by Janice Lynn
“What did you say?” He searched Melissa’s face, certain she must be joking.
“We’re going to have a baby.” Her chin lifted with bravado, but her lower lip quivered, giving clarity to the uncertainty he’d seen in her eyes.
A thousand thoughts and emotions hit him at once.
“You’re sure?”
“Yes.”
“You missed a pill and didn’t tell me?”
“No,” she quickly denied. “Never.”
“Then how?”
She glared at him before walking to the deck railing. “You’re a doctor,” she said without looking at him. “You tell me.”
Oral contraceptive pills weren’t failproof. Every year thousands of babies attested to that.
“But…” Damn it. He didn’t want to be a father. Didn’t want to risk facing what he’d gone through with Cailee. Unable to sit still, James stood, paced across the deck.
A baby. He and Melissa were going to have a baby, be parents.
Sweat covered his body. Nausea belted him in the gut. This couldn’t be real.
Dear Reader
While sneaking my mother’s Mills & Boon® novels, I fell in love with romance and dreamed of a world full of hope—where good triumphs over evil, and where the girl always gets her man. Since then, I’ve dreamed of creating stories that touch readers’ hearts.
With THE DOCTOR’S PREGNANCY BOMBSHELL, I’ve realised my dream to write for Mills & Boon and I can’t stop grinning.
Writing a Medical™ Romance combines two of my passions: writing and nursing. Caring for patients enriches me daily with a fresh appreciation for life and just how precious it truly is. In my fantasy world I have the ability to give everyone a fairy tale ending—and don’t we all deserve the hope of a happily-ever-after?
Like Melissa, I work in a small rural practice where everyone knows everyone. And, also like Melissa, I take my patients and their problems to heart. Fortunately, I have my own real-life hero and family to keep me balanced.
I love to hear from readers. Please e-mail me at [email protected], write to me care of Mills & Boon, or visit me at my website www.janicelynn.net.
Janice Lynn
THE DOCTOR’S PREGNANCY BOMBSHELL
BY
JANICE LYNN
Janice Lynn has a Masters in Nursing from Vanderbilt University, and works as a nurse practitioner in a family practice. She lives in the southern United States with her husband, their four children, their Jack Russell—appropriately named Trouble—and a lot of unnamed dust bunnies that have moved in since she started her writing career. To find out more about Janice and her writing, visit www.janicelynn.com
This is Janice’s first book!
To Dr. Leon Reuhland for his unwavering support and guidance, for being a real-life hero to me and to his patients.
CONTENTS
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER ONE
ONE line equals negative. Two lines equal positive.
Two lines.
Leaning against the wall of her private bathroom, Dr Melissa Conner stared in disbelief at the plastic pregnancy kit in her shaking hand. Two lines.
There had to be a mistake.
She couldn’t be pregnant. Not really. Although she’d longed for a baby for as long as she could remember, she religiously took those little peach tablets meant to prevent little blue lines from multiplying. She hadn’t missed a single dose.
Fighting a joy she had no right to feel under the circumstances, she grabbed the instructions. Perhaps she’d remembered the directions wrong.
Two blue lines meant negative. For James’s sake, it had to.
The words remained the same.
She slid down the wall onto the cold tile floor with a soft thud. She’d foolishly thought stress had caused the three missed periods and frequent bathroom trips that prompted her to take a pregnancy test that morning. Deep down she’d known the truth, but had been in denial. She was going to have a baby.
James’s baby.
Her free hand went to her flat stomach. Dr James Stanley’s baby grew inside her. The thought thrilled her and scared her all at the same time.
Oh, God, what would he think? He’d stressed over and over how important her birth control was, how much he didn’t want children and never would.
From the time they had become involved, James had always been conscientious about contraceptive use. She hadn’t minded. She’d had no more of a desire to unintentionally become a parent than James. But she had dreamed of her and James eventually marrying, having babies and the whole nine yards.
He’d quickly burst that bubble. He didn’t want kids. Ever. Had explained in great, logical detail all the reasons why bringing a baby into the world would just be wrong.
Since being with James meant more than giving birth, she’d set her dreams aside and decided she’d be content to have a wonderful, caring man in her life. To distract herself from the growing longing inside her for the family she’d never had, she’d focused on another dream. Medicine.
James had continued to use a condom after they’d moved in together over a year and a half ago and had only stopped using the extra protection a few months back.
Maybe that decision had been premature.
Or the answer to her prayers that he’d change his mind about kids before her biological clock quit ticking.
“Melissa?” her nurse, Debbie, called through the bathroom door. “You feeling OK? You’ve been in there a while.”
Her grip on the white rectangular test kit tightened. She glanced at her watch. The hands barely read eight, but no doubt the lobby was filled with patients.
“I’m fine,” she called. “Just stretching my legs.”
Stretching her legs? In the bathroom? Couldn’t she have thought of something more believable? Her gaze dropped to the square window with the distinct blue lines, as in plural. No, perhaps she couldn’t have.
