He growls deep in his throat as his fingers snake through my hair, grabbing the back of my head and gently rubbing my scalp as he pulls me forward. I relax my body and neck, allowing him to manipulate me exactly how he wants to. When his hot, heavy, and more-than-ready cock teases my lips, I part them ready for him.
As he enters my mouth, excitement flushes through me. It’s not until I hear my name Livie hissed between his teeth that my hunger to have him fill my mouth takes over.
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Ocean
Beautiful. Today is fucking beautiful. I don’t know what shifted inside of me, but it is how I feel. I can’t help it.
I watch Liv and Blue splash around down by the shore and I smile even harder. Its noon, the sun is burning strong, the beach isn’t overly crowded but there are enough people scattered around the sand.
Volleyball games are happening around us, frisbees are being tossed through the hot air, and my Liv is laughing louder and harder than I’ve ever seen before.
What she did to me last night was incredible. I cried-I fucking cried-after she made me come so hard that I fell to my knees. What kind of man cries after a fucking blowjob? A man that has a powerful woman, that’s who.
I’m only half listening to Law talk to my dad on the phone about how things are going. The only thing I really catch after Law busts his gut laughing is something about Trell crying after Jahyel knocked him out cold. I chuckled to myself.
Trell was straight up pussy and he should just quit now. I wouldn’t tell him that though. He needed to realize his chance at the MMA title he was chasing after was long gone and over. I don’t lie to him when he asks me how he’s doing so, he should have a freaking clue that he’s done. It’s not an easy reality to accept and as a fighter, I understand even though I was the one that walked away from the cages. It still hurts.
Our goddesses come out of the water and lay out by the shore letting the small waves break across their legs. Liv has on a two-piece bathing suite. The smooth gold and black pattern makes her tan pop. Over it though, she wears one of those sheer see through dress things that women wear over their suits to be modest. It stops just a little under her perfectly round ass.
Blue also wore a two-piece; which is much more revealing than Liv’s. Bright fucking red and Law just about died when she stepped into the living room of our suite, ready to hit the beach. Liv was definitely starting to show and she carried it well.
Again, I find myself smiling like a deranged cheetah as I hear Law end his call. I raise my beer to my lips and chug it before I bring it back down while I’m still staring at Livie; the same beer that she scowled me for without any words while we were at the grocery store this morning.
With that one look, I put the cases of beer back when she stopped me. She looked me deadpan in the eye and simply asked me if I could handle it. When I said yes, she smiled and told me to put them back in the damn cart then.
Fuck I love her!
I finally manage to peel my eyes away from my pride and joy turning to Law. We’re sitting in the shade of a beach tent. You know how those beach commercials look…the ones that have a tub of corona between two-beach chairs? That’s us right now and I laugh just because.
“So what’d you two do last night?” I ask, remembering they stumbled through the front door to our suite damn near five in the morning.
He raises an eyebrow at me with a smile. “Well DAD. If you must know, we had a good night last night. We hit up some clubs, bars, the beach, each other, and all that jazz. It was nice.”
I nearly let my beer slide out of my grip as I stare at my way too cool cousin. “You? Dancing? Since when do you dance?”
He frowns at me. “I know what you’re thinking and I didn’t embarrass myself or Blue. I know I can’t dance worth shit, but that doesn’t mean Blue can’t enjoy herself.” He bit out the last few words of that sentence and I couldn’t help but pry.
“So if you didn’t dance with your wife, then who did?” He finishes his beer and grabs another one.
This coming from a man that thinks drinking too much juice is bad for him was hilarious.
“She danced. It’s all that matters!”
I put my hands up in surrender. “Fine. Fine. Just curious to know how you didn’t get arrested last night if she was bumpin’ hips with someone else.”
He laughed with his whole face. “Yeah. I was mad as hell, but I saw it in her eyes O. She loves that shit. To dance and lose herself in beats and rhythms. I had no other choice but let her dance with some Rico-Fucking-Suave.”
