“That’s exactly what he wants, Aaron. When I let my guard down, I’m dead.”
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Why had she said that of all things? Dead? Dear God, he wasn’t ever going to let that one go. Time stood still as Aaron stood there looking at her, his mouth gaping open. She couldn’t get a good breath into her lungs.
“Tessa, are you in that much danger?”
She wanted to say no. Say no, say no… “Yes.” Damn it! Why had she said yes?
“You have to let me help you,” he said softly as he watched Tyler feed Beau a piece of bacon in the kitchen. “For his sake, Tessa. Please.”
“This isn’t your problem, Aaron. I can’t drag yet another person into it.”
“Fine. Then I won’t let either of you out of my sight ever again. Not until I know you’re safe.”
“Why do you even care, Aaron? You don’t know me. You could walk away right now and never look back.”
“No, I couldn’t.”
“Why?”
“Because I’m not that kind of man.”
She wanted to hug him for just that one comment. But she couldn’t involve him for the same reason she couldn’t involve her own extended family. There was just too much danger.
“Please listen to me, Aaron. There is danger in this situation, and it’s mine to deal with. I will protect my son just as I always have, but I won’t involve other people. I can’t. The guilt I feel for dragging my son through this is almost more than I can bear. Please don’t make this worse.”
He sighed and looked down. “Have you always been this stubborn?” he asked. Tessa laughed and threw her hands up.
“Some people would probably say so.”
“So what is your long term plan then? To just keep running?”
“If I have to.”
“What kind of life is that for you? For Tyler?”
“I can’t think about that right now.”
“You have to, Tessa. You’re not thinking clearly. You’re reacting out of fear instead of thinking logically. It’s almost like you’re running from a ghost instead of a person. How do you even know he’s looking for you?”
“Trust me, I know. He doesn’t like to lose or be made to look like a fool.”
Aaron was growing frustrated; she could see it in his face.
“See? I’m already ruining your life, Aaron. Twenty four hours ago, you were single and footloose and fancy free…”
“Footloose and fancy free? What era were you born in again?” he asked laughing. She punched him lightly on the arm.
“You shouldn’t have these worries. Your heart was just broken. You need time to heal.”
“Being with you and Tyler has helped me already. It’s given me something to focus on, to look forward to. That kid is a ball of energy, and I need that right now. I need a friend who understands and isn’t a family member.”
“You want me to be your friend?” she asked with her eyes wide.
“Well, it would be nice since I’d like to be your friend,” he said.
“I feel like we should be passing a note in class. Will you be my friend? Check yes or no,” she said.
“So? Are you checking yes or no?” he asked.
“Okay, fine. But if we start to put you at risk or become a huge hassle in your life, promise you'll tell me.”
“I promise,” he said and then shook her hand. For a moment, they stood still staring at each other like each one knew a secret but didn't want to say it.
“So, I'm going to go give my brother a call and make sure that they aren’t busy today, and then we’ll pack up and head over to the beach. Sound good?”
“Yes, that's fine. But, I do need to go over and get some things from the camper, sunscreen and such.”
“Okay. Just make sure that you keep your eyes open. Even though I don't know what you're scared of, I know that it requires you to be alert.”
“Aaron, I appreciate everything you've done so far. Honestly, if I hadn’t met you when I did…”
“Let's try not to even think about that, okay?” She nodded and then headed towards the door. Aaron sat down at the kitchen table and dialed Kyle's number. While he was sitting there, he watched Tyler continue to eat his breakfast like he was a grown man. That kid could certainly put away some food!
Kyle answered in his usually cheerful voice. He’d become a totally different person since he found Jenna again. They were madly in love and had created the perfect small family. Aaron expected them to announce their engagement any day now, and he knew that Kyle would want to have a big family with her. He was so jealous yet so happy for his brother.
“Hey man. How's it going?” Aaron asked.
“It's going great. To what do I owe this pleasure?” Kyle said with a chuckle.
“Listen, I was wondering if you guys mind if we used the private beach today?”
“We?”
“Yeah. I've got a new friend here at the campground, and I wanted to bring her and her son over for the day.” Aaron knew that the wheels were already spinning in his brother’s head even though he was trying his best to sound completely nonchalant about the whole thing.
“A new friend, huh?” Kyle said in a teasing tone.
“Don't start. She's just a friend. She's had a rough time lately, and her kid got hurt last night on the beach behind the campground. I don’t want to take her back down to that area since it has some bad memories that are too fresh. Anyway, we didn't want to be out on a crowded beach with him running around because it's harder to pay attention to him.” Aaron felt bad lying to his brother, but he was pretty impressed with himself for coming up with such a story on short notice.
