She paused and sighed heavily. “Papa kept me safe from breathing in the smoke, but he had to breathe it in to get us out of the house. His lungs were never the same after that. If I hadn’t left my room, he wouldn’t have had to spend time searching for me. He seldom had a day where he could draw a deep breath after that.”
“Is that the fire where you lost all of your mother’s things?”
Sophia nodded. “There was nothing left of the house or anything in it. My mother had died six months earlier. For years after the fire, I had this recurring nightmare where I’d see my mother’s dress catch on fire. The flames would eat their way up her dress until she was completely consumed by the fire and the smoke. There would be nothing of her left. Not even any ashes. It was as if she’d never been standing there.”
Matson felt as if something squeezed his chest. “That must have been a horrible dream for such a little girl, Sophia. I’m sorry.” He bent his head and kissed her cheek several times.
“I hadn’t had the dream in a long time, years maybe, until I lost the brooch. Now—”
“Shh,” he said and kissed her forehead and cheek again, willing her to feel his comforting embrace. “Don’t think about it ever again. You are safe from the fire, safe from the smoke, safe from the nightmare. I don’t want you to have that dream tonight or tomorrow night or ever again. Raise your head and look at me.” She resisted again. “Come on, Sophia. I want you to see that this is gray fog. It might look like gray smoke, but it’s not.”
She slowly raised her head. “But I can’t see you.”
Matson cupped her cheeks in his hands, but in the dense vapor he couldn’t make out her features either. “You can feel me, right? You are safe with me.”
Sophia nestled closer to him, burying her nose against the bare skin of his neck. Emotions Matson didn’t want to recognize stirred within him. He felt her warm breath against his damp skin. He knew he couldn’t take the pain of her past away from her, but he would give it one hell of a try to help her bear it.
“How did you manage to save the one brooch?”
“That morning before the fire, Papa let me look through Mama’s jewelry to pick out something for my doll to wear. I liked the flower brooch, so I pinned it to her dress. Somehow I made it out of the house with my doll still in my hands, saving the brooch.”
“Why did you have it in your reticule that day on the street?”
“The center stone was missing. I couldn’t find it. My aunts and I were taking it to a jeweler to have it replaced. I still can’t believe it’s gone.”
Matson was silent for a few moments. His eagerness to find that boy thief and recover her brooch grew. He held Sophia close, enjoying the feel of her in his arms. He smiled to himself. At first he thought she was safer the closer she was to him, but the way his body was reacting to her, he wasn’t so sure that was true.
“Better?” he asked.
“Much better,” she said and raised her head again. “I’m sorry. I’m not usually such a weak ninny, but the fog came in so quickly, I felt as if I were in that smoky corridor again, searching for my father.”
“Sophia,” he murmured softly, “that doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human. And you certainly don’t have to apologize to me for memories you can’t control.” He touched her cheek. “Don’t think about that night again. You’re safe with me.”
Suddenly she reached up and kissed him on the cheek, allowing her lips to linger on his skin for a moment before letting them glide to the corner of his mouth, where she kissed him again. The brush of her lips against his was warm, enticing, and instantly arousing.
The only sounds he heard were his own heavy breathing and the water lapping at the sides of the boat. Matson knew it was going to be damn near impossible for him to stay a gentleman.
“You are entering dangerous territory, Sophia. Are you sure you want to go there?”
“I am sure I want to kiss you, Matson.”
“Did you just call me Matson?” he asked cheerfully, hoping to tamp down his growing desire as easily as he’d denied the loving emotions swelling and swirling in his chest.
“When I think about you, I always think of you by your Christian name.”
He smiled. “So you are admitting that I cross your mind from time to time.”
“More often than you should,” she said softly.
“Me too, Sophia,” he murmured huskily. “I think of you much too often.”
She turned more toward him and kissed the side of his mouth again. His body reacted strongly to her touch.
“How much of the brandy did you drink?” Matson asked.
“Not much, why?”
“I think that could be what is inspiring your kisses.”
“I didn’t know that drinking brandy makes a person want to kiss.”
Matson chuckled but thought about what she’d said. “It’s not that it makes anyone want to kiss,” he explained, “but if you drink too much, it can certainly cause you to lose your inhibitions so you would be more willing to kiss.”
He heard her feeling around on the floor of the boat. “Here is the flask. Take it and see for yourself that I have not had enough brandy to make me tipsy.”
Matson felt in the gray mist and took hold of the flask. She was right. “It’s still full.”
She rested her arm on his chest and leaned over him. “Then drink some brandy, Matson, because I want you to be willing to kiss me.”
“Do not try to tease me, Sophia. I don’t need brandy to encourage me to kiss you. All I have to do is think about you, look at you, or touch you, and I want to kiss you.”
“Then don’t make me wait any longer.”
Matson had known he was attracted to her the moment he saw her, and that hadn’t changed, no matter how desperately he’d wanted it to when he found out who she was. She tempted him as no other lady ever had, and right now he was powerless to do anything other than her bidding.
