‘Then perhaps you would show us to our rooms, Mrs Farrell?’ he said, politely.
Mrs Farrell led them through the front doors, and into a room to the right. ‘Sitting room,’ she said. ‘Miss Lampton would always receive callers here. Office,’ she said, flinging open a door to the rear of the guest sitting room. An oak desk squatted with its back to the window, dominating the room. Around the walls stood glass-fronted bookcases, each containing ledgers of a different colour. ‘Travers, her factor, will be coming by tomorrow, to discuss Miss Lampton’s affairs with you. Only male she had any time for, and that only because he did exactly as he was told.’ The housekeeper grinned.
‘Kitchens and offices.’ She pointed out the green baize door to the back of the hall, but seemed not to expect they would wish to pass through it. ‘Your private rooms are over here,’ she said, crossing the hall. ‘Stairs got too much for her, in latter days, and knowing your particular requirements, we left things as she last had them.’ They entered a small, cosy-looking sitting room, crossing through it to reach a bedroom. It contained a large double bed, of japanned pine, with floral chintz valance and curtains, topped by a snowy white quilt and pillows foaming with lace. Next to the door stood an old-fashioned clothes press, painted all over with flowers to match the bed hangings. It was all rather ornate and fussy and so feminine Deborah was sure her husband would want to change it all at the earliest opportunity. To the rear of the bedroom was a door that led to a dressing room, containing a hipbath and towel rail, as well as a traditional marble-topped washstand with a floral china basin and pitcher.
‘Upstairs?’ Mrs Farrell looked dubiously at Captain Fawley, but he elected to climb, albeit slowly, to the upper floors, where they found six guest bedrooms, two of which, the housekeeper cheerfully suggested, could be made into a nursery and schoolroom, when the time came.
Deborah’s insides gave a peculiar lurch. What they had done last night was not unlike what the farm animals did during their mating seasons, which resulted in fresh batches of calves, and lambs and chicks. It was very lowering to think that such a sublimely pleasurable activity was no different, in the long run, from the very basic instinct of all God’s creation to procreate.
‘The servants’ attics are above,’ said Mrs Farrell, startling her out of her reverie. ‘No need to examine those. I will show your man later, if he wishes?’ she finished, darting a brief glance at Linney, who had been shadowing his master closely.
When the tour ended, the housekeeper said she would bring tea to the front parlour.
‘How do you like our new quarters, then?’ Captain Fawley asked Linney as soon as the housekeeper had left them. ‘Think you could cope with promotion to the position of butler?’
Until that moment, Linney’s face had stayed impassive, but he broke into a grin as he admitted, ‘Dare say I could.’
‘Good man. I don’t want some stranger coming in, thinking he knows how to run my household. And you’d best cast your eye over the stables too,’ Captain Fawley said, settling into a comfortable-looking wing-backed armchair before the fireplace.
Deborah slid into one that was angled so that whoever sat in it could look out of the front window, feeling utterly superfluous. He had not deigned to ask what she thought of the house, or its peculiar set-up, nor whether there were any changes she might wish to make.
When the maid brought the tea in, he dismissed Linney, and the maid, saying, ‘My wife can pour for me.’
Perversely, now that she was alone with him, she felt rather shy and very conscious of her limbs as she moved over to the table where the girl had deposited the tray. Her hands shook as she lifted the lid of the pot to see whether the beverage had brewed long enough to pour.
‘Do you take milk, or lemon?’ she asked, in a rather high-pitched voice. ‘And sugar?’
He shrugged. ‘Surprise me.’
When she shot him a bewildered look, he explained, ‘I don’t drink the stuff at all, to tell you the truth. Would much rather have a tankard of ale, but I daren’t offend the sensibilities of Mrs Farrell within the first five minutes I am here. Linney knows my tastes. He will arrange it all how I like it, without me having to make a fuss. We’ll need to get supplies in, but for the first day or so, we must both just make do with things as they are,’ he ended quite sternly, as though daring her to make any complaints.
