He cupped her luscious breasts in his hands. Her skin felt like silk beneath his fingers. His hand touched her nipple, gently twirled it with his fingers. She sighed, a soft, pleasurable sound that sent a surge of blood straight to his manhood. He rolled over and brought her body on top of his.
Mary Beth’s stomach muscles tightened. Though she’d known that the rodeo came first, it still gave her a sense of loss when he spoke of leaving. “Then we’d better make the most of tonight,” she whispered. Mary Beth scooted down his body, kissed his belly, then took him in her mouth. He groaned, a guttural sound that came from deep within him.
“Honey, I’m not gonna last another minute if you keep that up.”
“Well, we don’t want that, now do we?” She slid her body up his. Deke lifted her hips, then settled her on top of him. Mary Beth caught her breath at the intense pleasure of feeling him slide into her. “Oh, that feels so good.”
Deke’s hands molded her breasts as he began to move his hips. “I can make you feel a lot better.” His eyes sought hers as he touched her nipples.
Mary Beth’s head fell back. Sparkling, multicolored lights flashed before her eyes. She moved her hips in a rocking motion, meeting his thrusts, demanding more.
“Oh, my. Oh, Deke,” she murmured, her voice husky, her breathing rapid. “Now.”
Deke moved his hands slowly over her, burning every inch of her into his memory. He moved faster, deeper into her, then suddenly lost all sense of control as his body shattered into a million tiny pieces.
Mary Beth shifted to prop her head on Deke’s chest. Her gaze moved over his face, studying the lines around his eyes, taking in his strong jawline, his sensual lips.
Her heart swelled.
She was hopelessly in love with him.
She sighed deeply. What was she going to do about it? What could she do about it?
Nothing. Don’t do anything. Deke hasn’t said a word about his feelings for you.
No, he hadn’t. What he had done was make it perfectly clear that he had no room in his life for anything permanent with a woman. And that included her. So whatever he felt came a lot closer to desire. Possibly even genuine affection. But nothing deeper, nothing permanent.
Definitely not love.
Before she could further consider the reality of her feelings, he opened his eyes. His engaging grin endeared him to her all the more.
“Are you okay?” He held her tighter, absorbing her warmth, and he lost the ability to think straight. His chest rose as he drew in a deep breath, struggling to get himself under control. He’d come there seeking answers. But he hadn’t been ready to discover that his feelings for Mary Beth went a lot deeper than he was prepared for.
“Yes.” She didn’t give him a chance to read her thoughts. Instead, she slowly moved off him, then slid off the bed.
“Where are you going?” he asked, his eyes narrowing.
“To check on Lightning and Lady. They’re still outside.”
“They’re dogs. They’re supposed to be outside.”
She turned her head, averting her gaze. “They’re used to being inside with me. They probably think I’ve abandoned them.”
Puzzled by her sudden withdrawal, Deke snatched her hand before she could move away. “Kiss me and I’ll let you go.” He linked her fingers with his.
Mary Beth arched her brow in amused disbelief. “Now, why don’t I believe that?”
“I swear.”
She gave in to her own desire for another taste of him. As their lips met, he slid his hand around her neck, pinning her lips against his. Mary Beth moaned into his mouth when his hand touched her breast.
She lifted her lips. “That’s not playing fair,” she complained, loving the way he made her feel. In answer, he cupped her thigh, ran his hand up her leg and squeezed her buttocks. “Deke.”
“Hmm?”
“The sooner you let me go, the sooner we can make love again.”
He set her free. “Well, if you insist…”
Mary Beth gave him a playful shove, and he fell back onto the mattress. “I’m going to let the dogs in and feed them. Then I’ll make us something to eat.” Maybe by then she’d be able to think straight.
“I’m gonna grab a shower. Why don’t you join me after you let the dogs in?”
Not bothering to dress, she walked to the door naked, then turned to look back at him. His hungry gaze made her tingle all over. “Maybe I will,” she said, and gave him a sultry smile.
Deke couldn’t get out of the bed fast enough.
