probably pick up even more tomorrow and be full steam by Friday, just in time for opening day.
The crowd, though—that’s something else.
A text comes in from the delivery service with the last of the furniture, and then another text from Norma—it’s a picture of Rosie laughing, and it makes my heart explode.
When I look up from my phone again, the man has moved out toward the curb and has unfurled a sign.
What the hell?
He’s faced in my direction, so I have no choice but to read it.
Lakewood’s ONLY coffee shop is HERE!
Here is underlined in bold strokes five or six times.
The moment I got the notice that I’d be taking over this building swims up into my memory. A letter from my grandfather, confirmed at the formal reading of his will. Susie always wanted a little café, he’d said in the letter. I knew what it meant to have always wanted something. A wife. A family. And at that very moment, I was learning what it meant to have that shattered.
It’s the cutest fucking protest I’ve ever seen, I’ll give them that much. All of these people have put their heads together to write out a big sign that’s going to be totally inaccurate in two days once my store is open. All I need is someone like Ellie to stand behind the counter.
Shit.
Someone like Ellie means finding someone who’s willing to brave the incendiary signage and learn how to make drinks all in forty-eight hours, and nobody has called about an application yet. The number for the store is on the sign in the window, but not a single person has taken me up on it.
It would be the nicest possible option if I could convince her to come work for me.
But that’s not going to happen. She’ll never abandon Medium Roast. There are other things, too, that I need to sort out in my mind. I understand why Ellie put down her camera, but it nags at me. I don’t want her to waste away behind a coffee counter forever. What about the things she dreams of? What about fulfillment beyond that janky little store?
It does give her time to dance, which is a true gift to the world, but other than that...
I shove my phone into my pocket and head for the door. I’ve got applications all ready to print. I’m not above standing out on the sidewalk to hand them to people if that’s what it takes.
Twenty minutes later, I’ve walked the three blocks to the print shop at the other end of downtown Lakewood. I’ve got work to do, whether the protesters—that’s what they are, standing over there with their sign—like it or not.
I check myself in the mirror before I go out. Hair, fine. Outfit, fine. It’s a t-shirt and jeans. I don’t look like the devil. Maybe if I show myself, they’ll stop thinking I’m out to destroy what’s apparently the cornerstone of all of Lakewood.
I take the stack of printed applications in my hand like a shield, square my shoulders, and go out through the side door, marching straight to the sidewalk.
Time to hire some baristas.
31
Ellery
I don’t see the sign at first because there are customers. There are so many customers compared to other summer Wednesdays that I finally ask one couple what brought them to Lakewood in the middle of the week like this.
“It’s a Destination,” says the woman—coffee, black—with a laugh, tossing her sandy hair over her shoulder. I can hear the capital letter in her voice.
“Right, a Destination,” I say, giving her an encouraging smile, like I might know what she’s talking about. “Who, uh...who said it was a destination?”
“You don’t know?” She lifts her oversized sunglasses so she can look at me with raised eyebrows. “I bet the internet is bad here,” she decides.
“It’s not bad, I just—”
“This town was on a list of New York’s best-kept secrets,” she says, leaning in, even though I clearly work here and we’re both standing here together, list or not. “It was on Secret Getaways dot com.” She flicks her eyes up and down my outfit. “You should check it out. They have style tips, too.”
I laugh out loud because this is my coffee outfit. Even if I was into fashion, which hasn’t been my top priority since I came back to Lakewood, it would have no place at a job where there’s more boiling water than most other places. The woman laughs, too, holding her to-go cup delicately in her hand. Her boyfriend, who looks like a city boy himself, wraps an arm around her shoulder and pulls her away.
So SecretGetaways.com rats out nice places to the entire world. You learn something new every day.
I’m in the middle of replacing an empty carafe when I notice the regulars out by the curb. It’s not out of the ordinary for them to stand around one of the outdoor tables. It’s Morris’s cane that catches my eye, banging on the concrete while he makes a point.
How long has it been? At least two hours, and they’re out there still.
At the front of the crowd is Walt O’Hannigan, who’s been in every single day since I started here. He comes in, he gets coffee, he leaves. He never struck me as any great fan of Medium Roast, but maybe I wasn’t paying attention...because he’s the one holding up a big sign by the curb. I’d bet ten dollars that it doesn’t say anything nice.
