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by Helen Juliet


  Riley turned and stared at him, fighting a wave of dizziness. This time yesterday they hadn’t even kissed. Now…

  “Really?”

  Riley’s dad took his mum’s hand as she let Kai go. “We’ll give you boys some space,” he said.

  Riley was vaguely aware of the rest of them melting away into the evening, probably going off to help the Patels with their annual feast of Indian delights. Bia sensed food, so followed on as well, leaving Riley alone with Kai.

  Kai turned and took both Riley’s hands in his larger ones. He rubbed his thumbs across the knuckles. “The cat’s out of the bag,” he said with a chuckle. “I’m not really one for dithering over things. So; would you be my boyfriend? Um, please?”

  Riley’s eyes were wet, but he didn’t care as he leant over and kissed his boyfriend gently on the lips. “Only if you’ll be mine.”

  “Deal,” said Kai, grinning and deepening the kiss. “How long do you reckon we have before dinner?”

  Heat flared through Riley’s body and he drew Kai to him, stepping backwards in the direction of Kai’s two-man tent. “Oh ages,” he said.

  Kai bit his lip and let himself be pulled along. “Perfect,” he said. “I’ve got some questions. Quite a few. We might be here a while.”

  “I’m all yours, baby,” Riley replied.

  37

  Riley

  Riley didn’t stop to think about how thin the tent walls were. His family had all made an obvious point of leaving the two of them alone, so Riley wanted to take advantage of the limited privacy they had and enjoy the first time with Kai as his official boyfriend.

  After all these years, he couldn’t believe this was really happening. That he was here, with Kai. Or that he had a boyfriend at all. He wasn’t really sure what that would end up involving. But he knew he was going to give this relationship everything he had.

  Riley led them eagerly inside. However it was Kai who turned and pushed him onto the bedding while he zipped the tent entrance completely shut. They wouldn’t want anyone spying anything by accident after all.

  “Tell me you have more condoms,” Riley said. He propped himself up on his elbows and looked up at Kai’s large form.

  Kai smirked and climbed on top of him. “Of course, babe,” he said. He started kissing up Riley’s neck, and Riley flopped blissfully onto his back. “What do you want to do?”

  “Everything,” said Riley immediately.

  Kai laughed into his neck. “I only have so many condoms, hun. And stamina.”

  “Spoil sport,” said Riley.

  He lightly slapped Kai’s back, his laughter bubbling up from his chest. He squirmed into the pillows and sleeping bag. It felt luxurious compared to the night before.

  Kai was now sucking on his ear. His large hands had crept under Riley’s t-shirt and were skimming up his sides. The ticklish sensation made Riley’s toes curl.

  “I should have showered,” he said absently. His thoughts weren’t entirely coherent. “I’m still extremely gross.”

  “You’re gorgeous,” said Kai. He moved over to catch Riley’s mouth for a kiss. “But entirely too clothed. Tell me what you want.”

  Riley’s heart was thumping against his ribs. Kai seemed to like it with Riley in charge. And he never would have guessed it, but it turned out Riley quite liked being in charge himself. The pleasure racing through his body at the thought made him dizzy.

  “I want you to fuck me,” he managed to whisper. “Hold me down and take me.”

  He felt Kai shudder against him. The kiss intensified. “I can’t believe I almost missed this.” Kai leant back, looking into his eyes as he cupped either side of Riley’s face. “I was almost too scared to take a chance.”

  Riley placed his hands on top of Kai’s, rubbing his thumbs over the backs. “Me too,” he said. In that moment he felt a warm sense of how lucky he was wash through him. “But we’re here now.”

  Kai nodded. Then he shook himself and grinned. “And still with too many clothes on!”

  Riley laughed along with him as Kai arched back and whipped his shirt off, revealing that stunning chest, just for Riley. He reached up to run his hands over it, only to be batted away.

  “No, naked first, then you get to touch.”

  Riley sniggered and let him peel his t-shirt off as well. He was glad Kai wasn’t totally submissive. The tug back and forth between them made his insides fizz. “Undress me then,” he commanded, pulling the control back his way.