Linney knew his tastes. Linney would arrange things, she thought angrily, heaping an extra spoonful of sugar into her cup.
‘You did not seem all that surprised to learn that, had we not married, Percy Lampton would have inherited The Dovecote,’ he said, an irritable edge to his voice.
Though what had he to feel irritable about? He was the lord and master of this domain, while she was like some slave girl, brought in solely for the purpose of satisfying his animal urges. She felt so brittle, she feared one more unkind word would snap her in two like a twig.
She poured tea into both their cups, adding a splash of milk to hers, and leaving his black and unsweetened. She hoped he found it as unpalatable as she would have done.
‘I wondered if he might be the other legatee the lawyers mentioned, yes,’ she admitted. ‘Having observed your aversion to each other,’ she said, carefully placing his cup within reach of his right hand, ‘I then wondered if you were attempting to deprive him of something he took for granted belonged to him.’
‘And it did not bother you?’ he sneered.
‘It was only a vague suspicion,’ she defended herself, suddenly loathe to admit how comforting it had been to hear Mrs Farrell confirming her hope that the former owner really had wanted her husband to inherit. ‘And anyway, why should it bother me, if it did not bother you?’
‘My motives were nothing like yours!’ he flared. How like a woman to lay the blame for her mercenary actions upon another! She had not cared that she was pushing another claimant out of the way. She just wanted to get her hands on his inheritance. ‘Lampton deliberately attempted to prevent me from inheriting when he thought I was about to make a match with Miss Hullworthy. If he had not acted so despicably, I would not have felt the need to retaliate!’
Deborah flinched, as though from a blow. It was bad enough that she knew he did not care for her, but to have him fling it in her face, the moment they had set foot in their marital home, was the act of a callous beast!
‘You married me to get revenge on Mr Lampton …’ Because he had stolen the woman Captain Fawley loved.
‘And why not? He deserved some punishment. He will drop Miss Hullworthy, now she can be of no further use to him. Do you think he should get away with such cruelty to a woman—your friend, might I add?’
She swallowed down her hurt, clenching her fists in her lap as she reminded herself he did not know how cruel he was being. He did not know she loved him. He firmly believed she had agreed to the marriage for purely financial reasons.
She wondered what he would do if she bawled out, ‘I love you, you idiot! That is why I married you!’ before flailing out at him with those clenched fists.
She took a deep calming breath. Letting it out, she rose unsteadily to her feet. ‘If you will excuse me, I should like to go and lie down for a while.’
He frowned at her. ‘You do look pale. Are you ill? Should I ask Mrs Farrell to fetch a doctor?’ He lurched to his feet, and tugged on the bell pull. ‘Mrs Farrell!’ he bellowed, going to the door, and flinging it open, ‘My wife is unwell … Ah, you, girl, what is your name?’ he snapped at the young maid who had come running in answer to his summons.
‘Cherry, sir.’ She bobbed a curtsy.
‘Help my wife to our room, and get her whatever she needs. She is not well ….’
‘I am only tired, that is all,’ said Deborah. ‘If I might just lie down quietly for a space, I am sure I shall recover.’
‘If you are sure?’ He watched her with a troubled frown as she crossed the hall to their rooms.
‘Quite sure,’ she said, head lowered so that he would
not see the effort it was costing her not to cry. She felt quite disgusted with herself for being so feeble as to want to weep, simply because he had shouted at her. She was pathetic. Quite pathetic.
The maid, however, took one look at her, before huffing, ‘Men! Don’t know why Miss Lampton thought that one would be any different just because he had a rough start in life.’ She hustled Deborah to an upholstered chair by the window and bent to loosen her boots. ‘Tyrants, the lot of ‘em! Shouting at you like that, and you only just wed! That man of his is no better, either, looking us up and down while he tramps round the place in his noisy boots.’
‘Captain Fawley is not a tyrant,’ Deborah hastily intervened. ‘He was not shouting at me.’
