“Wait,” I said, “wait. Give a girl a second to catch her breath.” There was a small chest of drawers about waist high just inside the door. I used the edge of the chest of drawers to get to my feet, though Alistair was there to help, very solicitous. I set my purse on the edge of the chest, squeezing the handle twice to turn on the hidden camera. If the camera was on, it had a near perfect view of the bed.
He came up behind me, arms wrapping around me from behind, managing to pin my arms to my sides, but not hard. He meant it to be a hug. The fact that it panicked me wasn’t his fault, not really. I tried to relax against his body, in the circle of his arms, but couldn’t. The power was too thick, and I couldn’t relax. The best I could do was not to pull away.
He nuzzled the side of my face, lips moving down my skin. “You’re not wearing any base.”
“I don’t need any.” I turned my head just enough to encourage him to continue kissing down my face to my neck. It was all the invitation he needed to work his way lower. His lips stopped at my shoulder, but his hands slid from my arms to encircle my waist. “God, you’re a tiny thing. I can reach around you with my hands.”
I moved gently away from him toward the bed. My senses were dulling to the magic. I’d had years of practice at ignoring amazing amounts of power. If you’re sensitive to such things and you don’t want to go mad, you adapt. Magic can become like white noise, like the sounds of the city itself, only coming to your attention when you concentrate.
I stood on the bright Persian rug that surrounded the bed, just like Naomi had described it. But I couldn’t force myself to walk those last few feet to the bed because I could feel the circle that lay under the rug like a great hand pushing me away. It was a circle of power, something to stand inside while you conjured, so that whatever you called wouldn’t come inside and eat you, or so you could call something inside the circle and remain safely outside. I wouldn’t know until I saw the runes which kind of circle it was, whether it was a shield or a prison. Even seeing the runes and the construction of the circle might not tell me. I knew sidhe witchery, but there are other kinds of power, other mystical languages to work magic with. I might not recognize any of it, and then there would be only one way to know what the circle was . . . by walking into it.
The real trouble was that some circles are constructed to hold fey captive, and once I was inside, I might have trouble getting back out. If they were really a bunch of fey wanna-bes, they probably wouldn’t be trying to capture us, but you never know. If you love something hard enough but can never touch it or keep it, the love can curdle into a jealousy more destructive than any hate.
Alistair loosened his tie as he walked toward me, an anticipatory smile curling his lips. He was utterly arrogant, sure of himself and of me. It was so tempting to just walk out, just so I could watch that arrogance slide away. He hadn’t done anything mystical yet, let alone illegal. Was I being too easy? Did he save the mystical stuff for the reluctant ones? Did I need to be more reluctant? Or more aggressive? Which would get Alistair Norton on tape doing something illegal? I was still trying to make up my mind whether to be the unwilling virgin or the eager whore when he was there in front of me, and I was out of time.
He bent down to kiss me, and I raised my head up to meet him, rising on tiptoe, hands balancing on his arms. His biceps flexed under my hands, swelling against the cloth of his jacket. I don’t think he was even aware of it, just habit. He kissed like he seemed to do everything, with a practiced ease, smooth skill. His arms wrapped around my waist, pressed me to his body, lifted me off the floor. He started moving me backward toward the circle. I drew back from the kiss enough to say, “Wait, wait.” But we were in it, and it stole my breath for a second until we were on the other side, inside the circle. It was like being in the eye of a storm. Inside the circle was quiet, the most restful place I’d felt in the entire house. A tightness I hadn’t known was there eased from my shoulders and back.
Alistair scooped my legs up and walked us both onto the bed with his knees. When we were near the center of the bed, he laid me down and stayed on his knees, looking at me, towering over me. But I’d worked alongside Uther for three years. Six feet was nothing when you’d been having lunch with thirteen.
I don’t think I looked impressed enough because he took off the tie and tossed it to the bed, fingers going to his shirt buttons. He was going to undress first. I was surprised. A control freak usually wants their victim naked first. He was out of his jacket and shirt, hands going to his belt before I could figure out what to do. Slowing him down seemed to be good.
