by M. K. Eidem
Trisha's fingers instinctively dug into Ull's chest as he lifted her off her feet and let herself sink into the kiss. God, just moments ago, she'd thought he was walking out of her life forever, but now he was kissing her as if he'd never let her go, and she never wanted him to.
Sliding her fingers up over the hard, bulging muscles of his chest, then along his broad shoulders, she finally sunk them into his hair, increasing the pressure of the kiss. God, she wanted this, wanted to get lost in this kiss and Ull. She needed to forget about everything and everyone else. But she couldn't. Not because of how it would affect everyone else but because of how it would affect Ull.
God, she wanted this, wanted to get lost in Ull and what he was making her feel and forget about the rest of the world. Was it too much to ask? For her to grab for a bit of happiness.
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'I'm sorry, Steve, but I have to end this.'
'What?! Patricia, why? We're good together, and Trisha likes me.'
'I know, and you’re right. My baby does, but I can't give you what you want. I care about you, Steve, I do. But Martin will always be the only man I love, and you deserve better than that. You deserve to find someone who loves you like that because I know she's out there. You're too great of a guy for there not to be.’
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Trisha ripped her mouth away from Ull's gasping at the memory. She'd been eight when her mamá had begun dating Steve Able, a fellow lawyer. They'd dated for nearly a year, and it had seemed like a happy time through Trisha's young eyes. Her mamá and Steve went on dates together, but there'd been just as many that had included her. Trisha even thought her mamá might marry Steve until the night when she'd gotten up for a drink of water and overhead that conversation.
She'd slipped back into bed, and Steve had disappeared from their lives. When she'd asked her mamá about it, all she would say was that Steve's work schedule had gotten hectic, but one day, they'd see him again.
And they had, nearly a year later.
She and her mamá had been in the park when Steve had walked by, his arm around another woman. He'd stopped and introduced the woman as Shelly, his fiancée. Her mamá had congratulated them and wished them well.
After that, Trisha never saw Steve again, not until the day of her mamá's funeral. He, his wife, and their three children had come and paid their respects.
None of that would have happened if her mamá hadn't been honest with Steve and put his wants and needs before her own. She'd known true love, and she wanted him to have it too.
"Trisha?"
Ull's concern-filled tone pulled her from her memories. "What's wrong? Did I harm you?"
"No," she reassured him but still slid her fingers from his hair and lightly pressed them against his chest, silently requesting to be put down. "But we can't do this."
"Why?" he growled, refusing to release her.
Trisha stared up into his beautiful gray eyes and couldn't stop her hand from reaching up to caress his cheek. "You are so handsome."
Ull's eyes widened at that. No one had ever said something like that to him before, and for it to be Trisha, made it mean even more. Turning his head, he gently pressed a kiss into her palm.
"And loving," she whispered. "I don't want to see you hurt again."
"Again?"
"Not being chosen during the Joining Ceremony, then again when Abby chose Ynyr, hurt you." She watched his eyes darken with pain. "Those things happened for a reason, Ull, because none of those women was the right one for you. But she is out there, just as your Goddess promised."
"You do not believe she is in my arms right now?"
In the quiet question, Trisha could hear all his hope, and it broke her heart. "Can you put me down? We can sit and talk."
Instead of doing as she asked, Ull carried her to the Tornian-sized couch. Sitting down, he arranged her, so his bulging erection pressed against her already throbbing clit.
"Tell me why it can't be you," Ull growled, his fingers sinking into the flesh of her ass, keeping her close.
Knowing Ull wasn't going to let her move away, she allowed her hands to caress his chest gently.
"Talk," he growled.
Trying not to let the thought of how amazing that huge cock would feel inside her, of how completely it would fill her, she began.
"I told you about my father… manno."
"That he was a Warrior and met the Goddess because of it."
"Yes, and even though she was only twenty-two at the time, my mamá never got over losing him, or at least never allowed herself to."
"I don't understand."
"There was a time, six or seven years after my dad died when Mamá met another man. He was a good man, Ull. A fit and worthy man who loved Mamá and wanted to claim her and me the same way Grim claimed Lisa and the girls. But unlike Lisa, my mamá refused to open her heart to Steve, even though I know she cared about him."
"Why?" Ull didn't understand that. From what he had observed of the Earth females, they were among some of the most open and giving beings in the Known Universes.
"Because she knew he deserved someone who could love him with her whole heart. Not someone who continually compared him to her first love."
"You are saying there is another male in your heart?"
She knew if she told Ull there was he would let it go, but she couldn't lie, wouldn't lie, not to him. "No, there's only one male who will ever fill my heart." Reaching up, she gently caressed the cheek of that male. "But I can't have him, at least not forever, because I can't be what he needs. This is why before we Join, I have to make sure you understand that."
"You would Join with me without expecting anything else? What you referred to as a wham bam thank you ma'am Joining."
"No!" She jerked her hand away from his cheek. "Never. That's people who don't care about each other. You know I care about you. I wouldn't be here in your arms if I didn't, especially not when this is probably the last time we'll be alone together."
"What do you mean?!" Ull growled, his arms pulling her even closer as if to protect her from the possibility.
