by Lexi Archer
"What does Jeremy have to do with this?" I asked. I tried to sound as calm as possible, but it was hard. She knew how I felt about how he acted around her, and she had to know that I wasn't going to react well to hearing that she let him do a whole photo shoot!
Vanessa sighed. "Are we really going to go over this again? He's your best friend!"
"I'm not so sure about that!" I growled.
Maybe that came out a little more angry than I'd originally intended. It's not like I could help it, though. The guy drove me crazy when he started hitting on Vanessa, even if he was still more or less cool otherwise. Hell, he'd been my best friend since grade school, it was only when we got to college and he had that stupid thing about calling dibs that we started to have trouble. Trouble that had now lasted for years and made me glad I was about to be out of college and hopefully away from him for good.
"So what happened at this photo session then?"
Vanessa rolled her eyes. I could tell she was irritated. She usually got irritated when the subject of Jeremy came up, but I wasn't going to let it go. She should know by how much I got irritated, how annoyed I got, when she encouraged him like that. That it wasn't a good idea to go off and do something like let him take pictures of her and probably perv on her the entire time. He was just so obvious about hitting on her, and she always acted like it was harmless.
It drove me nuts!
The real rub of it was she didn't even really like the guy. No, I knew from talking to her that he creeped her out sometimes, and yet she still insisted on being nice. Still acted like she should be cool with him just because I'd known him for so long. Talk about annoying.
It was convoluted and fucked up and led to fucked up situations. Like him being my best man. That was another situation where Vanessa had just brought it up, and I felt like I was trapped into it even if it did sort of make sense. Even if we had been friends long enough that it wasn't out of the ordinary on the surface. It's just when you dug deeper into how fucked up our relationship had become in recent years that the idea got really weird.
Vanessa was talking. I should probably listen to her. Figure out how she was trying to justify her side of the argument, which was really no side at all as far as I was concerned.
"He just took some pictures of me out in a field," she said. "Nothing risqué."
I cocked an eyebrow. "Oh really? What do you consider to be "not that risqué?" Hm?"
Vanessa looked down again. I could tell from the way she was blushing that there was probably something in there that I wouldn't approve of. I sighed. Damn it. Why did we keep going over this? Why did it seem like both of us were repeatedly slamming against a brick wall when it came to my sort-of best friend?
It's not like I was being unreasonably jealous at this point. He'd made it clear to me on numerous occasions that he felt like he should be with her. Even if he had been joking, I knew there was some seriousness there. He never shut up about how he called dibs on her at the party where we first saw her freshman year, never mind that she'd been interested in me and not him. Never mind that he never had a prayer of a chance with her.
No, all that mattered to him was that he saw her first, and in his estimation I'd swooped in and poached "his" girl. Never mind that we'd been together for four years now and were engaged to be married. Never mind that he agreed to be in our wedding.
Damn it. This was just getting me annoyed again. I was just getting pissed off again. I took a deep breath. What I hoped was a deep, calming breath, though it didn't help a whole lot.
"He just took some pictures of me in a sundress," she said. "And then I did some bathing suit shots for my profile."
My eyes went wide. "You did what?"
"Don't act like such an ogre!" she said. "Lots of models have bikini shots on their profiles!"
"But you aren't a model!" I said. "I feel like I'm taking crazy pills here! You've never acted interested in doing modeling before in your life. Why are you suddenly acting so interested in it now?"
She sniffed. She got the pissed off look on her face like she was annoyed. I was annoyed too though. Really annoyed. I couldn't believe she let him sucker her into that.
I sighed. Here we were coming into the potentially negative part of her being so damn naïve. "It wasn't obvious to you because this was Jeremy asking you to do this? That didn't raise a red flag for you?"
She was getting more defensive. "I didn't tell you because I knew you'd react like this."
"Are you sure? Are you sure that maybe you didn't tell me because you were worried about how I might react, or because you knew I was right?"
She looked down and she blushed again. That blush could only mean one thing. There was still more that she wasn't telling me. More that I didn't know. I leaned forward, intending to get to the bottom of exactly what happened at this photo shoot. To exactly how far things had gone.
And suddenly I felt a strange reaction. Something that hadn't happened before. I felt my cock getting hard. I felt it starting to stir in my pants and started to throb. It was one hell of a hard on.
I found myself thinking about what had happened. At least what probably happened. I found myself thinking about her standing in a bikini completely exposed to him outdoors somewhere while he snapped away with a camera. While he thought about his dumb luck being able to sucker her into going out into the wilderness like that. I thought about how hot she must've looked. I thought about him worshiping her.
Okay, so maybe it was kind of hot when other guys thought my girl was hot, but I'd never gotten a hard on while I was thinking about it. Not exactly.
Sure there were times when we were making out, when we were getting hot and heavy, when she was on top of me grinding against me and I was so close to the fucking edge because grinding against her like that was as close as I was going to get to her pussy before our wedding night much to my endless frustration, when I imagined that I was another guy getting to grind against her like that. It was just a passing fantasy though, wasn't it? Just the sort of crazy thing that popped into my head when I was in the zone. When I was really turned on.
