by Nina Lane
“Hi, Paige.”
Good Lord. I hope she didn’t see what I was looking at.
“We’re leaving in fifteen minutes, if you want to go with us,” she tells me.
“Sure. Just checking my email.” I smile brightly.
Paige shrugs and leaves. Just to ensure I wasn’t lying, I log in to my email again. There’s a message from Kelsey:
He’s coming back for one meeting? WTF?
It’s an important meeting, from what Dean said, but Kelsey’s reaction renews my own confusion. It really doesn’t make a lot of sense.
I wonder if the meeting has something to do with Dean’s job or the international conference he’s planning. He’s only been on the King’s University faculty for two years. While the board courted him and offered him a top-level salary, and so far has given him everything he’s asked for in terms of funding, he doesn’t yet have tenure.
Maybe that’s it! Maybe they’re planning to offer him early tenure.
Dean has half a dozen grad students under his advisement, he’s earned an incredible reputation over a very short time, he has numerous publications, and he’s brought a lot of attention to the university and the new Medieval Studies program. The conference will surely cement his reputation, along with his book that’s being published in the fall and the IHR grant…
That has to be it. And he didn’t want to tell me because he wants it to be a surprise.
An unexpected burst of excitement floods me. If Dean is offered tenure, then his professorship is permanent. We really will be in Mirror Lake for the foreseeable future.
Rather than feeling uncertain about the idea, I’m filled with anticipation. I want to stay in Mirror Lake. Finally now I realize how much that town has become home to me in the past two years.
I want to raise our child there, watch him or her attend school, swim in the lake, eat ice cream on Avalon Street, play in Wizard’s Park, bike along all the back roads. I have friends in Mirror Lake, good friends, and even though I don’t have a career, I have a bookstore job and volunteer work that I love.
I can give our child the stable, secure life and the home I never had.
The very idea, its newfound reality, alleviates much of my previous unease. I grab my purse and hurry out to join Joanna and Paige for the trip to the hospital.
I already can’t wait for Dean to get back.
“How was your day?”
His voice is a low rumble. Warmed by the sound, I press my ear to the phone and sit on the edge of the bed.
“Fine. I went with Paige and your mom to visit your dad, who is complaining about the food. I think he’s ready to come home. They’re keeping an eye on that swelling he had in the heart valve, but the doctor says he should be okay for a release on Thursday. How were your flights?”
“Second leg was delayed because of ice in Chicago.”
“I forgot it’s still winter in the Midwest.”
“Ten degrees right now. Roads are slick, too.”
“Are you at home?”
“Just got in a little while ago. Did you get my note?”
“It’s lovely, but why did you draw a volcano?”
“Smartass,” he mutters.
I smile. “Pie love you too, professor. With ice cream.”
“Uh huh.”
“How’s everything in the apartment?” I ask.
“Fine. Kelsey has kept your plants alive.”
“That’s what she told me. She seemed quite proud.”
“You talked to her?”
“Emailed her. I told her you were coming in for a couple of days. She doesn’t get why you had to fly all the way back for one meeting.”
He’s silent for a minute. I can’t help smiling. I won’t pry anymore so I don’t ruin the surprise.
“You should try and see her while you’re there,” I suggest.
“Uh, yeah. I’ll give her a call.” He clears his throat. “What are your plans for tomorrow?”
“I thought I’d go downtown, look at a few baby boutiques.”
“Oh.”
“I’m kind of excited now,” I admit. “Since everything’s okay with your father and we’ll be back in Mirror Lake soon. You know that ice cream parlor down by the beach, the one with the checkerboard floor and soda fountain? Did you know it’s attached to a toy store?”
“No, I didn’t.”
“It’s every kid’s dream. You have ice cream, then you go shop for toys. Probably drives the parents crazy, but what a treat for a kid.”
“Sure sounds like it.”
“Anyway.” I try to temper my enthusiasm a little. “I was just looking up pregnancy stuff on the Internet. Thought I’d see what kind of things we’re going to need beyond diapers.”
“Good idea.”
He sounds muted. Must be tired and stressed from three flights, plus delays, and then a long drive from the airport over icy roads.
I flop back onto the bed. Maybe I can help him relax before he goes to sleep. A tingle of anticipation rolls through me.
“So I also looked up sex and pregnancy,” I remark.
“Yeah?”
“You know, for when I’m bigger. I was wondering how we’d manage it.”
“How will we?”
“The website recommended several positions.”
“Which are?” He sounds more alert now.
“Me on top.”
“A good one.”
“Facing each other side by side.”
“Nice.”
“Me on my hands and knees with you fucking me from behind.”
His breath hisses out. I smile.
“I thought that sounded… promising,” I say.
“Sounds more than promising.”
“Are you in bed?” I ask.
“On the sofa.”
“Wearing?”
“Flannel pants. T-shirt.”
“You never wear a shirt to bed.”
“Because you keep me warm. It’s ten degrees here.”
“Will you take it off now?” I ask.
