I told him about the Indian she had killed trying to crawl into the wagon. "And that wasn't the only one," I told him. "She can shoot."
"I'll be damned. You'd think she'd faint at the sight of blood."
"Not her," I said.
Late in the afternoon we slowed the pace and let the horses scatter out a bit. There was good grass in that little basin, and some water. They ate and they drank a little, and we moved them on.
Alejandro came up to us just as we were going into camp. There was an old horse corral, half of natural boulders and pieced out with poles. We let them graze a little more and then bunched them into the corral. There was room enough for all of them, but not much more. Each of us roped another horse and picketed them outside for easy access in case of trouble. I chose a dark dapple-gray that I had been watching.
Martin put together a small fire and Francisco squatted on his heels nearby.
"They come," Francisco said.
"You've seen them?"
"They come. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow."
Well, we had understood that. We had known they would come, and we were ready, as ready as anyone can be. When it was not quite dark, I took my rifle and went down to the corral with a couple of tortillas. I fed half of one to the mare, with the black stallion looking on. I held out a piece to him and he took a step forward, then shied away. The mare wanted it, but I would not give it to her. Francisco came over to me. "There are Mohaves out there."
Surprised, I said, "Mohaves? Indians?"
"St Maybe ten, maybe twelve."
Mohaves, too? I thought about that. Were they working with Fletcher? Or were they on their own? More likely the latter, but if so, did Fletcher know they were there?
When I had taken a circle around the area, I went back to the fire, took my coffee, some tortillas, and jerky, and backed off from the firelight.
When Jacob came over, I told him what Francisco had said. He squatted on his heels beside me, and Monte came over, too.
"What d'you think?" Monte asked.
"I say we catch an hour's sleep, then get the herd down the trail. Alejandro just came in and he says there is a good place with grass and a seep of water down the trail about an hour's drive. We can leave the fire burning low." Jacob straightened up. "I'll go tell the boys."
He glanced at me. "That set all right with you?"
"It does." I drew the back of my hand across my mouth and looked up at the stars. There would be light enough. Ramon came in from the darkness. The blackened coffeepot still sat by the coals. He took his cup and filled it and came and sat near me.
He sipped his coffee as the others scattered to what they must do. "What is it you wish?" he asked.
"To be a complete man."
"And what is that?"
"I do not know yet. One lives so long to learn so little." "So you will come again to the desert and the mountains?"
"I will." I looked off toward the east, where the morning would begin, and then to the west, where along the distant mountains we would see the first light.
I was thinking then of Meghan, but I was remembering the vanishing books. I spoke abruptly. "Do you know the house of Tahquitz? Where I live?"
"I know it." He sipped his coffee and was silent, watching the rim of the mountains for the first light. "Of course it is not Tahquitz," he said then, almost impatiently. "Of course," I agreed; then added, "They say he is a monster."
Ramon shrugged. "Which of as is not a monster to something else? To the ant in my path, I am a monster. Do you think this Tahquitz a monster?"
"No," I said. "He reads. No one who reads can quite be a monster. Or," I added, "perhaps he is only partially a monster."
"I cannot read."
"But you think," I said, "and you listen."
The Cahuillas were in the saddle. I got up and walked over to the dark dapple-gray and saddled up. The stallion was watching. "One of these days," I said to him, "this saddle will be for you."
He snorted and tossed his head, almost as if he understood, which might have been nonsense.
We trailed the horses off down the dim track, with Monte and me bringing up the rear again. Francisco fell back beside us, holding his rifle.
Then suddenly from far behind us there was a quick rattle of distant firing. Sharp, quick explosions, very close together. Francisco turned in his saddle and looked back, but all was still darkness and we could see nothing. We heard other firing, but much less, and then silence, and after a bit, a single shot.
Death had come in the morning, death blowing gently across the hills like a breeze at dawn.
Had those who died been ready? Was one ever ready? Monte glanced at me. "Maybe we won't have trouble after all."
