Nicolas shook his head. “Burning the contents of her desk won’t make a difference. If I don’t bring Leduc to the King today, Musketeers will be here to arrest you all. They are aware that Leduc is among you. You will be interrogated until there is a confession. If the King feels it’s warranted, torture can be used, even on a woman.”
They looked at him with dread and fright.
What they didn’t realize was that those very same emotions were among the many goring his heart.
“I’m sorry,” he said. Those words weren’t enough and didn’t begin to express how he felt. There was so much more he wanted to say—to Anne. He wanted a private moment to talk.
Would she even give him the chance?
“If the King wants Leduc, then that is what we shall give him,” the Comtesse announced. “I will tell him I’m Leduc.”
Surprised gasps pierced the silence. But no one was more surprised than he. His cold-hearted grandmother, a woman who’d been indifferent toward her own daughter, was willing to take the blame here and spare Anne?
Hope soared inside him. The Comtesse was hardly guiltless in the Leduc matter. This was good. No, this was an excellent solution.
“No, madame, I cannot let you do that,” Anne said.
“Nonsense.” The Comtesse approached and placed her arm around Anne. “I am your patroness. I encouraged—strongly encouraged—you to write these stories. I am not blameless here. And when the King sees me—an old woman—I doubt he’ll have the stomach to do much to me.”
“I’ll say it was me.” Henriette spoke up.
“What? No!” Anne shook her head, dismayed.
“Anne.” Henriette approached her. “I’m the one who is constantly reminding you how dire our finances are.”
“Yes, and I have been a burden, too,” Camille said. “Henriette and I have both made it impossible for you to quit, Anne.”
“I didn’t wish to quit,” Anne said. “I still don’t intend to quit. I will be the one who appears before the King as Leduc. I will explain to him what I have done and why.” Her jaw was set.
Nicolas’s heart constricted. “And what will you say? That you have been besmirching the reputation of prominent men because you once suffered a broken heart? Do you think the King—who happens to be a man and prominent—will understand? Let the Comtesse take your place. It is the best option.”
Pain seeped back into Anne’s eyes. “You know the details of what happened with Jules, too?”
Nicolas approached and stopped before her. “He never deserved your affections.”
Tears in her eyes, she squared her shoulders, took in a ragged breath and let it out. In a cold voice she said, “You need to make an arrest today. I will get my things. You will arrest me and only me.” She stalked from the room, her sisters on her heels.
Her words knifed into him. He had to reason with her. Jésus-Christ , he had to tell her how he felt about her. And that he refused to let anything happen to her.
Nicolas turned to leave.
“Just a moment,” the Comtesse de Cottineau said, stepping in front of him. “I’d like a word with you.”
“I have more pressing matters to attend to. So if you’ll kindly step out of—”
“You searched my desks, I presume,” she injected.
“Yes. So?”
She nodded. “Then I suppose you read the contents of the yellow box in that desk over there.” She gestured toward the ebony and gold desk near the windows.
“You wrote some letters to your daughter. You didn’t send them. What of it?”
“There are facts about what happened between your mother and me that I’m certain you’re not aware of.”
“And I’m not interested in learning about them either.”
She sighed. “You despise me, Nicolas. I suppose if I were you, I’d despise me, too. You must have been quite gleeful when you learned I was mixed up with this Leduc matter. Not only could you bring in the elusive Leduc, but you could legitimately sweep me up in the mess, too.”
Though prolonging his conversation with his grandmother was the last thing he wanted to do, he couldn’t help but ask, “How did you know I was on this mission?”
“I didn’t. Not for certain. I knew you’d been appointed to the King’s private Guard. When I arrived this morning and was told you were here and that you wanted to forge a relationship with me, I didn’t believe it. Given the controversy Leduc’s stories have stirred and that you are a Musketeer, it seemed the only logical explanation for your presence was that you were looking for Leduc. I knew you were brighter than most. Other men have tried to locate Leduc and never came close.”