“Why?”
I sigh. “So I can picture you sitting bare-chested on the sofa in our living room.”
“Hold on.” There’s a rustling noise before he comes back on the line. “Shirt’s off.”
“Good.”
“Your turn.”
I look down at my nightgown. “If I take off my nightgown, I’ll be completely naked.”
“Good.”
“Hold on.” I put the phone down and shuck my gown over my head. Then, as a precaution, I make sure the bedroom door is locked before I return to lie down on the bed. “Okay.”
“You’re naked?”
“Uh huh. Oh, except for my underwear. They’re a little tight. I think my butt is getting bigger too.”
“More for me to squeeze.”
“Really? You’re okay with me, you know… growing?”
“You just mentioned a bigger ass, and I’m already hard.”
Arousal jolts me. “You are?”
“Now I’m picturing your breasts, then you bending over to show me your nice, plump ass… and I’m about to come.”
I laugh. “And here I thought I’d have to work a little to relax you.”
“Oh, you can work me.” He pauses. “Are your nipples hard?”
“Yes.” I shift to one elbow. My breasts roll to the side, stiff-peaked, and the cotton of my panties is getting damp between my legs. I run a hand over my belly, across my sensitized nipples. “Speaking of bending over, do you remember that time we did it on the balcony?”
“How could I forget?”
“What floor was it?”
“Seventeenth.”<
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About a year into our marriage, I’d gone with Dean to Southern California for a medieval studies conference, which was held at a hotel in West LA. He’d been assigned a room with a private balcony. The view was spectacular—the hazy sky arched wide over the urban sprawl of Los Angeles, the spires of Century City jutting upward in the distance. Lines of traffic snaked over the streets, looking like toy cars from the high vantage point.
While Dean went to presentations about medieval stuff, I visited some LA tourist traps and museums. One evening I got back to the hotel before he did, tired and sweaty from a day of touring Hollywood Boulevard and the LA County Museum of Art. After a quick shower, I dressed in a white sundress and went to sit on the balcony, leaving the sliding glass door open.
I had some vague notion of seducing my husband, but actually doing it on the balcony didn’t occur to me.
Until he walked in, all tired and rumpled from discussing feudal customs and city topography. He dropped a distracted kiss on my forehead, muttered something about a banquet dinner, and went to shower.
My poor, hardworking, medievalist husband.
I put my feet up on the balcony railing. Hot air brushed against me, rippling the hotel curtains. My hair was loose, disheveled. I wasn’t wearing panties. Or a bra, for that matter.
I turned when he emerged from the bathroom, bare-chested and wearing boxers, his skin beaded with water. He lifted his arms to scrub at his wet hair with a towel, his muscles flexing beautifully with the movement.
“How were the presentations?” I asked.
“Some really good ones, especially the session about Florentine politics.”
Of course.
“Interesting,” I remarked. The wind was brushing against my bare sex, eliciting rather delightful tingles. I spread my legs a little. “When does the banquet dinner start?”
“Half an hour. Spouses are invited.” He rubbed the towel over his chest. “Sort of formal, though.”
“Oh. No sundress, then.”
“I guess not.”
“What about underwear?”
He stopped, jerking his gaze to me. “Uh… what?”
I plucked at my skirt. “Can’t wear a sundress. But I’ll probably have to put on some underwear.”
“You’re not wearing any?”
“No.” I swung my legs off the railing and turned toward him, parting my legs enough to give him a little peek of my nakedness. “Guess I should get dressed properly, then.”
His eyes narrowed, even as his breathing began to increase. “What’re you doing?”
“Nothing.” I looked at him, blinking with innocence. “Just hoped you’d want to fuck me on the balcony before dinner.”
A thrill raced through me when he threw down the towel and stalked toward me, all sudden heat and dark glower.
“You’d better know what you’re asking for, Mrs. West,” he growled.
I didn’t exactly (the balcony?), but my heart pounded with excitement when he grabbed me around the waist and pulled me in for a deep kiss. The air lit with a fevered intensity, a sensation I loved as much I loved the slow burn of our more leisurely lovemaking. The fact that I could do this with one spread of my legs—turn him from a tired academic into a hard, intense hunk—was a heady power.
Dean pushed his tongue into my mouth, his chest rock-solid against mine, his skin still damp and soap-scented. He latched a hand to the back of my neck, deepening the kiss as I wound my arms around him.
He grasped the folds of my dress and pulled it up over my legs, his erection already poking against my abdomen, his muscles cording. Air gusted against my naked bottom. I shivered.
“Wait,” I gasped. “Are… are you sure no one can see us?”
He laughed, sliding his big hands around to my ass. “Too late to worry about that now.”
The very idea that someone could be watching us made my pulse leap. Dean reached between us to pull his cock out of his boxers. I moaned aloud at the sight of the rigid shaft, all taut skin and pulsing veins. I took him in my hand and rubbed, cupping my fingers so he could thrust into the vise of my fist.
