In the distance was a cotton field with the snowy fleece bursting richly from the pod, and sweeping down to the river’s edge was a large plantation of rice. Of course the labor of many slaves was required to keep such a large estate in thrifty order. The huts of these people were ranged on the back-side of the place, and as far from the habitation of their master as possible. They were built with far less reference to neatness and convenience than those in Virginia. They had not the little garden patch, the tiny yard with its bright flowers, or the comfortable home aspect of white- was washed walls. Then they were more crowded. There was not that division of families I had been accustomed to see, but they all lived promiscuously anyhow and every how; at least they did not die, which was a wonder. Is it a stretch of imagination to say that by night they contained a swarm of misery, that crowds of foul existence crawled in out of gaps in walls and boards, or coiled themselves to sleep on nauseous nauseous heaps of straw fetid with human perspiration and where the rain drips in, and the midnight dew imparts some and the damp airs of midnight fatch [fetch] and carry malignant fevers.
They said that many of these huts were old and ruinous with decay, that occasionally a crash, and a crowd of dust would be perceived among them, and that each time it was occasioned by the fall of one. But lodgings are found among the rubbish, and all goes on as before. Since if a head gets bruised or a limb broken, head and limbs are so plentiful that they seem of small account. So true it is that if a great man sneezes the world rings with it, but if a poor man dies no one notices or cares. Perhaps a fond wife and tender children shed a few natural tears, and then the one dries her eyes and begins to look around for another lord, while the others in the busy whirl of life would forget his name were it not their own. This is all the result of that false system which bestows on position, wealth, or power the consideration only due to a man. And this system is not confined to any one place, or country, or condition. It extends through all grades and classes of society from the highest to the lowest. It bans poor but honest people with the contemptuous appellation of “vulgar.” It subjects others under certain circumstances to a lower link in the chain of being than that occupied by a horse.
Many of these huts now very ancient They were even older than the nation, and had been occupied by successive generations of slaves. The greatest curse of slavery is it’s [sic] heriditary character. The father leaves to his son an inheritance of toil and misery, and his place on the fetid straw in the miserable corner, with no hope or possibility of anything better. And the son in his turn transmits the same to his offspring and thus forever.
If the huts were bad, the inhabitants it seemed were still worse. Degradation, neglect, and ill treatment had wrought on them its legitimate effects. All day they toil beneath the burning sun, scarcely conscious that any link exists between themselves and other portions of the human race. Their mental condition is briefly summed up in the phrase that they know nothing. care for nothing, and hope for nothing They know indeed that it is hard to toil unceasingly for a scanty pittance of food, and coarse garments; nature instructed them thus far.
What do you think of it? Doctors of Divinity Isn’t it a strange state to be like them. To shuffle up and down the lanes unfamiliar with the flowers, and in utter darkness as to the meaning of Nature’s various hieroglyphical symbols, so abundant on the trees, the skies, in the leaves of grass, and everywhere. To see people ride in carriages, to hear such names as freedom, heaven, hope and happiness and not to have the least idea how it must seem to ride, any more than what the experience of these blessed names would be. It must be a strange state to be prized just according to the firmness of your joints, the strength of your sinews, and your capability of endurence. To be made to feel that you have no business here, there, or anywhere except just to work—work—work—And yet to know that you are here somehow, with once in a great while like a straggling ray in a dark place a faint aspiration for something better, or gli with a glimpse, a mere glimpse of something beyond. It must be a strange state to feel that in the judgement of those above you you are scarcely human, and to fear that their opinion is more than half right, that you really are assimilated to the brutes, that the horses, dogs and cattle have quite as many priveledges, and are probably your equals or it may be your superiors in knowledge, that even your shape is questionable as belonging to that order of superior beings whose delicacy you offend.
It must be strange to live in a world of civilisation and, elegance, and refinement, and yet know nothing about either, yet that is the way with multitudes and with none more than the slaves. The Constitution that asserts the right of freedom and equality to all mankind is a sealed book to them, and so is the Bible, that tells how Christ died for all; the bond as well as the free.
Mr Wheeler had neglected his plantation as well as his slaves for several reasons. In the first place he didn’t think it worth while to take much pains with such brutalised specimens of humanity. They could work just as well, and it might be even better to leave them alone in their degradation. than to He expected nothing of them but toil. He wanted nothing else. Their ideas were not a whit above their condition which might be, were a reformation in their manners to be attempted. So the steward only received an injunction to keep the mater’s residence in a manner comporting with the family dignity, to see that the vines were properly trained, the flowers tended and especially to look after the figs and pomegranates. Alas that fruits and flowers should claim more consideration than human souls.