Matson dropped the flask to the floor of the boat. An urging from deep inside prompted him to hastily remove his gloves and let them fall to the floor of the boat too. He then swung his cape off his shoulders and made a pillow for Sophia’s head against the edge of the seat. He’d tried to deny his attraction to her. He had tried to deny her, but every once in a while a man had to go with his instinct, and his was telling him that here on the water, under the cover of thick fog, was the perfect time to kiss Sophia with all the abandon he’d long desired.
He bent his head as he placed his hands on each side of her face, and captured her lips with his. He sought her sweet mouth with his and moaned with pleasure. He kissed her softly and lingeringly at first, taking his time to run his tongue along the seam of her lips, before easing it into her mouth to taste her fully. His hand skimmed down her neck, glided across the top of her shoulder, and drifted down her arm.
She leaned into his chest. Through his waistcoat, he felt her soft breasts pressing against him. He let his lips drift away from her mouth to the soft skin of her neck just under her jawbone, lingering there for a few moments before skimming down to the hollow of her throat. He felt the erratic beat of her pulse against his lips.
He lifted his head and tried to look into her eyes, but it was too gray and misty to peer into their green depths. He managed to make out that she smiled at him. She reached out her hand and cupped the side of his face. Pleasure washed over him.
Her touch was gentle, comforting. “Did my beard scratch your skin?” he asked.
“No,” she whispered. “There’s so little of it I hardly notice it’s there. I just want to touch you.”
Keeping on with his slow manner, he took her hand in his and gently, finger by finger, pulled off her gloves. He then pressed his nose into her palm. He breathed in deeply, filling himself with her essence. He planted a kiss in the center of her hand before gently sliding his fingers through hers and linking their hands.
Their lips met, and Matson kissed her again and again, trying to get his fill,
hoping his body would tell him “enough,” so he could set her from him. But all the endless kisses made him want were more and more. And the way her lips clung to his let him know that she felt exactly what he was feeling.
He plundered her mouth with growing passion and sweet freedom. Each kiss melted into the next, and all he could think was how good, how right, how desirable she was in his arms. He gently laid an open hand on her chest between her breasts, wondering if he should go further.
“Don’t be afraid to touch me,” she whispered.
The tone of her voice warmed him like flames from an open fire. Heat rose from deep within him. He no longer felt the breezy wind whipping at his hair or the cold spray from the water on the back of his neck.
“I’m not afraid of touching you,” he answered, “I’m afraid only of hurting you.”
“I am not worried that you will hurt me. I want your touch, Matson. I want us to be together like this.”
The heel of his palm rested on the crest of her breast, and his fingertips played in the hollow of her throat. He slowly moved his hand over one breast and then the other, taking his time to feel her firm yet soft shape beneath the layers of clothing, wishing he could find her nipple. He loved the feel of her breasts in his hand, even though they were hidden by the firm stays and crisp fabric of her dress.
She lay quietly, allowing him to intimately caress her, seeming to know that he was building tension and passion in both of them.
“I want to feel your skin,” she whispered.
He chuckled softly. “Oh, believe me, Sophia, I would love for you to. I would love to feel your skin against mine, but that isn’t possible.”
“Why?”
“This is not the place or the time for such intimacy between us.”
“How long do you think the fog will last?” she asked.
“I have no way of knowing.”
“Then we must hurry.” She started unbuttoning his waistcoat.
“You are treading on dangerous ground once again, Sophia.”
“But it is ground I must cover while I have the opportunity.”
She pulled the front of his shirt out of his trousers and slipped her hands beneath his shirt, skimming his bare skin. He gasped from the pleasure of her touch. A tremor of arousal slammed through Matson. His skin pebbled deliciously at her caress. His lips fastened over hers again in a provocative onslaught of desire to make her his. He pulled her closer, urging her to fit her softness more fully against the curve of his body.
Matson desperately wanted to feel her smooth skin. She tempted him with her gentle touch, but he knew the folly of trying to undress her. They were under the cover of fog for now, but it could leave as quickly as it had come in. He’d have to make do with the clothing on.
Sophia leaned into their kiss, keeping her hands on his bare skin, causing torrents of desire to shoot through his manhood like fire. He deepened the kiss, and she responded, matching him desire for desire, and passion for passion. Her heat drew him, covered him like a warm blanket. Her hands roved over the contours of his bare back. Her touch soothed and yet tortured him, making him want to beg for more. He wanted her to slip her hands past his waist, and suddenly, as if reading his mind, she did.
He kissed her lips tenderly and enjoyed the unrestrained freedom with which she touched him. Matson threw his head back as his muscles contracted in sweet pain.
Matson skimmed his hand down the plane of her hip, and when he brought his hand back up, her dress came with it. He caressed the warm, bare skin of her shapely outer thigh and slowly let his hand slip between her legs. He had no control, because she was so willing and so eager to have him touch her. With a sure, steady hand, he found her most womanly part beneath her undergarments. His lips came down on hers with hard, demanding pressure. Their tongues met. Their breaths mingled. Through her fervent touch and soft feminine sounds, she let him know that she wanted him to bury himself deeply within her, and he was eager to do so.
