by Sara Bennett
SARA BENNETT
ONCE HE LOVES
Contents
Prologue
Briar lifted aside the heavy tapestry screen and peered cautiously…
Chapter 1
Ivo de Vessey half smiled as Sweyn murmured a joke…
Chapter 2
Briar lay quiet, her head rested upon his chest, with…
Chapter 3
“Briar?”
Chapter 4
York’s Sunday market was an organized muddle beneath a cloudswept…
Chapter 5
Mary watched with relief her sister and the big, dark…
Chapter 6
Ivo steadied his horse and narrowed his eyes against the…
Chapter 7
The river was gray today, a shiny steel-gray that dazzled…
Chapter 8
Lord Shelborne’s hall was the same as it had been…
Chapter 9
Briar, Mary, and Jocelyn had been waiting at the stables…
Chapter 10
The day looked as bleak as the one before. Ivo…
Chapter 11
The afternoon shadows were long, reminding Briar that very soon…
Chapter 12
Briar had enjoyed the journey to the old house, even…
Chapter 13
Lord Radulf was surrounded by important men. Some were allies…
Chapter 14
She did not know what she asked.
Chapter 15
Briar did not think she had slept at all, but…
Chapter 16
Briar pushed away her crust and cheese. Breakfast was no…
Epilogue
“Lady Briar?”
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Prologue
York, the north of England
Late summer, 1072
Briar lifted aside the heavy tapestry screen and peered cautiously through the narrow gap. The large, well-lit room beyond was filled with smoke and noise. Lord Shelborne’s daughter had made a worthy alliance, and the celebrations were to be stretched over several days. Presently the merry guests were finishing the last course of a sumptuous feast, but soon the trestle tables would be cleared, and the entertainments would begin.
Briar cast her gaze over the crowd. She dismissed the women—Lord Shelborne’s toothy daughter and her ladies, the important wives of the important men, the lowly serving wenches.
The man Briar sought was on his own.
She had hated him for full two years, and now she thought of little else. Without that consuming and single-minded hatred, she sometimes thought she would long ago have died of hunger or cold or simply walked into the sea and let the saltwater take her. In a strange way, her hatred of this man had kept her alive.
Briar’s eyes moved over the room, noting the assembled barons and knights and their servants, as well as the merchants and the clerics and the other important men of York. Some had obviously overimbibed, and sat with heads nodding, while others pawed drunkenly at the serving wenches who moved between the tables. There were those who huddled together in conversation, or sweated on the fall of the dice, or roared laughter at a bawdy joke. And then there were the men who neither drank too much, nor said too much. The men who watched and listened and waited.
In Briar’s experience, these were the men to be taken seriously, to be feared, the ones who held authority over the rest. And it did not surprise her that it was among them that she found the man she sought.
He was standing beside a rowdy group, half listening to their conversation, and yet he was apart. Alone. He was big, a wolfskin cloak draped about his broad shoulders, while his wild and tangled dark hair framed a fierce face. There was something lost about him, an air of abandonment. And his eyes, brooding and passionate, were as black as his soul. Aye, mayhap that was it; he had long ago sold his soul to the devil.
Her breath checked in her throat. Her fingers tightened upon the embroidered curtain that separated the chill, dank passageway where she stood from the welcoming warmth of the other room. The candles spun dizzily, the laughter faded, and for a brief moment Briar was catapulted back to Castle Kenton in 1070, a girl bereft, and yet trying to be brave, while the armed men bluntly informed her that now her father was dead her home was no longer hers…
It was but a moment of despair, and then Briar was herself again.
Impatiently, she shook her head. Enough! This was no time for weakness. Tonight of all nights she must be strong. Briar focused her eyes once more, and this time she controlled her reaction, taking her time as she examined the shape of him, the look of him, the essence of him.
Her heart gave a single, hard thump.
It was the man she sought; she couldn’t possibly be mistaken. Jocelyn had said he had been invited here tonight, and there was no one else in the room who drew her eyes like he. So big, so dark, so fierce. It was as if a certain power emanated from him and touched her, surrounded her. Her body tensed and goose bumps rose on her skin. This was the man who had begun that terrible chain of events, which had blighted her young life, her future and all her hopes. Aye, it was he. There was no doubt in her mind.
“Jesu, protect me, and allow me to complete my task,” Briar whispered, and then shuddered uncontrollably.
Strangely, the shudder wasn’t due to fear, or dread, or terror of what was to come. It was a shudder of anticipation, almost of…longing. Her mind was full of all she had plotted for, since her world became this bleak struggle for survival. She wanted to grasp this culminating moment in her hands. And hold on to it.
“Briar?”
A soft voice behind her, the sweet scent of rosemary in fine hair, a warm, gentle hand against her shoulder. Briar turned and faced her younger sister, Mary, trying to school her features into serenity when her heart was thundering and her throat felt tight. Those familiar dark eyes searched her own.
“Briar, what is it?”
Mary had seen at once that something was wrong, and even as Briar prepared to soothe her, she resigned herself to her sister’s empathy. They had been through much together; she would be foolish to think she could dupe Mary easily. Still, Briar gave a reassuring smile as she took Mary’s hand in hers.
