by Erin Trejo
“Should we tell him that you’re gonna be his mom from now on and that he’s gonna have a baby brother too?” I ask in the most serious tone I can muster. Kenderly laughs and it’s like music. My body trembles with love for this woman.
“It’s a little soon for all that, isn’t it?” she asks shyly.
“Nope. I’ve known you my whole life, darlin’. There is no one else I’d want to share my life with. I need you, Kenderly.”
Chapter 42
Kenderly
He wants me. That’s all I can think about. He wants to be with me forever. He wants kids with me. How did my world go from consisting of nothing to having the man of my dreams and a son? I don’t think I could be any happier. We’ve been packing and getting things in order to go home. The sound of that makes me smile.
“Kenderly?” Jameson asks. I turn to look over my shoulder at him.
“Yeah?”
“Do you think Ashley is an angel?” He looks up at me with those bright eyes and smiles at me. My heart melts a little.
“Come here,” I tell him before sitting on the kitchen chair. J walks toward me and climbs in my lap. I brush his shaggy brown hair away from his face and cup his little cheek.
“She was a good person. She cared about you so much. You were lucky to know her, and yes, I think she is an angel watching over you and your daddy. She wants you guys to be happy.” I kiss his cheek when he smiles at me.
“Will you be my mom?” His words fill my heart but also cause a slight panic in me.
“Jameson, there are some things me and your dad need to talk to you about,” I tell him when I catch Tic walking into the room. He’s shirtless and covered in sweat. It drips down his chest, sliding over his muscles. My mouth goes dry just watching the way he moves. He grabs a bottle of water before turning and leaning against the counter. I watch him unscrew the cap and take a long drink as small drops trickle down his chin. Jesus Christ, could he get any sexier? I know I’m staring and I don’t care. Not until he clears his throat and catches my attention. The smile on his face is hot as hell.
“What are you two talkin’ about?” he asks, that smirk staying in place. Shit, I’m in trouble with that man.
“I wanted Kenderly to be my mom, but she said we had to talk first,” Jameson says sliding off my lap. He walks in little circles as Tic shoves off the counter and walks toward us. He lifts J in his arms, tossing him in the air before sitting in the chair next to me. To sit here and see the two of them together warms my heart.
“You know we’re goin’ back home, right?” Tic asks him. Jameson nods his head. “Well, Kenderly and me are gonna be together. That means she will be like your mom. You know no one can ever be mom, but she can take care of you. Do you understand?” Tic asks him. Jameson nods and looks at me. What he says sends chills up my spine.
“Can I call you Mom? Mom didn’t like me, that’s why I want a new one.”
My heart nearly crumbles in my chest for this sweet kid. “Of course, you can. I would love to be called Mom, Jameson.” Tears fill my eyes as he smiles and leaps into my arms.
“I love you, Mom,” he says when I wrap my arms around him.
I never thought about having kids, but everything with Tic seems right. Jameson has always been a part of my life, and I love that I can take on a bigger role in his. “I love you, too.”
My eyes lock with Tic’s. I can see the smile in his eyes. This is it. This is what I want. I want the family, I want the kids and the house. I want it all and I want it with Tic.
“Go get the rest of your clothes packed up,” Tic says. Jameson jumps out of my arms and runs down the hallway.
“You sure about all this? I’m not givin’ you anymore chances to back out on me,” Tic says as he brings that bottle back to his lips. God, he truly is trying to kill me.
“Where’s your shirt?” I ask a little breathlessly.
“Is it botherin’ you to see me half naked? You wanna fuck me right now?” His dirty words send me into overdrive. I want this man.
“I need to load the car,” I mumble trying to pull my eyes away from his chest.
“You don’t really wanna do that.” Tic stands from the chair and looks down at me. He grabs my hands and pulls me from the chair. He walks me slowly backward until my back hits the wall.
“You keep lookin’ at me like that, and I’m fuckin’ you right here,” he says, his lips so close to mine. A shudder rolls through me.
“J is down the hall.”
“Packin’. He won’t be back for a while.” His hand slides down waist and locks on my hip. My pussy clenches and tingles needing him to be inside of me. There’s nothing more I can think about when his hands are on me like this.
“Please.”
His thumbs make small circles before running under my shirt. “Please what? You want me, baby? Tell me,” he demands. I watch his eyes and the lust just dances in front of me.
“I want you, Tic. All of you.”
Chapter 43
Tic
I slide her shorts to the floor. I know we need to get going but damn her! I need this. I need inside my woman. I quickly drag my gym shorts down my legs. I grab my dick and position it before lifting her.
“Hold onto me,” I growl before shoving inside of her. Her head bangs against the wall but she bites her lip to keep from screaming. I pump into her taking all I can get. I know J is down the hall and I know we need to get on the road, but I also need to know that I have all of her. Mind, body, and soul. I need her heart in the palm of my hands. I need her pussy wrapped around me. I just need her.
