She fiddles with the stem of her goblet. “Mayhap I am embarrassed you would ask such forward questions.”
“Oh, do not be such a stick-in-the-mud. Besides, remember who taught you how to kiss. Duval has much to thank me for.”
Unable to restrain herself, Ismae picks up the wet towel and throws it at me. “It is complicated,” she says.
For some reason, I think of Beast. I swirl the wine in my goblet. “It always is,” I say, then drain the cup.
“He’s asked me to be his wife.”
This surprises me, but it also makes me like the man more. “Are you not still married to the pig farmer?”
“No. It was never consummated, and the reverend mother had it annulled the second year I was at the convent.”
“What did you tell him?”
“That I would think about it. For, while I love him, and will do so always, it is very hard to give anyone that kind of power over me again.”
“What did the reverend mother say?”
Ismae wrinkles her nose and refills her goblet. “It is just one of the reasons I have fallen so far out of her favor.”
“You? But next to Annith, you were her favorite.”
“No.” Ismae gives a firm shake of her head. “It was not I who was her favorite, but the blind, adoring acolyte that she loved.”
And that is when I know just how fully Ismae has changed.
Before we can talk further, there is a knock at the door. Ismae answers it, and a whispered, urgent conversation takes place before she closes the door and turns back to me. “The council meeting will not be resumed until tomorrow. The duchess’s sister has taken a turn for the worse, and the duchess wishes me to mix a sleeping draft for her.”
I arch an eyebrow. “You are a poisons mistress, not some healer for hire.”
Ismae gives me a sad smile. “It is a dance with Death, nevertheless.”
Chapter Twenty-Five
SINCE I AM DRESSED IN one of Ismae’s habits, the guard at the palace door salutes respectfully and makes no move to prevent my leaving. I step out into the cold night air and head toward a bridge that is lit by a sparse row of torches whose light is reflected in the dark water below.
It also leads to the convent where Beast is being held. I need to assure myself that I did not bring him all this way only to have him expire while in the sisters of Saint Brigantia’s care.
I reach the main gate at the convent and find it closed. Just to the right of the gate is a large bundle of what looks like rags. It takes me a moment to realize it is a sleeping Yannic, as loyal as the most faithful of hounds and no doubt banned from the convent for being a reasonably healthy man. Only ill or wounded men are allowed through those doors. I consider ringing the summons bell and announcing my presence to the entire convent, then reject the idea. What if they will not let me in? Or worse, what if they ask why I am here? For a moment, uncertainty grips me. Surely Beast has no need of me. Not now, when he is surrounded by the most skilled healers in our land.
I pause. Why am I here?
He is safe. And will soon be in a position to help the duchess. My role in his life is done. I saved him from d’Albret, the way I could not save Alyse. That should be enough.
So why do I feel this need to linger? Why this reluctance to part?
If I were anyone else feeling this, I would name it love, but I—I am far too smart to ever give away my heart again. Especially when to do so is as good as a death sentence for those I care about.
The old, familiar swirl of panic tries to surface. Instead of fighting it, I try to open myself to it, to let it come.
I remember the screaming. And the blood.
And that is as far as I get before the memory dissolves into pain.
Frustrated, I turn and follow the high walls surrounding the nunnery, looking for a low section or a back gate with a lock I can pick.
That is when I spy the lone branch. It is thin, too thin to bear a man’s weight, which is most likely why the nuns have not cut it down. But it is not too thin for me.
I toss my cloak over my shoulder, then look for a sturdy burl I can use as a foothold. It is a long stretch to the next branch, which hovers just out of my reach, so I must shimmy up the trunk, most likely ruining Ismae’s habit.
Since it belongs to the convent, I do not mind overmuch.
My hand closes around the branch, and victory surges through me as I pull myself up. The limb creaks and bows, but does not break. Lying flat to distribute my weight evenly, I begin inching across, hoping the limb will not snap and send me plummeting to the ground, breaking my neck. Mortain cannot have brought me this far for such an ignoble end.
At last the wall is below me. I swing my feet down onto it and let go of the branch, which springs back up. I stop to survey my surroundings. This convent is laid out much like the convent of Saint Mortain. I can make out the long low building that is the nuns’ dormitory, and the larger refectory. And, of course, the chapel itself. But where would they keep the sick and wounded?
A building set aside from the others has a faint light coming from one of the windows. That is as likely a place to begin my search as any. Perhaps a lone candle or oil lamp burns so the nuns can oversee their sleeping patients.
I lower myself from the wall into a garden filled with greenery. My boots crush the plants, releasing the pungent odor of herbs—the ones the sisters of Brigantia use for the famous healing potions and tinctures.
The very same ones we at the convent of Saint Mortain use to mix our equally infamous poisons.
I make my way to the path, trying to crush as few of the plants as possible, then follow the flat, round paving stones to what I hope is the infirmary. Near the door, I stop and press myself up against the building, using the shadows to conceal my presence. I close my eyes and try to feel how many are in the building.
I immediately sense a strong, booming pulse and nearly smile at how easily recognizable Beast is. There are other pulses that are thin and weak—patients’, perhaps. The second slow and steady pulse is most likely that of the sister who tends them.
