by Justin Evans
Finally they came to the Vaughan Library, oppressively quiet, more a museum than a place to study, boasting stained-glass windows and Plexiglas cases protecting rare manuscripts. There the librarian—small, round, and sixty, with an orange bob and the no-nonsense air of an Englishwoman on camelback—introduced herself with the Bond-villainish name of Dr. Kahn, and opened with a five-minute harangue scolding them not to eat in the Vaughan Library before launching into her prepared remarks on school history. Andrew zoned out. The little boys fidgeted with boredom. That is, until the girl was introduced.
“Miss Vine, would you stand?” called out Dr. Kahn.
There followed a shuffle of interest, and a craning of necks.
As you see, the adoption of the Harrow uniform chosen by Miss Vine for a girl’s use is by chance—or simply good taste—the closest thing you will see to the original boys’ uniform, continued the librarian. No tie. An open collar. White shirt—the original would have been linen, of course. You see before you a reasonable facsimile of how a Harrow boy would have appeared before, say, 1850.
Names and dates and school history are no way to get a twelve-year-old boy’s attention. Miss Vine, however, was. Little boys—a hundred of them, delicate, with pale, sticky fingers and peering, earnest faces—stood up, jumped into the aisles, and, in the back, even climbed on the benches to get a glimpse.
“I didn’t know Harrow had any girls,” Andrew whispered to his nearest bench mate, keeping his eyes on the girl.
“Persephone Vine. Transferred here for her A-Level year,” hissed the boy.
Andrew gaped, along with the others.
This girl was worth the extra attention. She stood five seven, with fair skin, a dusting of freckles across her nose, a wide, heavy mouth, and something exotic in the eyes: an elongated Cleopatra quality, green and carnivorously lazy, blinking patiently as she stood with hands behind her back before the assembly, as if she were a crocodile on display before a flock of pigeons. Her hair curled in corkscrews, dark, chaotic, piling up and spilling down to her collarbone. Her bones were fine. Long fingers, feminine nails. She chewed her lips, trying to conceal their fleshiness. But it was her chest that had the boys clambering for a view. Her breasts strained, tight and smooth, against the white shirt that Dr. Kahn was so proud of. A hundred pairs of X-ray vision labored to make out a nipple. As Miss Vine endured the sudden commotion, she blushed slightly. At that the librarian realized what she had done, and with an apologetic That will do, dear, gestured Miss Vine back to her seat.
Andrew whispered. “Girls are allowed to transfer?”
The boy shrugged. “Housemaster’s daughter. Special favor. So she can say she took her A-Levels at Harrow.” He stood on tiptoe, then lowered himself with a sulk: “She sat down.”
Andrew felt his heart rate accelerate, but persuaded himself it was pointless. He did the mental math. A girl like that would have a boyfriend. And even if she didn’t, how many boys at Harrow were there, Sixth Form boys, stumbling over each other to get to her? It was too obvious anyway—the one girl at a boys’ school? She would no doubt make every effort to show she was here to study, not to date.
WHILE SLUMPED IN chapel some time later, Andrew looked up and saw the girl, Persephone Vine, staring at him. He at first dismissed it. He recalled his earlier logic. But she continued peering at him with undisguised curiosity, as if he were a coveted antique she had spotted in a flea market.
And then afterward she waited for him. He saw her in the sea of bluers, holding the door for the younger boys and waving them through with an amused smile, playing crossing guard. The kids fawned like puppies. She mussed their hair. As Andrew came closer, he saw her eyes pick him out of the chapel gloom.
“You there. Young man.”
You thehhh. Andrew knew enough to recognize the accent as upper-crust; if he hadn’t, he could have just noted the imperious tone.
“Hi,” he said.
“I wanted to speak to you. Hang on—say that again,” she commanded.
“All I did was say hello.”
“Oh God, you’re American!” She shrieked this, as if he had stabbed her.
“What?” he stammered. More Shells jostled past. The chapel was almost empty.
“It will never work.” She regarded him coldly. “Pity. And you look like him, too.”