“Goddamn!” I grumble before sucking the flesh of her neck into my mouth. I bite into her just as she clenches and comes. I knew it wouldn’t take much to get her off the way she was eye fucking me. I come behind her and she milks me for all I have. I pull out of her and let her legs fall to the floor before dragging her shorts back up her legs.
“That was quick,” she teases. I laugh a full-on laugh. It feels so easy with her.
“This time, darlin’. Wait ‘til I get you home. Then you’re really gonna pay.” I wink at her before dragging my own shorts back on.
“You ready for this?” she asks me.
I nod my head before pressing a kiss to her lips. “I have you and J. That’s all I need. That’s all I want. You make me feel complete, Kenderly.” Another peck on the lips and I pull away.
“I’m ready!” Jameson says as he drags his suitcase into the kitchen. I can’t help but smile at him. He’s perfect. My son. That’s all my life was about for a long time. I like to think that I did something right with him.
“We need to get goin’. I got a surprise for you.” I wink at Kenderly as J laughs. He knows what it is. I asked him ahead of time, but I’ll be damned if he will tell. My boy is too much like his dad for that.
“What is it?” she asks but I just shake my head and grab another box.
“Not happenin’, baby. You’ll see when we get home.” I head out of the kitchen with J behind me laughing.
“Come on! Tell me!” Kenderly follows behind us pouting. It’s sexy as fuck and I can’t wait to get her ass home in our bed.
“Nope. Not happenin’. You got everything?” I ask her as I load the boxes I brought out earlier into the truck.
“I think so. There’s a few more boxes in the kitchen, but I think that’s about it,” she says as she watches me. I know she’s checking me out and I love every second of it. Jameson tosses his stuff in before glancing between the two of us.
“You guys look at each other a lot.” He giggles. I can’t stop the smile that crosses my face. He’s the best thing to happen to me.
“She’s pretty.” I nod toward Kenderly as J nods his head.
“You’re pretty too daddy,” he adds. Kenderly sucks her lips into her mouth so that she doesn’t laugh. It’s the most beautiful thing ever.
“Guys aren’t pretty, J.” I lean down and tickle him. He laughs before running back toward the house.<
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“I don’t know. You are kind of pretty,” Kenderly says shyly. I take purposeful steps toward her, wrapping my hand around her waist and tugging her into my chest.
“I think you’re fuckin’ sexy,” I growl before kissing her sweet lips. She tastes like honey.
“Are you sure you’re ready to go back?” She smiles up at me. Her eyes hold a sadness but I know this is what we should do.
“I’m sure. If you’re not, we don’t need to go yet, Kenderly.” I run my fingers down her cheeks loving the softness that I feel when I do. I brush her hair back behind her ear when she sighs.
“I’m ready. I’m just scared, Tic. It’s all so different now.”
I pull her head down onto my chest and kiss the top of her head. “I know but we have each other, baby. We’ll get through it together.”
Chapter 44
Kenderly
The ride back was faster than I thought it would be. I enjoyed the silence though. Tic said he has a surprise for me, and I’m anxious to see what it is. I have a lump in my chest that won’t go away. Being back there after deciding to leave is going to be a change.
“You passed the clubhouse,” I tell Tic as he drives the other way. I look over and he grins at me.
“I know. I told you I have a surprise.” He grins and looks back to the road. I can’t help but smile. I don’t know what kind of surprise he has in mind but I’m excited to find out.
“Close your eyes,” he says. I drag my gaze back to him and smile before doing what he said. I keep my eyes closed tightly as the truck rumbles down the road.
I can’t help but smile when J says, “Is that it daddy?” He’s as excited as I am.
“That’s it.”
“What is it?” I ask when Jameson giggles more.
“Open your eyes, darlin’.” I slowly open my eyes to see the sold sign in front of a little house. My heart leaps in my chest. I’ve never had a home. I’ve always lived at the clubhouse.
“Tic.” I cover my mouth with my hand as tears stream down my face. Tic climbs out of the truck and walks around opening my door. He grabs my hand and pulls me out, wrapping his arm around my shoulders.
“You like it?” he asks. I look up and nod unable to form words.
“It’s for us, Kenderly. It’s our new start,” he says looking up at the house in front of us.
“I have my own room!” Jameson yells and runs past us. I can’t help but laugh. He’s so excited. The front door pops open and the guys all come walking out with smiles on their faces.
“Took you long enough!” Mayhem says before grabbing J up in his arms, hugging him tightly.
“Had to get shit packed. Good to see you, brother.” Mayhem steps up next to Tic, pulling him in with his free arm. J wiggles to get free, dropping to the ground. Mayhem pulls back and smiles at me before pulling me into his arms.
“Missed you too, Kenderly. Wasn’t the same with you gone.” I sniffle into his shirt.
“I missed you too. So much., I say as I hold on tightly. I never realized just how much I did miss everyone until they are all standing here.
Mayhem pulls back and the rest move in. I have missed them all so much. Prim stays to the side but when I smile at her, her face breaks out too. She rushes toward me, throwing her arms around my neck. Prim and I have a good relationship. We both grew up in the club and we both loved a man we couldn’t have. She understands me, and I love her for it.