I take what he says and I nod in agreement because even though I can actually dance, I hate it and I know if Liv wanted to salsa her ass off on the dance floor without me, I would have to do the same thing.
“I must say though, the reward I got afterwards on this same beach was one hell of thank you.” He grins wide.
I roll my eyes at him. “Yeah I bet.”
“So when are you going to drop the atomic bomb on our ladies?”
“Tonight.” I answer automatically without a second thought.
I’ve been dying to tell them, but I can’t let myself get all carried away and ahead of myself with this. What I’m asking for Law and Dulce to do is big. Its life changing and permanent. I’m forcing them to be parents to someone else’s a child; who just happens to be my step-sister.
It’s not like I’m giving them a fucking puppy for Christmas. This is huge and I pray that Dulce understands why I’m going to ask her to do this. I pray to god she understands…I need her to more than anything.
As if Liv can sense my thoughts going sour, she turns to face me and blowing kisses with her sandy hand. I wave her over and she comes willingly with a huge smile on her face.
She’s happy. Livie is fucking happy and so am I. I fucking pray to all the gods that exist this happiness lasts.
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Livie
I turn my body to angle my head perfectly as the smooth water from the fancy as all hell showerhead rains on my hair. I sigh, relaxing each and every achy muscle from today’s activities as the hot rain droplets massage my scalp. I run my fingers through my hair, washing out the conditioner and closing my eyes.
I’m spent. My body is beyond exhausted from the beach and everything else I did today, but my mind is still going a million miles an hour. Usually this would be a terrible thing but right now, it’s not.
I see the smile on Ocean’s face that has been plastered there permanently since we got here and the ass has a freaking dimple. I never noticed it before because he rarely smiled so hard, but the handsome son-of-a-bitch has dimples!
I think about the actual real date he took me on after the beach and catnap I snuck in. Lunch and a movie was our date; it was perfect. I’m almost four months pregnant, married to the man, and today was our first official date without any emotional disasters.
I feel so happy, I want to curl into a ball and cry but I can’t do that. I shouldn’t do that. I want to enjoy this feeling of joy and love that I’m sharing with him and my new family.
This is the way things should be, right?
Hands run along my baby bump and I smile, dropping my head back to let the water run over and down my face.
“Mind if I join baby?”
"You’d better since you already have your hands on me.” I tease.
I know I shouldn’t, but I’m happy, he’s happy…fuck…we’re happy!
I’m pulled forward into a hard chest and a heated erection poking my belly button. I wipe the water from my eyes and poke at his dimple that peeks out at me from the corner of the left side of his perfect lips.
His boyish smile widens showing me white teeth. “And that was for?”
“For not telling me you have freaking dimples!”
He throws his head back and laughs his signature deep and husky laugh. “Sorry baby. I didn’t know that bit of information would have sealed the deal.” He reaches up above my head, repositioning the showerhead.
He gives me a wink before grabbing me gently by the hips, turning me around to face the stone tiled wall of the shower. My body gets excited as my imagination runs free with the possibilities, but my brain is screaming for me to ignore them and I do.
“Ocean please…” I breathe out heavily as he takes my hands and presses my palms on the heated tiles away in front of me.
“Shh…baby I wouldn’t do that. I know better, but I can do this…” His chest aligns with my back as the head of his pulsing cock buries itself between my ass-cheeks.
I feel hot water drizzle down our bodies in between my back and his chest. His arm wraps around my ribcage, holding me upright. His other hand glides around the roundness of my lower belly, then my hips as he palms my pussy.
Freshly waxed pussy thank you very much!
What I believe is his middle finger teases and glides between my folds finding my heavy clit. Lazily, he strokes me up and down, side to side, and around in circles.
"Oc…”
I stop because I can’t speak. I know I can’t, but I know he knows what I’m about to say.
“Just because we can’t have sex baby, doesn’t mean I can’t please you.” My words from last night gently smack me across the face. “Tell me about your day baby. Did you have a good day?”