‘If you say so, madam,’ Cherry said, looking totally unconvinced.
‘No, really, he shouted for help because he was concerned for me,’ she explained. Though why she should be defending him, she did not know. ‘I know he has a loud voice, but he was in the army, and used to giving orders to men. I am sure, after a period of adjustment, he will get used to ordering female staff, just as you will get used to having him about.’
‘And was that great lummox of a serving man of his in the army too?’ Cherry huffed, going round the back of her chair to loosen Deborah’s laces.
It pained her that she did not know. So she said, ‘I really would feel better for a lie down. I am not ill, but I was ill, and I seem to get tired very quickly.’
‘Country air, that’s what you need,’ Cherry said firmly. ‘Plenty of walks, and good plain cooking and lots of sleep. You’ll be right as a trivet in no time. London …’ she pulled a face ‘… that’s what you need to recover from. Never went up to town, but what Miss Lampton came back with a white face and a need to sleep for a week,’ she said.
‘Miss Lampton visited London often?’
‘At least three times a year, though we was never to let on.’ Cherry went a bit red in the face. ‘I don’t suppose it will do any harm to tell you, though, especially not now she’s gone. It was only her brother that would have put a stop to her doing her business, if he had known about it. But he never found out. Lor!’ Her face lit up. ‘You should have seen his face when the will was read out, and he found out how much money she had made. And that it weren’t to go to his precious son! Madder than a wet hen, he was!’
Deborah was prevented from learning anything more about the previous owner of The Dovecote, when a knock on the door heralded the arrival of the housekeeper, with the tea tray.
‘Your husband said as to be sure you drank your tea, and had a morsel to eat.’ She beamed. And I was to ask if there was anything else you needed. Does a body good,’ she said, depositing the tray on a low table next to the chair, ‘to see a man actually taking care of his wife. Out you go, Cherry,’ she addressed the maid, who bobbed a curtsy and scuttled out. ‘I had thought Cherry could serve as your personal maid, if you have no objection. Miss Lampton’s woman left after she died, and went to live in Ramsgate on the nice little pension she got for her troubles. Cherry is not exactly trained, but the most suitable for now, since you have not brought your own maid.’
‘Everything was rather rushed,’ Deborah said weakly, as the woman handed her the same cup of tea she had poured herself earlier. She decided she could not fathom her husband out at all. He would shout at her one minute, then send a servant to see to her welfare the next.
‘Well, no need for rush and hurry as though you was in London now. Nice and steady we take things here at The Dovecote. I’ll just pull the curtains across, and you can take forty winks. I’ll send Cherry to wake you in time to change for dinner.’
Rather overwhelmed by the woman’s determined helpfulness, Deborah went to the bed, climbed up and lay down on top of the silky counterpane. She closed her eyes as the woman bustled round the room, needing, more than anything, to be left alone to think. She did not open her eyes after she heard the door close behind the housekeeper. She might as well try to doze. She had not slept properly for the two nights before that dreadful, hastily arranged wedding. That probably explained why she was finding it so hard to cope with her new station in life. In time, she would get used to her husband’s abrupt manner, and learn to read his moods to the extent she would not provoke him to anger.
He was trying to be kind to her in spite of the fact that she annoyed him. He had sent both the housekeeper and a maid to look after her.
It wasn’t his fault that she would rather be in the parlour, discussing the peculiar woman who had arranged the household in such an eccentric manner, or laughing together over Linney’s face when he realised he was the only male servant in a house full of women.
That was not the sort of relationship he wanted with her. He had not offered her friendship. Only financial security and children.
Somehow she had to find the strength to bear the limits he set on their relationship. Nor must she yield to the temptation to feel sorry for herself. It would only make him dislike her even more.
Wearily, she turned on to her side, laying her cheek upon her open palm. And before she knew it, she had fallen asleep.
She was not sure what woke her, but when she opened her eyes it was to see her husband leaning on the bedpost, gazing down at her with a pensive frown.