I cannot have this.
It’s time for at least one drastic measure.
There are three more people in line after the couple, but this can’t wait. “I am so sorry about this,” I say to the man who steps up to the counter next. “But there’s something sort of urgent I have to take care of outside. Are you here for drip or a latte?”
He starts to smile at me like a grade-A lecher, but my dead serious face must deter him. “Drip.”
I press a cup into his hand and dig out the sign from beneath the counter. This sign says back in five minutes. ”I’ll be right back,” I tell him. The lady behind him lets out a heavy sigh, but give me a break, there’s a rebellion going on outside the shop, and I am not going to be the one who gets blamed for it.
It’s a gorgeous day outside, warm and sunny and clean, and people are milling around outside trying to see what the sign says and generally standing in the way of all humanity. A good half of them are tourists, but there must be thirty people out here blocking the sidewalk. I barge straight through them and up to Morris and Walt.
“Hey,” I shout over the voices. They’re going to hear me this time. “What are you doing?”
I inch my way out toward the curb. We’re about to hit the morning rush and cars are making their way through downtown, so I can’t step out into the traffic to read the sign. I have to crane my neck. I’m sure I look ridiculous.
“Evelyn!” cries Morris, pumping an ancient fist into the air. “We’re not going to let this stand!”
“What?”
I finally get a good look at the sign. It’s hand-done, and it says Lakewood’s ONLY coffee shop is HERE! in giant letters.
I look from one of them to the other. I can’t even shut my own mouth. “What is this?”
Walt pipes up. “We want people to know that Lakewood’s only coffee shop is right here, and it’s not going anywhere!”
“Walt!” I try to keep my voice under control. “There is another coffee shop opening across the street. It’s not the only one anymore.” I have to keep it together. There are tens of tourists hovering all around, and I can’t be the barista who freaked out in the middle of the sidewalk, much less at people who are defending her own store. “This sign has to go.”
“It’s not going,” he says, sticking his chin in the air. “We’re not letting this city slicker take a dime from Lisa and Fred.” There’s a pause. “Or you.”
My chest goes cold. I’ve been so wrapped up in last night with Dash that it hadn’t hit me—this is about more than me, more than feeling sorry for the girl behind the counter. They tried to appeal to Dash with that line of reasoning last night, and it didn’t work.
“They wouldn’t stand for this,” I say, a car whizzing past. Idiot has to be going over the speed limit. “Other businesses have a right to exist here. If we can’t compete—”
“You’ll do nothing but compete!” shouts Morris. “I won’t buy my coffee anywhere else! And all these guys are with me!”
“Me, too!” Mary Marshé, fresh from a yoga class with her bag slung over her shoulder, joins in. “I don’t want some new business owner barreling i
n where they’re not wanted.”
A cheer goes up among them.
“Fine,” I say, waving my hands to stop this nonsense. “But take down the sign.” Walt squares his jaw. “Walt, please. It’s not a good look, okay?”
“Hey! Is anybody working here?” It’s the pissed-off lady from the shop, shouting from the open door.
“I’m trying,” I call back, and sprint for the counter.
32
Dash
“Hey.”
The word is half hissed, half whisper-shouted from the alley. I’m busy trying to give my best smile to the crowd of people walking past, but this is hopeless. I should have known it would be a hard sell the moment I stepped out here. I need high school kids or college students home for the summer, not tourists. Most of those people, if they’re in Lakewood at all, already have jobs for the summer. I can’t imagine coming here unless you had something locked up. Or unless it was a summer cottage situation.
“Psst.”
It could be anyone. It could be some asshole coming to harass me for having the balls to open a second coffee shop in Lakewood. But I risk a glance over toward the direction of the alley.
It’s Ellie, her ponytail hanging low behind her head.
“Come over here,” she hisses.
“They can all see you,” I tell her, facing the street to Medium Roast, where there is still a crowd gathered at the curb, though the fiery appearance by Ellie earlier seems to have taken care of the sign.
“They’re not looking,” she stage-whispers. “Morris is trying to figure out a chant. Look.”
She’s right.
“Come over here. But make it look natural.”
I turn and stride over to the alley. By the time I wheel around the corner, Ellie has flattened herself against the wall.