Seriously?! Now?!
I growl at him and he drops his lips to my ear to purr the word please. I would curse him out right now or at least try to head butt him, but I’m panting and my knees are on the verge of giving up on me. I clench my jaw and grit out one word as he changes the motion of his strokes that nearly shatters all my grand efforts to respond.
“Beautiful…”
His lips drop to my neck. “Yeah. I thought so too baby.”
Chapter Twenty-One
Ocean
I look at Liv curled in our bed and I kind feel bad for messing with her in the shower. She just about fell asleep in my arms after she came. I had to dry her, dress her, and put her to bed.
Her being so out of it gave me the opportunity to lotion her entire body with cocoa butter. If she were awake, she would have never let me do that. It’s like she felt that her independence was always at risk and she would fight tooth and nail to do everything herself.
I’m not going to lie; walking in on her in the kitchen surrounded by broken glass had my head spinning and heart bracing itself for the worst. I’m an asshole for assuming the worst, but after finding her the way I did…that mental picture never goes away.
I am, however, proud of her for not even blinking twice at the situation. She was mad about breaking the cheap glass cup more than anything and that told me that Liv was getting better, stronger, and healthier.
I kiss her lips once more before heading out to find Blue and Law. I had to get this out now before I chickened out. I feel bad that Liv won’t be up to hear all of this, but she needed to rest. I close the door gently behind me and head off to get this over with.
When I come out to the main living room, Law and Blue are snuggled on the sofa watching Vampire Diaries.
He’s such a fucking girl!
My heart is pounding in my ears and my heart rate feels like it’s slowing down instead of speeding up to match the blood rushing violently between my ears. I keep walking into the kitchen because my body doesn’t know how to react to this level of nervousness. I’m not used to being the one shitting bricks over something. If anything, I’m always making other people feel that way.
I brace my hands on the granite counter and push.
Okay Ocean, you have to get through this. Scarlett needs a family. Scarlett needs a good home. She needs Law and Dulce has her parents.
Something brushes my hand on the counter. I startle a bit, opening my eyes.
Dulce is looking at me with a calm expression. “Esta bien? You okay Ocean?” Her accent is thick, but she speaks extremely clear.
“Actually no. I’m freaking out about something that I need to talk to you and Law about.” I look at her, wishing she could read my mind so I wouldn’t have to say all this shit out loud.
“Sunshine?” She asks as she looks up at me with nothing but love and admiration in her pretty eyes.
God I hope that feeling stays there when I ask her to go through with adopting Scarlett.
“Sleeping. She was tired and fell asleep in the shower. I don’t think we’ll see her again tonight.”
She closes her fingers around my hand and pulls me away from the counter. “Vamos. Let’s go.”
I follow behind as she hauls me out of the kitchen to the living room where Law is completely engrossed in watching a bunch of kiddy vampires playing the bad guys.
She doesn’t let go of my hand as she sits down between me and Law. It’s not until she slaps Law on the leg that he looks up at us.
“My bad Blue.” He says as he adjusts himself so she leans into his body and he drops an arm around her shoulders.
She’s still holding my hand and for some reason I don’t dare to let go. I start to consider that Law has already told her, but he would have said something to me. I’ve noticed recently that Blue has this way about her and before things happen, she always seems to have a pre-sense of things…if that makes any fucking sense.
She gives my hand a squeeze and I slightly part my lips to spill my heart out for the baby sister I thought I hated.
“Dulce. Lawrence. I need to talk to you about something.” I open my mouth to continue, but my throat is on fire and I fucking hate it.
I can’t cry over this shit! I don’t cry!
Another squeeze from Dulce’s cold hand in my hot and sweaty one gives me another shove of courage. This time before I continue I cup her tiny hand in both of mine, I lean forward to turn my body towards her; our eyes lock.