I sat up, touching his hands. “Slow down. Let me enjoy the unveiling. You’re rushing through it like you’ve got another date tonight.” I held on to his hands, rubbing across his skin, stroking his bare arms. I concentrated on the feel of the tiny hairs on his forearms and how they slid under my touch. If I concentrated just on the physical sensations one at a time, I could make my eyes lie or at least show a genuine interest. The trick was not to think too hard about who I was touching.
“There’s no one but you tonight, Merry.” He drew me to my knees, then ran his hands through my hair, letting it slide through his fingers so that he held my face in his big hands. “There will be no one else for either of us after tonight, Merry.”
I didn’t like the sound of that, but it was the first thing he’d said that was sort of psychotic so I was doing something right. “What do you mean, Alistair? We eloping to Vegas?”
He smiled, still holding my face, staring into my eyes liked he’d memorize them. “Marriage is just a ceremony, but tonight I’ll show you what it means to be truly one with a man.”
I raised an eyebrow before I could help myself. Knowing my face already showed it, I said, “My, you do have a high opinion of yourself.”
“It’s not idle boasting, Merry.” He kissed me, softly, then crawled past me to the headboard of the bed. He pressed on the wood, and a little door sprang open. A secret compartment, how nifty. He turned with a small glass bottle in his hands. It was one of those glass bottles with curves and frills to it that you’re supposed to keep expensive perfume in, but no one ever does.
“Take off the dress,” he said.
“Why?”
“It’s massage oil.” He held the bottle up so I could see the thick oil in the light through the ruby glass.
I smiled at him, and I tried to make it everything he wanted: sexual, flirtatious, a little cynical. “The pants first.”
He grinned at me, evidently pleased. “I thought you said you wanted to go slow.”
“If we’re getting naked, you first.”
He started to turn and set the bottle inside the compartment again. “I’ll hold it for you,” I said.
He stopped in midmotion, turning back to me with a heat in his eyes that was almost touchable. “Only if you put some on your breasts while I undress.”
“Will it stain my dress?”
He actually seemed to think about that, face becoming thoughtful, intelligence showing through. “I’m not sure, but I’ll buy you a new one if it’s ruined.”
“Men will promise anything in the heat of the moment,” I said.
“Let me see the oil run down that pure white skin. Make them glisten for me.” He handed the bottle to me, wrapping my hands around it. He kissed me again, mouth lingering on me, his tongue probing, opening my mouth so the kiss could be more. He drew back, slowly. “Please, Merry, please.”
He moved back, but not far, hands at his belt again. He drew the leather tongue slowly through the gold buckle, drawing out each movement while he watched me. It made me smile because he was doing what I’d asked. He was slowly unveiling himself.
The least I could do was do what he’d asked. The push-up bra left enough of my breasts bare so that I didn’t have to lift anything out of the dress. I drew the stopper out of the bottle. It had one of those long glass rods on the end of it, to glide along your skin. I sniffed the oil. It smelled of cinnamon and
vanilla. There was something familiar about the odor, but I couldn’t place it. The oil was nearly clear. “Aren’t you supposed to warm it first?” I said.
“It reacts to your body’s heat.” He pulled the belt out of the last loop and tossed it between us on the bed. “Your turn.”
I lifted the stopper out of the bottle. The oil clung to it in a heavy strand. I touched the end of the glass rod to the top of my breast. The oil was already warm, body temperature. I trailed the rod across the mounds of my breasts and tiny trails of oil followed it, tracing like thick tears across my skin. The smell of cinnamon and vanilla seemed to soak into my skin like a warm rush.
Alistair undid the snap on his pants and slowly drew down the zipper. He wore red bikini underwear, like he’d dressed to match the bedroom. The scarlet was very bright against his skin, clinging over the front of his body like a second skin. He lay down on the bed to get the pants off, gazing up at me so that I towered over him on my knees as he had towered over me earlier.