"Not now," I agreed, "not this time."
The Mohaves and Fletcher's men. But somehow, I knew, not Fletcher.
Somehow I knew he was for me or I was for him, yet I said nothing of that.
"Come on," I said. "Let's go to Los Angeles!"
"Somebody would think you had a girl there," Monte said, smiling.
"I have," I said, and then I smiled, too. "Only she doesn't know it."
"You never know about a woman," Monte said. "You never know."
Chapter 35
How long the green, green valley! How veiled with distant haze the hills beyond!
From the back of the dark dapple my eyes searched out the place where the pass was, so narrow a pass, so small an opening, and so much a place where trouble might be. The horses were tired now, and they had found their places in the pecking order of the herd. The old mare still led and the rest trailed out behind, only my black stallion aloof, alone, watchful but accepting, too. He was growing accustomed to the long drives, to the night camps, to the presence of men whom he had come to recognize and not to fear.
"Will the Mohaves follow us? Or will they go back?" Francisco shrugged. "Who knows? They lost men, I think."
Of course. There had been much shooting, and all the shots could not have missed, so they might have turned back, no longer sure of their medicine, even though they had probably won.
At noon I changed horses and took from the herd a sturdy bay with a black mane and tail. He had been ridden but little, and when I hit the saddle he ran forward, stopped suddenly, then, switching ends, spun in a tight circle. I stayed with him, rather enjoying it, and when he quit, I patted him on the neck and said, "Take it easy, boy, it's going to be a long day."
He was a good horse, a tough horse, and he moved well. He was very quick to pick up any horse that started to cut out from the herd.
We saw an old cow and two lean steers coming down a trail from the green hills. I watched them along a narrow trail, wondering how they could make it at all, yet they did, with no more trouble than so many mountain goats.
At night we made camp in the open, not liking it very much, but the valley was wide and flat and we were hours from the pass that opened into the hills. From here on we would be climbing slowly. Atop a small rise I studied our back trail and all the country we had left behind. I saw no dust, no sign of movement.
We had only a rope corral, but when we had eaten I took a tortilla and walked down to the corral and stood near the black stallion. He tossed his head and watched me from the corners of his eyes, but after a bit I moved closer and held out the tortilla to him.
He showed no interest, so I let my hand fall, waiting. After a bit I edged closer and held it out again. Tentatively he stretched his neck toward me, sniffed, and drew sharply back, shook his head, then reached his neck toward me again, and this time he nibbled cautiously at the tortilla. He got a bit of it, seemed to like it, and reached for more. I let him have it all, then walked away from him and back to the fire.
It had been three days since we had seen Ramon when he rode in from the darkness.
"They are behind us, and they need horses." "Mohaves?" Monte asked.
"The others. The white men. Three were killed, and one Mohave, I think."
"Th
ey need horses?"
"Four men, two horses. Two ride, two walk, then they change."
It was still dark when we moved out, keeping the horses moving at a good gait until the pass opened before us and the trail grew steeper. It was a narrow place between high, grassy hills dotted with clumps of oak.
"Further along," Ramon said, "there is a spring and the burial place of a French trapper, Peter Lebec. There is a carving on a tree which says he was killed by--" he drew an "X" on the ground with his foot to show as the way it had been carved--"a cross bear."
Monte chuckled. "You'd be cross too, if a bunch of fur trappers started setting traps around your home!"
"It is the rancho of Jose Antonio Aguirre and Ignacio del Valle," RamOn explained, "but they are not often here. Too many raids by Indians."
It was a stiff climb up through the pass, and we let the horses take their time, grazing a little as they moved. Taking my hat from my head, I mopped the sweat from my brow and looked back to where the tall V of the canyon opening looked out upon the vast sweep of the San Joaquin Valley. Far away there seemed to be a tiny plume of dust.
Riders? Or a dancing dust devil?