He was about to respond when she raised her hand to silence him. “You sent me on a fool’s errand, and for that alone, I should be furious with you, not to mention the other things you’ve done here in the name of your ‘mission.’ But I’m not angry with you—for two reasons. The first reason is—”
“As I said, I have more pressing—”
“Because you’re in love with Anne.”
That froze the words on his tongue. Merde. Where the hell was she going with this?
“You are suffering, as much as Anne is. I can see the anguish in your eyes. What you have to do is difficult. I’ll not condemn you for your actions, for I can see that you are efficiently condemning yourself. I’m sorry you are both in this predicament.”
He hadn’t expected this—the soft sadness in her gray eyes, the compassion in her tone. This was not the woman he envisioned his grandmother to be.
She gave him a sad smile. “You have my Joséphine’s eyes, you know.” To his surprise, she touched his cheek. “You look like her. I’m glad. I feared you’d turn out to be like your father.”
“No, I am not like my father.” His late brother David was.
Her smile turned brighter, seemingly pleased by his answer. “The second reason I’m not angry with you, Nicolas, is because I don’t want to make the same mistake with you that I made with your mother. I learned a terrible lesson: words said in anger can cause irreparable damage. I said things to your mother in anger I should never have said. Things I have regretted ever since. I was furious with her for running off and marrying your father. I knew it was a terrible match. And your father loathed me for my low opinion of him. Within a few months of their marriage, I began writing letters to Joséphine, letters of apology, hoping to make amends. I never heard back from her. She ignored them. Ignored me. Never bothered to tell me of the births of her sons. But still I wrote and wrote, hoping that she’d break her silence and forgive me. I was informed of her death by your father. In his letter he also advised me that he’d been intercepting my letters. He returned each and every one to me in the yellow box. Your mother never saw any of them. She went to her grave thinking I hated her.” Tears welled in her eyes and quietly slipped down her cheeks.
He was speechless. Every fiber in Nicolas’s being told him that what the Comtesse said was true. All of it. His father was just the sort of man who’d do such a thing. Of that he had no doubt.
“What your father did broke my heart, and I’m certain he often broke Joséphine’s heart. Though I could not communicate with her, I made certain I was kept abreast of the goings-on in her home. Coin placed in the correct palms will garner much information. I was well aware of his heavy-handed ways, that he kept her isolated in the country, away from me and friends. I knew of your brother’s death and of your recent appointment to the Guard.” She shook her head. “It is because of your father and men like him that I encouraged Anne to write the kind of stories Leduc writes.”
His brows shot up. “My father helped inspire these stories?”
“I’d say your father and Jules d’Orsay were the inspiration, yes. Anne suggested the idea of Leduc and I fully endorsed it. I helped by supplying her with trustworthy women to offer similar tales of woe for Leduc to write about.”
The lump in his throat was huge.
“You don’t believe me?” she asked quietly
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Nicolas had to clear his throat before he could speak. “I believe you, madame. I know what kind of man my father was and how unhappy he made my mother.”
“Well, I must confess that for the first time ever, I find myself unable to utterly despise the man.” The Comtesse took his hand. “He sired you. Now that I have you near, I’ll not lose you. You are my family. You are all I have left of Joséphine. I hope we can have the relationship I have always prayed for.” Fresh tears were in her eyes.
Nicolas’s head was spinning. Emotions were inundating him. There was so much to absorb with this newfound information about his grandmother. Feeling discomposed, he held his tongue. But he didn’t pull away. Instead, Nicolas squeezed her hand, then covered it with his other.
She smiled through her tears. “Now then, Nicolas, you have some important matters you must attend to—or as you called them, ‘pressing matters.’ First, you must convince your beloved that you are not the contemptible man she accuses you of being. Next, you’ll have to keep her out of prison.”
Dieu, why didn’t she ask him to part the Red Sea?