He reached up, still flat on his back, running his fingertips across the oil, spreading it over my skin. He came to his knees, hands smoothing over the tops of my breasts, fingers trying to get inside the dress and touch more, but it was too tight. Prior planning prevents embarrassing groping. He rubbed his oiled hands down his own chest, then took the bottle from me and trailed the glass stopper across my mouth like he was putting on lip gloss. It was sweet upon my lips, thick and sweet. He kissed me, both his hands still holding the bottle, so that it was just his mouth on mine. He kissed me like he was going to eat the oil off my lips. I melted into the kiss, hands stroking over his oiled chest, feeling the muscles of his stomach moving under my hands. My hand slid lower, over the front of him, finding him hard and ready. The feel of him thrilled through my body like a jolt of energy. That was when I realized that I was enjoying myself and had forgotten why I was there.
I drew back from the kiss and tried to focus, to think. I didn’t want to think. I wanted to touch him and have him touch me. My breasts ached to be touched. My mouth almost burned with the need to close the distance between us. He leaned in for another kiss, and I crawled backward, falling onto my back in my rush to put distance between us.
Alistair crawled to me on knees and one hand. The other hand held the bottle. He straddled me the way a horse stands over her colt. My gaze kept sliding down his body to the hard front of him. I couldn’t keep my eyes on his face. It was embarrassing, and frightening.
“Stupid,” I said, “so stupid. It’s in the oil. There’s a spell in the oil.”
His voice came in an almost harsh whisper. “The oil is the spell.”
I didn’t understand what he meant at first, but I knew I didn’t want anymore of it on me. He started to open the bottle, and I sat up, taking his hands in mine, keeping the lid on the damn thing. The moment I touched his hands, I lost. We were kissing again, and I hadn’t meant to. It was as if the more we kissed, the more I wanted to be kissed, like it fed on itself.
I threw myself back on the bed, hands covering my face. “No!” I knew what it was now: Branwyn’s Tears, Aeval’s Joy, Fergus’s Sweat. It could make a human into a sidhe lover for one night. It could turn even a sidhe into a sexual slave, if that sidhe had no access to other sidhe. No fey, no matter how talented, how powerful, can rival the sidhe, so it’s said. You can forget what the touch is like. You can fight not to dream of glowing flesh and eyes like molten jewels, a sweep of ankle-length hair across your body. But the desire is always there just under the surface, like an alcoholic who can never take another drink for fear that one drink will never be enough to satisfy that thirst.
I screamed, loud and long and wordless. There was another side effect of Branwyn’s Tears. No glamour can stand against it. Because your concentration can’t stand against it. I felt my glamour leaking away, felt my skin as if my entire body took a deep breath.
I lowered my hands slowly until I was staring up into the mirror on the ceiling. My eyes glowed like tricolor jewels. The outer edge of my irises was molten gold, within that was a circle of jade green, and last came emerald fire to chase around the pupil. Only the sidhe, or a cat, could have such eyes. My mouth was a mixture of crimsons: the remains of my lipstick, and the scarlet gleam of the lips themselves. My skin was a white so pure, it shimmered, like the most perfect of pearls. Again there was light coming out of my skin, like a candle behind a veil. The red-black of my hair fell around the shining colors like a spill of dark blood. If my hair had been pure black, I’d have looked like Snow White carved from jewels.
This wasn’t just me without the glamour. It was me when my power was upon me, when magic was in the air.
“My God, you’re sidhe,” he whispered.
I turned those glowing eyes to Alistair. I expected fear in his eyes, but there was a kind of soft wonderment. “He said you would come if we were faithful, if we truly believed, and here you are.”
“Who said I’d come?”
“A sidhe princess to feast upon.” He spoke in a voice that held awe, but his hands slid under my dress, fingers curling over the band of my panties. I grabbed his wrist and slapped him with the other hand. Slapped him hard enough to leave a red imprint of my hand on his face. We had all the proof we needed to put him in jail. I didn’t have to play along anymore. You can take the energy of Branwyn’s Tears and turn it from sex to violence, or so they say in the Unseelie Court. I was going to try. I was really going to try.
If he’d hit me back, it might have worked, but he didn’t. He collapsed his body on top of mine, pinning me to the bed. He was so low on my body that his face was level with mine. There was a moment where I looked into his eyes, and I saw the same stricken need in his eyes that I felt in mine. The Tears cut both ways. You could not use it to seduce without being seduced.