It’s weird as hell, but she’s looking at me like she can already see what I’m going to say…ask…and she looks so peaceful about it.
God I hope this goes well.
I keep my eyes on hers as I speak as if it’s only me and her in this room because ultimately, this is her decision to make.
“Dulce. I don’t know how to ask you this or know if even asking this is the right thing to do, but I can’t think of any better option. I thought I didn’t want anything to do with Sabrina’s daughter, my step sister, but I know now that I’ve been wrong. I’ve been so angry and too busy hating her that I didn’t realize that Scar-Stormie needs my help. She needs our help and…”
Fuck! I can’t do this!
A tear slides down my face and I feel like punching something.
FUCK ME!
“Ocean, ven con migo-come with me-.” Dulce turns to give Law a kiss on the lips and then rises from the sofa, pulling me up along with her. “Let’s take a walk on the beach and you can tell me there.” She smiles.
Like a lost goddamn puppy, I follow.
Law walks us to the door and gives my shoulder a squeeze as I step out into the cool night air with Dulce leading the way.
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Lawrence
I watch my girl and the strongest man in the world that I can vouch for walk down towards the beach. I smile to myself because I know this is hard for Ocean, but he’s determined and he has his mind set.
No matter how much he hates letting his weakness show and his tears free, he’s going to be the man he is and step up. I saw it in his eyes that he thought I told Blue something but I didn’t.
She has this six sense thing that’s freaking weird. The way she explained it to me is that she’s spent so much time studying her stepfather’s moods and nonverbal communication that she can now read people to the point where she can sense certain things.
It’s sad, but she doesn’t see it that way. She says it’s her advantage and in this case, I’m glad she knew that Ocean was seeking approval from her and only her.
Making my way back to the sofa, I see Sunshine walking into the living room and rubbing her eyes. Her belly is small, but perfectly round and noticeable.
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p; She looks around for a minute before spotting me, getting ready to sit down on the sofa and walks over to me. “Where’s Ocean?" She asks in a mousy whisper.
I extend my arms out to her and she sits next to me snuggling into my side. “He and Blue went down to the beach to talk.”
She settles her head on my shoulder, turning her head to look at me. “Everything okay? Did something happen?”
I hug her. “Everything is perfectly fine. Ocean just needed to get something off his chest. He’ll tell you once he’s back and I promise you it’s nothing bad.”
She squints her eyes at me briefly and says. “Kay.”
We sit in silence for a while before she asks me to unmute the TV so she can watch Vampire Diaries. I do as she asks and when I lean back into the sofa, she grabs the wool blanket draped over the end of the sofa and rests her head on my lap while wrapping herself up.
Her eyes close and her breathing grows slow and steady. I pull her hair way from her face and drop my arm around her shoulder. I lay my head back and close my eyes; not before smiling and thanking god for all the shit we’ve all been through because if it wasn’t for all the pain we carried around, we wouldn’t have found each other
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Ocean
We reach the beach and stop in front of the shoreline letting the water lap at our feet. It’s dark, the moon and stars are kissing the darkness in between and the ocean is eerily calm with only smooth waves breaking on the shore.
Dulce wraps an arm me and I drop my arm around her shoulders hugging her back.
“Ocean. I really don’t know what you need to ask me but whatever it is, you need to know that I will help you do anything. I’ve never had a family like this. A family that looks out for each other, protects each other, and loves each other through the ugly. Whatever it is you need from me, please ask me. Don’t be afraid.”
I bite the bullet and let it all out before I take off running into the water to drown. “Dulce, I think the only way I can help Storm-“
“Scarlett.” she corrects me.
I look down at her face with a smile. “Yeah. Scarlett. Is to take her away from Sabrina. She can’t take care of her and she doesn’t want to if you ask me. I can stand a lot of things about this situation between Sabrina and me, but I can’t stand ignoring that there is an innocent baby suffering. I would consider this for myself but with the twins, I don’t think I can give Scarlett what you and Law can give her.”
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