“L-look like who—whom?” he corrected himself. (It’s England, some part of him was saying; they notice how you use their language.)
“Lord Byron, that’s whom,” she said sarcastically.
“Lord . . .”
“I know you’re American, but you have heard of Lord Byron?”
But he did not have time to answer. She began tugging at the chapel doors to close them. They were heavy, and this required effort, but when he rushed to her side she snapped again: I have it.
“Yeah, I’ve heard of Lord Byron,” he said.
She started toward the gate. “What?”
“I said I’ve heard of Lord Byron,” he half shouted.
“You must be very proud,” she said, now dripping with sarcasm.
“Well, you asked.” Andrew felt put out. Girls were supposed to be nicer than boys. Girls were especially supposed to be nicer than boys to him. By this time, if they were back home, she would have been brimming with curiosity, her voice just beginning to warm . . .
“You look like him,” she conceded.
“Like Lord Byron?”
“Yes. Why do you think I was staring at you? You thought I was scoping you out? God, you Harrow boys are so full of yourselves, aren’t you?”
“I’m new,” he stammered. “Not really a Harrow . . . boy . . . yet.”
“I’m sure you’re just like the rest,” she said in a fatigued voice.
“Why are you looking for . . .”
“Someone who looks like Byron? We’re casting a play. Well, we cast a play. In the spring. About Lord Byron. But our lead failed out of school. Very handsome. Totally stupid. Not even that handsome, if you ask me. How sexy can you be in a bloody straw hat?” Andrew blushed. She continued. “The Rattigan Society play. An original, this time. Not the usual Shakespeare. A play about Lord Byron . . . you do know Lord Byron went to Harrow?” Andrew nodded. “Written by a Harrow master. Piers Fawkes.”
“Piers Fawkes?”
“You know him?” For the first time her voice rose with interest.
“He’s my housemaster.”
“You know his work?”
“You mean . . .”
“He’s a poet,” she finished for him. “He’s completely brilliant. I thought maybe you’d read him. But Harrovians are not known for keeping up with contemporary poetry, are you? I’m in it.”
“Oh, you act?”
“Yes, I act. You’re a bit thick, aren’t you, even for an American?”
Finding his voice at last, Andrew observed: “There’s really not a good way of answering that question.”
A hiccup of laughter escaped her, as if against her will. She stopped walking.
Andrew had been following her. They had plunged down the High Street until it dipped downhill and grew leafier, the shops yielding to hedges. Now they stood at the mouth of a driveway that veered down to a stone house—another dormitory—with yellow brick chimneys and a shaggy half-acre yard.
“If you’re in Piers Fawkes’s house, you’re going the wrong way,” she said, more gently. “This is Headland.”
“Oh?”
“The Lot is that way.” She jabbed her finger back where they’d come.
“Oh, okay. Thanks.”
“Have you done any acting?”
“A little. I played the bad guy in a play called The Foreigner . . .”
“Liddle,” she mocked. “Bad guy. You’re so American. If you were Scottish, maybe. Byron had a bit of a brogue. But Yank. The governors would have a fit. They commissioned the play, you know. Of course they want it to be all grand and heroic but all Byron did was fuck. Boys and girls. I play Augusta, Byron’s
sister—or half sister—and he fucks me, too. We’ll see how much gets past the censors. Sorry, am I shocking you?”
“No,” Andrew answered untruthfully.
He wasn’t shocked by her language—as he had a feeling he was intended to be—but by a gorgeous girl saying the words fuck me so casually. It was like a form of heresy. Don’t disparage what I would hold so dear. He saw in her eyes, observed in her edgy manner, a desire to push away, alienate.
“Well, can I try out? I’ve come this far,” he said, forcing a laugh to show he was making a joke, about coming down the hill. . . . She didn’t laugh.
“What, for the Byron play?”
“Yeah.”
She shrugged. “I can’t stop you.”
“So how would I do that?”
“Ask Piers.”
“Mr. Fawkes?”
“Yes, Misterr Fawkes,” she mocked in Americanese.