It is my hope that I can slip in undetected, see how Beast fares, then simply slip out again. My plan is foiled, however, by the old nun who sits near the door quietly mixing something with her mortar and pestle. I am certain I make no noise and equally certain that the thick pool of shadows near the wall conceals my presence. But something alerts her, for she starts and looks up. Since there is no point in pretending, I step away from the wall, prepared to explain why I am here.
Her eyes widen as she takes in the habit I wear, and the hand gripping the pestle turns white. “Who?” she whispers. “Who have you come for?”
I cannot decide which annoys me most, her fear or her assumption that I have been sent to kill one of her patients. “No one, old woman. I merely come to see how the one called Beast fares. I escorted him here from Nantes and would like to see with my own eyes that I did not do so only for him to perish in your care.”
She bristles, her fear forgotten. “Of course he will not perish in our care.” Her face softens. “Are you the one named Alyse? For he calls that name in his sleep.”
“No, that is his beloved sister, dead these past three years.” The depth of my disappointment that it is not my name he calls takes me completely by surprise.
“Ah,” the old nun says sympathetically, as if she somehow knows what I am feeling. “Then perhaps you are Sybella. That is the name he asks for when he is awake.”
A flutter of joy quickens my pulse. I scowl so that she will not see it.
“However, he is asleep now,” she continues. “Indeed, we had to give him a tincture of opium and valerian in order to calm him. He was most insistent that he could walk out of here and be of use to the duchess, even though his body said otherwise and he could barely keep his eyes open, let alone sit up.”
“I will not wake him,” I promise. “I only wish to assure myself that he is well.”
The nun nods her permission, and
I start to move away, but she stops me. “By the way, whoever tended his wounds on the road did an excellent job. The man owes that person not only his life, but also his leg.”
Her words please me far more than they should, this knowledge that my hands can heal as well as kill, and it takes every ounce of self-control I have to keep my pleasure hidden. I turn and begin making my way to where Beast lies.
One-third of the beds here in the infirmary are occupied, mostly with the elderly and frail. It is eerily still. No fretting or moaning or frail cries for help. Perhaps she has sedated them all.
It is easy enough to pick out Beast’s hulking form, even when it is draped in white linen bedsheets, for he is easily twice the size of any other patient here. I am pleased to see the beds on either side of him are empty. That should afford me some small measure of privacy.
He lies as still as if he had been carved from marble, the high color he normally boasts leached from his face by the dim light and fatigue. His face is made even uglier by the harsh planes and shadows revealed by the flickering light from the few oil lamps in the room. His eyelashes—thick and spiky as they rest against his cheeks—are possibly the only beautiful things about him.
I marvel at this man who carried me away from my waking nightmare, determined that I not fall victim to d’Albret’s terrible retribution. Even after I had done nothing but spew vile accusations at him to light his temper, he would not leave me behind. What does he see when he looks at me? A harridan? A shrew? Some spoiled noblewoman playing at helping her country?
I glance back toward the attending nun and see that she has dimmed the oil lamp and now lies on her cot, resting until one of her patients needs her. With no one to see, I plunk myself down on the floor and lean back against the bed frame. It is quiet. So quiet. I can hear the breath move in and out of Beast’s lungs, hear the blood move through his veins, hear his pulse, strong and steady and alive. Slowly, some of the terror of d’Albret’s pursuit begins to seep out of me. Beast stirs in his sleep just then, his good hand slipping out from under his covers to hang over the side of the bed.
I stare at his hand, its thick, blunt fingers and multitude of scars and nicks. Unable to resist, I slide toward it, wondering what that hand would feel like resting on my shoulder.
“I knew that you would miss me.”
It is only a lifetime of training that keeps me from leaping to my feet at the sound of Beast’s voice. I snort to mask the small noise of surprise that escapes my throat. “I did not miss you. Merely wanted to be sure my effort in getting you here wasn’t wasted.”
“They drugged me,” he says with mild outrage.
“Because you were too stupid to lie still and let your body heal.”
“You didn’t drug me,” he points out.
“Because I had to get your maggoty carcass from one end of the country to the other. Once we arrived, trust me, I would have drugged you too.”
“Humph.” We are both quiet a moment, and then he asks, “What of the duchess?”
“She will no doubt come visit you herself. As will Duval and the entire small council, most like.”
He shifts uneasily and plucks at the covers on his bed. “I do not wish to receive them like this. Trussed up like a babe in swaddling.”
“To them you are a hero, and they wish to thank you for your sacrifice.”
He makes another rude noise.
“Are you certain you are not an ox in disguise?” I ask.
In answer, he just grunts again. “I am surprised they have not sent you off to rescue some other fool knight while I slept.”
“Not yet.”
“If they are not careful, soon they will have men locking themselves in dungeons so that you can rescue them.”
“Then they shall undoubtedly perish, for I would not go through that again.”
“Where is Yannic?”
“Camped just outside the convent walls. Except for patients, no men are allowed inside.” I wait to see what his next question will be, then hear a faint rumble from his chest. He has fallen asleep. I allow myself a tiny smile, for if he is well enough to spar with me, then he is well enough to live. I settle myself more comfortably on the floor and promise I will stay only a few more moments.
