by Kim Fleet
To Mike, for everything
CONTENTS
Title
Dedication
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
About the Author
Copyright
PROLOGUE
Thursday, 1 November 2012
01:19 hours
The warehouse was gloomy, haunted by shadows and strange splashes as unseen objects bumped against the dock. Fog slunk in off the Thames and picked at Jackie’s bones. She tugged her jacket tighter, the ends of her fingers numb with cold. Impatient, she rasped her thumb against her index finger. Her cuticles were nibbled to rags.
Soon it would all be over. She dreamed of sleeping in her own bed at last, desperate to scram from the hostel she’d called home for too long. Her own toasty bed and a good meal. Steak and chips and a creamy pepper sauce. She’d been starving herself for months, creating the jutting collarbone, pallid skin and skinny arse of a heroin addict. It’d worked: they all thought she was shooting up. She sighed loudly.
‘Give it a rest, Jackie,’ growled one of the men. A thick bull’s neck, his bald head jutting forwards. Known to his friends as Dave the Nutter.
Jackie flicked two fingers at him. ‘Piss off, Dave.’
‘Bitch,’ Nutter muttered.
‘Why can’t we have more lights?’ A chewed-string bit of man-boy, sitting on a packing case. A book of wordsearch puzzles lay in his lap. In one hand he clutched a blue inhaler. Nineteen, with the mental age of a pork pie.
‘So’s you can do your puzzles?’ Nutter said, cracking his knuckles. Each finger was freighted with a sovereign ring.
‘Wha’s wrong wi’ that?’ Chewed-string boy said, his Scots accent plaintive.
‘Little Jimmy wants his colouring book.’
‘Don’t call me that.’
‘Come over here, Jimmy,’ Jackie said, ‘sit with me.’
He dragged the crate over. ‘Thanks, Jackie.’
‘Don’t annoy Nutter, eh?’ Last thing she wanted was him going off on one his tantrums. Could cost her the whole operation.
She ran her hand over her head: her scalp prickled. She’d shaved her head on one side, with a long piece hanging down beside the other cheek. When this was over, she’d shave the lot off and grow her hair back again. Well fed, a proper hairstyle: she’d be a different woman. Just a few hours left to go.
‘When’s the lorry coming, Hammond?’ she said, quietly.
Hammond stepped into the light. Tall, with fair hair, his dark suit bespoke, his jaw professionally barbered. Good looking, the sort of man you could take home to meet your mum, if you didn’t care where his money came from. Hammond had charm in spades when he wanted.
‘Got a date, have you, Jackie?’ he said, smoothly. ‘Somewhere you’d rather be?’
Jackie cast a glance round the warehouse. ‘Nowhere I’d rather be, Boss. Just getting cold, s’all.’
God, she’d be glad to see the back of the gang. She hadn’t had a break from them for ages. All that leave was piling up and she was going to take it. A holiday somewhere hot; sandy beaches; a stack of paperbacks to dive into. She could be there in a few days, soaking up the sun and letting the past two years melt away.
They fell silent again. Far off, a police siren howled and receded. Closer, there was a splash of water. And coming closer still, an engine.
‘Put the lights on,’ Hammond ordered. ‘No fuck-ups this time. Remember what happened to the Russian.’
Dave the Nutter yanked the handle and the warehouse flooded with light. They blinked at the sudden brightness, and turned towards the wide doors. A lorry chugged outside.
‘Let them in, Jackie,’ Hammond said.
Jackie heaved one door open, then the other. Outside, the night was inky black. The lorry extinguished its lights and rolled past her into the warehouse. She slid the doors closed behind it as Hammond, Dave the Nutter and Little Jimmy sprang to open the back.
The driver jumped down from the cab and helped them unload case after case, stacking them in a pile at the back of the warehouse. Jackie cranked open the cases and checked the contents, hefting out weapons and weighing them in her hands. As she lifted the lids on the crates, she gave a verbal audit.
