"Gage can I ask you something?" We were lying around barely watching some action flick on my big ass flat screen in the sitting room.
"Sure babe, anything." I was playing with her hair as she laid in my lap.
"Remember what you said before, about forever?"
"Babe if you want to have a conversation you're gonna have to stop biting your lip, you know what that shit does to me. "
"You couldn't possibly." She laughed while cupping herself as if that would keep me out.
"My boy might be out for the count but I've still got a perfectly good working tongue and ten ready and willing fingers." I wiggled them at her before tickling the shit out of her.
"Okay, okay, stop tickling I have to ask you something serious."
"Uh uh uh, remember our deal, no heavy stuff in the bedroom."
"I know but this is a good something I promise." She sat up next to me. She was so fucking gorgeous I just had to reach over and kiss her.
"Hhmmmm, I love you baby girl. " I nuzzled her for good measure and gave her boobs a little finger action before settling down again.
"Okay shoot."
Now she was all nervous and shit, I wonder what the hell was on her mind? And she was still biting her lip.
"Suzette..."
"Will you marry me?" Well fuck, I didn't see that one coming, she looked a little uncertain when I didn't answer her right away but I wasn't prepared for her to ask me that, I'd always been prepared to be the one...oh fuck it Maddox stop being a bitch.
"Come 'ere, is that what you want? Are you one hundred percent sure?"
"Yes, it's what I've always wanted more than anything."
"That's good then because that's what I want too." Fuck yeah, we were back, she's talking marriage and I'm thinking babies; right on track again. Fuck the naysayers.
Chapter 33
After our talk we started making out like horny teenagers, I was determined to stay out of her pants this time for real though. It was a good thing we had planned to spend today in seclusion as well since neither of us were fit for company. She couldn't wear pants and I had wet crotch from the ice pack.
"How's my pussy feeling?" She blushed for me just as I knew she would.
"She's sore, she said to tell you she'll be open for business sometime this evening."
"Nice try but I'm not fucking you for at least two days." I kissed her pouty lip, drawing it into my mouth. Fuck it felt amazing to have her back in my arms. I knew we still had a few hurdles in our path, but as far as I was concerned we'd tackled the hardest one and won that round.
I had a better understanding and respect for those people who claimed they stayed in fucked up situations because of love. It would be hard as fuck living without my heart. I really did make peace with this whole fuckery, the bottom line for me was my love for her, that shit was real, it was solid and I was sure as fuck that if we could survive this shit, there probably wasn't much that we couldn't.
"Butterfly?"
"Hmm?"
"I want to make a baby."
"Really?" She lit up like a fucking Xmas tree, that's what I'm talking about.
"Yeah really, why the fuck you think I was riding you so hard last night and today?"
"I don't know I thought you missed me." She knew I was teasing the shit out of her.
"So do you wanna?" I wriggled my brow at her making her crack the hell up. Sweet Suzette she could fucking laugh again, I bet not more than two days ago she never imagined that was possible. Damn life is strange I didn't feel one ounce of the angst I'd been carrying around for the past two weeks, in fact I felt better than I had in a long fucking time. My girl was okay and I was going to see to it that she stayed that way. I didn't kid myself, I knew just because we straightened shit out between us that didn't mean the fuckers who put this shit on blast were going to let us go gently into the motherfucking night. I was going to talk to James about hiring some bodyguards for us; I wasn't taking any chances with her safety. I could look out for myself, I'm the Motherfucker who would run a fucking scumbag paparazzo over without blinking they could test me at their own peril.
"Of course I want to. Thank you, thank you, thank you." She peppered my face with kisses.
"What's that for?" She was so damn cute.
"For loving me enough to give me a second chance." I didn't like that her voice had gone all small and shit.
"Babe cut that shit out, if you want me to let that shit go then you have to let it go too. We're moving forward remember? No more scared voice outta you we're solid, fuck everybody else and that includes everybody no matter who, if they're not with us fuck ‘em."
"But I know it's gonna be bad."
"Uh uh, no heavy stuff in the bedroom remember? Besides we were talking about me putting my daughter inside you, which I might have already done." I picked her up and kissed her tummy making her giggle. Fuck that sounded good.
Chapter 34
All good things must come to an end and our little pre-honeymoon ended the next day.
My family was cool as fuck, no one said anything about our fucked up shit, we all sat around the breakfast table gabbing like old times. I saw mom's secret smiles and felt pretty sure she was in our corner the only wild card was Connie like I said before that bitch is insane.
Of course she had to say something I let her say her piece, after all she was the least of our worries. I'd know after she was through if I needed to fuck her shit up or not because I was dead serious about what I said, if anyone was against us they could go fuck themselves.
"So I've got only one thing to say." The whole fucking table went quiet. My girl looked like she lost a little color so I took her hand giving her a little squeeze to let her know I had her back, I would bitch slap my sister in law if she got out of hand, I think my whole family pretty much knew that including Connie herself.
"They've all decided to forgive you..."
"Connie...!"
"No Brian let her finish." I put my arms around butterfly drawing her into me.