Anne waited with her sisters near the carriage to be escorted to Versailles. The day had grayed, and by the angry look of the dark clouds, there was a threat of rain. The gloom inside her was mirrored by the skies. In a few hours she’d be before the King and face the consequences. She was afraid. Terrified. She wouldn’t lie about her role as Gilbert Leduc. However, when it came to the women who’d offered their stories to Leduc, she was prepared to do whatever it took to protect their identities.
A gasp from Camille yanked her from her thoughts. The Comtesse and two men wearing the distinct uniform of the King’s private Guard were descending the stairs in front of the Comtesse’s home. Thomas and Nicolas. It was the first time she’d ever seen them in uniform. Her heart pounded as she took in Nicolas’s blue tabard with its silver cross, blue breeches, and black boots. His baldric rested on his right shoulder and crossed over his chest to his left hip.
With his powerful form, his confident stride, and his fierce expression, he looked intimidating. Dangerous to cross. There was no doubt about it—Nicolas made the perfect King’s protector.
The sight of him made her ache. She turned away.
Strong fingers curled around her arm. She was yanked sideways. Suddenly, she was stumbling along behind Nicolas as he dragged her back inside the hôtel. The door slammed shut and he pushed her up against it.
Her mouth fell open, stunned by his actions. She was just about to offer up a few choice words when he crushed his mouth against hers, giving her a hot open-mouth kiss. A mindless rush of desire surged over her. Her knees practically buckled.
She fisted the front of his uniform. What are you doing? Push him away! But shamelessly her mouth was still latched to his, and she was trembling.
Abruptly, he pulled away. His strong hands clasped her cheeks, his breathing as quick as hers. “I love you.”
Her heart lost a beat.
He released her and pressed his palms against the door on either side of her head. “I love you, Anne. So much. A maddening amount! I came here to do the King’s bidding. I didn’t care about you, your sisters, or the Comtesse. You’re correct there. I wanted to impress the King. I wanted a promotion. All I ever wanted was to rank highly in the Guard. But you, you have a way of affecting me.” He shoved himself off the door. “I have no understanding how you manage it. But you do!”
He placed his hands on his hips and let out a sharp breath. “I love you and I know you love me. I could tell you wanted to tell me last night. And—Dieu—I wanted to hear it.” He stepped closer to her and pulled her into his arms. “I wanted you from the moment I saw you. And yes, I set out to have sex with you. Heated, intensely pleasurable—meaningless—sex. You weren’t supposed to matter to me. I wasn’t supposed to fall in love with the woman I had to arrest. I’d been walking around for days thinking up excuses not to search your desk for evidence.”
He pressed his cheek to her hair. “I don’t care about the promotion, or the Guard. If they put you in prison, I’ll do whatever it takes to see you freed, including bribing the prison guards and fleeing the country with you. They can take away anything they want, as long as they don’t take you from me.”
Anne was shaking harder by the time she raised her arms and wrapped them around his neck. Closing her eyes, she buried her face at the base of his throat, inhaling his scent and taking in his warmth. Relishing the strength of his arms as they practically held her up.
Tenderly, he stroked her hair. “Anne, please say something.”
She raised her head and gazed up into his beautiful eyes. “You weren’t supposed to matter to me either. But . . . I love you.” The words came out in a joyful rush, unrestrained. Straight from the heart.
She’d finally found the love and passion she’d always dreamed about.
In a few hours, her world could collapse.
Nicolas’s expression was tightly guarded as they waited in the Mars drawing room at Versailles. With Anne, her sisters, and the Comtesse already gripped with fear, he refused to add to their distress by showing any outward signs of the terror he felt.
The occasional sniffle or soft sob from Camille broke the silence, as did the laughter and music that drifted in from the gardens. Thomas tried consoling Camille as best he could, without success.
The King was in the gardens, as usual. Preferring the outdoors, Louis spent most of his day outside surrounded by courtiers and musicians who followed him around the expansive lawns covered with massive flowerbeds and fountains, bushes and orange trees.
The wait was maddening. How much longer before Louis finally pulled himself away and entered the State Rooms? They’d already waited for what seemed an eternity.