I awake some time later from a dreamless sleep. As I blink, I see that the flames in the lamps are sputtering as the oil grows dangerously low. Not quite morning yet. I feel the heavy weight of Beast’s hand still on my shoulder, then slowly inch myself out from under it, not wanting to wake him.
Not wanting him to know precisely where and how I spent the night.
I pause outside the convent and turn toward the city gate. I could leave now. I could simply walk down this street to the city gate, go across the bridge, and be gone from this place forever. No more abbess. No more threats of d’Albret.
But the stark truth is, I have nowhere to go. No home to return to, no kin to offer me shelter, and the convent will no doubt be closed to me now.
I could work as a tavern maid—if they would hire me. In troubled times such as these, people are reluctant to trust strangers.
I could even seek out Erwan and throw my lot in with the charcoal-burners. Or return to Bette and marry one of her sweet, eager sons. I could control either of them well enough.
Except they have sworn to fight at Beast’s side in the coming war.
The grim reality of my situation nearly makes me laugh. I am beautiful and educated and have all manner of useful—and deadly—skills, but all of that together is worth less than a bucket of slops.
I pull my cloak close around me against the chill breeze and continue across the bridge. As I draw near the gatehouse, I quickly rearrange my weapons, making sure that the dagger at my waist is clear and visible and that my wrist sheaths peek out from under my sleeves. Better that they think I was out on an assignment for Mortain than suspect I spent the night curled at the feet of the Beast like a mournful dog.
The guard on duty nods, his eyes taking in my habit and my weapons, and waves me through. The convents of the old saints seem to receive proper respect here in Rennes.
I reach my chambers and am relieved to find them empty. Too tired to remove my gown, I simply loosen the laces, climb into bed, and draw the bed curtains closed to block out the morning light. I pray that no one will have need of me for the next few hours, for I will be useless until I can get some sleep.
Chapter Twenty-Six
A SHORT WHILE LATER, I am awakened by a knock on the door. A little serving maid enters, carrying fresh water for washing and the news that I am expected to attend the duchess’s council meeting.
That summons prods me from my bed and into my clothes like few other requests could, for the truth is, I am sorely anxious to discharge all I know and be rid of it.
When a second knock sounds at the door, I hurry to open it and find both Ismae and Lord Duval waiting outside. I cannot decide whether to be flattered or worried at the nature of this escort, but Ismae gives me a warm greeting, and Duval’s eyes are friendly enough, which eases my mind somewhat.
Duval bows formally to me. “We would like to hear a full report of all that transpired in Nantes, if you can bear to tell it.”
“But of course, my lord,” I say, then step into the hall. Ismae gives me a reassuring wink.
Duval leads us to a more formal chamber than the one I was in last night. The two sentries nod in greeting when they see him, and step forward to open the door.
Even though I have bathed and now wear clean clothes, I still feel dirty in some way I cannot name, as if the taint of being a d’Albret will never leave. The maps have been put away, and instead there are flagons of wine set upon the table, as well as fine silver goblets.
My eyes are drawn immediately to a corner of the room near the head of the council table. Beast is here. They have brought him over on a litter and have rigged some sort of chair and stool for him so he can sit with his leg elevated. He is none too pleased about it and keeps trying
to stand up. “I should not be sitting in the presence of the duchess,” he grumbles.
The nun in the blue habit of Saint Brigantia patiently points out that all the other councilors and advisors do.
“But I am a mere knight, not a councilor.”
“Well,” the duchess herself says, putting the matter to rest, “you are now. I appoint you, Sir Benebic Waroch, to my high council so you may advise me on how best to win this war. What say you?”
The look of surprise on his face is near comical. “I humbly accept, Your Grace.” He moves to stand and bow, but the nun pushes him back in the chair.
The duchess turns to me. “I trust you are more comfortable now,” she says kindly.
“Yes, Your Grace. Thank you for your consideration.”
“It is the least I can do for one who has served me so well.” She motions to Duval, who shows me to a chair of my own and hands me a goblet of wine. I take it, glad to have something to hold, and glance uneasily at the others in the rooms, some of whose names I do not even know.
Catching the drift of my thoughts, Duval says, “Perhaps some introductions are in order.” His mouth quirks charmingly. “The abbess and Beast you already know. This is Chancellor Montauban, who fought at my father’s side in many battles. Jean de Chalon, the duchess’s cousin, just recently released from his arrest by the French regent. Captain Dunois, whom I believe you saw carry the duchess to safety on his horse, and the bishop of Rennes, who placed the crown of office on her head with his own hands. The rest, I believe, are known to you. So now we would hear of d’Albret’s plans, my lady.”
I take a deep breath. “D’Albret has not given up his plan to marry the duchess, and will do so by force, if necessary.”
Captain Dunois snorts. “He made that clear when he sprung the trap outside Nantes. He cannot think we are foolish enough to give him a second chance to trick us.”
His dismissal pricks at me, but Ismae rushes in. “It was Sybella who warned us of that trap,” she gently points out.
Out of the corner of my eye, I see the abbess’s eyebrows lift in surprise.
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