"Right, as I was saying, they've forgiven you, I'm withholding judgment until farther notice, but know this, if you fuck with him again I'll take your ass down." She sipped her coffee she was done. Okay I had to give her that, it could've been worse.
Tiffany of course had to put in her two cents.
"Well I have something to say...SPA DATE. " She clapped her hands like a kid in a candy store.
Of course my mom and Connie jumped on that bandwagon. Butterfly looked at me with tears in her eyes, this meant they'd accepted her again. We'd already called and talked to Steve, he was just happy his little girl was pulling through. Of course now he wanted to know about the set up and shit but I convinced him to give us a couple days of happy time before we dealt with the fuckery again.
"I'll call right now and make the appointments, and not to worry they're extremely discreet."
Fuck, say what now?
"She's not going to any spa without me."
"Oh Gage come on she'll be perfectly fine, no one knows you're here, we should be perfectly safe." Mom might be right but I didn't give a fuck. Damn, I didn't expect to feel this nervous about her going out in public again, especially without me. Well Maddox you're just gonna have to get over it you're not fucking joined at the hip. Yeah motherfucker? Well not today though fuck that it was too soon.
"She's not going without me." Yeah that was my don't fuck with me voice they knew the deal.
"Why don't we all go? I could go for a massage." Dad to the rescue.
"Sounds like a plan you in Brian?"
"Fuck yeah I need to get a bikini wax." The douche batted his lashes at me. Connie took care of that with a slap behind the head.
"Hey, what was that for?"
"For being a big girl."
"Derrick?"
"Of course my Derrick's in he loves being pampered." Talk about big girls, when did Derrick give his balls to my sister anyway? Was there some kind of ceremony for the event? Just saying.
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Chapter 35
The spa was fucking awesome, me and butterfly got a couples massage, by two women of course, I'm not down with some dude having his hands all over what's mine whether he's gay or not. The only dick that should be anywhere near her naked ass is mine.
The only glitch occurred when this society maven looked at my butterfly with a sour look on her face, like she’d smelled some shit that was rancid. I gave her the mean brow and she suddenly became interested in something else. Fucking bitch.
Now I'm very much aware that I can't brow beat every mother- fucker out there that's going to talk shit but I was more then willing to punch a fucker in the face if he fucked with my girl.
I knew it was time to get back to real life and I can't say I was looking forward to that shit.
I knew the public would be out for their pound of flesh and I was gonna try not to lose my shit, because people could be stupid. They acted like the shit actors did was any different to what they and their neighbors did every fucking day. What they didn't understand was that the shit we did on the screen was for them, we put our blood sweat and tears into it to make it as enjoyable for them as possible. But when the cameras were off my fucking life belonged to me, go live in your own fucking glass house and stop throwing mother-fucking stones at mine, maybe I liked having a few smudges on my fucking windows what the fuck is it to you? I'm also doubly sure that half these assholes out there passing judgment did some fucked up shit in their lives that would make what my baby did look like a walk in kindergarten. I'm sure if I turned the spotlight on some of these paparazzi motherfuckers they'd run screaming into the fucking night, bitch asses. Okay rant over I'm hungry as fuck and my girl is looking all kinds of fuckable after her spa treatments, time to go. I had a baby girl to make.
Oh my word Gage is trying to kill me, I don't think we have this much sex in a week, and we have a lot of sex in a week. He was insatiable, as soon as he rolled off of me he would be back for seconds, or thirds, or, I lost count, and my kitty cat, her name's Katrina by the way, she keeps purring at him until he pounds the shit out of her and then she'd start whining to me about being sore. Not much I could do about it if she insisted on being a greedy bitch.
I'm not sure what set him off this time, but as soon as we got back from the spa and lunch he frog marched me up the stairs the door to his room was barely closed before he had me pushed up against it with my thong around my ankles. He said something about my glow whatever that was. I'm sure his family knew what we were up to.
I know he didn't want me to keep harping on it, but I could never put into words how much his forgiveness meant to me. He saved my life because in all seriousness I think I would've given serious thought to ending it. That might seem weak but that's where my head was at, that pain was not to be borne. I know one thing I'd never be that damn stupid again in this lifetime. I hope that was the worse thing I would ever do in my life, especially to my Gage. He deserved so much more than me, but I'm glad he loves me enough to take me back.
Tomorrow we're supposed to meet with that James guy to talk strategy or something, I'm super nervous, I know I let a lot of people down and I can't begin to make reparation but that kind of pisses me off too you know. I mean I'm just a person like everybody else, I made a mistake I don't think I should be held to a higher standard than say the checkout clerk at the grocery store, but that's just the way it is. People pay for a movie ticket and they think they have the right to have a say in your life. I'm also worried about Gage, I saw that lady at the spa today and the way he reacted to her, I know his temper he thinks he's kept it hidden all these years but I've seen glimpses of it and though he has great control, I was sure this would push all his limits. I just wish I knew how to deal with it all.
“What are you thinking about so hard over there beautiful?" I rolled over on the bed and looked at him.
"I thought you were taking a nap?"