Beneath the spray of warm water, they made love again. Then, after a long, intoxicating kiss, Mary Beth went to start dinner as Deke finished dressing. He pulled on his jeans, then sat on the edge of the bed as he slipped on his shirt. Picking up the telephone, he put in a call to the Bar M, letting them know where he was and to expect him in the morning. As he talked with Jake, Deke noticed a pad with some writing on it on Mary Beth’s bedside table. Idle curiosity had him picking it up.
His gaze slid over the writing once, and he frowned. Studying it more closely, he realized he was reading notations Mary Beth had made concerning her mortgage. His lips twisted. She was a thousand dollars short.
Deke finished his call, then put the receiver in its cradle, his mind spinning. So he hadn’t been wrong when he’d suspected that Mary Beth was in financial straits. He shook his head, then put the note back on the table. Frustrated, he stared at it. Why hadn’t she confided in him? They were friends, weren’t they? He wanted to help her. But how could he when she held her troubles inside?
Still thinking about her problem, he finished dressing, then went into the kitchen to join her. After they’d eaten, they laughed together as they gathered the clothes they’d tossed willy-nilly earlier. Exhausted, they climbed back into bed as the two dogs settled themselves on the floor. Deke wrapped his body around Mary Beth’s and pulled her to him, the knowledge of her financial situation leaving him unsettled. She scooted her bottom closer and he nuzzled her neck, feeling more content than he had in years.
“Deke?”
“Hmm?”
“What time are you leaving?”
He closed his eyes and breathed in her scent. “I have to get an early start. I called the Bar M to let them know that I’d be by in the morning.”
“Oh, I thought I heard you on the phone earlier,” she said sleepily. “Did you tell them where you were?”
“Yeah. Why? Does it matter?” He opened one eye to gauge her reaction.
She gave a soft shrug. “I guess not,” she answered, her voice quiet. Still, she wondered what his family thought when he mentioned he was at Paradise.
Deke closed his eye as he sensed her quiet withdrawal. He stroked her arm, then slid his hand up her midriff and found her breast. “Don’t worry about it. My family really likes you. If anything, Ashley and Catherine are gonna have my hide for compromising you.”
“Is that what you’re doing?” She yawned. “I’m sorry. I’m so tired, I think I could sleep a week.”
Deke stroked her head with his hand. “Go to sleep, sweetheart.”
“I don’t want to. I…want…to…”
Her words drifted off, and Deke smiled in the darkness. He’d worn her out. Well, he was pretty tired himself. He closed his eyes, but even as he drifted off, concerns about how Mary Beth was going to pay her mortgage haunted his mind.
Sometime during the night, Deke woke and they made love again. He knew he was playing with fire by staying with her, but he couldn’t seem to resist the risk. She came into his arms half-asleep at first, and her eager response nearly shattered him. He brought her to climax with his hands and mouth, then buried himself deep inside of her. He drifted off to sleep, wondering how he was ever going to leave her in the morning.
When he woke, it was already going on seven. He opened his eyes and his gaze slid lazily over Mary Beth. She was still sleeping soundly in his arms. Resisting the urge to make love to her once more, he planted a so
ft kiss on her cheek. Thinking if he hurried he could see to some of her chores before he left, he eased himself out of the bed trying not to wake her.
A frown touched his brow. Why did it seem as if he was always leaving her? No matter how much he wanted to stay, he couldn’t. He had to be in Tulsa this evening. He needed to broaden the gap between himself and his nearest competitor.
Moving quietly, he slipped on his clothes. As he bent over to grab his boots, he glanced at the notation Mary Beth had made about her mortgage. Damn! He really wanted to help her. She’d worked so hard trying to make a go of the ranch, only to come up short. If she didn’t get that money, she’d lose everything.
Shaking his head, Deke stood and fished into his pants pocket for his wallet. He had the money Mary Beth needed with him. Opening his wallet, he counted out ten one-hundred-dollar bills, then tossed them on her dresser as he passed.