“I’m Andrew. Taylor.” He extended his hand. She ignored it. Instead she appraised him again.
“I’ll take you to him,” she declared at last. “I want credit for bagging and mounting a Byron doppelgänger. I’m speaking metaphorically, of course.”
Andrew’s pulse raced. “Of course.”
She finally extended her hand and pumped Andrew’s in a mock businesslike way. Then she turned on her heel and strode down the gravel drive.
“Kalispera, Andrea,” she called in a language he did not recognize.
Housemaster’s daughter. She must live here, with her parents. Andrew considered this as he waited, staring at Headland House.
As Persephone reached the door, a head heaved into one of the window frames and peered up the drive suspiciously. It scowled at him. Bald crown. Wire-frame glasses worn on the nose tip. Ferocious, flared nostrils. That must be Mr. Vine. Andrew backed away as instinctively as if he’d heard a dog’s warning bark.
NOT ONE OF his, was Sir Alan Vine’s assessment of Andrew as the housemaster watched the boy from his living room. No meat on the shoulders or back. Long hair. Arts type. An extreme specimen, even. No, not one of his, but hanging about nonetheless. Sir Alan understood why, when he spotted his daughter three-quarters of the way down the drive. Yes, she had been speaking with the long-haired character at the top of the drive. He grew alarmed and came in for a closer look. The boy’s appearance—that hair, that slouch—affected a countercultural pose. Just the kind he knew his daughter would sniff out. Sir Alan’s shoulders tightened in annoyance.
The front door banged shut and her greeting rang in the hall.
“Who is that boy up there?” he called out.
He walked into the hall to pursue her but she had clattered upstairs too quickly. A second door slam; her bedroom. Was she ignoring the question? Or had she just not heard it?
He returned to the window to stare at the top of the drive where the shaggy Harrovian had stood. The spot was empty now; just hedges and trees.
He frowned. He would have to keep an eye out for that one.
ANDREW TURNED AND trudged uphill. He found himself exhausted and excited by Persephone’s many-angled verbal attacks, and he groaned inwardly at all the ways he had acted like a dork. He became so preoccupied with revisiting every word of the conversation that he did not immediately realize he was lost. One of his fellow newboys that morning had told him emphatically that, when heading back to the house on the High Street, not to take the fork that goes down the hill. That leads away from the school. You’re sure to get lost. But now, trudging up—ostensibly the right direction—the road looked distinctly wrong. There were no houses or shops. He found himself on a steep slope, with the school buildings he’d toured that morning below him, on his right. To his left was a brick wall. Ahead stood a gazebo-like wooden gateway leading to an old stone church and a graveyard. Carved into the wood on the left side of the gateway arch were the words BLESSED ARE THE DEAD. On the right, as if it were a condition in fine print, was added WHICH DIE IN THE LORD.
Andrew hesitated. Someone had told him that Harrow-on-the-Hill was the highest point between London and the Ural Mountains. Here, at the crest of the hill, he believed it. The sky, which had grown white with low-hanging clouds, felt close enough to touch. No one stirred in the churchyard. After traveling in a pack all morning, he found himself drawn in by the isolation of the place. He followed its twisting stone path. Weather-worn headstones thrust out of the grassy churchyard like fingers. Thick trees, vines, and bracken encircled the place. Soon he had passed behind the church and saw a footpath down the far side of the hill. Again he paused. The path, also shadowed by heavy boughs and vines, had the silent, airless quality of a nook for bad behavior. But he did not smell the urine or see the garbage or the broken crack pipes he expected, and the path seemed to lead down and to the left, where he needed to go; so he pushed forward.
A sound cut the air. A growling, a barking. Andrew froze and searched around him for the origin of that noise.
