“Agent Sara Priest speaking.” Her voice was familiar, even behind the crisp, clipped facade she used for the FBI.
He paused. And then: “Sara?”
“Rafe? Where the hell are you? Jen’s freaking out. She’s been calling me every half hour to see if I’ve heard anything.” Hearing Sara say his aunt’s name made him feel guilty all over again; he knew she’d be worried sick when he just . . . vanished like that. Still, there was no way he could have told her what he was planning. Or why.
But now he felt backed into a corner, he needed help. And Sara was the only person he could think of who might believe him.
“I had a dream.”
“What kind of dream? What does that mean, you had a dream?”
“It means sometimes my dreams are more than just dreams, Sara. Sometimes my dreams are real. It’s like I can see things before they happen.” He paused, wondering what his confession sounded like from her end. But he didn’t have time to worry about that. Not now.
There was a long silence, and Rafe wondered what she was thinking . . . or more likely, what she’d already done. He wondered if she was tracing this call yet. “Can you tell me about your dreams? About this one in particular?” she finally asked.
Rafe shook his head against the handset. “I will, but I need to see if I’m right about it first.”
“Can you at least tell me if someone might be hurt? Did you dream that someone was in trouble?”
Rafe pulled up the images from his dream, the ones that would be forever etched into his memory, branded into his mind’s eye. He flipped through them like photographs— quickly, only wanting to see the ones he needed for the moment, ignoring the ones that were too difficult to look at. He felt sick all over again. “I . . . I don’t know yet.”
“Rafe . . . please . . . don’t do anything stupid. Wait for the authorities to get there. Or at least wait for me; I’m on my way.” On the other end, he could hear her car’s engine, and he realized she must have been waiting for him to call, she must have had the trace already in place. That was the rub about knowing an FBI agent, but this time he needed her.
“Call Jenny and tell her I’m okay,” Rafe responded, and then he hung up the phone.
He stood there for a moment longer, at the end of the road where the small driveway began, staring at the dark outline of the house. He wanted to yell her name: Sophie! But he was too afraid she wouldn’t answer. Couldn’t answer.
Sophie used to say that they were connected, that they shared something stronger than just love, something that transcended this world. He’d told her that all that cosmic stuff was bullshit and he’d laughed at her for romanticizing everything.
But she hadn’t been wrong. Even when he’d turned it into a joke, he knew she wasn’t wrong. She was different—special—and they’d belonged together from the moment he first laid eyes on her, when she stopped in the hallway on her first day of school and boldly announced that they were going out on Friday night.
She’d already been hiding from her father then.
He closed his eyes, trying to find her, but there was nothing. He was afraid that whatever connection he’d once felt had been severed. And he was terrified of what that meant.
He started walking again, slowly, trying to remember how this was all going to play out.
The back door, he realized. If his dream was right, the back door would be open.
He prayed he was wrong.
He felt safe moving through the darkness, sheltered by the shadows that masked him, shielded by the night. He passed Connie’s car in the driveway, and felt a burst of panic when he realized it was the only one there. That doesn’t mean I’m too late, he reminded himself. Maybe I got here in time to change things.
But when he reached the back of the house, he knew otherwise. He moved up the steps, to where the rear door stood slightly ajar. Just as he’d known it would be. Just as he’d hoped it wouldn’t be.
Exactly like in his dream.
He didn’t stop to think about what this meant. He pushed the door and it opened silently as he slipped inside, setting his backpack on the floor. The air was still—stale—and once again, Rafe sifted through the mental images that had come to him in his sleep, flashing like unwelcome memories that didn’t belong to him.
Sophie’s dad showing up without warning.
Connie screaming at him to leave them alone as she positioned herself between him and the kids, Sophie and Jacob, yelling for them to run. To hide.
His fists. Relentless. Beating Connie until her face was bloodied and unrecognizable.
Sophie dragging her little brother out the back door. But to where? Rafe couldn’t be certain; they were no longer a part of the pictures in his head.
And then: the knife. Rafe hadn’t seen where it had come from. Had Sophie’s father found it in the kitchen, or had it been with him all along? But its appearance, even in his dream, had made Rafe shiver with icy warning and had given him a purpose: Get to Sophie. Save her!
That was all he had; that was where his dream had ended, when he awoke drenched in sweat and foreboding. He’d gathered a few items into his backpack, along with some cash and that fugly doll, and he’d left without telling his aunt where he was going. Or when he might be back. He hadn’t known the answer to either question.
Now, standing inside the darkened kitchen with the lights still off, he no longer measured his steps by distance but by weight, each one pulling him down, drawing him deeper into despair.
One. On the other side of the couch, he could see a limp hand on the floor, white even in the shadows of the stark room.
Two. Three. It was Connie, her face pale and her eyes wide as a crimson puddle of her own blood crusted around her.
Four, five, six. More blood. Everywhere, blood.
Now was the time Rafe should call out for her—for Sophie— but his voice felt thick, his airway too tight to find enough space for it to pass. Nausea gripped him, making him suddenly dizzy. He wasn’t ready to know if Sophie could answer.