“’Tis nothing, sister. I am spying on the company tonight, that is all. What think you, will we sooth these savages with our songs?” And she lifted aside the screen again, to reveal the noise and laughter.
Mary gazed dutifully into the room. “You will have them quiet as mice, Briar, as you well know,” she replied, with an unusual touch of asperity.
Briar smiled a secretive smile. “We shall see.”
Mary gave her a puzzled glance and opened her mouth to ask more questions, but Briar forestalled her. “Remember, sister, that after we have sung you must go to the kitchens and wait with Jocelyn. Sleep by the fire, if you wish. I will come for you when it is time for us to go home. Can you remember that?”
Jocelyn would keep her safe. Jocelyn, some eight years older than Briar, had always been more like a mother than a sister. The cataclysmic events that had caused them all to flee Castle Kenton as outcasts could not change the roles each played within the family.
Jocelyn had always been the one who saw to details like hot food and warm clothing, who could turn a bare dwelling into a home, and now she stood like a rock of constancy in this sea of change.
Briar had always been the leader, the fighter, the strong one, and now she was the sister who swore vengeance against the powerful man who had taken all that was theirs.
Mary, at seventeen, had always been the gentle one, the youngest, and so the one who must be looked after, and the need to protect and shelter her
had only grown in her sisters as their situation deteriorated.
Mary lifted an eyebrow. “I am not a lackwit, sister, I remember. But you have not told me where you are going. Why will you not tell me?”
“’Tis something I must do, that is all. I will come to you when I can, and then we will go home together.”
She could never tell Mary what she was planning, that she had persuaded one of the servants to secretly prepare her a chamber at the back of Lord Shelborne’s house, and that Briar meant to share that chamber with the man in the other room. Give him false kisses and caresses, and coldly cleave her body to his. Tonight, she would use her womanhood to tempt him. As her only weapon, it would serve her well.
’Tis just, she thought. A woman began this calamity, and now a woman will end it.
Mary was hovering, obviously wanting to ask more. But at heart she had always been a biddable girl, and now, with a sigh, she acquiesced.
“Very well, Briar. I will wait in the kitchen with Jocelyn. It is warm there, and Odo will be in the stables, helping with the horses. She is lonely without him. Do you think, Briar, that I will ever find a man to love as Jocelyn loves her Odo?”
Jocelyn loved Odo, it was true, even though he was not the strong husband he had once been. Something had broken him, and without Jocelyn to care for him, Briar doubted Odo would live a week. And yet without Odo to care for, Jocelyn would be lost and alone. They were bound together by ties of need as strong as any marriage vows.
Briar shook her head at Mary’s wistful question—she did not want to think of love. Not when her whole being was consumed with hate. Tonight was the culmination of two years of blind rage, smoldering and fermenting inside her, hot and angry. Briar had lived her need for vengeance, worn it like a heavy dark cloak about her shoulders. It had subjugated all other emotions, until she had rarely thought of anything else.
Tonight would end it.
Out in the other room the level of noise was rising, like a tide flooding up through the floor and walls, all the way to the ceiling beams. The guests were growing impatient. They had eaten and drunk, and now they were expecting to be entertained. And Briar and Mary were the entertainment.
A vision filled Briar’s mind, so strong and real she physically flinched. That pale, angular face, too fierce and too intense to be handsome, and those brooding black eyes: He was not to be taken lightly, her enemy. She did not underestimate him, but nor did she underestimate herself. She did not accept the tales that would have her believe he was more than flesh and blood. He was but a man, the same as any other. And tonight she would wind her carnal spell about him, binding him so fast, so tight that he would not escape.
And then she would destroy him.
Chapter 1
Ivo de Vessey half smiled as Sweyn murmured a joke in his ear. A serving girl paused before them, filling their tankards with more warm ale, and returned Sweyn’s grin. Outside the late summer evening was fading into darkness, drawing shadows down upon the city of York, but here in Lord Shelborne’s hall the company was jolly and the food good, and Ivo had drunk far too much.
Ivo had come north with Lord Radulf, in response to yet another skirmish within the northern lands of Radulf’s wife, the Lady Lily. The north of England seethed with subversion like a many-headed monster, and despite King William’s brutality in putting down each rebellion, no matter how small, there was always another to take its place.
Sweyn, a fellow mercenary, had accompanied Ivo, and along with a large troop of Radulf’s men, they had reached York as the bells for Vespers began to toll. Lord Radulf, missing his wife and best left to his own company, had retired, but Ivo had been in favor of going at once to the castle and asking the garrison for information on this latest act of lawlessness. Before he could set out, a messenger had arrived at the door with a request for Lord Radulf and his men to come and feast at the hall of Lord Shelborne. Sweyn had promptly set about persuading Ivo to bathe and change his travel-stained clothing, and attend Lord Shelborne’s hall instead of the possibly dubious repast they would find among the soldiers of the garrison.
“The invitation is for Lord Radulf,” Ivo had argued.
“Aye, but he is like a surly bear tonight and best left undisturbed. Awarning, my friend, never let a woman make her home in your heart.”