Then he found it. Twenty paces down the path, a man straddled another man. The one on the bottom lay almost flat. The man on top was the source of the noise. He was wearing a long black frock coat with tails, which hung on him baggily and bunched at the shoulders. With both hands he thrust his weight upon the other man, smothering him. He snarled from the effort. The attacker’s face horrified Andrew. The eye sockets were sunken; the eyes protruded, a vivid blue; his flesh was a morbid gray. Long blond hair—almost white, albino-looking—hung over his eyes. Once he was forced to break from his labor to cough—and Andrew recognized the noise that had drawn him. The cough combined the bark of a sick animal with a wet, slapping sound. The skeletal man drew his hand across his mouth. Then he looked up. He locked eyes with Andrew.
Those eyes seemed to stab him across the space separating them. They belonged to a young man. His figure was scrawny, diseased: he reeked of death.
Andrew felt sick to his stomach. He staggered back a step, turned, and began to run, escape. But something stopped him after a few paces.
The victim. The figure on the ground.
There was something familiar in the grey trousers and black shoes that he could see protruding from under the attacker.
They looked like Harrow clothes.
Andrew stopped and forced himself to turn back.
He advanced. The scene came back into view. The victim lay there, supine, in silence. No attacker. Nothing moved. Just heavy tree branches enclosing the space. Vines entwining the fence rings. Andrew moved forward, taking in more information with every step.
Black wingtips.
Grey trousers.
White shirt.
Arms crooked, one flung over the body, protectively.
A smear of blood stained the right cheek.
Then another kind of alarm came over Andrew, and he ran toward the reclining figure.
Even before he saw the cracked Harrow hat, he knew it was a student. But he stared at the face in shock. It had lost all dignity: gravel and sandy grit stuck to the eyebrows and mouth. The eyes were turned upward. The mouth hung open, a swimmer gulping for air. With the skin a translucent white—all of that sunshine leached away, already—Andrew could scarcely recognize his friend. He knelt, he grasped the hand—then quickly let it go. It was cold. The nails had gone purply grey. Not knowing what else to do, he placed his hands all over the corpse and searched him—neck, wrist, chest—feeling for pulse, or breath, or any sign, as if Theo Ryder’s life were a set of keys he could find by patting him down.
3
The Death of a Boy at School
A STEADY, LAZY rain fell. An ambulance backed up to the spot. Its reverse-gear warning beeped several times; its lights twirled. Two white police BMWs, with sirens and orange stripes, blocked the entrance to Church Hill Road. The area had been taped off, and the coroner’s team was doing its job. One detective, a man, stood waiting: for the coroner’s team to finish, for his partner to get the statement from the witness. The witness was a teenager, so his partner, a woman, was doing the interview.
He was one of these schoolkids, the ones in the straw hats who looked like they belonged in a different century. This one had long, shaggy black hair, and he was tall, too adult to be wearing those school clothes. He looked like he should be playing in AC/DC, the detective smiled to himself. The kid sat in the backseat of their car, his legs turned out the open door, facing the female detective, who stood on the pavement; the kid’s body language indicated shock. He fingered the hat he held in his hands, never raised his eyes, mumbled, shook his head. The detective saw his partner gesture back to where the body was found—she was trying to get a reaction, prodding the kid to give up more. The detective watched closely. The boy raised his eyes. They flicked back to the spot where the body was being zippered up, and the face recoiled, as if the boy were afraid the body might heave upright and begin walking like a zombie. Soon the partner gave it up and ambled back.
“Anything?” the detective asked his partner.
“Not really. The patrolman found him here, shouting for help.” She checked her notes. “Andrew Taylor. They were mates. Next-door neighbors in the little dormitories here. Houses, whatever they call them. Mr. Taylor came walking up here and found the body.”
“Anything about the victim? What was he doing back here? Drugs?”
“There was nothing on the body. This one’s American.” She nodded back at Andrew. “Arrived yesterday. First day at school.”
“Bad luck. Did he notice anything?”
“He said the body already seemed stiff. Saw the blood on the face.”
“Did he move him?”
“Checked for a pulse.” She hesitated, then turned back to look at Andrew.
“What?”
“He’s awfully jittery,” she said. “Like he saw something. Seems afraid.”
“He didn’t look too responsive from where I stood.”
“No,” she agreed. “Want to have a go?”
“Not really.”
“What else have you got to do? Get rained on?”