Knowing her stubborn pride, she’d probably have a fit when she saw it, he thought with a chuckle as he quietly left the room, the dogs on his heels. Well, tough. If it bothered her that much, she could think of it as a loan.
Nine
B y the time Mary Beth woke in the morning, Deke had already left. She looked at the indentation on the pillow next to her, and disappointment created a crater in her heart. Though she knew that he had to return to the rodeo, she wished he hadn’t left without saying goodbye. It would have been wonderful to have awakened in his arms. Closing her eyes, she rested her hand against his pillow.
That’s what you get for letting him near your heart.
Well, it wasn’t as if she’d really had a choice. She’d been half in love with him most of her life. What started out as a crush had developed into much more over the years. Though she’d tried to keep her heart safe, she’d never really stood a chance at protecting it. Especially not since she’d moved back to Crockett. In San Antonio, Deke hadn’t been around as a constant reminder of her feelings for him. She’d adjusted to living alone, believing she’d never see him again. Maybe if she’d stayed there, she would have eventually fallen in love with someone else.
Opening her eyes, she rolled over and stared absently at the ceiling. Her plans had taken an unexpected turn when she’d returned home to help her father. His subsequent death had changed the entire focus of her life. Even after she’d decided to stay at Paradise to try and make it a success, she hadn’t had any real hope of a relationship with Deke. From what she’d heard, he was rarely home.
How was she to know that in the course of a few weeks, he would show up and turn her world upside down? Since spending time with him, she’d learned a lot about him—why he pushed himself so hard. His guilt over his relationship with his father drove him to try to make amends, to somehow find peace in his heart. She hoped he would one day be able to exorcize the memories that haunted him. He needed closure, needed to forgive himself.
While pondering Deke’s strife, she gave some thought to her own role in their evolving relationship. Mary Beth understood him now. She felt that he cared for her, as much as he would allow himself. Haunted by regrets concerning his father, he’d closed himself off, refusing to let anyone near who would interfere with his goal of redeeming himself.
And that includes you.
Trust didn’t come easy to her, but understanding his motives had caused her to let down her guard, to become vulnerable to him.
To fall hopelessly in love with him.
She sighed softly as she stretched her arms toward the headboard, then tucked her hands under her head. So she was in love with Deke. The realization didn’t shock her as it might have a few weeks ago. Mainly because it didn’t really alter her view of her life. She wasn’t going to waste time dreaming that Deke would fall in love with her. For now she was content to have him be a part of her life.
Knowing she’d lost most of the morning, she figured she’d better get to her chores. She tossed off the sheet and put her legs over the side of the bed. As she got to her feet, she realized Lightning and Lady weren’t in the room with her as usual. Deke must have fed them and put them outside so she could sleep. She smiled to herself. That was sweet of him. How long ago did he leave?
Her gaze went to the small alarm clock on the bedside table. Eight o’clock? Heavens, she couldn’t remember the last time she’d slept so late. She smiled. Of course, she’d spent half the night making love with Deke.
She got up and went to her dresser in search of clean clothes. As she started to pull open a drawer, a flash of green caught her eye. What on earth…? A wad of bills lay beside her jewelry box, money that hadn’t been there when she’d gone to bed.
Mary Beth stared at it. Where had it come…?
Deke?
He’d left her money? But why would he…?
Something painfully cold touched her heart as she stared blankly at the money. Then, her hand shaking, she slowly picked up the stack of bills. Her chest constricted, and she could hardly breathe.
He’d left her money!
Her stomach roiled. For a moment she thought she would be physically sick. She swallowed hard, forcing back the bile in her throat. She’d thought that Deke wouldn’t hurt her, but she’d been so terribly wrong. Pain and humiliation engulfed her as her temper began to simmer. She didn’t even stop to count the bills, didn’t want to know what price Deke had put on having her.
Damn him! She’d believed him when he’d said he wanted only her. But for a price? She hadn’t realized that he meant as a…a mistress!
She fought against the tide of fury rising inside her. While she’d thought that they’d shared something so unbelievably special, Deke had only wanted sex. He’d cheapened the beautiful memory of passion they’d shared, made it sordid.