“I need no warning,” Ivo had retorted. “But will this Lord Shelborne not think it strange that we have left Lord Radulf behind?”
“Not if he saw him, Ivo. He would be grateful we had not brought him.” Sweyn strode impatiently to the door. “Come, there will be time enough for talk of rebellions tomorrow! Enjoy yourself tonight, my friend. Lord Shelborne’s messenger says there will be dancing and singing, and one of the women has the voice of an angel. An angel, he says, who can heal a sick man, and make a broken man whole. And there will be dice, Ivo! I am desperate to replenish my coin.”
Ivo had snorted. “Do you think of nothing but women and dice, Sweyn?”
Sweyn had stopped and pretended to consider. “No.”
So Ivo had laughed, and allowed himself to be bullied into going to Lord Shelborne’s hall. And Sweyn had been right, Ivo admitted it now. There was such a thing as being too dedicated to one’s tasks, too serious, too willing to forgo pleasure for the sake of duty. Tomorrow would be soon enough to apply themselves to Radulf’s problems in the north. Surely even a disgraced knight was allowed an occasional evening of leisure.
Ivo had been sipping his ale, deep in his thoughts, and it was a moment before he became aware that all had gone quiet. An expectant hush. He glanced up, and as he did he heard the voice.
It was low and slightly husky; deeper than that of the women he was accustomed to hearing sing. The timbre of it brushed over his skin, soft as fur, warm as blood, making him instantly aware. His body tightened, hardened, as if he were preparing for battle, every sense alerted. Ivo narrowed his eyes and turned his head, searching for the singer in a room made smoky from ill-drawing fires and shadowy from candles that flickered in the many drafts.
And found her.
She sat upon a small dais, and as he stared, the vapor in the hall seemed to clear from before his eyes.
Long chestnut hair lay smooth and heavy over her back and shoulders. Too heavy for her pale and piquant face and wide, slanting eyes. She was a small woman, slender, but with a voice at once powerful and moving. The notes she sang vibrated through him, caught like a small fist in his chest, and made his heart ache.
Dear God, what was this?
Ivo blinked, and stared at her, and realized then that the woman was gazing directly back at him. As if she were singing for him, and him alone. He took a shaky breath.
Beside him, Sweyn leaned over to whisper in his ear. “The messenger had it aright, Ivo. She is an angel.”
“Aye,” Ivo said, wondering if he sounded as bemused as he felt.
Was he sick, to be healed?
Mayhap, but he doubted even she could heal him. As that voice soared and dipped, filling the quiet room, permeating it like rich, heady wine, Ivo wondered if he was alone in his abstraction, or whether every man and woman here felt the same. Her voice was drawing emotions from him that he had thought—hoped—forgotten. Love and happiness, sorrow and pain, inextricably mixed. Emotions, memories, he had long ago put aside. For how could a disgraced knight and a mercenary lay claim to such luxuries as feelings?
How could he dare?
Ivo gritted his teeth, forcing the rapid beating inside his chest to calm, forcing the heat in his blood to cool. Look again, he told himself. ’Tis but a woman, singing. A small woman in a dark gown with her chestnut hair loose about her and her pale hands clasped in her lap. ’Twas nothing amazing.
He realized, as he fought off the spell, that there was a harpist accompanying her. He stared at the instrument, as if that would help rebuild his barricades, and saw ’twas one of the small harps used by the Welsh. The harp was being played by a girl with hair of a darker hue and a taller figure than the
songstress, and her expression was utterly serious as she concentrated upon her notes. Despite their differences, the two looked similar enough to be sisters.
Aye, singing sisters, Ivo thought, with relief. No magic there! He had dreamed the sensation of that small hand inside his chest, squeezing his heart, of course he had. Perhaps something in her song had unconsciously reminded him of the past, enough to slice through his usually reliable protective walls.
It would not happen again.
But even as he made his vow, the woman’s voice soared one last time, and the poignancy of that single, pure note brought tears stinging to Ivo’s eyes. He blinked angrily, wondering why he, who should know better, could be so weak. A grown man toughened by battle and despair, a soldier who had not wept since he was a boy of eleven. How could this stranger so easily unlock his burdened heart with her key?
As if the songstress had read his thoughts, the woman’s gaze settled upon him once more. Her eyes were large and dark, and with very little effort he feared he could drown in them. And then she smiled—a small, secretive smile—and smoothed her plain gown over her hips with a slow, sensual movement.
Ivo’s hand closed hard on the tankard, so hard that he felt the metal ease beneath his strong fingers. There was no mistaking the woman’s look, or the smile that went with it—he had too many years and too much experience behind him to do that. She had just issued him an invitation.
Ivo was not in the habit of attracting his women this way, but just for a moment all he felt was another rush of relief. There had been no magic here after all, nothing bizarre or bewildering. Just a flesh and blood woman, who, for whatever reason, was desirous of his company. He let his gaze linger on the curves of her body beneath the drab gown, the way her hair caught fire in the sputtering candlelight. Ivo’s body stirred, hardened. It had been many a long month since he had last lain with a woman, and even longer since he had been fortunate enough to find one so comely as this songstress.