The Terror[blist]
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Not today.
Today, as Gavin stormed down the street, a low grumble baying from the pit of his stomach, people stopped and they turned and they raised their stares and they raised their smiles and when he passed, they raised their applause. They felt no threat in his merry demeanour, only the thrill of anticipation as they followed his every step, hoping to all god that he would at any moment, break out in dance or in song.
“Get the fuck out of my way” shouted Gavin at a gawking bystander.
“Thank you” The Bystander shouted. “But I don’t swing that way. Good for you though” he shouted again as Gavin stormed down the road, the angrier he got, apparently the more merry and brightly and splendiferous he seemed.
On the bus, he reached for his phone. He had two numbers. One of which was an automatic detonator for the explosives dressed upon his body. The other was for the girl who promised to bed with him when he had become a man.
He looked at the two numbers and large flooding beads of sweat formed over his eyes.
Which was which? He paid no thought. He punched the numbers of the first number into his phone. His heart beat so fast. He hadn’t imagined dying here, on a crowded bus, only blocks from his real target.
The phone rang.
The vest, it started to rumble.
Panic drew across his chest.
What had he done?
“Hi, you’ve called المغرر, I can’t come to the phone right now but if you’d like to leave a message, I’ll get right back to you. If you want, you can try my other number at….”
“Fucking message bank” he mumbled. “Shit, what’s her name. What the fuck is her name? Hey, uh, ahem, it’s me, Gavin. Listen I need to speak to you urgently. I just watched the news, all of them and… it’s not like you said. They lied. They said nobody was injures, but I could them carrying bodies off in the background. And they said they were wearing pink, but I know, I saw them, they we wearing black. And they didn’t call them Terrorists. They called them Terrible or something like that. Terror{blists}, that’s it, Terror{blists}. I’m trying to do what you said, I’m trying to imagine to get rid of my fear but it’s not working. I can’t do it. Not if they’re gonna do the same thing with me. I can’t go through with it. Please call me back.”
Gavin hung up the phone. His hands were sweating. His head felt like it might explode before his hands could even touch the controls. He thought about ………, and then he thought about the violence and the explosions and the martyrdom and a feeling engorged his loins. He felt warm and encased in sex. He felt capable of anything. He dialed المغرر again.
“Hey, it’s me. I’m gonna do it. I love you. I can’t wait to see you.”
He hung up the phone and put it in his jeans pocket. His eyes were trained and focused and they glimmered like a sharpened knife. As he stared off in an unflinching stare, a group of passengers looked in his direction, giggling and smirking.
Fear crept upon his mind as he exited the bus. Now, the jacket seemed so heavy. The control had slipped from its restraint and was sliding down the inside of his shirt. He could feel his rising stomach, pressing against the one button. For every step that he took, he felt as if he could not take one more. It was like the ground was molten and the soles of his shoes were fusing to the pavement.
“I am a man” he thought. “I am a terrorist. I incite fear and I enact change. Men want to be me and women want to be mine. I am a man. I am a man. Eye on a man. Eye on a man. Eye on a man.”
He backed against a wall and heaved over himself trying to catch his breath. As he stood upright, finding some assurance in his mind, he looked to see a group of girls passing him with mocking smirks and behind them, a well-dressed young man came closer in his passing and offered Gavin a winking expression.
There was nothing he could do to excuse his fear. He didn’t want to be remembered as anything less than the man he already was. What point would it be if the point were not his own?
Gavin unzipped the jacket.
He threw it to the floor.
He stood in the afternoon light with the black vest and its wires exposed.
The control hanged on a black cord and banged at his knee.
Strangers walking by all stopped.
Some took out their cameras.
Most were drawn with look of glee.
“It’s a Terror{blist}” said one.
“Oh I do hope there’s dancing” said another.
Gavin took the control in his hands.
He ran his thumb over the red button.
He wished he could erase the day.
“Dance, dance, dance” the crowd chanted.
Was he bored or was he depressed?
Gavin walked into the tennis club.
The man in the Nihil shirt was standing behind the counter.
“What can I do you for?” he said.
“Is the first lesson still free?” asked Gavin.
“Sure is” The Nihil Man said. “But you can’t play in loafers.”
Gavin looked down at his feet.
He felt enraged.
His finger tickled the red button.
“Hey, no stress, you can borrow a pair” said The Nihil Man
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Rock Book Volume I: The Boy from the County Hell
Rock Book Volume II: Dark Side of the Moon
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Table of Contents
CHAPTER ZERO
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN