by John Fowles
By eleven they were en route. The girls walked ahead with baskets, down a long forest ride; and David walked behind with the old man, carrying a folding blue recliner on an aluminium frame--portable sofa for the senile, as Breasley disparagingly called it, but the Mouse had insisted on its being brought. He walked with a coat folded over his arm, a raffish old widebrimmed panama on his head; engagingly seigneurial, pointing at shadows with his walking-stick; lights, special perspective qualities of 'his' forest. The visit had been allowed to return to its proper purpose. The silence, the rather strange lack of birds; how did one get silence into paint? The theatre now, didn't David notice the quality of empty stage?
David was rather more noticing that all this could be used in his introduction. Anyone who has had the good fortune to walk with the master, no, with Henry Breasley in his beloved forest of Paimpont, that still potent evocation... the haze had gone, it was surprisingly warm, more like August than September, a peerless day; one couldn't actually write like that. But he was still basking--realizing his baptism of fire had been a blessing in disguise--in the old man's determined good graces. The importance, pervasive in the mood if tenuous in the actual symbolism, of Breton medieval literature in the Coëtminais series was generally accepted now, though David had not been able to trace much public clarification from Breasley himself on the real extent of the influence. He had read the subject up cursorily before coming, but now he played a little ignorant; and discovered Breasley to be rather more learned and lettered than his briskly laconic manner at first sound suggested. The old man explained in his offhand way the sudden twelfth- and thirteenth-century mania for romantic legends, the mystery of island Britain ('sort of Wild Northern, what, knights for cowboys') filtering all over Europe via its French namesake; the sudden preoccupation with love and adventure and the magical, the importance of the once endless forest--of which the actual one they were walking in, Paimpont now, but the Brocéliande of the lais of Chrétien de Troyes, was an example--as the matrix for all these goings-on; the breaking-out of the closed formal garden of other medieval art, the extraordinary yearning symbolized in these wandering horsemen and lost damsels and dragons and wizards, Tristan and Merlin and Lancelot 'All damn' nonsense,' said Breasley. 'Just here and there, don't you know, David. What one needs. Suggestive. Stimulating, that's the word.' Then he went off on Marie de France and Eliduc. 'Damn' good tale. Read it several times. What's that old Swiss bamboozler's name. Jung, yes? His sort of stuff. Archetypal and all that.'
Ahead, the two girls turned off on a diagonal and narrower ride, more shady. Breasley and David followed some forty yards behind. The old man waved his stick.
'Those two gels now. Two gels in Eliduc.'
He began to tell its story. But consciously or unconsciously his distinctly shorthand manner of narration was more reminiscent of a Noel Coward farce than a noble medieval tale of crossed love, and once or twice David had to bite his lips. Nor did the actual figures of the two girls, the Freak in a red shirt, black dungarees and wellingtons, the Mouse in a dark green jersey (all bras were not burnt, David had noted) and pale trousers, help. More and more he realized the truth of what the latter had said: the old man's problem was an almost total inadequacy with words. If he didn't always cheapen, he certainly misrepresented everything he talked about. One had to keep remembering the way he could express himself in paint; and the gap was enormous. The art predicated a sensitive and complex man; and almost everything outward in him denied it. Though he would have loathed the comparison he was not unlike a certain kind of outdated Royal Academician much more anxious to appear a stylish pillar of a dead society than to be anything that serious art was about. That was very probably one good reason for the continued exile: the old man must know his persona would never wash in the Britain of the 1970s- Only here could he still preserve it. Of course these were all things one could not put in the introduction, but David found them fascinating. Like the forest itself, the old man had his antique mysteries.