She leapt up and stuffed the test and the instructions into their box before sticking the entire kit inside the large black purse that doubled as her medical bag.
She’d deal with this later. She had patients waiting.
But, first, unable to resist, she placed her palm against her lower abdomen and smiled.
A baby. She was going to get a family after all.
Pasting on a professional mask, she opened the bathroom door and rushed past Debbie before her friend could ask questions.
Until she talked to James, she didn’t have answers for her own questions, much less someone else’s.
Later that morning Melissa stared out her office window at the sunshine glinting off the row of cars in the parking lot, giving everything a shiny gleam. In stark contrast to the beautiful day, her emotions were stormy.
The lump in Jamie Moss’s breast wasn’t merely a cyst, as hoped. The thirty-six-year-old brittle diabetic had invasive carcinoma of the left breast.
Knowing she’d delayed too long already, Melissa turned from the window and picked up the chart off her desk.
No more delays. She was a professional and would help Jamie get through the difficult days ahead. It was only because of her already intense emotional state that she wanted to leave the office rather than give the young woman her diagnosis.
The moment she stepped into the exam room, her eyes collided with the pretty blonde’s puffy ones and Melissa once again fought back tear
s.
Before she could speak, Jamie sniffled.
“I have cancer, don’t I?” asked the shaking woman. She’d struggled to keep it together since her husband had died unexpectedly the year before of a massive heart attack.
Melissa hadn’t particularly liked the man, but forty-three seemed too young to die. She dropped the chart onto the counter, sat on the stool, and took Jamie’s hand.
“I’m sorry, but the tests don’t look good. The radiologist says the mass I felt in your breast is cancer. I’ve talked with a surgeon, and he’s going to see you in the morning to discuss your options. I suspect he’ll recommend chemotherapy to shrink the tumor, and then he’ll do a mastectomy. That means he’ll remove your breast.”
Jamie’s arms crossed over her chest, protectively hugging her breasts.
“I can’t go tomorrow.” Tears streaming down her face, she shook her head in denial of much more than just the appointment date. “I don’t have anyone to watch the girls.”
Melissa ached at the weight of the burdens this woman carried. Jamie’s hands wrenched together. School wouldn’t start again for another two weeks and she had daughters aged five and thirteen. Rarely did a week go by that Melissa didn’t see either Jamie or her family. Over the years, she’d grown to think of the woman as much more than just a patient.
Last year, when Jamie’s husband had died, Melissa worried her depressed friend wouldn’t recover, but with help she had. Now this. Life could be so cruel.
“What about your sister? Could she go with you?” The advantage to working in a small rural practice was that she knew everything about everyone.
“She can’t take time off work. She missed so much with me after Roger died that she’s on probation. If she misses any more days, they’ll fire her.”
Melissa had no family. Until James she’d never felt connected to another person, like she belonged. If not for him, she’d be just as alone as Jamie, dealing with a totally different issue, but one just as life-changing.
What would she do if he really didn’t want their baby?
“I could put her on family medical leave,” Melissa offered, to keep from dwelling on her unwanted thoughts. Of course James would want their baby. Once he got used to the idea.
“I don’t think that will matter.” Jamie’s voice sounded hollow, defeated. “But I’ll let her know.”
“I’ll call Dr Arnold and tell him you may bring the girls with you.” She squeezed her hand, wishing she could somehow give Jamie the strength she needed to get through this. “Regardless,” she continued, “you need someone to go with you. You shouldn’t face this alone.”
“If my sister can’t go, there isn’t anyone,” Jamie reminded her.
Sadly, Melissa knew this was the truth. Because of Jamie’s mentally and emotionally abusive husband, she’d lived an isolated life prior to his death. Since then she’d struggled to make ends meet and take care of her girls. She didn’t have time for making friends and her only relief from isolation consisted of trips to Melissa’s, the school, the welfare office, and the grocery store for necessities.
“I’m going to call Brother Howard and see if one of the ladies from church can go with you.” Melissa had called on Brother Howard a few times in the past when she’d come across a patient in dire straits. He’d never let her down. “He’ll arrange for someone trustworthy to drive you to the appointment and sit with the girls while you’re talking with Dr Arnold tomorrow. I can’t promise anything for future visits, but I think he’ll be able to help tomorrow. Would that be OK?”
Her lower lip trembling, Jamie nodded. Melissa spent another fifteen minutes with Jamie, trying to answer questions and offer assurances that Dr Arnold would do all that could be done.
The rest of Melissa’s morning flew by. Mostly with seeing patients with runny noses; itchy, watery eyes; and sneezing. Living in middle Tennessee, where the pollen count soared, meant she spent a lot of time counseling on allergies and sinusitis symptoms.
“You look wiped out,” Debbie commented when she walked into Melissa’s office carrying two phone messages from the small local pharmacy. “Jamie seemed to take the news OK, though. She kept it together when she collected the girls.” Knowing the news Melissa had had to deliver, Debbie had kept Jamie’s daughters entertained in the nurses’ station. “I offered to have Ramona look after the girls if she needs help.”