  Kai bit his lip before leaning down to claim Riley’s mouth with a brutal kiss. “Whatever you want, baby.”

  Riley struggled to maintain regular breaths as he watched from where his head lay on the pillows. Kai kept eye contact with him as he scooted down his body.

  “Wait, no,” said Riley, changing his mind. “You undress first.”

  Kai’s eyes lit up. Without a word he stood, running his hands down his torso, pausing to skim over his nipples, making them pebble into tight nubs. “Like this?”

  He was so big he seemed to fill the tent. His head almost touched the roof and his wide shoulders blotted out the light coming through the thin material. The warm air was thick with both of them panting. Sweat glistened on Kai’s skin, and Riley couldn’t wait to taste it.

  “Yeah,” he rasped. “Like that, baby.”

  The word should have felt so alien on his tongue, but it slipped out naturally. He’d always thought it was cringe-worthy when couples called each other by pet names. But now he thought he understood. Kai was his. No one else’s. His baby.

  Kai’s dark eyes were blown wide with lust. Riley watched, helpless to turn away as Kai kicked off his shoes and slowly undid his shorts. He popped the buttons one at a time, the bulge of his erection visible through the material. The only sound Riley could hear was his own, ragged breathing.

  Kai was utterly unselfconscious as he slipped his thumbs over the band of his shorts and tugged both them and his underwear down to his ankles. He kicked the clothing away and stood with his hands by his side for Riley’s approval.

  “Wow,” Riley managed to utter. Kai was, quite simply, magnificent. Sculpted muscles, tanned skin, beautiful tattoos. A work of art. His cock unavoidably drew his eye. Big, but not so much to cause concern, standing proud and already glistening with a drip of precum. Riley’s mouth watered.

  Kai smiled and bit his lip, looking at him through his eyelashes. It was incredibly endearing and searingly hot at the same time. Riley remembered he was supposed to be the one calling the shots.

  He didn’t trust his voice not to break. Instead he lifted his hand, impressed that it wasn’t shaking, and crooked his finger a couple of times. Come here.

  Kai approached him and crawled on top, scooping up his body against his naked one and kissing him with urgency. “Now can I undress you?” he practically begged.

  Riley chuckled. “Please,” he whispered.

  Kai laced open-mouthed kisses down his chest. Riley whimpered and bit his knuckle, not wanting to risk anyone outside hearing. Hopefully they had enough sense to stay away for a bit longer, but he wasn’t going to chance it.

  Because he’d been wearing flip-flops, they were already discarded across the other side of the tent. So all Kai had to worry about were his shorts. He kissed his way down Riley’s belly, causing him to shiver and squirm. Then his fingers slid deftly under the button and zipper, more confident than before on the fell.

  Riley couldn’t tear his eyes away as Kai slipped the shorts and his boxers over his hips, exposing his cock to the air. It bounced as it was freed, tapping his stomach, practically waving in a bid for attention. Kai didn’t disappoint.

  Even in the throes of passion, he still took care to manoeuvre Riley’s clothes over his tattered feet. But then they were both fully naked once more, and he was kissing his way up Riley’s inner thigh.

  Riley couldn’t recall anyone kissing him there before. As his lips and tongue left a wet trail along Riley’s skin he panted and tried not to w
rithe too desperately.

  Considering Riley was the first man Kai had ever been with, he didn’t seem fazed at all as he ran his nose along the side of Riley’s length then began sucking the tip as his fingers stroked up and down.

  “Holy shit,” Riley cried, trying not to shout.

  There was a bit too much teeth and it was kind of sloppy, but in that moment Riley would have sworn no one had ever given him better head. Certainly the sight alone of Kai’s plump lips wrapped around his cock was almost enough to stop his heart. He’d thought before that he had a beautiful mouth. That opinion intensified as he watched it slip up and down his ridged member.

  Kai looked up at him, impishly. He knew how hot he was, but Riley had to tell him anyway.

  “You’re so gorgeous,” he gasped. He reached down and ran his fingers through his hair, cupping the side of his face. “Oh my god. Oh my god.”

  Kai started stroking his own cock. He popped off of Riley’s and licked his lips. “You like this too, huh?”