‘Semi-automatic, twelve cases of twenty. Handguns one hundred. Ground assault anti-aircraft four.’ She paused. ‘Hey, weren’t there supposed to be six of these?’
The driver shrugged and swore. ‘Our supplier couldn’t get them,’ he said in a thick Eastern European accent. ‘He sends more Russian automatics instead. Plus some grenades, with his compliments.’
Hammond gave a short, mirthless laugh. ‘So that’s how he trades with me, is it?’ He approached the driver and grabbed his chin. ‘Then you give him this, with my compliments.’ A knife slashed across the driver’s face. He fell back, clutching his cheek, blood pouring between his fingers, screaming a torrent of abuse.
Jackie lurched forwards, remembered herself, and halted, her heart banging. Let it soon be over.
‘Yes, yes, but none of us speaks monkey here,’ Hammond said mildly, wiping the blade on the driver’s coat. ‘You tell him he double-crosses me again, and I’ll do to him what I did to the Russian. Understand?’
The driver’s eyes widened in fear. ‘I understand,’ he said. ‘The Russian. I know. I tell him, my Boss. I make him understand.’ He gulped and glanced round the warehouse. His eyes rested on Jackie.
Hammond saw the direction of his gaze. ‘You like that, eh? You want some?’
‘I mean no disrespect, she is yours,’ the driver said, backing away, his hand pressed to his face.
Hammond laughed. ‘Yes, she is. But you can do me a favour. I have a problem.’
Dave the Nutter straightened and glanced at Hammond. ‘Boss?’
‘One of my little team has got above themselves,’ Hammond said. ‘Thought they could double-cross me.’
Nutter swallowed. ‘What you talking about?’
‘Someone’s been a little piggy and gone squealing to the police about our business venture.’
Little Jimmy was on his feet. ‘It wasn’t me! I swear it wasn’t me.’
‘Shut up, Jimmy. I know my little piggy, and there’ll be no more roast beef for her, though she may go wee wee wee all the way home.’
The gang stilled.
‘She?’ Little Jimmy said.
Hammond clapped once, twice, three times. ‘He gets it. Give him a chocolate watch.’ He stopped in front of Jackie. ‘How long have you been with me?’
She met his eyes, fighting down panic. ‘Couple of years?’
‘A couple of years.’ Hammond turned away. ‘In it together, I thought, but it seems I was wrong.’ He whipped round and struck her across the face with the back of his hand. Her head snapped back and she staggered. ‘Take her,’ he ordered.
The men hesitated.
‘Take her!’ Hammond shouted. ‘She’s going on a little journey.’
Nutter sprang forwards and pinned Jackie’s hands behind her back. The truck driver dragged a ro
pe from one of the crates and bound her arms to her sides.
‘You’ve got it wrong, Boss,’ she said, kicking as the rope looped her body. ‘I’d never cheat on you.’
‘Very convincing, Jackie, but I know better.’ He advanced on her. ‘You won’t have long, but I’d like you to have something to remember me by.’
The knife flashed as he swung it to and fro in front of her eyes. She tracked its arc, left to right and back again, and trembled with fear. He suspended the knife in front of her a moment longer, then slowly sliced across her arms, high up on the biceps. A slice across each thigh. Blood soaked through her jeans, and ran down her arms to her palms.
‘Boss, you’ve got this wrong, truly,’ she said, wildly. She struggled against the ropes as the blade flashed again.
‘I don’t think so, Jackie,’ Hammond said, and plunged the knife into her stomach. Her knees buckled and she fell. Her face ground against the cement floor as she writhed in pain, each breath agony.
‘She’ll last a little while before she bleeds to death,’ Hammond said. ‘Long enough for her to repent of her actions.’ He motioned to Nutter. ‘Put her in the truck. Our friend here is going to repay the favour he owes me.’
The driver started to say something, then stopped. Drops of blood fell from his face on to the floor. Her blood joined his, her life pumping out.