But it didn’t matter what he wanted.
Twelve. He slipped past Sophie’s mother, lying in the small living area, as he scanned the house, looking inside the tiny bathroom with a dirty tub and chipped porcelain sink, a linen closet housing an ancient hot water heater and only a handful of towels. Until he came to a closed door.
Blood rushed past his ears, and his heart hammered against the walls of his chest.
He squeezed his eyes shut as he pushed open the door. He didn’t know if he could do this, if he could handle what might be inside.
As he opened them again, he released a heavy breath. The sparsely furnished bedroom was empty.
Outside, he thought in a rush. They must still be outside.
He told himself not to look as he passed the dead woman in the living room, but it was impossible not to. He might not even have realized it was Connie, save for the bleached blond hair that was now matted with clumps of her own flesh and bones and blood.
At the back door, he hesitated again, listening to the night, hoping for a clue but picking up nothing. He strained against the godforsaken blackness, even darker back here than out at the road, where there was at least a break in the trees to allow the light from the moon overhead. But after a moment, once his eyes adjusted, he could see a break here too. Ahead, a small clearing had been carved out for a rickety-looking shed that stood beneath the towering trees, clutched in the grasp of barbed blackberry vines that threatened to consume it.
Rafe froze, suddenly unable to take another forward step. He was still unsure where Sophie’s father might be, and he’d already witnessed what the man was capable of. His lungs felt brittle, like they were made from crisp parchment and were no longer capable of true function. He waited there, trying to decide which need would cause him to move first: his need to breathe or this new, all-consuming fear that gripped him.
He had known death, and understood it; the dreams had helped with that. When his mother had
gotten sick, when the cancer had metastasized, spreading violently throughout her body—unstoppable—he had known. He had seen what it had done to her, even when she’d tried her best to hide it . . . tried to keep it a secret from him.
He’d watched her while he slept—in his dreams—seeing what the drugs were doing to her as she cried and vomited, whimpered and pulled clumps of her own hair from her head. He’d watched night after night, seeing her lose the battle to the disease, along with her will to fight.
All the while, her brave front never faltered. She smiled and squeezed his hand whenever he came into the room, and he pretended not to notice when her fingers no longer had the strength to curl around his. Instead, he squeezed hard enough for the both of them.
And when he knew she couldn’t do it for herself, he gave her permission, whispering softly against the sharp bones of her too-thin cheek, “It’s okay, Mom. I’ll be all right, I promise. Aunt Jenny will take good care of me.”
He had been there when she’d taken her last shuddering breath, releasing it on a ghastly sigh.
But he had never considered the possibility of his own death before this very moment, standing here beneath the dark Montana sky. He had never entertained the notion that he wasn’t indestructible. Until now. Now he felt differently. Now, after seeing the bloodied body of Sophie’s mother, he knew differently.
His dreams could be dangerous. He could be in danger.
He gasped for air, no longer able to sustain himself on sheer will alone.
That moment freed him and he found his stride again as his desire to find her—to find Sophie—was renewed.
His boots dug into the earth beneath his feet as he searched everywhere.
“Sophie!” He finally yelled, no longer able to stop himself. Desperation was clear as his voice cracked. “Sophie! Answer me, Sophie!”
He almost didn’t notice the soft scrape beneath his boot, the metallic scuff that he felt more than heard. It could easily have been a coin, dropped carelessly in the soil, but Rafe didn’t think so, and as he bent down to get a better look, his stomach revolted.
It was hers. The necklace. The ring he’d put on a chain for her to wear.
His hand hovered just above it. He was afraid to touch it, afraid to let his fingers close around it.
If he touched it, if his skin made contact with it, he would know for sure.
But time was running out, and behind him the far-off drone of sirens wailed, setting an eerie mood for what he was about to do.
He glanced up, to make certain he was still alone, and, closing his eyes, curled his hand around the ring, lifting it to his heart and clutching it there.
Electrical impulses caused him to convulse, like tremors coursing along every muscle fiber in his body. His eyes opened, rolling back in his head as the images began flashing inside his mind.
Flash. Sophie and Jacob, hiding in the shed. Cowering. Trying not to cry.
Flash. Their father splintering the door to get to them. The gun in his hand.
Flash. Sophie—the same way her mother had done—standing bravely between her little brother and her father.
Flash. Jacob running away, searching for cover beneath the canopy of the trees.
Then: the gunshot.
Rafe’s body jerked, as the sound from the borrowed memory exploded within him. He tried to loosen his fingers, to pry them apart, away from the ring, but it was too late, the images had come too fast, and he’d already seen them.
The siren screamed, louder now, almost upon him. He was suddenly grateful for an overprotective aunt like Jenny. And grateful that he’d already called Sara. He’d known, of course, that she would trace the call, and he’d expected her to send backup. It was what she did.
He knew, too, that when the police arrived, they would arrest him; they would have to when they witnessed the gruesome scene inside the house. He was the only one here, after all, and they had to blame someone.