  Riley nodded. He scrabbled to get purchase on Kai’s shoulders and hauled him up for another kiss. “I want you to fuck me now. Hard. Oh god, please.”

  Obediently, Kai pulled his rucksack over to them, fishing out the first aid kit. Riley really hoped they had enough supplies to last the week. Otherwise he was going to drive to the nearest town and find a chemist. Because nothing was going to get between them this week.

  Within seconds Kai had suited himself up and was slick with lube. He poured a hefty amount onto his fingers and began smearing it against Riley’s throbbing hole. But he shook his head, cradling Kai’s face in his hands. “Just do it,” he panted. “I want you now.”

  Kai raised his eyebrow. But he did what Riley asked, and the thrill of that compliance shot through Riley’s chest straight to his cock.

  “Yes,” he mumbled into Kai’s mouth as he lined himself up. “I want to feel you. Wanted this for so long.”

  “Yeah?” Kai pushed against the ring of muscle. Riley did his best to relax and let him in. “Did you have dirty little fantasies about me?”

  Riley blushed, but he didn’t care. Kai was looking down on him adoringly. It was more than he ever could have hoped for. “They weren’t little,” he said. He winced pointedly at the intrusion into his arse, then squirmed to impale himself further on Kai’s hard length. “They were pretty epic.”

  Kai took the hint and pushed in further. Riley hissed at the burn, but he grabbed the back of Kai’s head and kissed him fervently to distract himself away from it. It felt so good, it was everything he wanted.

  “That epic enough for you?” Kai asked. His grin was so wide it gave him dimples that Riley hadn’t noticed before. He swore he would coax them out every chance he got now.

  He was so full he almost couldn’t bear it. But the sensation was incredible, and despite the discomfort he rolled against Kai, urging him to find his sweet spot. “Yeah, baby,” he rasped. “I love it. Fuck me.”

  Like before, Kai wrapped Riley up in his arms, pressing every inch of their bodies together. He couldn’t fit any further inside him, and the tip of his cock rubbed deliciously against his prostate. “Riley,” he murmured reverently.

  The pain gave way to pleasure as Kai undulated his huge body over Riley’s, pinning him to the mattress. Riley lifted his legs and hooked his ankles together around Kai’s waist, even though it caused the odd spark of pain from his injuries. It was worth it for the deeper penetration, and he moaned.

  “Shh,” Kai said with the cutest giggle. He tried to silence Riley with a kiss, but he was laughing too. “I don’t want your family to hear me defiling you.”

  “I don’t care,” Riley insisted. He rutted against Kai’s cock wantonly. “Defile me, you fucking cave man.”

  Kai growled and picked up the pace. Riley felt so amazing smothered by his impressive body. He struggled between feeling like he couldn’t escape, relishing that helplessness, and also feeling so incredibly cared for.

  “Never let me go.”

  Kai paused, looking down at him with an unreadable expression. Riley wasn’t even sure what he meant. But Kai stroked the side of his face. “Okay.”

  After that, there was no more talk. Kai began pounding into him and Riley had to bite into the sensitive curve at the base of his neck to stop himself yelping with every thrust. All too soon he could feel his orgasm building, so he snaked his hand between their slippery bodies to stroke his cock.

  Kai saw what he was doing and joined their hands. They kissed and rubbed and slid and slammed. He couldn’t tell where he stopped and Kai began.

  “Going to-” he stuttered.

  Kai nodded. “Want to watch you come.”

  That was all it took to rip Riley’s climax from him. He dug his fingers into Kai’s back, his muscles seizing up as his orgasm blinded him. Kai thrust frantically into him, chasing his own finish, their breaths mingling as they both gasped and choked.

  “Come for me, baby,” he whispered in Kai’s ear. And he did.

  With a final grunt, his large body arched backwards, before collapsing on top of Riley. He didn’t crush him with his whole weight, but it was enough to leave Riley feeling utterly claimed.

  Riley wasn’t sure how long they lay there, slowly coming down. But just as Riley started to get uncomfortable and oversensitive, Kai slipped out and rolled over next to him.

