“What have I taken this seaside house for? Out of pure good-nature and unselfishness, just to give you and your mother a summer holiday, and now you want to go away! That’s the way I’m rewarded for my kindness!”
If anyone had pointed out that he had only thought of himself and his own convenience in taking the “seaside house,” and that he had chosen it chiefly because it was close to the golf links and also to the Club, where there was a billiard-room, and that his “women folk” were scarcely considered in the matter at all, he would have been extremely indignant. He never saw himself in any other light but that of justice, generosity and nobility of disposition. Diana knew his “little ways,” and laughed at them though she regretted them.
“Poor Pa!” she would sigh. “He would be so much more lovable if he were not quite so selfish. But I suppose he can’t help it.”
And, on turning all the pros and cons over in her mind, she came to the conclusion that it would not be fair to leave her mother alone to arrange all the details of daily life in a strange house and strange neighbourhood where the tradespeople were not accustomed to the worthy lady’s rather vague ideas of domestic management, such as the ordering of the dinner two hours before it ought to be cooked, and other similar trifles, resulting in kitchen chaos.
“After all, I ought to be very contented!” and lifting her head, she smiled resignedly at the placid sea. “It’s lovely down here, — and I can always read a good deal, — and sew, — I can finish my bit of tapestry, — and I can master that wonderful new treatise on Etheric Vibration—”
Here something seemed to catch her breath, — she felt a curious quickening thrill as though an “etheric vibration” had touched her own nerves and set them quivering. Some words of the advertisement she had lately read sounded on her ears as though spoken by a voice close beside her:
“She must have a fair knowledge of modern science and must not shrink from dangerous experiments, or be afraid to take risks in the pursuit of discoveries which i may be beneficial to the human race.”
She rose from her seat a little startled, her cheeks flushing with the stir of some inexplicable excitement in her blood.
“How strange that I should think of that just now!” she said. “I wonder” — and she laughed—” I wonder whether I should suit Dr. Féodor Dimitrius!”
The idea amused her, — it was so new, — so impracticable and absurd! Yet it remained in her mind, giving sparkle to her eyes and colour and animation to her face as she walked slowly home in a sort of visionary reverie.
CHAPTER III
WITHIN a very few days of their “settling down” at Rose Lea, everybody in the neighbourhood, — that is to say, everybody of “county” standing — that height of social magnificence — had left their cards on Mr and Mrs. Polydore May. They had, of course, previously made the usual private “kind inquiries,” — first as to the newcomers’ financial position, and next as to their respectability, and both were found to be unimpeachable. One of the most curious circumstances in this curious world is the strictness with which certain little bipeds inquire into the reported life and conduct of other little bipeds, the inquisitors themselves being generally the most doubtful characters.
“Funny little man, that Mr. May!” said the woman leader of the “hunting set,” who played bridge all day and as far into the night as she could. “Like a retired tradesman! Must have sold cheese and butter at some time of his life!”
“Oh, no!” explained a male intimate, whose physiognomy strangely resembled that of the fox he chased all the winter. “He made his pile in copper.”
“Oh, did he? Then he’s quite decent?”
“Quite!”
“That daughter of his—”
Here a snigger went round the “county” company. They were discussing the new arrivals at their afternoon tea.
“Poor old thing!”
“Must be forty if she’s a day!”
“Oh, give the dear ‘girl’ forty-five at least!” said a Chivalrous Youth, declining tea, and helping himself to a whisky-soda at the sideboard.
“They say she was jilted.”
“No wonder!” And a bleating laugh followed this suggestion.
“I suppose,” remarked one man of gloomy countenance and dyspeptic eye, “I suppose it’s really unpardonable for a woman to, get out of her twenties and remain unmarried, but if it happens so I don’t see what’s to be done with her.”
“Smother her!” said the Chivalrous Youth, drinking his whisky.
Everybody laughed. What a witty boy he was! — no wonder his mother was proud of him!