He made a small sound low in his throat and kissed me. I ate at his mouth, one hand going to the ponytail holder that held his hair back. I jerked it out, spilling his shoulder-length hair around me like a silken curtain. I plunged my hands into his hair, two fistfuls of it, held tight, while I explored his mouth.
His free hand tried to reach down the dress for my breast, but it was still too tight. He pulled at the cloth, and my body jerked with the force of it as the cloth ripped, and his hand spilled inside my bra.
The touch of his hand on my breast jerked my head back, freed my mouth from him. I was suddenly looking behind us at the mirrors on the far wall. It took me a few seconds to realize something was wrong. Part of it was distraction. Alistair was kissing my neck, working his mouth over my skin, ever lower. Part of it was someone else’s magic. Someone powerful didn’t want me to know they were watching. But the mirrors were blank like the eyes of the blind. I looked up at the mirror above the bed, and it was empty, too, as if Alistair and I weren’t there.
Then I felt the spell like a great sucking wound, drawing my power to the surface until it spilled from the pores of my skin, and up, up into that mirrored surface. Whatever it was, it was feeding off my power like a psychic leech. It pulled the power slowly like sucking up a straw. I did the only thing I could think of. I shoved the power into the throat of the spell, force-fed my power into the magic. They hadn’t expected that, and the magic shuddered. There was a figure in the mirror, but it wasn’t Alistair or me. The figure was tall, slender, covered in a hooded grey cloak that hid every inch of the body. The cloak was illusion, an illusion to hide the witch at the other end of the spell. Every illusion can be stripped away.
Alistair’s mouth bit gently on my breast, and my concentration shattered. I looked down at him as he drew my nipple into his mouth. It felt as if his mouth drew on a hot line that went directly from my breast to my groin. It tore a gasp from my throat, made me writhe under his touch. A small part of me hated that this man could make my body react, but the larger part of me had turned to nothing but nerve endings and engorged flesh. I was sinking deeper into Branwyn’s Tears, drowning in them. Soon there’d be no thinking, jus
t sensations. I couldn’t think to draw power. All I could smell, feel, taste was cinnamon, wrapped it in my mind, and shoved it into the spell. The cloak wavered, and for a second I almost saw what lay behind it, but Alistair went to his knees, blocking my view.
He pulled his underwear down his hips, his thighs, and I was suddenly staring at the hard, gleaming length of him. It took my breath away for a second, not because he was so wonderful, but just out of pure need. It was as if my body saw the cure for all this need, and the cure was lying flat against Alistair’s belly. I don’t know if it was the sight of him nude or the power I’d shoved into the spell, but I was feeling more myself. A throbbing, nymphomaniac self, but still it was an improvement.
I sat up. The front of the dress was torn away, my bra pulled down so that my breasts were bare. I said, “No, Alistair, no. We are not doing this.”
A prickle of energy spilled over the bed, running in goose bumps on my body. Alistair looked up as if he saw something I didn’t, and said, “But you said to only use small amounts. Too much could drive her mad.” He listened, face intent. I heard nothing.
Whatever was in the mirror wasn’t hiding from Alistair, just from me.
Alistair opened the bottle. I had time to say “No.” My hand went out as if to ward off a blow. He threw the oil on me. It was like being touched by some great liquid hand. I couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything but scream. He poured the oil down the front of my body. It soaked through my dress, to the skin underneath. He raised the skirt, and this time I couldn’t stop him. I was frozen, overwhelmed. He poured the oil over the satin of my panties, and I fell back onto the bed, my spine bowing, hands scrambling at the sheets. My skin felt like it was swelling, stretching with a desire that narrowed the world down to the need to be touched, to be held, to be had. It wouldn’t have mattered who it was. The spell did not care, and neither did I. I opened my arms to the naked man kneeling over me. He collapsed on top of me. I could feel him tight and heavy against the satin of the panties. Even that thin piece of cloth was too much. I wanted him inside me, wanted it more than I’d ever wanted anything or anyone.
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