“Is Ramona off work tomorrow?” Debbie’s daughter worked at the only grocery store in town, the Piggly Wiggly, better known as “The Pig”. The teenager would be starting her senior year in two short weeks.
“Yes. I gave Jamie my number. She’s going to call if Brother Howard is unable to arrange someone.”
Melissa nodded. One of the things she loved about Sawtooth was how people cared about each other. Having grown up in big-city foster-care, she’d missed out on the hometown warmth she now enjoyed being a part of. Actually, it could be argued that she’d missed out on warmth altogether.
“So, what gives?” Debbie dropped the messages onto Melissa’s desk, then pinned her with a stare. “Besides Jamie, because I know something is bothering you. I can see it on your face.”
Of course, there was also the hometown nosiness where people thought they had a right to know every minute detail of your life.
“Nothing’s bothering me,” she lied, knowing she needed to talk with James before anyone else. “Just a little tired.”
“Yummy Dr James keeping you up too late?”
Hardly.
He’d been working more and more lately. She hadn’t complained. It was easier to hide how nauseous she was when they only spent a few hours together here and there. Because she had been hiding her symptoms. From James and from herself. Facing them meant facing decisions she didn’t want to make. Like what she’d do if the most important person in her life didn’t change his mind about wanting a baby.
“He worked the emergency room shift at Vanderbilt last night and had late meetings the night before. I’ve not seen him for a couple of days.” Not wanting to go into more details, she picked up her messages, skimming their content. One was a routine medication refill request, the other a newer patient who Melissa suspected of being a drug seeker.
Debbie’s eyes narrowed. “Are you and Super Doctor getting along OK?”
“We’re fine.” Except James didn’t want kids and, according to the two blue lines, he was going to be a daddy. She closed her eyes, envisioning a little boy with James’s dimples or a little girl with his dark hair and blue eyes. A baby. Her heart squeezed.
Memories of them volunteering at Vanderbilt Children’s Hospital last Christmas played through her mind. The children had swarmed all over James while he’d entertained them with corny jokes and silly magic tricks that Melissa still hadn’t quite figured out. She’d laughed so hard at him that her eyes had watered. Only now, with the clarity of hindsight, did she see that those tears had been much more. She’d wanted that. James playing with children. Their children. That night they’d argued, but James had refused to budge on his views. No kids. She’d told herself it was OK that he didn’t want children, that just having him was enough.
If James persisted in not wanting their child, she’d have to learn to accept it. Regardless, she wouldn’t ever let her baby have to deal with the feelings of being uncared for that Melissa herself had faced as a child.
“Stretching again?”
Melissa blinked. “What?”
Tucking a short strand of chestnut hair behind an ear, Debbie cocked her hip against the desk. “Thought you might be stretching your eyes the way you were stretching those long legs this morning.”
Not meeting her friend’s eyes, she shuffled through some papers on her desk. “Like I said, I’m just tired.”
Debbie shook her head and sighed. “OK, but when you’re ready to talk, know I’m here for you.”
Dr James Stanley turned his Mustang into the driveway of the house he shared with Melissa. God, he was tired of this dri
ve.
Between his two twenty-four-hour shifts a week in Vanderbilt’s emergency room, his research, and his teaching stint for the university, he kept a full slate in Nashville. Living an hour away was damned inconvenient, but he couldn’t convince Melissa to transfer from her small-town practice.
Life would be much simpler if she’d agree to take a job with the university like he wanted.
Sometimes he thought he’d made life too easy by moving in with her. Had he stayed in Nashville, perhaps she’d have seen the advantages of living in the city.
Instead, she’d hinted that she’d like him to join her practice—like he wanted to do pap smears and tonsil checks all day.
No, he liked the grittiness of working in a major trauma hospital. An emergency room to where the worst of the worst were airlifted. He liked the challenge of taking a broken body and putting it back together. Like today, he’d worked two code blues and revived both flatline victims. He lived to stare death in the face and snatch a person back from its greedy grip.
He couldn’t get that in a Podunk, Sawtooth, family practice that was already sucking all Melissa’s energy, not to mention her time.
He missed her. The way she looked at him when she wanted his attention but didn’t want to interrupt whatever he was doing. The way she sang to herself in the shower when she thought he couldn’t hear. The way her eyes lit up when their gazes met and he’d wink, letting her know how special she was. The way she melted in his arms when they touched. He missed everything about her.
Rarely did they spend an uninterrupted evening together these days. The phone would ring and Melissa always took the calls. Always rushed to whoever’s rescue. Some nights he never saw her, which made the time he spent on the road useless.
More and more he opted to sleep over at a friend’s apartment when he became engrossed in his research and time slipped away. But once he was home, he was home.
That’s what he liked about the emergency room. He patched ’em up and moved on to the next cubicle. Melissa thought she was supposed to be on twenty-four seven call to her patients’ every whim.