  They were a sweaty mess, but Riley couldn’t have cared less. Once they’d disposed of the condom, he snuggled into Kai’s side, breathing his ever-so masculine scent in deeply.

  He would undoubtedly be sore after such a ravaging, but it was entirely worth it. Whatever he did over the next few days, he would feel Kai. Remember what it was like to have him inside him.

  “Hey, hey,” said Kai soothingly. Riley hadn’t realised he was gripping on to him so tightly. “I’m here. Are you alright?”

  Slowly, Riley exhaled. “I’m amazing,” he assured him. And he was. He needed to trust this wasn’t going to be torn away from him any time soon. He didn’t need to panic. “Are you?”

  Kai chuckled. He brushed Riley’s hair back and kissed his lips tenderly. “I’m perfect.”

  “That you are,” said Riley sleepily.

  If Riley had the ability to reach back in time and tell himself on the long journey up from London how this trip would turn out, he’d never believe it in a million years. And yet here he was, cuddled up with the man of his dreams, sated to his bones.

  He didn’t know what was to come. He didn’t know how to have a boyfriend, or be a boyfriend. But he was going to do everything he could to make it work.

  And he got the feeling Kai would too.

  Epilogue – Two Years Later

  Kai

  “You nearly ready, baby?” Kai called up the stairs. They still had plenty of time before people began arriving but he knew what Riley was like. If he didn’t keep an eye on the time, his boyfriend would spend all day fussing over his hair and which shirt to wear.

  “Two minutes!” his voice drifted down from their bedroom.

  Kai looked down at the small West Highland White puppy waiting ever so patiently by his feet. He wagged his tail when he realised he was being watched. “Do we believe Daddy, Mr Spock?”

  Spock yapped in response, running around in a circle. Kai laughed, picking his tiny body up easily with one hand and cradling him to his chest. He had been Riley’s birthday present last week from Kai, but there was no denying both his dads loved him equally.

  Two minutes would probably mean ten. So Kai carried his squirming, fluffy bundle into the living room, where he dropped onto the sofa, Spock balanced on his broad chest. He batted his little paw at Kai’s nose then began chewing on one of his shirt buttons.

  “You’re going to get a lot of cuddles today, mister,” Kai said solemnly. Spock wriggled and yapped in response to Kai’s sing-song voice. “And Uncle Brendon and Auntie Slady are bringing your big sister Bia, you’ll like that, won’t you?”

  ‘Yap!


  Kai grinned and kissed the little fur ball on his head.

  He was looking forward to the day ahead, for a number of reasons. Chiefly, it was the first time he’d been able to convince Riley to have any sort of birthday celebration more than just the two of them going to dinner.

  By selling the party as a housewarming, he’d managed to get their friends from both London and Farnborough to come to their new place halfway between the two locations in Woking. So long as the house remained the main focus, Riley had allowed Kai to also mention his birthday to people in the invitation.

  If people brought presents, it would be too late for Riley to do anything about that other than accept them. Kai didn’t see a problem with that. His man deserved to be spoiled.

  Having people over on a gorgeous summer’s day meant Kai would get to play with their new barbeque. Their fridge was full of food and drinks for when people arrived. Riley’s former flatmates and current co-workers were venturing out of London to spend the afternoon with him. Their mutual friends from Kai and Brendon’s group were also coming along from home, as well as Jake and Kai’s sister Abi.

  They had a nice gaggle of mates between them. It made Kai happy to his bones that they had been supportive of him and Riley from day one. They were just like any other couple in love, building their lives together.

  Buying the house had been a big step, and Riley had held several reservations that went beyond just the financial commitment. Kai suspected that there was still a part of him that had his doubts that this wasn’t still all going to fall apart around him. There were moments when he looked at Kai as if he still couldn’t wrap his head around the fact that they had actually got together after his years’ long crush. Kai had promised himself he’d never stop showing him how much he was here to stay.

  That was one of the reasons behind getting the little guy currently stretched along his chest. Aside from the fact that he was cute as a button and would be very well loved, Kai wanted to show Riley that they could be parents together; maybe one day to something, or someone, a bit bigger as well.

 

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