In the second place an office was his hobby. He preferred to live at the public expense. Life in the Federal Capital and an office was the most he cared for, and while intriguing and speculating and striving to get a moiety of the public business into his hands his private affairs were suffered to run to waste. Of course the family residence was stocked with slaves of a higher and nobler order than those belonging to the fields. They were better dressed, better provided for and better looking. It was necessary that those surrounding the person of the Mistress should have nothing offensive or disgusting about them. It was necessary, not for him but her, that the coachman should be cleanly and well kept, that the cook should be neat, with well washed hands and a snowy apron, and that all her attendants should well understand their part and preserve appearances. Yet I thought they exhibited little pleasure on the return of their master and mistress. Their [there] was no hardy demonstrations of delight, but merely a cold formal welcome scarcely removed from positive indifference or something worse.
There was one however, a girl named Maria, who having been a favorite of Mrs Wheeler in other days greatly resented my advancement to the situation of waiting maid, and I saw at once that I had to deal with a wary, powerful, and unscrupulous enemy. She was a dark mulatto, very quick motioned with black snaky eyes, and hair of the same color. Yet she was an adept in the art of dissembling and her countenance would be the smoothest and her words the fairest when she contemplated the greatest injury. For a long time I strove by every means in my power, by kindness, attention, and good-will to soften her animosity, but she turned from me with hatred and bitterness, and even mocked my efforts at reconciliation, and a good understanding.
I soon ascertained that gradually yet surely she was supplanting me in Mrs Wheeler’s favor. When the lady desired some personal service she no longer summoned me, but Maria. Her conversations were all with Maria; her presents were all to Maria. She scarcely noticed me at all, while I vainly wondered in what I had offended.
One day Mrs Wheeler called me to her apartment. I perceived at the first glimpse of her countenance that she was very angry.
“Hannah” she said “there can be no use of any preamble between me and you. You have disobeyed my positive commands, exposed me to the derision of my slaves, and made my name the subject of neighborhood scandal. Fool that I was to have ever retained such a viper in my family.”
There was nothing languid in her manner now. Her voice was loud and agitated, and her frame trembled with excessive
passion.
“My dear Mistress” I began. “You greatly surprise me. How have I done all this?”
“Don’t ask me how? You know well enough. Oh; you needn’t put on that aggrieved and innocent look. I’ve seen hypocrites before.”
“Very likely, and will again I presume. But the child unborn knows quite as well to what you allude as I do.”
“You don’t pretend to say that you haven’t told to all the servants in this house the misfortune that happened to me at Washington.”
Her allusion to that ludicrous circumstance actually forced me to smile. Had the penalty been some dreadful punishment I could not have helped it. This roused her to a perfect fury. She broke out in language unsuitable for any lady, and snatching a chair hurled it with all her force at my head. I stooped to escape the blow when it passed over me, and shivered to pieces against the door. I rose and attempted to retire.
“Stay” she cried. “I have not done with you yet, base ungrateful wretch that you are. What punishment do you think ought to be awarded you?”
“I have deserved no punishment” I replied calmly.
“No punishment, eh, for basely betraying the confidence of your Mistress.”
“I have not betrayed your confidence, having never mentioned to a solitary soul the incident of which you speak.”
“Now don’t tell lies, Hannah. I thought you to be a very good Christian” she said tantalizingly.
“However that may be I have told you no lies.”
“Now Hannah there is no use sense in your denial of this fact. You have told it, and I know it, else how did Maria, and the other servants hear of it?”
“That I cannot tell, though probably they might.”
“They have told, they accuse you.”
[“]Well, I am innocent, in the face of heaven and earth I am innocent. I am the victim of a conspiracy. Maria does not certainly say that I told her when we have scarcely spoken together for months. I saw from the first that she hated me” and I burst into tears.
“You can weep now” said Mrs Wheeler “now that your baseness has been discovered, but it will do you no good, my resolution is unalterably fixed. You shall depart from the house, and go into the fields to work. Those brutalized creatures in the cabins are fit companions for one so vile. You can herd with them. Bill, who comes here sometimes has seen and admires you. In fact he asked you of Mr Wheeler for his wife, and his wife you shall be.”
“Never” I exclaimed rashly and hastily, and without thought of the consequences. “Never.”
“Do you dare to disobey” she almost shrieked. “With all your pretty airs and your white face, you are nothing but a slave after all, and no better than the blackest wench. Your pride shall be broke, your haughty spirit brought down, and now get you gone, and prepare to change your lodgings and employment.”
“What preparation shall I make?”
“Why, bundle up some of your coarsest clothes. The best and finest I have given to Maria. Then go to the overseer and he will place you.”
“Mistress” I began and fell on my knees.
She spurned me contemptuously with her foot. “Begone, I want none of your blarney.”
I arose silently, and left the room.
Retreating to the loneliest garret in the house I sate [sat] down to weep, and pray, and meditate. I had never felt so lonely and utterly desolate. Accused of a crime of which I was innocent, my reputation with my Mistress blackened, and most horrible of all doomed to association with the vile, foul, filthy inhabitants of the huts, and condemned to receive one of them for my husband my soul actually revolted with horror unspeakable. I had ever regarded marriage as a holy ordinance, and felt that its responsibilities could only be suitably discharged when they were voluntarily assumed.
CHAPTER 17
Escape
In Thee is my trust.
PSALMS
I hear a voice you cannot hear
Which says I must not stay
I see a hand you cannot see
Which beckons me away
TICKELL
Had Mrs Wheeler condemned me to the severest corporeal punishment, or exposed me to be sold in the public slave market in Wilmington I should probably have resigned myself with apparent composure to her cruel behests. But when she sought to force me into a compulsory union with a man whom I could only hate and despise it seemed that rebellion would be a virtue, that duty to myself and my God actually required it, and that whatever accidents or misfortunes might attend my flight nothing could be worse than what threatened my stay.
Marriage like many other blessings I considered to be especially designed for the free, and something that all the victims of slavery should avoid as tending essentially to perpetuate that system. Hence to all overtures of that kind from whatever quarter they might come I had invariably turned a deaf ear. I had spurned domestic ties not because my heart was hard, but because it was my unalterable resolution never to entail slavery on any human being. And now when I had voluntarily renounced the society of those I might have learned to love should I be compelled to accept one, whose person, and speech, and manner could not fail to be ever regarded by me with loathing and disgust. Then to be driven in to the fields beneath the eye and lash of the brutal overseer, and those miserable huts, with their promiscuous crowds of dirty, obscene and degraded objects, for my home I could not, I would not bear it.
Yet I feared haste or rashness. I wished to do right and determined to be guided by the Holy book of God. I had a little Bible, one that Aunt Hetty had given me, a plain simple common book, with leather binding, and leaves brown with age. It was well worn and thumbed, too, with neither margin, nor notes, nor quotations, but the precious word itself was their [there] and that was enough.
I opened it as chance directed but immediately at the place where Jacob fled from his brother Esau. The sceptic may smile, but to me it had a deep and peculiar meaning. “Yes” I mentally exclaimed. “Trusting in the God that guided and protected him I will abandon this house, and the Mistress who would force me into a crime against nature.” As I have observed before nothing but this would have impelled me to flight. Dear as freedom is to every human being, and bitter as servitude must be to all who experience it I knew too much of the dangers and difficulties to be apprehended from running away ever to have attempted such a thing through ordinary motives.
Shutting my precious Bible and placing it in my bosom I meditated a plan of escape. I had no friends in whom I could confide. I was surrounded by watchful prying eyes. The blood-hounds would doubtless be set on my track. I confess the way looked dark, the scheme almost hopeless, but I remembered the Hebrew Children and Daniel in the Lion’s den, and felt that God could protect and preserve me through all.
Determining, however, to feign submission at first I went the next morning and placed myself under the command of the overseer. It was toilsome and weary work. My fingers unused to such employment blistered and bled, and towards night I grew faint with the unwonted exertion. But there was no one to pity or assist me. Bill, indeed, who had sought the favor of becoming my husband came towards me with a hedious grin, meant for a smile, and inquired what he could do for me. I hastily repulsed him with “Nothing, nothing, only leave me. I shall be better directly.”
The overseer came up. He was a short thick-set big-headed man, with a countenance grossly sensual and repulsive. His little eyes set far back in his head, gleamed beneath shaggy overhanging brows, like glow-worms beneath the jutting buttress of a rock, his thick lips were always parted over teeth yellow and dirty with tobacco, and his person was extremely offensive and indelicate from want of cleanliness.
“A[i]n’t much used to such as this” he said taking my bleeding fingers in his coarse hands. “But will be after awhile. I’ve seen many a gal likely as you put into the fields to work, though she had never done a hand’s turn before. We must all come to it sooner or later.”
Bill kept hanging around, and would occasionally stop working t
o look at me. The overseer observed this, and beckoned him to approach. “You seem interested in Hannah” he remarked. “Now take her to your cabin, she has, I believe, finished her task.[”] Bill’s eyes sparkled with delight, and I was too weak and weary, too dispirited and overcome to offer resistance.
Bill’s cabin was in the midst of the range of huts, tenanted by the workers in the fields. In front was a large pool of black mud and corrupt water, around which myriads of flies and insects were whirling and buzzing. I went in, but such sights and smells as met me I cannot describe them. It was reeking with filth and impurity of every kind, and already occupied by near a dozen women and children, who were sitting on the ground, or coiled on piles of rags and straw in the corner. They regarded me curiously as I entered, grinned with malicious satisfaction that I had been brought down to their level, and made some remarks at my expense; while the children kicked, and yelled, and clawed each other, scratching each other’s faces, and pulling each other’s hair I stumbled to a bench I supposed designed for a seat, when one of the woman [sic] arose, seized me by the hair, and without ceremony dragged me to the ground, gave me a furious kick and made use of highly improper and indecent language. Bill, who had retired to the outside of the hut, hearing the noise of the fray came hastily in. It was his turn then. He commenced beating her with a hearty good-will, and she scratched and bit him, furiously. In the rough and tumble they knocked over two or three of the children, besides treading on the toes of some of the women, who irritated by the pain started up and joined the contest which soon became general.
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