‘You take her away from here, somewhere quiet, and toss her into the river,’ Hammond said. ‘And don’t make a mess of it. Understand?’
The driver muttered something she couldn’t make out. Her ears rang with her own heartbeat. She heard the cab door open and the engine start. Nutter dragged her across the floor, and hauled her into the back of the lorry. As he slammed the back shut, she saw a figure slipping out of the warehouse and disappearing into the shadows.
She screamed when the lorry started moving. Every jolt knifed through her. Soon the metal floor was slick with her blood. She strained against the ropes, but she was trussed fast. She was dying, and prayed for death to call sooner. She wanted to be dead before the driver slung her into the river.
Time expanded and contracted. She wasn’t sure whether she’d been in the lorry for hours or seconds before it stopped again, the air brakes screeching. Suddenly the back of the lorry was torn open and bright beams strafed her body.
‘She’s here!’ a voice shouted.
The clatter of boots on tarmac. A man heaving himself into the lorry, thundering over to her. She groaned with pain and her vision blurred.
‘S’alright, we’ve got you.’ A male voice. Shouting over his shoulder, ‘Paramedic! Here!’
The ropes being cut from her torso. Pressure against the wound in her stomach. Something puncturing the back of her hand.
‘She’s fading. Push that through faster. We’re losing her.’ Faces overhead. Torchlight. The smell of the river. Corpses bumping against the dock. A splash. Icy water jets up her nose and into her mouth. Swallow the filth. Sink. Drown. Down. Down. Black.
‘Your heart stopped twice,’ the nurse who helped her to bathe informed her. ‘You died twice on the operating theatre. You’re a lucky girl.’
Jackie didn’t feel like a lucky girl. Her arms and legs stung where Hammond had cut them, and she doubled over with the pain from the stab wound in her stomach. The knife had nicked her spleen, and it had been removed during the operation when her soul gave up the ghost twice, only to be dragged back.
Her hospital gown flapping behind her and, aware that everyone was getting a shufti at her bony bottom, Jackie leaned on the nurse as they plodded down the corridor back to her room. A beefy policeman sat outside, his arms crossed. He looked them over as they passed and nodded briefly. His radio crackled and a disembodied voice chuntered. He bent his lips to it and pressed the talk button.
‘Copy that. Everything quiet here.’
As she eased herself into bed and swung her legs painfully under the covers, Jackie could see his bulk in the chair: a meaty left arm and a square head. She flopped back against the pillow, exhausted by the short walk from the bathroom.
‘At least you’ve got a good view,’ the nurse said, hitching her head at the policeman. ‘Brightens up my day, anyway.’
Her face grew serious as she popped a thermometer under Jackie’s tongue. ‘You still in pain?’
Why do nurses always wait until you’ve got a thermometer in your mouth before they ask questions, Jackie thought. Same as the dentist: he waited to start drilling before asking her about her holidays. She nodded. ‘Bit. Here.’ She pressed her hand in her side.
‘I’ll up your medication.’ The nurse brushed her hand over Jackie’s head. ‘Your hair’s growing back, anyway. You’re all stubbly.’
Jackie raised her hand and rubbed her fingers over her scalp. A harvested field.
‘Covering up this, at least,’ the nurse said, fingering the tattoo above her ear.
‘Good,’ she muttered. The pillow was cool and soft and she sank into it. ‘Good.’
Her hair was grown out into a crop by the time she was called to trial. She’d long ago left the hospital and been transferred to a safe house, guarded by a different set of policemen. She itched to be free of them, to start her life again. Eating proper meals and sleeping a solid eight hours a night had transformed her. Gone were her pallor and the bruises round her eyes. Gone, too, the stick arms and legs. Slowly she’d built up her muscles again, lifting cans of soup until she was strong enough to get to a gym. The policemen came jogging with her. It was safest to go at night, and that winter they pounded the streets in nobody-town where nobody knew her, and slowly she became herself again. Whoever she was, now.