“We shall have to ask her to one or two tennis parties,” said the woman who had first spoken. “We can’t leave her out altogether.”
“She doesn’t play,” said the gloomy man. “She told me so. She reads Greek.”
A shrill chorus of giggles in falsetto greeted this announcement.
“Reads Greek! How perfectly dreadful! A bluestocking!”
“No! Really! It’s too weird!” exclaimed the bridge-and-hunting lady. “I hope she’s not an ‘art’ person?”
“No.” And the gloomy man began to be cheerful, seeing that his talk had awakened a little interest. “No, not at all. She told me she liked pictures, but hated artists. I said she couldn’t have pictures without artists, and she agreed, but observed that fortunately all the finest pictures of the world were painted by artists who were dead. Curious way of putting it!”
“Going off it?” queried the Chivalrous Youth, having now drained his tumbler of drink.
“No, I don’t think so. The fact is — er — she — well, she appeared to me to be rather — er — clever!”
Clever? Oh, surely not! The “county “dames almost shuddered. Clever? She couldn’t be, you know! — not with that spoilt old-young sort of face! And her hair! All dyed, of course! And her voice was very affected, wasn’t it? Yes! — almost as if she were trying to imitate Sarah Bernhardt! So stupid in a woman of her age! She ought to know better!
So the little vicious, poisonous, gossiping mouths jabbered, and hissed about the woman who was “left” like a forgotten apple on a bough to wither and drop unregarded to the ground. No one had anything kind to say of her. It mattered not at all that they were not really acquainted with her personally or sufficiently to be able to form an opinion, — the point with these precious sort of persons was, and always is, that an unwanted feminine nonentity had arrived in the neighbourhood who was superfluous, and therefore likely to be tiresome.
“One can always leave her out of a dinner invitation,” said one woman, thoughtfully. “It will be quite enough to ask Mr and Mrs.”
“Oh, quite!”
Thus it was settled; meanwhile Diana, happily unconscious of any discussion concerning her, went on the even tenor of her way, keeping house for her parents, reading her favourite authors, studying her” scientific” subjects, and working at her tapestry without any real companionship save that of books and her own thoughts, and the constant delight she had in the profusion of flowers with which the gardens of Rose Lea abounded. These she arranged with exquisite taste and effect in the various rooms, so artistically that on one occasion the vicar of the parish, quite a dull, unimaginative man, was moved, during an afternoon call, to compliment Mrs. Polydore May on the remarkable grace with which some branches of roses were grouped in a vase on the table. Mrs. May looked at them sleepily and smiled.
“Very pretty, yes!” she murmured. “I used to arrange every flower myself, but now my daughter Diana does it for me. You see she can give her tune to it, — she has nothing else to do.”