Another gust of wind whipped my hair around my face, blew my dress up higher. Dean pressed his hand between my legs, his breath hot against my forehead. He moved away from me to go back into the room, returning with a condom packet.
“Now turn around.” It was an order, guttural and deep.
I sucked in a breath and turned. Sweat trickled between my breasts. I started to quiver with a combination of excitement and nerves. Dean put his hands on my hips and gently pushed me farther out onto the balcony. Then he reached around to take my wrists and guided my hands to the railing.
“Hold on, beauty,” Dean whispered, closing his teeth around my earlobe. “It’s going to be a helluva ride.”
A shudder rocked me from head to toe. I gripped the metal railing, my palms damp with sweat. A plane swooped overhead, the engine a dull roar in my ears. A streak of sunlight burned my neck.
Dean pulled my dress up to my waist, baring me completely to the wind and his gaze.
“Fucking beautiful,” he muttered.
He pushed his thigh between my legs, spreading me farther apart. Shivers rained down my spine. My belly coiled with tension. He drew one finger down the crack of my ass and into my sex, his touch a light teasing that ratcheted up my frustration. After his powerful, sexy grabbing of me, I was ready to be completely taken.
“You want more?” he asked, running the tip of his finger around my clit.
“God, Dean, yes.”
“What?”
My face warmed with a blush.
“Tell me and I might give it to you,” he murmured. He rubbed his palm in circles around my ass, creating a delicious friction.
“Your… your cock in me,” I gasped. “I want you to fuck me hard.”
A second later, he was pressing into me, his fingers digging into my hips, his shaft sliding with deliberate ease into me, stretching me fully. My heartbeat pounded inside my head. My blood blazed. I clutched the railing and struggled to take all of him. He shifted his grip to my waist and pulled me back against him.
“Wider.” His voice was strained.
I spread my legs wider, my muscles trembling. Dean pressed a hand to my back, forcing my upper body lower and pushing my bottom up toward him.
“Dean!”
“Hold on.” He seized my hips again, pulled back, and thrust forward.
I cried out, stunned by the sheer power of his thrusts, the way every movement stimulated parts of me I hadn’t known existed. He went deep, so deep, his sac slapping against me, his thighs tight against mine.
My dress stuck to my skin, damp with sweat, my hair a mess of wind-whipped tangles. My legs quivered with the effort of maintaining my bent-over position, but I could have stood there for hours, letting my husband stroke his cock in and out of me, his belly hitting my ass, our mingled fluids dripping down my thighs.
I wished I could see him, strain cording his muscles, his eyes filled with lust. I wished I could see the slick push-and-pull of his shaft as he drove our urgency higher.
Then he eased one hand around to finger my clit. I shuddered, fighting the urge to clamp my thighs around his hand. One stroke, and I came with a choked gasp, trembling and clenching around his still-thrusting cock. I tightened my hold on the railing and pushed back as he growled with pleasure, pumping hard and deep.
“Ah, fuck, Liv…”
He pulled me upright, then backward. I toppled onto his lap as he sank into the chair. I went slack against him, my head falling back onto his shoulder.
He put his hand underneath my chin, turning my face to him for a thorough kiss. I was melted, spent. Wildly in love.
“Did we ever make it to the banquet?” Dean asks me now
, his voice rough with heat over the phone.
“We were half an hour late, but we made it. Dry chicken and rice. The dessert was good, though.”
“Are you touching yourself?” he asks.
I’ve been playing with myself the entire time we relived that blazing memory—rubbing my hands over my breasts, my belly, down into my underwear.
“Yes.” I arch my hips to meet the press of my fingers. “I want to do that again. Let’s rent a hotel room in a high-rise before… summer.”
Before we have the baby. For some reason, I can’t quite say that.
“Only if you agree not to wear underwear when I take you out to dinner afterward.”
“Deal. Now imagine plunging into my tight, wet pussy while I’m bent over, moaning for you to come all over my bare ass…”
He groans at the exact moment an orgasm rolls through me, vibrations shaking my entire body. I close my eyes and ride the wave, knowing the hot, sweaty images we’re both seeing are one and the same.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Dean
January 28
COLDER THAN HELL IN MIRROR LAKE. My boots crush a layer of icy snow as I walk toward the history department. I collect letters from my departmental mailbox, then head into my office. I go through the mechanics of a routine—checking email, phone messages, taking stuff out of my briefcase. A note falls from between the pages of a book that I brought back from California:
I tape the note on my computer next to Liv’s drawing of an owl. I don’t look at the framed photo of my wife that sits on my desk. I can almost feel her gazing at me with that warm, pretty smile. That “you’re my hero” look that breaks my heart every time.
I distract myself with more useless tasks until it’s time for the meeting. I go down the hall to Frances Hunter’s office.
“I’m sorry this is happening, Dean.” She opens the door and gestures me inside. She’s dressed in a severely cut, gray suit and a gold necklace. “But I appreciate you coming back. Come in and sit down. Mr. Stafford isn’t here yet.”