“Sure, you know you can come over anytime. Jenna and I are going to be gone today. Mom is keeping her daughter so that we can get a little alone time, if you know what I mean.” Aaron laughed at his brother’s obvious joke.
“Thanks. We’ll probably be by in about an hour, and we might stay until sometime after lunch.”
“Sounds good. Enjoy.” Kyle said. The brothers hung up the phone just as Tyler was finishing up his breakfast.
“What's your name?” Tyler asked cocking his head as he drank his orange juice and stared at Aaron.
“My name is Aaron Parker.” Being the youngest, Aaron had never really been around kids much. He was always the baby of the family, and he wasn’t totally sure how to interact with a three year old.
“Do I call you Aaron or do I call you Mr. Parker?” Tyler asked between slurps of his drink. He was pretty astute for three year old, especially one who had seemingly been through a lot.
“You can call me either one you want.”
“My mommy says I need to call old men mister, so I guess I better do that.”
Aaron stifled a laugh. “Yes. We wouldn't want to make mommy mad, would we?” He wondered how old Tyler thought he was. Maybe he needed to look into some wrinkle cream before he hit thirty years old.
“So this is your house?” Tyler asked.
“Yes. I own this whole campground where everybody parks their campers just like your mommy did. Everybody likes to come here and visit me at my campground.”
Tyler stared at him for a moment and then hung his head. “We didn't want to come here, but we had to.”
Aaron sat in stunned silence for just a moment. Was this boy trying to open up to him? He wasn’t sure how much he should ask or say. After all, this wasn’t his kid. It wasn’t his place to intervene when it came to a child.
“You didn't want to come to my campground?”
“No. I wanted to stay at my house. All of my toys are there. But, my daddy did some mean things and we had to run away.”
It tore Aaron’s heart out to hear the little boy talk about something so huge and emotional. He was only three years old, yet he’d probably seen more in his little life than Aaron could imagine.
“You know what? You don't have to be scared anymore, Tyler. You see, I am a new friend of your Mommy’s and I'm going to make su
re that she's safe and you are too.”
Tyler allowed a big grin to stretch on his face, and it made Aaron feel good that the little boy was more comfortable. At the same time, he hoped that he could keep his promise and make sure that they were safe. Before he could say anything else, Tessa returned with some extra clothing and was ready to go to the beach.
Chapter 5
As they drove out to Kyle's beach house, they didn't get a lot of chances to talk. Tyler was excited and talkative all the way to Kyle's house. He pointed out everything along the way and asked what seemed like one million questions as any three year old would do.
Tessa seemed relaxed, which was a nice change of pace from the way that Aaron had seen her previously. She seemed to be settling in, but he knew that she was always on the lookout for whatever was chasing her. He wasn't sure if some person - likely her ex as Tyler alluded to - was actually going to come after her or if it was all in her mind, but he could tell she was truly scared. He wished that he could take that away from her somehow, but he knew he couldn't. Nothing he could say or do now would erase whatever had happened in her past.
A few minutes later, they pulled up at Kyle's house. Tyler bounded out the car like nothing ever happened to him and he didn't have a huge lump on his head. They carried all of their gear around the house and onto the private beach. As expected, no one else was there. The beautiful sand and blue waters always calmed Aaron, and he could tell that Tessa was taking it all in. She stopped for a moment and took in a deep breath. She'd worn a beach hat along with a long white flowing dress. She looked the perfect picture of a woman standing on the beach contemplating her life.
They started to walk closer to the water as Tyler ran toward it and started dipping his toes into the cold liquid.
“Be careful, Tyler! Don't go any further into the water until we get down there!” Tessa yelled. Tyler sat down and allowed the waves to roll over his tiny legs. Splashing around, he seem to be oblivious to all the fear that his mother had.
“So what do you think?” Aaron asked as he sat their things down on the fluffy sand.
“This is beautiful. Your brother obviously has a very nice house. I love that big rock over there.”
“Yeah. That rock actually has a lot of meaning to Kyle and his girlfriend, Jenna. They were high school sweethearts until they got separated for several years, and Jenna got married. It's a long story, but let's just say that they had many romantic interludes on that big rock. I would bet money on Kyle either proposing or marrying Jenna right on that spot.” Aaron smiled.
“That sounds very romantic. I wouldn't know what that was like,” Tessa said with a sad, far away look in her eyes.
“Why don't we focus on happier things? Let's make some new memories here on the beach for Tyler. I'm sure he's going to have some nightmares about what happened to him yesterday,” Aaron said with a laugh.
“Probably not. He's a pretty resilient kid. Of course, I might have some very bad memories about yesterday,” she said laughing. “He scared me to death. If you hadn't been there…”
“I thought we decided not to talk about anything stressful. Now, let's put some sunscreen on the kid and start having some fun!” Aaron said as he ran down toward the shore. Tessa followed him and lathered her son up with lots of sunscreen.