But the gentleman side of his mind forced him to say between kisses, “Sophia, it’s not too late to stop.”
“I know. I am aware of what we are doing and what I am asking of you.”
He shook his head. “You do not have to ask this. I am eager and ready.”
“I’ve found in my life that sometimes things are worth the risk, Matson.”
“And being here with me like this is one of them?” he asked.
“Yes. Please, don’t stop touching me, don’t stop kissing me. I know there is something more. My body is telling me that we are not finished and there are more wonderful sensations to come.”
No further confirmation was needed. Sophia wanted this union between them as much as he did, and she was receptive to whatever he had in mind. That thought sent his imagination into action and aroused him all the more. He hadn’t planned this, but how could it be wrong when they both wanted this mating of their bodies?
“How can I deny you?” he whispered.
“As a gentleman, you can’t deny a lady her desire for you, can you?”
“No, not this time.”
His masculine feelings had never felt so alive, so in command. He had never been so caught up by raw desire for a woman that he was willing to take her on the cold, damp floor of a small rowboat in the middle of the Serpentine, but God help him, right now he was.
Matson desperately wanted to take his time and undress her. He wanted to gaze at her beautiful body and touch her bare, softly rounded breasts. He wanted to pull her nipples into his mouth and savor the taste of her on his lips and tongue, but he knew the folly in that route.
With desires at a fevered pitch, they crushed, clung, and grabbed at clothing, pushing it up, moving it aside, and pulling it down. Matson felt so frantic to possess her that his soul hungered for her.
His tongue plundered the depths of her mouth, and his fingers softly caressed her most womanly part. He felt her body tremble with urgency, and he ached with need. Her lips were soft, damp, and delicious. He found satisfaction in each soft, pleasure-filled sound she made as he touched her. He allowed her hands to go lower and close around his hardness, feel its thickness and weight. He gulped in a ragged breath. Her featherlight caress teased him and offered no mercy to his burning need. A spiraling heat of desire swirled and seared deep in his loins.
“You should be wooed,” he whispered against her lips.
“I have no patience with wooing. I want you to show me what my body is yearning for, because no other man has come close to making me feel the way you do.”
“Oh, Sophia, that’s exactly what I wanted to hear you say.”
She arched her hips toward him, and he surrounded her back with his arms and cradled her head in his hands.
“You know,” Matson said, “there can be no commitments between us.”
“That is the way it has to be.”
He rolled on top of her and whispered, “You mustn’t cry out if it hurts at first. Sound carries on the water, and I have no idea how close we are to shore.”
“I will not make a whisper, Matson.”
He then covered her mouth with his and quickly, forcibly joined his body to hers. She stiffened, and he swallowed the soft grunts and moans she made. He knew it was the easiest and quickest way, but he hated like hell hurting her. After her maidenhead was broken, he took his time and rocked back and forth, kissing her cheeks, her lips, and her eyes. He let his throbbing shaft rest inside her while the initial pain subsided, but he could not contain a low groan of pleasure. It rushed past his lips, and he sucked in a hard, ragged breath.
Slowly he moved a hand between them once again and found her most intimate part and tenderly caressed her. He needed to build up her passion once again. He wanted to make damn sure she enjoyed their union as much as he did. He found her lips with his and lovingly kissed her as he slowly began to move inside her.
“Sophia,” he whispered against her lips, “you are so beautiful, so womanly, and so desirable. I swear to you I have n
ever desired a woman the way I have ached for you. I wanted you beneath me like this the moment I saw you.”
“Then why did you take so long?” she asked between choppy, desire-filled breaths.
He chuckled into her mouth. “It is difficult to get you alone.”
“My aunts.”
“I’ve named them Double and Trouble.”
She tried to laugh at his admission, but her breathing was too erratic. “I don’t know what you are doing to me, but I think I’m going to explode.”
“Go ahead,” he whispered. “That is the joy of what we are doing.”
She moaned in pleasure and trembled beneath his touch. Matson smiled against her lips. Her breaths were uneven, but he gently demanded that she participate in what they were doing.
“Help me, Sophia, join me and move with me.”
Her arms completely circled his back as she kissed his lips, cheeks, and neck, and back up to his lips once more. He moved slowly, pushing in and out with long, easy strokes.
He moved inside her, and her lower body quickened in response, her hips lifting to meet him with a desperate eagerness, as if to take more of him into her.
Their kisses moved from gentle to passionate to frantic. When she gasped and dug her fingers into his back, he knew he had satisfied her. He couldn’t leave his seed inside her, no matter how much he wanted to. He knew where that could lead, and he was not willing to go down that road. He strained to hold himself in check for a few more strokes and then, with willpower that came from an inner strength, he withdrew from her and rolled away as he found his own release.
Matson winced at the pain of the quick withdrawal. He gasped and groaned as his body pulsed rapidly and then started to calm. He lay with his back to her, knowing he wasn’t satisfied. He still wanted her. Their coming together had been too fast, too strong, and over too quickly. He needed more of her. He wanted to stretch her on a bed and spend the whole damn night loving her, looking at her, touching her.
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