When she walked into court, she was in a dark trouser suit and high heels, her chin tilted up. She met John Hammond’s eyes as she took the stand and swore to tell the truth. When the judge told her she could sit to give her evidence, she did so, her shoulders held back and her thumb rasping against her fingers. John Hammond and Dave the Nutter occupied the dock just yards away. Their barristers sat in line like boys waiting to be called into the headmaster. Their strategy seemed to be to pour the blame on to the others and to paint their clients as misguided innocents.
She drew deep breaths every time she answered a question. Her training held firm. Even when she was asked to repeat what had happened that night, how she’d been cut, who did what to her. Even when Hammond’s barrister rose to his feet, twitched his gown, stared at her over the top of his spectacles and commenced his interrogation with, ‘You infiltrated the gang?’
‘Yes.’
‘And you took drugs?’
‘Yes.’
‘That was part of your …’ he waved his hand as though searching for a word. ‘… Cover?’
‘Yes.’
‘You were an addict?’
‘No.’
‘No? But you took heroin?’
‘When I had to.’
‘When you had to. I see. And you’d taken heroin before this alleged incident took place?’
‘Yes.’
‘Could your drug taking have affected your perception? How sure are you that you saw what you claimed to see? Or was it all a product of your febrile imagination?’
Jackie sucked in a deep breath. ‘I wasn’t under the influence of any drug when I was attacked.’
‘Yet tests done on your blood and hair indicate that you had taken drugs.’
‘Not recently. But during my time with the gang, yes, I took drugs to show I was one of them.’
‘Did you ever see John Hammond take drugs?’
‘No.’
‘No?’ The barrister peeped again over his glasses and play-acted astonishment. ‘Then why did you take drugs, when the gang’s leader did not?’
‘The others in the gang, the subservient ones, did so. I did the same. It meant I could go unchallenged for two years.’
‘Yet you were challenged, weren’t you?’ A flap of a piece of paper. It could have been a shopping list, it was just a prop. ‘The
y found you out. I put it to you that it was your incompetence that precipitated that incident.’
‘No.’
‘You got too comfortable with your role in the gang, and you broke the rules, didn’t you?’
‘I did what I thought was necessary.’
‘Your own training manual doesn’t say anything about taking drugs in order to pass as a gang member. Had you taken drugs before?’
Her armpits were swampy. ‘At university. Once or twice.’
‘Once or twice at university.’ His voice dropped. ‘No one condones what happened to you. But I put it to you that your methods were unorthodox. You went native and jeopardised a long running operation.’ He pointed at her across the courtroom. ‘You were not authorised to take the actions you took, were you?’
‘Objection, my lord. Bullying the witness.’ The prosecution barrister woke up and made a desultory attempt to get things back on track. They had enough evidence to convict. Hammond’s barrister was doing what he was paid for, having a go, and trying to take her down with him. She was finished.
The judge released her at the end of the cross-examination, and she crept from the courtroom, humiliated.
Her heels clattered down the hallway and she shoved through a wooden door into the Ladies. Her face was ghostly in the purplish light: years before, the first time she’d attended court, she’d queried it and been informed that the light prevented drug takers from finding a vein. The cisterns were bolted shut, too. No hiding packages in there.
Jackie jumped when the door banged behind her.
‘You OK?’ Her boss, Miranda Tyson, kicked open the door to each stall, checking for eavesdroppers. ‘You had a rough ride in there. Tosser.’
‘He’s doing his job,’ Jackie said, running a bowl of cold water and splashing her face. She dabbed it dry with a paper towel and said frankly, ‘I’m finished, aren’t I?’
‘No.’ Miranda hitched her bum against a basin. Her nails were painted navy and a huge tiger’s eye ring dominated her middle finger. ‘When do you want to come back to work?’
‘Undercover?’
Miranda shook her head. ‘You’re outed, sweetie.’ As Jackie started to protest, she said, ‘It’s not the drugs. I understand all that. Been there myself.’