The next hour was spent frolicking and having a good time on the beach. Tessa seemed like a different person, laughing and giggling like she was a young child herself. Aaron was so happy to see that, but he was especially happy to see her let go of the fear for a little while. She knew she was safe with him on that private beach, and he hoped that he could give her that feeling of safety more often.
What was he thinking? He’d only just met this woman hours ago, but he was protecting her like she meant something to him. The realization hit his brain quickly – maybe she did mean something to him. Aside from her stunning good looks and great personality, he felt an enormous attraction to her that he didn't expect. This wasn't just about being a Southern gentleman or chivalrous. Instead, this was about protecting someone he’d grown to care about in just the last few hours. How was that even possible?
He thought it was crazy at first, but then he realized he’d been with Natalie for years and didn't know her any better when they broke up than he did in the beginning. That much was obvious when he realized that she cared little for him and could cheat so easily. Why couldn't he fall in love with somebody so quickly? Wait a minute, love? What was he thinking?
“Are you about ready to get some lunch?” Tessa asked around noon.
“Oh, sure. We could go grab something at the diner.” Tessa’s face went white, and for the first time that afternoon he saw the fear return.
“Aaron, I can't. It's too risky,” she whispered.
“You can't go to a small-town diner? Are you sure?”
“Positive. I know he's looking for me, and I can't take any unnecessary chances. You've done so much for us already. Just take me back to the camper and I'll make something for Tyler and me…”
“You have got to be kidding me. You guys are not going to go eat lunch in that tiny, hot camper.”
“I don't understand you. Why are you doing all of this for me? I mean, come on, you just met me hours ago. It's not like I'm your girlfriend or your wife or your sister. I’m not even a close friend. You have no reason to go out of your way to protect me.” Her tone wasn’t one of anger or irritation. It was more like she was completely confused by his actions.
“How about I just say that my mom raised me to be a good man. Isn't that enough?”
“Your mom must've raised you to be a great man. You're not the typical guy, trust me.”
“Don't worry, you'll see my flaws soon enough. I told you, I want to be your friend. I'd like to be able to redeem the male species for you.” He winked at her which almost drew a smile from her face, but not quite.
“Well, I'm not sure you'll ever be able to do that but I'm willing to give it a try. I just don't want you to threaten your business or your life hanging around with the likes of me.” She hung her head, much like Tyler did at the kitchen table, and it made Aaron cringe inside.
“Hey,” he said putting his finger under her chin and making her look at him. She jumped just a little bit, but he was careful to be gentle and not too forward with her. “I may have only known you for a few hours, but I'm a good judge of character. You're a good person, Tessa, and I'm not in the habit of allowing good people to be bullied by anyone. You don't have to be my wife, girlfriend or sister for me to want to protect you. Someone should've protected you a long time ago.”
He wasn't sure, but he thought he saw tears welling up in her eyes. She turned her head quickly to look at Tyler who was still splashing around in the waves. The last thing he wanted to do was make her cry. Crying women always confused and unnerved him.
“How about that lunch now?” she asked again. “Maybe if I keep my beach hat on, I won't be seen as easily.”
“This might be a stupid question, but wouldn't the man that you're talking about recognize your son? I mean, if we’re out in public and Tyler is with us, won't he know who you are?”
Tessa looked stunned for a moment and then shook her head. “See? I'm not even thinking logically anymore. We can't go out with Tyler or it'll be very obvious that it's me. I feel so trapped.” She put her hands over her face and growled.
“What you can't do is stay in the house all the time. We've got to do something. It seems to me that waiting for this mystery man to make his move is the wrong way to go. What we need to do is figure out a way to protect you for the long-term without you having to look over your shoulder all the time. We either need to do it legally or illegally, but I prefer legally.”
Tessa's mouth dropped open. “What are you saying? You want us to do something illegal?”
“No. That wouldn't be my first choice, but you can't go to the rest of your life being scared all the time, Tessa. I know you don't want to tell me what happ
ened, but you’ve got to tell somebody eventually. You've got to take care of this long term. You can't keep you and Tyler and a dog cooped up in that old, crappy camper with no air conditioning. Don't take this the wrong way, but part of your job as his mother is to make sure that he has the best future possible, right?”
“Of course.”
“Then we have to take some proactive measures to make sure that happens. That kid has probably already had plenty of fear instilled in him in his first three years of life. I hate to see you going around being scared and pushing that anxiety off on him. He needs a stable, normal life.” As soon as he’d said it, Aaron regretted it. Making her feel guilty hadn’t been his intent at all.
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