“You look really good, Kenderly,” she cries into my shoulder.
“You too. I’ve missed you so much,” I tell her as more tears fall down my cheeks.
“Welcome home!” Tic roars.
I pull back and glance at him, his eyes on me. My body shudders under his gaze. He’s very unnerving.
“You ready to go see your new house?” he asks me from across the yard. I look around at all the guys and girls and my heart feels content. I nod my head and walk over to him. With our hands conjoined, we walk into the house. More tears fall as I take it all in. It’s beautiful. It’s what I’ve always wanted but never had. This is the life I was meant to live.
“I don’t know what to say,” I mumble as I look around.
“Nothin’. You don’t need to say anything. We have our new start and I thought this was the best way to do that. The clubhouse will always be our place but this is home. This is what we need to make shit right with us.”
Tic’s right. We need a home. This is our home.
“I love you, Tic.”
Chapter 45
Tic
We’ve settled into the house nicely. The guys say that Hawk hasn’t shown his face. It’s inevitable that he will show up one of these days, but for now, we’re happy.
Jameson was thrilled to be back with all his family. I thought going away was the right decision but it turns out I was wrong. The vacation was much needed but this place is home. It always will be. This is where I was born and who I am. I’ve never been anything but a Soulless Bastard and that’s where I plan to stay and raise my family.
“I’m still hungry, Tic!” Kenderly whines. I look up from my bike to see her standing there with her hand on her little belly. I love seeing her like that. With my baby inside of her.
“How much can one baby eat, Kenderly? That was two cheeseburgers,” I tell her. Her mouth drops open, and I know I said the wrong thing. Again. I seem to do that a lot.
“Are you calling me fat?” Her hands land on her hips as I laugh. She’s barely gained any weight so for her to think that is a little funny to me.
“Hell no! You’re sexy as fuck, and if you weren’t bein’ such a brat, I’d fuck you and show you,” I tell her. Her mouth closes and I laugh harder. She hasn’t given me shit in months. She claims it’s because of the size of her belly even though I tell her how fucking sexy it is. I swear I’m going to get blue balls by the time this pregnancy is over.
“You have some nerve. You did this. I have stretch marks because of you,” she snaps. God, she’s beautiful. I toss the wrench to the ground before grabbing the towel and wiping my hands. I stand up and walk toward her, a hungry glint in my eyes. I want that woman any way I can get her. Even if it’s only her lips.
“You are gettin’ really mouthy with that baby in you,” I say running my hand over my daughter. Kenderly smiles.
“I can’t help it. I’m hormonal, Tic. And hungry. Very hungry,” she says as I grind against her.
“I can figure something out to go in your mouth,” I tell her. She slaps me before I press a kiss to her lips.
“Keep it in your pants. That’s how we got this.” She nods between us. I regret nothing. I would do it again in a heartbeat.
That’s the same thing I think about my life. I often regretted meeting Ashley because of what happened in my life since meeting her. I knew it was all in my head though. Ashley was the reason I found Kenderly. She’s the reason that we are together today. I don’t think that I would have known just how Kenderly felt if things didn’t go down the same way. I know I miss her. I miss my dad too, but we still have our family. It’s growing and getting better with each day. I’d like to think that they are out there somewhere watching over us.
“I love you, baby,” I whisper against her lips.
“I love you, too.”
Our lives have always been crazy. I don’t see that changing anytime soon but I’m happy to say that we’ve finally found our way. There will always be something that causes a bump in the road but as long as we slow down and keep our eyes on the future, I know we can handle it.
Chapter 46
Ashley
There’s a place you hang in limbo between worlds when you die. At least there was for me. I saw it all as if I was there. I guess in a way I was there. I heard Tic whisper he loved me over and over. I watched how he stroked my hair on the way back to the clubhouse. It was as though I could feel him.
Dying wasn’t painful. Not when I had Jameson in my arms. That last few seconds were the perfect ending to my life
. When I saw that bright light, I knew it was time to go. I knew that Jameson would be ok. Tic too. There was just a feeling of peace that washed over me when I watched him pick his son up in his arms. As much as I would have liked to be there with them in the physical sense, I will always be there in the spiritual sense. Tic made an impact on my life that I would have never have seen coming. He made me feel things that I didn’t know I could feel. He brought so much life out of me, I hadn’t known I wasn’t living before I met him.
“You think they’ll be all right?” Blu asks holding my hand tightly in his.
“Yep. They will. They have a lot to look forward to,” I tell him with a smile.
“Yeah. They do. He’ll forgive himself, darlin’,” he tells me as if he knew what I was thinking. Maybe he does.
“He deserves it. Jameson needs him.”
Watching Tic with Kenderly has been the thing to hold me together. Seeing the real love they have and the way they bring out the best in each other. That’s what life is meant to be. Knowing that Tic has love in his life and Jameson has a mother who adores him sets me at peace. My time here is over.
“Come on, sweetheart,” Blu says softly pulling me along with him. Our lives ended at the time they were supposed to, but I can only hope that theirs is just beginning.
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