Rafe would let them, staying silent, explaining nothing.
It wouldn’t be until Sara got there that things would get straightened out, that he’d tell her everything, about his dreams and what he saw in them. She was the only one who would understand.
Rafe clutched the ring, the images still assaulting him.
And he would tell Sara exactly where she could find Sophie’s father: hiding out at a cheap motel just off the interstate, less than twenty miles from this very spot.
But even without Rafe to tell them where the bodies were, the local police would have already found Sophie. And Jacob.
They’d never stood a chance against their father.
He tried to keep the images from flashing, again and again, but they kept coming, faster and faster now.
Flash. Sophie hiding the necklace in her hand, squeezing it and rubbing the steel furiously with her thumb, her eyes wide as she faced her father.
Flash. Sophie turning to run, stumbling. Trying to get away as her father raised his gun. Coldly. Unemotionally.
Flash. Sophie, her body going stiff. The necklace falling from her hands as she reached up to touch the wound that had opened up on her chest, where the bullet had ripped right through her. The disbelief on her face as she stared down at the blood glistening on her fingertips.
Flash. Sophie falling forward. Her eyes glazed and empty.
Rafe dropped to his knees as he heard car doors slamming and saw the flash of lights split the dark sky behind him. He hadn’t cried when his mother died or when Sophie had left, and he couldn’t seem to do it now either. But something in him was forever changed, he knew. Something in him had died along with the both of them.
He felt cold and bare. Exposed and abandoned.
He uncurled his fingers and looked down at the steel ring in his hand, not sure why he wanted to keep it. He half thought he should just chuck it into the woods and forget it—forget her—forever.
Instead, he slipped the chain around his neck. And as he heard the voices shouting, screaming at him to get down on the ground, he tucked it inside his shirt, against the hollow space where his heart should be.
Leaving
by Ally Condie
efore my father left for good, he put the small glass sphere down on the table in the three-room apartment where we lived. The sphere rolled a little and I had to catch it before it fell. “It’s a globe,” he told me, not exactly meeting my eyes. He looked at me, in my direction, but his gaze stopped somewhere just short of mine. “A full globe,” he added.
He meant unlike the Globe we live in, which is a curved half sphere above the earth. The Globe protects us and encases us, our apartment buildings, our grid of transports. Our cities. There are other shapes—Cubes, Pyramids—that enclose other people and other places. “We live in half a world,” my father said sometimes. He said it then, before he left.
I’m walking down the hall at school when this memory comes back to me, brought to my mind by the light glancing off the perfect circle of a girl’s earring as she stands next to a window. Once, I would have pushed away any memory of my father’s leaving. I used to try not to think about when and how he left, but now that I’m planning to follow I think about it all the time.
I picked up the globe and looked to see what was inside. Something swirling, white but clear, lit from within.
“I’ll leave it behind for you,” he said. “If anything goes wrong, use it if you can. If you can’t use it, break it.” I looked at him, at his graying hair and his eyes that seemed to be graying too. The expression on his face wasn’t quite an expression of happiness or satisfaction, but maybe a little of the hope of those things. But most of what I saw on his face could be summarized in a single word: purpose.
Someone bumps up against me and then pulls away as if I’ve burned them. I look up. It’s a girl I don’t know, younger than me. “Sorry,” she says. She seems embarrassed and I don’t know if she’s apologizing for bumping into me or for pulling away.
No one should have to pull away anymore.<
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But they all do. It started because of my father, and it continues now because of me.
I turn away from the girl and keep walking, listening. The people around me only discuss one thing. The Heavens Dance. Tonight.
I won’t be there.
Everyone in the school knows it and I know it and I move around Mia Turner in the hall, around her long silver-blond hair and her bright silver clothes and her voice and her laughter and her group and her big blue eyes staring right at me.
“Sora,” she says behind me, just as I’ve passed.
What does she want? I turn to look at her. She was a friend, last year, as they all were. Before my father left. Before I became Untouchable for those two weeks that changed everything. Them. Me.
“The assembly is this way,” she says, pointing toward the doors of the auditorium. The stage floats a few feet above the ground, and the chairs have been arranged in rows for us. She smiles. She’s standing right next to me. And then she reaches out to me.
For a moment, my heart almost stops. Not in fear, though I’ve seen what Mia Turner can do. But because with her hand outstretched and her eyes wide open like that, she looks like one of them. One of the Beautiful People from the Beautiful Time. The time we always try to recapture, here in the Globe, with our hair, our clothes, our music, the way we talk. We all wish we could have lived then, just before the Burn and the making of the Shapes. We’ve tried to recreate the era, but we’re missing the most important element of all: the Beautiful People themselves.
Bad things happened even in the Beautiful Time, but Beautiful People always came to the rescue. I’ve seen video footage of a giant wave, of an earthquake. All those devastated citizens, all that ruined land, and then a Beautiful Person came in and made everything fine. You could see it by the way the people smiled and reached out to touch the hands of the visitor.
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