"After we return the last of the abductees tomorrow, I've been ordered to remain on the planet."
"By who?!"
"Tío Aaron, as the President of the United States."
Ull hadn't considered this. He'd been looking forward to the Earthians leaving, wrongly thinking that would give him more time alone with Trisha. Instead, it was taking her away from him.
"Then, if this is all I can have with the one the Goddess promised, I will have it all," Ull vowed and gripping the back of her head, crushed her lips to his.
Trisha knew there were arguments and understandings she still needed to make, and Ull to accept. She was a lawyer, after all. It was something her mamá had always stressed to her, but now Trisha saw those lessons in a different light. And she wasn't her mamá. Trisha was going to do something her mamá never could. Embrace everything life offered her while she could.
Decision made, Trisha flattened her upper body against Ull's as she rose on to her knees and wrapped her arms around his neck, returning his kiss just as ravenously.
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Lost in Ull's sweet hunaja taste, Trisha never even realized they were moving until her back met her bed with Ull's weight covering her. Wrapping her legs around his hips, she pulled him closer, rocking her hips against his.
Ull growled at how the movement nearly caused him to lose control. Ripping his mouth from hers, he rose on his forearms and glared down at her. "You must cease doing that!"
"Why?" she asked, giving him a knowing smile as she rolled her hips again. "It feels so good. You feel so good."
"You need to stop, or I will find my release before you receive yours."
"If that happens, then we'll just have to start all over again," she teased, but when she tried to repeat the movement, Ull bore the full weight of his lower body down on her, preventing it.
"I will
have your release first, my Trisha. I will have all of you." With that, he slowly pulled down the thin straps of her tank top, revealing two amazing mounds of flesh, each crowned with dark areola and already taut nipple. Goddess, he'd never seen anything so beautiful. They were so much more generous than the Serai. Leaning down, he captured one, sucking it deep into his mouth.
"Ull!" Gasping, she arched up, offering him more, which he greedily accepted. With a pop, he released her nipple then turned his attention to the other, his hands continuing down to slide under the waistband of her pants to cup her ass, grinding her against his shaft the way he refused to allow her.
"Please, Ull, more," she begged.
Finally, Ull released the succulent flesh of her breast so he could continue his way down her flat, taut stomach, kissing, and sampling the entire way. Shifting her legs to his shoulders, his knees hit the floor as did her pants, revealing to him the glistening curls that hid her sex.
Inhaling deeply, he let her unique scent fill him and knew he would never forget it. Carefully his thumbs parted her curls, revealing plump, tender flesh that beckoned him. Already aroused for Joining, he hadn't used anything he'd learned with the Serai to give her pleasure. It was time he did. Lowering his head, he tasted her for the first time and nearly released. Her nectar was sweeter than the rarest hunaja found on his planet, and he intended to consume her. Exploring further, he discovered her berry and latched on to it.
Breathing heavily, Trisha propped herself up on her elbows to watch Ull explore her. She'd never been the absolute center of a male's attention or had his complete focus on seeing she found pleasure first. When he latched onto her clit, she nearly screamed.
"God, Ull!" She sunk her fingers into his hair, guiding him exactly where she needed him, her hips instinctively moving.
Ull's gaze bore into hers when he pulled back, his lips glistening. "You enjoy this?" He growled as the rough, thick pad of his thumb continued to tease her berry.
"You know I do," she growled back.
"Shall I give you more?"
"Yes!"
Sliding his fingers through her slick folds, Ull coated them before finding her woman's opening and pressing two fingers inside. Goddess, she was so much tighter and softer than the Serai.
"Please, Ull…" Trisha wasn't too proud to beg. She was so close. The feel of his fingers stretching her felt amazing, but she needed more. "I'm so close."
Her admission caused him to thrust his fingers as deep as possible before twisting and withdrawing them before rapidly filling her again and again. At the same time, his mouth returned to her clit, lightly biting it.
"Oh, God, yes!" She exclaimed as that last bit of pain sent an orgasm tearing through her body.
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Ull rose from between Trisha's thighs and ripped open his pants. He'd watched her the entire time he'd pleasured her to make sure she was enjoying everything he was doing. Goddess, she was so open and honest with her responses that several times he'd nearly found his release before her. But now it was his turn to finally know what it felt like to release into a real female.
The head of his shaft at her entrance, he paused, his eyes shooting up to her. He had to be sure.
"Yes," she told him quietly. "Fill me, Ull. I need you."
That was all the encouragement he needed and with one powerful thrust impaled her on his shaft as he had done with the Serai.
Trisha's back arched up off the bed, her scream lodged in her throat at the sudden intrusion. She'd known Ull would be massive. She'd seen the outline of his cock often enough and, thanks to Lisa, knew they were compatible. Still, she hadn't thought it would feel like this like he split her in two.
"Trisha?" Ull immediately froze. Goddess, how could he be so stupid? Trisha wasn't anything like the Serai, so why would he treat her as if she were?
'Because you are a weak, unfit male. She knows this. It is why she refuses to be yours.'
Ull wanted to rant and rage at the voice, but he knew doing so would further harm Trisha and that he would never do. Instead, he slowly began to withdraw.