‘How are you?’ he asked, running one finger along the bevelled edge of the footboard. ‘Better, I trust, after your rest?’
Her heart went out to him. It was not his fault he was not in love with her. Nor that he had not a glib tongue, to soothe over any awkward moments. He had warned her he would speak bluntly. In truth, it was one of the things she had liked so much about him, that slightly gruff manner, which made him stand out from the other men who had swarmed about Susannah. It had made him seem so much more manly than the others. She could easily imagine him barking out orders to a troop of battle-hardened soldiers, and them respectfully obeying him.
She smiled at him, sleepily. ‘I am sure I will feel much better, when I am properly awake. Just at the moment, I still feel a little drowsy.’ She yawned, and stretched, raising her arms above her head. He watched her sinuous movements with a dark, hungry look. She stilled, pierced by the force of desire she read in his stance. She couldn’t help remembering how it had felt to be the recipient of all that pent-up longing the night before. Unwittingly, she shifted on the bed, revelling in the way his fingers clenched on the footboard as his eyes focused on her body. Her dress, which Cherry had loosened so she would be more comfortable, had partially slipped from her shoulders while she slept. She had kicked her shoes off, so her feet were bare, and she could feel that her skirts no longer covered her ankles, or calves. As he ran his eyes over her recumbent frame, she felt as though he was touching her all over.
‘We need to wash and change for dinner,’ he said abruptly, straightening up. ‘I will use the facilities first, since you look as though you are still half-asleep.’ Swinging away from her, he marched into their dressing room.
She watched him go, not sure whether to be glad or sorry. He did not want to want her so much, that was obvious, even to a woman of her inexperience. But want her, he did. There was no mistaking the hunger she had seen in his eyes as they had roamed over her recumbent form. She hugged the knowledge to herself as she sat up, and lowered her legs to the floor.
It was a start.
As she got to her feet, she felt a rush of feminine satisfaction surge through her. She caught her lower lip between her teeth. He wanted her, in spite of himself. And, oh, how she wanted him! Her body tingled in all the places he had paid the most attention to the night before. And her stomach gave a lurch at the prospect of receiving his attentions all over again.
In the dressing room, Captain Fawley grinned to himself as Linney helped him out of his jacket. He need not have worried that he was growing sentimental, after all. The jolt of lust he had felt, upon looking down at her, had been reassuringly carnal. All he had wanted was to lift her skirts and sink himself into the warm wet welco
me, he could tell from the wanton wiggles she made, that he would find in his wife’s sleepily pliant body.
There had been, apparently, no need to worry that she might find him repulsive, because of his scarring. As Linney helped him pull his shirt off over his head, he wondered if that had been because he had been so careful to shield her from the full horror of his injuries. He had kept the room dark, making sure what little light there was illuminated his good side.
Though, just now, she had looked up at him, in broad daylight, and given him clear signals that she felt aroused just by sensing the need in him. That was what she had been thinking of, as she had lain on the bed just now, watching him. Not how ugly his face was, but the way he had made her feel.
He frowned as he worked a soaped washcloth over his face and neck. It was surprising to think that a properly brought-up young lady like she should find such pleasure in the marriage bed. Although, he huffed, splashing away the soap with clean water from the basin, perhaps that was entirely due to the fact that her mother had not had time to warn her she ought not to enjoy it. She had, in effect, been surprised into her sexual awakening.
It felt good, he reflected, drying himself on the towel Linney handed him, to know that, in the dark of their bedroom, it had not mattered what he looked like. He had raised Deborah to heights of rapture, with his one good hand, his mouth and his own manhood. She was too innocent to have faked her response.
It felt good.
It evened things out, somewhat, to know that while she had made it possible for him to live in comfort, and independence, he had introduced her to pleasure she had never guessed at.
His chest swelled; he walked a little taller as he went to the upstairs salon to await the serving of the evening meal. In one department, at least, as a man, he had no lack.
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