The vicar smiled the usual smile of polite agreement to everything which always gives a touch of sickliness to the most open countenance, and said no more. Diana was not present, so she did not hear that her mother considered she “had nothing else to do” but arrange flowers. Even if she had heard -it, she would hardly have contradicted it; it was one of those things which she would not have
thought worth while arguing about. The fact that she governed all the domestic working of the house so that it ran like a perfectly-going machine on silent and well-oiled wheels, required no emphasis, — at least, not in her opinion, — and though she knew that not one of the servants would have stayed in Mrs. May’s service or put up with her vague, fussy, and often sulky disposition, unless she, Diana, had “managed” them, she took no credit to herself for the comfortable and well-ordered condition of things under which her selfish old parents enjoyed their existence. That she “had nothing else to do but arrange flowers” was a sort of house tradition with “Pa” and “Ma” through which they found’ all manner of excuse for saddling her with as much work as they could possibly give her in the way of constant attendance on themselves. But she did not mind. She was obsessed by the “Duty” fetish, which too often makes prisoners and slaves of those who should be free. Like all virtues, devotion to duty can become a vice if carried to excess, and it is unquestionably a vice when it binds unselfish souls to unworthy and j tyrannical taskmasters. —
The summer moved on in shining weeks of sunlight and still air, and Rose Lea lost nothing of its charm for Diana, despite the taint of the commonplace with which the eating and sleeping silkworm-lives of her parents invested! it. Now and then a few visitors came from London, — men and women of the usual dull type, bringing no entertainment in themselves, and whose stay only meant a little more expenditure and a more lavish display of food. One or two portly club friends of James Polydore came to play golf and drink whisky with him, and they condescended to converse with Diana at meals, because, perforce, they thought they must, — but meals being over, they gave her no further consideration, except to remark casually one to another: “Pity old Polydore couldn’t have got that daughter off his hands!” And the long, lovely month of August was nearly at its end when in incident happened which, like the small displacement of earth that loosens an avalanche, swept away all the old order of things, giving place to a new heaven and a new earth so far as Diana was concerned. —
It had been an exceedingly warm day, and nightfall was more than usually welcome after the wide glare of the long, sunlit hours. Dinner was over, and Mr and Mrs. Polydore May, fed to repletion and stimulated by two or three glasses of excellent champagne, were resting in a dolce-far-niente condition, each cushioned within a deep and luxurious arm-chair placed on either side of the open French windows of the drawing-room. The lawn in front of them was bathed in a lovely light reflected from the after-glow of the vanished sun and a pale glimmer from the risen half-moon, which hung in soft brilliance over the eastern half of the quiet sea. Diana had left her parents to their after-dinner somnolence, and was walking alone in the garden, up and down a grass path between two rose hedges. She was within call should she be wanted by either “Pa” or “Ma,” but they were not aware of her close proximity. Mr. May was smoking an exceptionally choice cigar, — he was in one of his “juvenile” moods, and for once was not inclined to take his usual “cat-nap” or waking doze. He had been to a tennis party that afternoon and had worn, with a “young man’s fancy” a young man’s flannels, happily unconscious of the weird appearance he presented in that unsuitable attire, — and, encouraged by the laughter and applause of the more youthful players, who looked upon him as the “comic man” of the piece, he had acquitted himself tolerably well. So that for the moment he had cast off the dignity and weight of years, and the very air with which he smoked his cigar, flicking off the burnt ash now and again in the affected style of a “young blood about town,” expressed the fact that he considered himself more than a merely “well-preserved” man, and that if justice were done him he would be admitted to be” a violet in the youth of primy nature.”
His better-half was not in quite such pleasant humour; she was self-complacent enough, but the heat of the day had caused her to feel stouter and more unwieldy than usual, and inclined to wish:
“Oh, that this too, too solid flesh would melt, Thaw and dissolve itself into a dew!”
When her husband lit his cigar, she had closed her eyes, thinking: “Now there will be a little peace!” knowing that a good cigar to an irritable man is like the bottle to a screaming baby. But Mr. May was disposed to talk, just as he was disposed to admire the contour of his little finger whenever he drew his cigar from his mouth or put it back again.
“There were some smart girls playing tennis to-day,” he presently remarked. “One of them I thought very pretty. She was about seventeen.”
His wife yawned expansively. She made no comment.
“She was my partner,” went on Mr. May. “As skittish as you please!”
Mrs. May cuddled herself together among her cushions. The slightest glimmer of a smile lifted the corners of her pursy mouth towards her parsimonious nose. Her husband essayed once more the fascinating “flick” of burnt ash from his cigar.
“They’d have been as dull as a sermon at tea-time if it hadn’t been for me,” he resumed. “You see, I kept the ball rolling.”
“Naturally! — it’s tennis,” murmured his wife, drowsily.
“Don’t be a fool, Margaret! I mean I keep people amused.”
“I’m sure you do!” his “Margaret” agreed, as she smothered another yawn. “You’re the most amusing man I know!”