Topping out on a small hill, I saw the long line of horses going down the slope before me and around the side of the low hill. Despite the dust on their coats, they were a fine lot of horses. Suddenly, far ahead of as where the pass widened into a valley, I could see a small cloud of dust.
Riders! Several of them. Turning in the saddle, I said to RamOn, "Stay with us. I think we're going to have trouble."
Pulling out from the drag end of the herd, I rode swiftly along the flank until I came up with Jacob, who was in the lead.
"Riders coming," I explained. "Quite a few of them." Jacob turned and motioned to Monte McCalla, who rode up beside us.
"Trouble," Jacob said, "or it could be. There are more bandits in this country than bears, and there's a lot of grizzly."
From where we were we could see no dust cloud as I had spotted it from the top of a rise. Jacob dropped back, speaking to Francisco, and they began bunching the horses.
We walked the horses forward, and my eyes swept the terrain ahead. There was a low hill crowned with a few cedars backed by the steep grass-covered mountainside. To the east of it there was a deep gully cut by runoff water.
"Jacob?" I pointed.
"Good idea." He turned in the saddle and pointed, and Francisco moved up and began to turn the herd. They went into the few acres of grass against the hill, and almost at once Jaime and Martin faded into the cedars. Francisco stepped down from his horse behind a boulder where there was also a fallen, decaying tree trunk with its web of branches. The others found their places, and we waited.
The riders came on. That they had seen as from afar was obvious, for two of them were standing in their stirrups, searching for us. There were seventeen or eighteen men in the lot, a mixed bunch of Anglos and Mexicans, heavily armed.
"Bandidos," Francisco said.
We waited. Suddenly one of them pointed, and they turned and rode toward us in a wide skirmish line.
"If there's trouble," Jacob said, "the tall one with the red scarf is mine."
"I want the two on the paint horses," Monte said. They rode nearer, slowing their pace as they took in the situation.
"Looking for something?" I asked.
The man who answered was a thin, wiry man with a pockmarked face. He smiled quickly, his even, very white teeth showing under his black, trimmed mustache. "We are looking for lost horses," he said, "and we have found them."
"Good for you," I said. "We've been lucky, too. We captured some wild horses and broke them. We're taking them into Los Angeles."
"It seems there is a difference of opinion," he said. One of the Indians up in the cedars cocked his rifle. The sound was sharp and clear, and I saw several of the men turn their heads in surprise. From where they sat their horses they could have seen no more than four of us. Now they knew there were more, but how many more?
My heart was beating slowly, heavily. Sweat trickled down the side of my cheek, yet I did not feel nervous. I was curiously relaxed, ready.
"It is a lovely day," I said mildly. "The way is clear for you to ride on."
"Give us the horses," the pockmarked one said, "and you will not die."
"We watched you coming," I said, smiling at him, "and we have a bet among us. Selmo," I said, "is almost behind you now. He was betting we could kill twelve with the first firing. I am more modest. I believe nine or ten only. The rest we will have to get later."
"Ten," Monte said. "I figure we can get ten, settin' out in the open like that, and our boys under cover."
"We got you outnumbered," the pockmarked man protested.
"Have you, now?" I said. "You're a guessing man. If you were a gambling man, I'd lay you three to one you're wrong, but I'd never collect, because three of the rifles are on you. Right on you, and that's too bad, because I wanted you for myself."
He shifted his eyes to right and left. I saw him look at Monte, then look quickly again. Obviously he recognized him.
My rifle was in my hands, directed toward them but at no one in particular.
"You know," I said, "it's strange what a moment can do. Right now you've got it all on the table. You can turn your horses and ride quietly down the trail and live for years. There are a lot of women, a lot of wine and whiskey down that road, and if you stay here, there's only a mouthful of blood, teeth, and the dirt you'll bite into while dying."
"You talk too damn much!" he said, but I could just feel him trying for a way out.
"I want to live," I said simply, "and if you don't turn down that road, a lot of you will die. Most of my men will live, because you can't even see them."