It had never really popped into my head when I wasn't in the throes of passion and about to pop, and yet here those thoughts were. Unwelcome, but fucking hot.
Okay, so this was new. This was different. I shook my head to clear it. What the hell was going on in there? I shouldn't be getting hard thinking about another guy with Vanessa, but it was like it just popped in there unbidden. It was like there was nothing I could do about it.
Damn it.
"Is something wrong?" she asked.
Yeah, something was wrong. My mind was suddenly flooded with visions of her getting her pictures taken with Jeremy and it was turning me on. Not that I was going to tell her about that. She could already be a little weird when it came to sex, see the whole waiting for marriage thing, and I didn't want to rock the boat any more than I had to.
"Tell me more about this photo shoot," I said.
Vanessa looked at me. She searched my eyes. Her own eyes going back and forth in that thing she did where she was trying to look into both of mine at the same time but not able to do it because that's really not how our anatomy worked. She always did that when she was trying to figure out if I was telling the truth, like staring into my eyes was some sort of foolproof lie detector test that only she could administer. Not that I was going to admit the times she failed to catch me in a lie and ruin the whole thing. She sighed.
Meanwhile inside I was jumping for joy. I wasn't about to tell her that the reason I wanted to hear about what she'd done with Jeremy was because I was getting turned on, but at the same time I couldn't wait to hear whatever it was she had to say.
"It was pretty innocent," she said. "He was just taking pictures of me down at the Botanical Garden on campus. It was pretty deserted, so that's probably why I agreed to the bathing suit thing in the first place…"
"What sort of pictures did he take of you in your bikini?"
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bsp; She looked at me again, hesitated as though she wasn't sure she wanted to proceed, but then she sighed. "You can just look at them. Do you have your laptop?"
I jumped for joy. She was actually going to show me some of the pictures! Sure I was still pissed off that she'd even let Jeremy take them in the first place, but at the same time I wasn't going to turn down the idea of getting a look at them.
I'm not ashamed to admit that I scrambled to grab my laptop. I pulled it up and handed it over to Vanessa who dutifully pulled up her modeling profile on some site I didn't even recognize. Judging from some of the pictures I saw flashing by it seemed like a place for wannabes to get their amateur modeling on, but I wasn't sure how professional someone could really be if they were trolling this place looking for models. I would never say that to Vanessa, but that she was up on this site after taking one photo shoot seemed to be testament enough to how serious the place was.
I forgot all about that when she actually started pulling up some of her modeling photos though. I had to admit they looked pretty damn good. Jeremy was a photography nerd, after all, had been ever since high school when he insisted on using film instead of digital cameras like God intended.
He'd since switched back to digital, and he still took pretty damn good pictures. Especially the ones he took of my fiancée. Damn was she gorgeous!
"These are pretty good babe," I said.
As I was flipping through the pictures my cock was still rock hard. I was throbbing. It was uncomfortable. It was as though all the blood from my body was going straight down to my dick as I stared at those pictures. And it wasn't just because I was looking at sexy poses from my fiancée.
No, a large part of it had to do with knowing who was behind the camera while those pictures were being taken. Knowing that he must've been looking at her with his cock just as rock hard as mine was right now. Knowing that he had to be staring at my fiancée and thinking about all of the things he'd like to do to her. That he was probably zooming in and taking shots that never made it onto her profile for him to enjoy later.
And for some reason that was turning me on? Talk about fucked up.
"You really like them?" she asked.
I kept flipping through the pictures. I didn't say anything. No, I was in a weird headspace where I was projecting myself into Jeremy's mind. Where I was imagining him snapping pictures of my future wife. I imagined what he must've done as he looked at some of these bathing suit pictures later. As he went through and processed them, or whatever the hell it was people did with pictures before they were ready to go. I knew development wasn't a thing anymore, at least, but I'm sure he did something or other with Photoshop.
"Damn baby," I said. These really were pretty good. A testament to how goddamn hot she was, and to how good Jeremy was with the camera. "These really are good."
I guess with pictures like this I could understand why some agency might contact her out of the blue. Still, it seemed a little odd. Especially that somebody scouting for movie companies would be looking through a model website. You'd think that if somebody was going to be in the movies they might need something more than just good looks, though I guess based on some of the stuff that had come out recently it was entirely possible that wasn't the case anymore.
I looked up at her. "So spill."
She blinked. She did her best to look innocent. "What are you talking about?"
"You were blushing earlier when I asked you what else you did with him. So what happened? Why were you blushing?"
And sure enough she gave it up again. She blushed and looked away from me. And she refused to turn back to me. Yeah, I was a definitely curious. She thought she could tell when I was telling a lie by looking in my eyes, but I knew exactly when she was telling a lie because she blushed and gave it away. Not that I was about to tell her how I knew when she wasn't being entirely truthful with me.
"Vanessa?"
"Do you promise not to be mad?"