“Glad you admit it!” he said, captiously. “Not being amusing yourself, you ought to thank God you’ve got an amusing husband!”
This time Mrs. May emitted a bleating giggle.
“I do!”
“Now if it were not for Diana—”
His wife opened her eyes.
“What about Diana?”
“Well — Diana — put it how you like, but she’s Diana. She’ll never be anything else! Our daughter, oh, yes! —
I know all that! — hang sentiment! Everybody calls; her an old maid — and she’s in the way.”
A light-footed figure pacing up and down the grass walk, unseen between the two rose hedges close by, came to a sudden pause — listening.
“She’s in the way,” repeated Mr. May, with somewhat louder emphasis. “Unmarried women of a certain age always are, you know. You can’t class them with young people, and they don’t like being parcelled off with old folks. They’re out of it altogether unless they’ve got something to do which takes them away from their homes and saves them from becoming a social nuisance. They’re superfluous. ‘How is your daughter?’ the women here ask me, with a kind of pitying smile, as though she had the plague, or was recovering from small-pox. To be a spinster over thirty seems to them a kind of illness.”
“Well, it’s an illness that cannot be cured with Diana now!” sighed Mrs. May.” Quite hopeless!”
“Quite.” And her husband gave his chronic snort of ill-tempered defiance.” It’s a most unfortunate thing — especially for me, You see, when I go about with a daughter like Diana, it makes me seem so old!”
“And me!” she interposed.” You talk only of yourself, — don’t forget me!”
Mr. May laughed — a short, sardonic laugh.
“You! My dear Margaret, I don’t wish to be unkind, but really you needn’t worry yourself on that score! Surely you don’t suppose you’ll ever look young again? Think of your size, Margaret! — think of your size!” Somewhat roused from her customary inertia by this remark, Mrs. May pulled herself up in her chair with an assumption of dignify.
“You are very coarse, James,” she said—” very coarse indeed! I consider that I look as young as you do any day, — I ought to, for you are fully eight years my senior — I daresay more, for I doubt if you gave your true age when I married you. You want to play the young man, and you only make yourself ridiculous, — I have no wish to play the young woman, but certainly Diana, with her poor, thin face — getting so many wrinkles, too! — docs make me seem older than I am. She has aged terribly the last three or four years.”
“She’ll never see forty again,” said Mr. May, tersely. Mrs. May rolled up her eyes in paine
d protest.
“Why say if?” she expostulated.” You only give yourself and me away! We are her parents!”
“I don’t say it in public,” he replied. “Catch me!
But it’s true. Let me see! — why, Diana was born in—”
His wife gave an angry gesture.
“Never mind when she was born!” she said, with a tremble as of tears in her voice. “You needn’t recall it! Our only child! — and she has spoilt her life and mine too!” A faint whimper escaped her, and she put a filmy handkerchief to her eyes.
Mr. May took no notice. For women’s tears he had a sovereign contempt.
“The fact is,” he said, judicially, “we ought to have trained her to do something useful. Nursing, or doctoring, or dressmaking, or type-writing. She would have had her business to attend to, which would have kept her away from Us, — and I — we — could have gone about free as air. We need never have mentioned that we had a daughter.” Mrs. May looked scrutinizingly at her lace handkerchief. She remembered it had cost a couple of guineas, and now there was a hole in it. She must tell Diana to mend it. With this thought uppermost in her always chaotic mind, she said between two-long-drawn sighs:
“After all, James, poor Diana does her best. She is very useful in the house.”
“‘Stuff and nonsense! She does nothing at all! She spoils the servants, if, that is what you mean, — allows them to have their own way a great deal too much, in my opinion! It amuses her to play at housekeeping.”
“She doesn’t play at it,” remonstrated Mrs. May, weakly endeavouring to espouse the cause of justice. “She is very earnest and painstaking about it, and does it very well. She keeps down expenses, and saves me a great deal of worry.”
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