"No!" Trisha wrapped her legs around his hips, keeping him in place. "Just give me a minute," she whispered even as a tear disappeared into her hair.
"I am harming you," he growled. "I need to get a portable repair unit."
"I won't deny that hurt, but only because you're very well endowed."
"I'm what?"
"You've got a big cock, Ull, a lot bigger than Earth males." She watched the expressions that quickly crossed his face. Shock. Pride. Then shame. It had him lowering his head and his voice deepening.
"I should have taken more care."
"Perhaps, but it's done." She refused to let him take the blame for what she'd encouraged when, as they spoke, her body had grown accustomed to the intrusion. A pleasurable throb replaced the burning pain as her hips started pumping against his.
"Trisha…" he growled, gripping her hips to stop the movement.
"Please, Ull…" she continued to try and move her hips. "Join with me. Let me give you as much pleasure as you've given me."
Ull's chest heaved at the thought, to find pleasure within Trisha's body, to release inside her, to have her want it. It was something he wouldn't deny either of them. Slowly he withdrew until only the head of his shaft remained inside her before carefully pushing back. He'd watched her expressions when he'd pleasured her before, had memorized them, as he did now. Seeing only pleasure, he repeated the action.
"Yes," she moaned, gripping his wrists as she arched up into him. "More, Ull. Harder.
"No," he growled, maintaining slow, measured thrusts. He would not hurt Trisha again, even though he could already feel his balls tightening so his seed could burst forth and fill her. No, he would hold onto his control because he didn't want this incredible experience to end.
Realizing she wasn't going to change his mind, Trisha decided to use it to her advantage. Releasing his wrists, she ran her hands up and over his sweat-soaked body, exploring each bulging muscle and recognizing the strength he held ruthlessly in check.
Trisha would never claim to have that type of strength, but using her legs wrapped around him for leverage, she lifted herself to capture one of his nipples.
It broke the control he'd just regained, and with a roar, he caged her beneath him and, with one final thrust, exploded.
Chapter Fourteen
With his weight braced on his elbows and his shaft still embedded inside Trisha, Ull's head dropped into the crook of her neck as he tried to regain control of his mind and body. When Trisha's arms wrapped around him and her fingers began to run through his hair slowly, everything within him settled, and a feeling of peace flowed over him, unlike anything he'd ever experienced before.
Goddess, was this what his brother experienced with Abby?
What the Emperor, King Grim, and even his manno had with their females? If so, no wonder they refused to give them up. He owed them the gravest of apologies.
"What has you thinking so hard?" Trisha murmured, never opening her eyes. God, Ull had just given her two earth-shattering orgasms. She couldn't move even if the Ganglians attacked.
"You," he admitted his lips caressing her bare skin, "and the other males who have Joined with Earth females. I now understand why they are so committed to them."
"And why's that?" she asked lazily.
"Because they complete them as the Goddess intended." Slowly Ull lifted his head to gaze into her eyes. "The way you complete me."
"Ull…"
He watched her eyes go from soft and luminous, to sharp and full of regret. Her hand slid from his hair to his cheek.
"You know we can't be together. Not the way Lisa and Grim are."
"Why?" he demanded gruffly.
"Because my place is here, on Earth helping my people. While yours is on Betelgeuse taking care of yours. Ull, you will be an amazing Lord. It's what you were born to be." Stretching up, she gently kissed his lips, whisperin
g, "But we have tonight."
Ull refused to acknowledge she was right. He was a first male and future Lord. There wasn't supposed to be a problem he couldn't solve. This one would just take some time. Until then, growling lowly, he took over the kiss and thrust until they both released again.
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Picking up her bag, Trisha turned and gave her quarters one last look. It was still as drab and colorless as when she'd arrived, but now it was filled with memories she would treasure forever. Of Ull. Of the meals they'd shared and of the love they'd made. Inhaling deeply, she gave herself one last moment with those memories, then spinning on her heel left the room. It was time for her to get back to doing her job, helping those anxious people who were waiting to return to Earth.
"Good morning, Jakob," Trisha greeted as they met in the corridor.
"Good morning to you, Trisha. Did you rest well?" He ran a critical eye over her as he took her bag from her. He'd been surprised when she hadn't already been in the landing bay when he'd arrived with the remaining abductees. So, he'd come to make sure she was well.
"I did." She couldn't prevent the faint blush that crept across her cheeks and quickly changed the subject as his eyebrows drew together. "How about you? Are you nervous about meeting Earth's leaders?"
"Not really, especially not with you at my side." He gave her a small smile.
"Thanks for your confidence, but I'll only be repeating what you and others say."
"It will be more than that, and you know it. It's how you do it. Ull informed me of how you assisted him in understanding what was said and how to respond effectively. I hope you will do the same for me."
"It will be my honor to do so, Jakob." Entering the landing bay, she saw the remaining abductees standing next to the shuttle and Ull a few feet away, holding the box containing the educator. She'd forgotten all about needing it until Ull had mentioned it as they lay together in the early hours of the morning. God, she hadn't wanted him to leave, hadn't wanted the night to end. It meant the return to real life, a life without Ull.