They came up to the two girls, who had stopped. It was a question of the point to leave the path and strike away through the trees to the forest pool that was the promised picnic place. There was a marker oak, a trunk with a dab of red paint. The Mouse thought they had missed it, but the old man made them go on; and rightly. In another hundred yards or so they arrived at the oak, and began to walk down a faint incline among the trees. The undergrowth became denser, they glimpsed the first water ahead; and a few minutes later they emerged on the grassy edge of the etang. It was much more a small lake than a pool, four hundred yards or more across at the point where they came to it and curving away on both sides. A dozen or so wild duck roosted in the middle. The forest stood all around its shores, not a house in sight; the water a delicate blue in the September sunlight, smooth as a mirror. The place had featured in two of the lastperiod paintings and David had a sense of familiarity, of de9‰ vu. It was very charming, miraculously unspoilt. They installed themselves in the thin shade of a solitary fir-tree. The reclining chair was set for Breasley. He seemed grateful for it now, sat down at once and put his legs up; then made them adjust the back to a more upright position.
'Come on, you two. Off with your knickers and have your bathe.'
The Freak slid a look at David, then away.
'We're shy.'
'You'll swim, won't you, David? Keep 'em company?'
David looked for guidance from the Mouse, but she was bent over one of the baskets. He felt grossly unforewarned this time. Swimming had not been mentioned.
'Well... perhaps later?'
'You see,' said the Freak.
'Not bleeding or anything, are you?'
'Oh Henry. For God's sake.'
'Married man, m'dear. Seen pussy before.'
The Mouse straightened and gave David a little glance, half apologetic, half wry.
'Costumes are considered unethical. Wearing them makes us even more impossible than usual.'
But she lightened the taunt with a smile down at the old man.
David murmured, 'Of course.'
She looked at the Freak. 'Let's go out on the spit, Anne. The bottom's harder there.' She picked up a towel and began to walk away, but the Freak seemed now the more shy. She glanced resentfully at the two men.
'And easier for all the other dirty old birdwatchers.'
The old man chuckled, and she put out her tongue at him. But then she too picked up a towel and followed her friend.
'Sit down, dear boy. Only codding you. Shy my arse.'
David sat on the needled grass. He supposed that this had been sprung on him as a little demonstration of what they had to go through, though the previous night had seemed a conclusive enough witness to that. He felt teased, faintly conspired against: now it's our turn to shock you. The spit, a narrow little grasstopped promontory, ran out some sixty yards away. As the girls walked down it, the wild duck splashed off the middle of the lake and flew in a long curve up over the trees and away. The girls stopped near the end, and the Mouse began to peel off her jersey. When it was off she turned it outside out again, then dropped it and unhooked her bra. The Freak cast a little look back across the glassy water to where David and the old man sat, then kicked out of her wellingtons and slipped off one shoulder-strap of her dungarees. The Mouse reached down her jeans and briefs together, separated them, put them beside the rest of her clothes. She walked to the water and waded straight in. The other girl let her dungarees fall, then pulled off her shirt. She was wearing nothing else. As she too walked down to the water, she turned sideways to face the two men in the distance and gave a ridiculous flaunting sidestep, a strip-dancer's routine, arms out. The old man gave another throaty little chuckle and tapped David's arm with the side of his stick. He sat enthroned, like a sultan, watching his two young slaves, the two naked figures, warm backs against the azure water, as they waded out towards the centre of the lake. Apparently the bottom shelved slowly. But then the Mouse plunged forward and began to swim away; a crawl
, neatly, rather well. The Freak was more cautious, wading deeper, keeping her precious frizzed hair above the water; when she finally fell cautiously forward she did a timid breaststroke.
'Pity you're married,' said Breasley. 'They need a good fuck.'
By the time they were halfway through lunch, David felt a good deal more at his ease. It had all been rather stupid, his first embarrassment. If Beth had been there, for instance... they often swam like that on holidays themselves, even deliberately looked for deserted beaches, she would have joined the girls like a shot.