"Yeah your snapper knocked me the fuck out but I could hear you thinking in my sleep, come 'ere." He pulled me into his arms and nuzzled behind my ear the way I liked. Of course his hand worked its way down to my crotch for an exploration?
"Hmm, your pussy's so sweet baby, I think she's trying to kill me though."
"How's she trying to kill you? She isn't doing anything, it's you that messed with her she was just laying here minding her business." I laughed at him.
"No she wasn't she was purring at me, more, more, more."
I missed being silly with him, it amazed me that we could get that back so soon, it didn't seem possible.
"Are you sure we're okay Gage? There isn't anything else about this that bothers you?"
He stopped to think for a while, while I held my breath.
"Everything about this shit bothers me babe, but it's not about that, it's about us, you and I, what happened is fucked I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, but I love you." Kiss.
"You love me." Kiss.
"And that's all the fuck that matters so put this shit away for now, tomorrow's soon enough to deal with the fuckery."
I wish I could be as sure as he that all will be well. I knew it was guilt that was making me so nervous, guilt for what I'd done and guilt for the ridicule Gage was sure to face for taking me back. I decided to do as he said so I took a deep breath and enjoyed being held in his arms again.
Chapter 36
The following day James showed up with some new info. This time I had my girl sitting next to me at the table. The whole family was there as was to be expected whatever the fuck happened was going to be a family effort.
James was being his usual stoic self while scary bitch Amanda just had his back. There was no preamble, we came in sat down and got right the fuck down to it. Just the way I like it.
"So, what we have here is a convoluted sequence of events that took serious time and effort to piece together in such a short time. So far it appears this thing has been in the works for quite some time. This was not a fly by the seat of your pants operation. It was meticulously thought out and executed. First and foremost new intelligence has surfaced that would suggest the wife was part of the whole thing."
The fuck?
There was a ring of audible gasps all around the room, total disbelief, this fuckery just kept getting better and better. Meanwhile I 'm trying to keep my cool until he's through.
"This is what we’ve come up with so far, this is just conjuncture at this point but we’ll learn more as we go on. He’s just a little known actor and she’s a mediocre stage actress somehow he became fixated on you Miss. Sorenson; the plan was to seduce you, make a big splash, which would propel him into the limelight ergo the leaked photos.
As for the wife being on board, apparently they get up to some seriously kinky hi jinx behind closed doors so she had no issue with her husband seducing an impressionable young girl. Now here's where it gets tricky, the O’Reilly angle, how does she fit into the scheme of things?
It appears Miss. O’Reilly knows the wife, they met in boarding school over twenty years ago and have kept in touch ever since. Apparently what she gets out of the deal is you Gage." I felt butterfly's body jerk next to me and I pulled her into my side. What kind of sick twisted fuckery are we caught up in? This shit was too twisted for colored TV.
"The phones are still pretty quiet no contact between the parties involved since we put ears and eyes on them, they might need a nudge, that's what we're working on right now."
He said some other shit but I zoned out, I was too fucking mad to get in to it when my family started throwing around ideas, my girl was too fucking quiet which meant this shit might've set her back. I'm gonna go Michael Corleone on that mother- fucker.
"I want that mother-fucker dead."
"Bro, seriously, I know we're dealing with Hollywood here but this is the real world, you can't go around killing people." I wasn't surprised that my brother in law knew I was serious as fuck.
"I don't have to kill him, just shoot his mother-fucking dick off. He'll live."
"No babe, fuck this shit, this is all kinds of fucked up."
"Honey you have to calm down I don't want you getting into trouble because of me." I didn't want her losing her fucking mind again so I reined it in, but inside I was a boiling cauldron of pure hate and anger.
"I say we destroy them completely; financially, mentally, every fuck right across the board. I want them to have to go into hiding for the rest of their natural motherfucking lives, or until they off their mother fucking selves."
"Gage they have kids."
"Yeah Connie? They should’ve thought of that before they decided to fuck with what's mine. The kids have grandparents don't they? Let them raise the motherfuckers I don't give a fuck. Besides those two shouldn't be allowed to raise a fucking gerbil. Greedy fucks."
Mom and dad tried to calm me down after my tirade, Suzette was crying again and my head was about to explode. I was over this shit already, no matter what anyone else said I was going to destroy them, I don't know how yet but I'll figure that shit the fuck out. One thing was for sure Terry Poole was going to get the beat down of his pathetic mother-fucking life. Bitch ass.
Chapter 37
The whole thing turned into a big powwow with everyone throwing around ideas of what should be done.
"There's more here than just the personal affront to you guys." James who'd been silent for a while finally pitched back in.
"What you're all overlooking is the criminal aspects of the situation. Our experts are leaning towards some of the pictures being doctored."
"Connie..." Mom was reminding Connie that she'd told her that same thing not long ago.
"It's also against the law to willingly set out to defame a persons' character, putting everything we have together so far we have the connection between Poole, O’Reilly, and Humphreys, but that can easily be explained away, and though it might instill doubt in the public sector it wouldn't stand up in a court of law. We know from what we've learned that it was a set up, but unless these fucks were stupid enough to document any of this shit, there's no way to prove any of it. Unless we can get them on tape discussing it."
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