I thought about that for a moment. I guess the only way to get it out of her would be to promise not to be mad, though I couldn't necessarily guarantee that I wasn't going to be upset. It all depended on exactly what she'd done.
"I promise," I said. I hoped that wasn't a lie.
"He said he really wanted a picture of me… You know…"
"I'm afraid I don't know," I said. "What kind of picture did he want?"
I had a pretty damn good idea of exactly what kind of picture Jeremy would want, and more than pissing me off it was turning me on thinking about it. Damn! I leaned closer to her, wondering if this was actually true. If this actually had happened. I couldn't believe it, and yet at the same time I could.
"You know…" she said, suddenly whispering. Suddenly very quiet. "Topless…"
"So what did you do?" I asked.
I licked my lips. I couldn't believe I was hearing this. I couldn't believe this actually happened between my future wife and a guy who was shaping up to be my former best friend. More than anything I couldn't believe that I was more aroused than pissed off about it!
She looked up at me and there was a twinkle in her eyes. She smiled. "I figured you'd like my solution if you ever found out about it."
"Oh yeah? And what was that?"
"Well I took my top off, but my hands were covering my tits the entire time! So he sort of got his picture, but he definitely didn't get what he wanted. Isn't that funny?"
I collapsed back against the couch. I had to concentrate on regulating my breathing. I felt as though my airway was constricting. I felt as though I was in very real danger of maybe having a heart attack. Could you have a heart attack because all the blood in your body was pumping down to your cock? I didn't know, but it certainly seemed like I was about to test that theory!
"So there are topless pictures of you floating around out there somewhere now?"
"Well it's not like they're floating around out there," she said. "It's not like he was posting them online or something!"
"That you know of," I said. "He could do whatever he wanted with those!"
I was trying to sound upset. I was trying to sound annoyed. But to be perfectly honest it was difficult. No, all I could think about was Jeremy's eyes on my fiancée's tits as she took her top off. She said she was covering them the entire time, but could she be completely sure of that? How did she know he didn't maybe catch a quick snapshot while she was looking in another direction or something like that? There was no way to know.
More than anything I was turned on by the idea. I was fucking turned on by the idea! I wanted to whip my cock out and climb on top of her on the couch and have my way with her. I wanted to fuck her brains out. I wanted to slam inside her while I thought about Jeremy jerking off to her.
Of course none of that was going to happen. Again, there's the whole waiting for marriage thing. But that didn't mean that I couldn't fantasize, and damn was I fantasizing!
"I just can't believe you let another guy do that," I said. "I can't believe you let him…"
"Oh my God," Vanessa said.
I quickly looked up. Looked around. She sounded surprised and scandalized. What was wrong? I wondered if somebody was breaking into the house and I just hadn't noticed because I'd been that pissed off. I was so distracted right now that I could imagine that happening! Only no one was breaking in. There was absolutely nothing in the apartment that warranted that sort of reaction. What the heck?
"What? What is it?"
"Is that a hard on in your pants?" she asked.
I looked down. Down to where my pants were obviously tenting up. To where this conversation was having an obvious effect on me. And then I looked up at her and I fixed her with what I hoped was my best and most contrite sheepish grin.
I'd been caught. Damn it.
"Maybe?" I said.
"Oh my God, are you getting turned on thinking about this? Are you getting turned on thinking about me showing off for him?"
I panicked. My mouth worked but I couldn't think of anythin
g to say. Damn it. Why couldn't I think of anything to say?
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I leaned in closer to my fiancée. I couldn't believe it. That was a huge a hard on! He was getting hard thinking about this!
I couldn't help myself as I saw that monster growing in his pants. I just got so overwhelmed when I saw his cock tenting out in his pants like that. Sure I was always talking about how we should wait for marriage. How I wanted to be a good girl, but damn if it wasn't hard to do that sometimes. Especially when I saw him like that.
I felt myself losing control as I looked at his cock. I leaned forward. I watched, almost as though it was an out of body experience, as my hand reached out and then I was running a finger along the tip of his cock. Through his shorts which wasn't quite the same as having its hard veined warmth in my hands directly, but it was enough for the moment to get me really hot and bothered.
It's weird that I was hot and bothered though. Was it because Nathan was turned on? Or was there something else going on? Was it thinking back to letting Jeremy take pictures of me? Thinking of how naughty I'd been taking my top off? How hot it made me feeling his eyes on me? Fuck, it was making me hot thinking back to that right now.
Okay, so maybe I liked showing off a little. Was there any harm in that? Nathan always acted like there was, but the way his cock was reacting was telling one hell of a different story!
His hard cock jumped in my hand and I squealed in delight. I loved it when it did that. Hey, I might have said we were waiting for marriage, but that didn't mean we couldn't have other kinds of fun. I wasn't a complete prude. I just wanted to save at least one thing for my wedding night. One hell of a major thing. One thing that really frustrated my future husband, but still. That was where I held firm.
"Oh God Vanessa," he said.
I looked up at him. Locked eyes with him. Licked my lips. And I smiled. I tried to make it my most seductive and tempting smile ever, but I'm not sure how well it worked.