His recovery was partly due to the old man, who had started, once the two girls were swimming, talking again; or rather, at last, his ultimate proof of contrition, he asked David something about himself. The question of how and what he painted was avoided, but Breasley seemed interested to know how he had 'come into the game', his life and background; about Beth and the children. He even came out with an invitation: bring your wife and kids one day, like to meet 'em, like little gels... and David was vain enough to feel pleased. What had happened after dinner had been, rather in the medieval context they had discussed on the walk, a kind of ordeal. Very evidently he had passed the test; which left him wondering how much, besides the direct advice, he owed to the Mouse. She must have told the old man a few home truths when he woke up; and perhaps reminded him that his reputation was at least temporarily a little in David's hands.
Meanwhile the girls had come out of the water, dried themselves, and lay side by side in the sun on the spit. The ordeal had indeed been like a reef; and now David was through, after the buffeting, to the calm inner lagoon. Another echo, this time of Gauguin; brown breasts and the garden of Eden. Strange, how Coët and its way of life seemed to compose itself so naturally into such moments, into the faintly mythic and timeless. The uncontemporary. And then yet another such moment had come. The girls had stood. They must have come to some decision about modesty, or the cost of it before the old man's tongue, because they walked back as they were, carrying their clothes; without outward self-consciousness, now, but with something of that studied and improbable indifference of people in a nudist colony.
'Hey, we're hungry,' said the Freak.
The pubic was dyed the same red as her other hair. Naked, she looked even more waiflike. The girls began to unpack the baskets, kneeling in the sun, while David helped Breasley move nearer to the edge of the shade. Gauguin disappeared; and Manet took his place.
Soon, during the eating, the girls' bare bodies seemed natural. They seemed to still something in the old man as well. There were no more obscenities, but a kind of quiet pagan contentment. The lovely French bread, the little cartons of goodies the girls had brought back from Plélan... no wine, the old man drank Vichy water, the girls milk; a bottle of beer for David. The Freak sat cross-legged. Something about her, perhaps just the exotic hair and the darkness of her tan, was faintly negroid, aboriginal, androgynous. Psychologically she still repelled something in David, he couldn't quite say... but what began to seem very distinctly a kind of intelligent charity in the Mouse was shadowed in her by a fecklessness, a perversity. Though she made no cracks, one had the impression that the sexual implications of their behaviour both excited and amused her. It might be 'civilized' to the others; with her, and her not wholly concealed little air of knowingness, it was something else not a moral inhibition, of course, but a hint that she knew David was getting something for nothing; which went with his feeling that he had yet to prove himself with her. She still vaguely resented his presence. What he had to learn about her, beyond a little ability to debunk, a trendily shallow narcissism, a life-style that patently hid a life-failure, he could not imagine. She seemed so much a mere parasite on the other girl's poise and honesty; her only apparent virtue, that she was tolerated.
And perhaps she repelled him also by physical contrast. The Mouse, despite her slightness, had a much more feminine figure, long-legged, attractively firm small breasts. She sat up on one arm opposite David, her legs curled away. He watched her body when she turned to pass something, when he knew the direction of his eyes would not be caught. They talked banally enough; and once again the ghost of infidelity stalked through David's mind--not any consideration of its actuality, but if he hadn't been married, if Beth... that is to say, if Beth didn't sometimes have certain faults, an occasional brisk lack of understanding of him, an over-mundane practicality, which this attractively cool and honest young mistress of a situation would be too intelligent (for he saw in her something that he aimed at in his own painting, a detachment and at the same time a matter-of-factness) to show or at any rate to abuse. It wasn't that one didn't still find Beth desirable, that the idea of a spell together in France without the kids after Coët (hovering in it Beth's tacit re-acceptance of motherhood, a third child, the son they both wanted)... just that one was tempted. One might, if one wasn't what one was; and if it were offered--that is, it was a safe impossibility and a very remote probability away.
The lights of the Mouse's skin were bronzed where the sun caught it, duller yet softer in the shadows. The nipples, the line of the armpits. A healed scar on one of her toes. The way her wheaty hair was drying, slightly tangled, careless; and a smallness, a Quattrocento delicacy, the clothes and long skirts she wore were misleading; contrasted with an animality, the nest of hair between her legs. She sat sideways, facing the lake, and peeled an apple; passed a quarter back to the old man, then offered another to David. It was antiseptic; and disturbing.