Suddenly I smiled. "Now, why don't you save my life?" "Save your life?"
"Sure. I'm right out in front, like you. We're going to catch it, sure as hell, so why don't you save my life by riding right off down that trail?"
He stared at me for a moment; then he lifted a hand. "Adios!" he said, and rode away, his men following. We sat there, our guns ready, and watched them go. As they reached the trail, some of them looked back, and I lifted a hand. Their leader lifted a hand in return. "Now, what the hell?" Monte spat into the dust. "I thought we'd bought ourselves a scrap."
"A man can always fight," I said, "but sometimes there are other ways."
"We were outnumbered," Jacob commented.
"He didn't know that, and all he had to show was right on the table. We could see what he was holding, but he didn't know what we had. Also, our men were on the ground, which gives us the advantage over men on moving horses."
We moved them out and headed off down the trail. As we moved on, that day and the next, the country became increasingly broken. Ridges, hills, jagged rocks, which I indicated to Jacob. "Earthquake country?" I asked.
"It happens here," he admitted.
RamOn heard our conversation and said, "It is often the ground shakes, but soon a big one. Maybe this year, maybe next. The Old Men are agreed, the next one will be bad."
"That one," Monte said suddenly, "the one with the pockmarks? I remember him now. He rides with Boston Daimwood, a very bad one, and he himself is bad. His name is Steffens, Turkey Bob Steffens."
The name meant nothing to me, although I had heard of Boston Daimwood.
Yet now I wished to be finished with the drive. I wished to be in Los Angeles again, and to see Meghan.
Other trails fed into the one we now traveled. and from time to time we saw other travelers, some headed toward Los Angeles, some riding away.
All day I rode abreast or right behind the black stallion, and from time to time I talked to him, letting him grow accustomed to my presence and my voice.
"Wait until you try to ride him," Monte said. "He'll kill you if he can. He's just bidin' his time."
Of that I was not so sure, but Monte had more experience with wild horses than I, and caution was advisable. Thus far I
had made no effort to approach him beyond offering him bits of food from time to time. These he only occasionally accepted, and once when I seemed to get too close, he started to rear, as though to strike with his forefeet. Casually I walked on past, ignoring him.
We drove our horses to some brush-and-pole corrals west of Cahuenga Pass. Monte and the Indians agreed to stay with them while Jacob and I rode into town. Months had passed, and I noticed Jacob looking at me. "You've taken on some beef," he commented. "Miss Nesselrode will hardly know you."
Francisco strolled over and squatted on his heels. "We go home soon," he said.
"You've got money coming," Jacob said. "Better stick around until we talk to the boss."
"We want cattle," Francisco said.
Along with the horses, we'd rounded up a few head, but they deserved more.
"You'll get them," I said.
Jacob came up, leading my horse. Mounting, I lifted a hand to them and we rode away. Smoke lifted from the town. I stood in my stirrups, looking to see farther.
"You can't see her from here," Jacob said. Embarrassed, I glanced at him. "Just wanted to see the town," I said. "We've been gone a long time."
"It's still there. Don Isidro is still there, too, so ride easy." He glanced at me. "Monte says you're pretty good with that gun."
"We didn't work much," I said.
"The way he talks, you didn't need it. Your pa teach you?"
"Some."
"Watch yourself, anyway. Last year Los Angeles averaged a killing a day. I don't want one of them to be you." "Or you," I said, grinning at him.
Chapter 36
Miss Nesselrode looked up when I came through the door, then sat back in her chair, her eyes on me. "Johannes! It has been almost a year."
She stood up and extended her hand. There was gray in her hair that I had not seen before. I felt a sharp twist of pain, for somehow she had seemed ageless, and she was my family, she was all I had.
"Come and sit down. I want to hear all about it." "I've just come from the corrals," I protested.
"Don't be foolish. Sit down."
Curiously, I was shy. "We've some fine horses. They are beautiful, wild and wonderful, and I've loved every minute of it."
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