He glanced at Anne. She stood by his side, quiet and brave. He was amazed and proud of her courage. Most would have collapsed under the weight of worry and fright. She shed no tears the way Camille did, nor did she wring her hands as Henriette was doing.
Needing to touch Anne, every once in a while Nicolas reached out and squeezed her hand reassuringly, uncertain if he was trying to reassure her or himself. He would have held her the entire time but the Captain of the Guard, Tristan de Tiersonnier, entered and exited the room frequently.
Nicolas wrestled with the possibilities and probabilities of what the King might do, his restless mind making his heart race. The Mars drawing room offered little by way of diversions. Its walls were a plain red and the ornately painted ceiling depicted various scenes that he didn’t want to look at. Especially the one directly overhead. It was Claude Audran’s Mars in a Chariot Drawn by Wolves. Le Loup was a nickname he’d never minded, but rather liked.
Now he disliked it immensely.
A wolf was a predator. He’d come to realize he wasn’t that cold. He’d been well on the road to becoming just like his father and brother, and he was grateful that he’d veered off that path, for that path had led him to Anne. To love. And even more surprising, to a grandmother he actually wanted to know more about.
The Comtesse took Anne’s other hand. “Anne, I’m too old for this. This wait is taking years off my life. We’ll assure the King that Leduc is through. He’ll not write again.”
Anne glanced at the older woman and then at Nicolas.
“She’s right, chérie. Leduc is done,” he said. “He has to be. Even if the King is in a generous mood, he’ll not permit you to keep breaking the law.”
Anne gazed straight ahead and then softly ceded. “I know. But who will speak for those women in distress? Leduc was their only voice.”
“We’ll think of another way to aid women,” his grandmother offered. “But it will be legal. Something that won’t perturb the King.”
The door burst open, causing Anne to jump and Nicolas’s heart to lurch. The King and his Captain, Tiersonnier, marched in.
Immediately, Nicolas and Thomas bowed as the women curtsied low.
Louis sighed. �
�Which one is the author?” he asked Tiersonnier.
Nicolas didn’t like the annoyance in the King’s tone. His mood wasn’t particularly genial today. His fear spiked.
Anne stepped forward. “I am, Sire.”
His insides knotted. Nicolas wanted to yank her back and shout, “No! There’s been a mistake.”
Louis cocked a brow, then tilted his head to one side. His gaze moved over Anne, a slow assessment that made Nicolas’s nostrils flare and his fists clench. At close to fifty years of age, his King was a notorious womanizer, and the leer he’d directed at Anne gave him great unease.
“Come with me,” Louis said, spinning on his heel and stalking from the room. Anne fell into step behind the King.
Nicolas stepped forward, but Tiersonnier pushed his hand against Nicolas’s chest. “Not you. Just her. Everyone else waits here.” Tiersonnier fell in behind Anne.
The doors closed.
Nicolas’s heart sank. His ire rose. There were State Rooms on either side of the Mars drawing room. It didn’t escape his notice that the King was headed in the direction of his private apartments—where his bedchamber was located.
Camille wept openly now, accepting Thomas’s shoulder as her sobbing worsened.
Nicolas’s mind was besieged with unwanted thoughts far worse than before. Was he supposed to just wait here while the King took Anne and . . . He couldn’t finish the thought.
Teeth clenched, he marched to the window and looked down at the north gardens, but all he saw were the images flashing in his brain of Anne in the King’s bed. He slammed his fist against the wall.
“Nicolas.” His grandmother placed her hand on his shoulder. “I know what you’re thinking but you mustn’t torture yourself so. Anne is an intelligent woman. She’s been propositioned by powerful men before. She knows how to be tactful, yet to the point.”
“She’s never had to refuse a King.”
“I believe in her, Nicolas, and so should you,” she countered.
“I do believe in her. But I know Louis’s vice-ridden ways,” he said tightly. It took every ounce of will he possessed not to race down to the State apartments after Anne.
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