Henry had to have his siesta. The Freak stood and let down the back of the recliner. Then she knelt beside the old man and whispered something in his ear. He reached out a hand to her waist and ran it slowly up to the arm, then drew her forward; and she leant over and touched his mouth with her own. He patted her bare bottom. Then he folded his hands across his stomach, while she arranged a purple handkerchief across his eyes. The fine mouth, the pink bulb of the nose. The girl stood and stared down at him for a moment, then grimaced back at the other two.
The Mouse smiled at David and murmured, 'Free period. We'd better go out of hearing.'
They stood. The two girls picked up their towels, and the Freak fished in one of the baskets and found her book. Then they walked back towards the spit, some thirty yards away, just out of earshot. The towels were spread, the girls both stretched out on their stomachs, feet towards the lake, chins propped on hands. David sat, then lay on an elbow, five or six feet away on the landward side. He had a brief and much more absurd recall of a painting: two little boys listening to an Elizabethan sailor. He could read the title of the Freak's book: The Magus. He guessed at astrology, she would be into all that nonsense. But now she suddenly grinned at him.
'Wish you hadn't come then?'
'Good lord no.'
'Di told me. Last night. I'm sorry. I knew, I just couldn't face it.'
He smiled. 'I'd have asked to get down myself if I'd realized.' The Freak touched two fingers to her mouth and transferred the kiss to the Mouse's shoulder.
'Poor old Di. I always leave it to her.'
Poor old Di smiled and looked down.
David said, 'How long do you think you'll last out?'
The Freak made a dry little gesture at the Mouse: for her to answer. She shook her head.
'I don't think about the future.'
'As an ex art-tutor 'I know.'
The Freak pulled another of her faces at David.
'Common sense will get you nowhere.'
The Mouse said, 'It's not that.'
'Just hard to leave?'
'Chance, I suppose. You know. It brought one here in the first place. And somehow it's got to take one away.'
'How did it bring you here?'
She glanced at the Freak: some secret irony.
'Go on. Tell him.'
'It's so stupid.' She avoided David's eyes.
He murmured, 'I'm all ears.'
She reached a hand down from her chin and picked at the grass; the shadowed breasts; shrugged.
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'Last summer. August. I was here, in France, with a friend. Another art student, a sculptor. He was on a Neolithic kick and we were hitching down to Carnac.' She looked up at David. 'The megalithic avenues? By pure chance we got a lift on the N24 out of Rennes from a school-teacher at Ploermel. Just down the road. We told him we were English art students and he told us about Henry. Of course we knew his name and everything, I even knew he lived somewhere in Brittany.' She raised the bottom of one of her legs in the air. The hollowed back, the delicate brown cheeks. She shook her head. 'It was just one of those absurd things. Let's be mad and knock on his door. So we camped at Paimpont. Turned up at Henry's about eleven the next morning. Pretending we hadn't seen the sign on the gate. Expecting the boot and nearly getting it. But we gushed like crazy. How much we loved his work. Inspiration to all our generation. All that. Suddenly he fell for it, we'd got a bloody nerve... you know. All this was at the door. So we got in and he showed us round a bit. The things in the long room. Most of the time we were trying not to laugh. That way he talks, he seemed such an old phony.' She stretched her hands out on the grass, contemplated them. 'Then the studio. I saw what he was doing. Perhaps you felt it yesterday. Bump. You're in a different world.' She propped her chin again, and stared into the trees behind them. 'You've spent three years getting all the right attitudes to painting. Knowing even less what you're doing at the end than you did at the beginning. Then you meet this ridiculous old ragbag of all the wrong attitudes. And he's there. All your own clever little triumphs and progresses are suddenly cut down to scale.' She said quickly, 'I'm sorry, I don't mean that you should have felt that. But I did.'
'No, I know exactly what you mean.'
She smiled. 'Then you shouldn't. You're much, much better than that.'
'I doubt it, but never mind.'