Tears sprang to her eyes. She crushed the wad of cash in her fist.
That low-down, yellow-bellied jerk!
How dare he?
How dare he!
Mary Beth jerked open her dresser drawer. She stuffed her legs into a pair of jeans so fast that she nearly tripped and fell. After yanking on her shirt and socks, she snatched her boots from the floor and tugged them on, then stomped from the room.
With the money still clutched in her fist, she stormed out the back door of the house. Besieged by Lightning and Lady, she ordered them in the truck. Eager for a ride, both dogs jumped into the cab without further prodding.
Seething, she turned the key in the ignition and the truck fired up. She gripped the steering wheel so tightly that her knuckles turned white. Muttering a curse, she mashed down the accelerator and the truck shot forward. Hoping the fresh air would clear her mind, she lowered the windows and let in the wind. It slapped her hair about her face. Unaware of anything except channeling her hurt, all she felt was blazing anger.
Mary Beth covered the distance between Paradise and the Bar M in ten minutes, less than half the usual time. Tearing into the yard, she jammed on the brakes. The small truck skidded to a halt at the McCalls’ house, sending dirt and dust flying in clouds around it.
“Stay,” she ordered the dogs. Her fist still wrapped around the money, she jumped out of the truck. Calling Deke every low-down name she could think of, she marched to the front door and gave it several sharp whacks. Only a moment passed before she pounded her fist against it again.
Ryder answered the door and frowned at her. “What the—Mary Beth! Well, hey, darlin’—”
“Where’s that no-account brother of yours?” she demanded, not giving Ryder a chance to finish speaking.
Taken aback, Ryder eyed her with the caution due a mountain lion. Then he noticed the money fisted in her hand. “You must mean Deke.”
“That’s exactly who I mean,” she said through clenched teeth. Her eyes scanned behind Ryder with fierce intent before slicing back to him. “Where is he?”
Ryder opened the screen door. He knew better than to interfere with a woman as angry as the redhead standing in front of him. “In the dining room,” he told her. He pointed in that direction, then got th
e hell out of her way. She stormed past him. Ryder followed a safe distance behind her.
Mary Beth had been in the McCall house before and knew exactly where to go. When she burst into the dining room, she realized Deke wasn’t alone. Her hot gaze swept past Jake, Catherine, Ashley and Matt before finally landing on her quarry.
Deke had been talking to Jake, but at Ashley’s gasp, he’d looked up. Then he realized that Ryder had someone with him. His gaze moved to their guest, and his eyes widened. Mary Beth!
Grinning, he said, “Hey, sweetheart—” But his words faltered when he saw the look of white-hot anger on her face.
“Don’t you ‘sweetheart’ me, you big, dumb jerk!” Mary Beth circled the room, aiming her finger at him. Her eyes blazing, she came to a halt in front of him. The confusion in his expression fueled the humiliation and outrage inside her.
Unmindful of their audience, she raised her fist and threw the wad of money at him. The bills fluttered in the air, then floated like feathers to the floor. “Just tell me one thing,” she said, her voice lowering as she fought for control. “Do you pay every woman you sleep with?”
Startled, Deke’s mouth fell open. “What? No, I—”
She jammed her hands on her hips. “Oh, so that makes me the first?” Fresh pain sliced through her heart.
“Wait, that’s not what I—”
“I guess I played right into your hands, didn’t I? I laid my heart right out there for you to stomp on. Well, let me tell you something, mister.” She advanced on him, her face flaming with heat, her hands balled into fists. “You won’t get another chance to hurt me, Deke McCall! I may have been stupid enough to believe your sweet lies in bed last night, but it won’t happen again. Ever!”
Someone coughed, and Mary Beth gasped. She whirled around. Suddenly she became fully aware that she’d aired their intimacy with Deke’s family staring at them. A mixture of shock and disbelief sent a rush of blood to her face. Her hand went to her mouth, muffling her cry of despair. She nearly fainted when she realized that Matthew had witnessed her entire tirade.
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