by Alex Preston
Fiamma, wheat-dust blanching her lips, walks waist-high to the fragile flowers and picks a handful. She puts them into the basket of her bicycle and, halfway across the stony rise of the ford, she drops them into the water.
‘For Carlo and Nello,’ she says.
Along the south bank of the river, through more wheat and corn and maize, then steeper ground, vineyards stretching up into the low reaches of the hills. They join the road, through small villages – Candelli, Santa Monica, Vallina – where old men sit on the stoops of their houses watching them pass, their eyes crinkled from contemplating the long moment of their lives. Under every roadside tree stands a mule, swatting its tail placidly against the flies. In the fields heavy cattle swing their heads like slow church bells. They buy apricots from a stall where a young woman with a baby on her hip chews a stalk of grass beneath her hat and addresses them in Florentine dialect so thick that even Fiamma can’t understand her.
Finally, they turn off the road and down a track to the river. They come to an abandoned watermill with a crenellated roof like a castle. Martins have nested in its walls, opening large clefts. The whole building looks about to crumble down the bank into the Arno.
‘The Gualchiere di Remole,’ Gerald says. ‘This would have turned wool into cloth. Hugely important to Florence in the Middle Ages. The Comune is always promising to turn it into a museum but, I mean, look at it.’
Past the mill, they cycle carefully along an overgrown path to the river. Brambles tear at Esmond’s legs as he follows. He stops to help Fiamma unhook her dress from a thorn that snags it and sees the white and red scratches the brambles have raised on her legs. They come out on fine yellow sand beneath the lip of the bank. Upstream of the mill, the river is pocked with small islands and the Arno is wide and clear. They lay their bicycles down in the grass.
Gerald unpacks the canvas bag: a thermos of Soave, two bottles of red, some bread and salami. He takes a knife and cuts the salami as Esmond and Fiamma paddle, looking across the river to where contadini labour in the fields, their backs pomegranate brown. The river is hard and sandy on their feet and slopes towards the middle where fish flicker like shadows.
‘Lunch is served, you two. Come and get it.’
An hour later they lie lazily fuddled on the sand. The thermos is empty, and they have started on the red. Esmond is aware that he is sunburning, his head beginning to throb in the heat, but he can barely lift his arm to cover it. Gerald has taken off his top and is using it for a pillow, lifting himself up on his elbow to take a gulp of wine every so often. Fiamma is sleeping, twitching, sometimes turning. Only the electric thrum of cicadas stirs the air, the bray of a mule or the shouts of contadini.
‘We should swim or we’ll boil here,’ Gerald says. As he stands, Esmond can see sweat in the tufts of dark hair beneath his arms, across his chest. He walks down to the water. Fiamma has woken and stretches, frowning. Gerald drops his shorts and underpants, leaving them in a coil on the bank, and plunges into the water. He comes up in the centre of the river, blowing gouts of water out of his mouth and laughing.
‘You should come in! It’s marvellous.’
Esmond looks over at Fiamma. She stares, unfocused, a hectic flush to her cheeks.
‘It is hot,’ he says.
‘Go on, then.’
He walks down to the edge of the water. His shirt is sticking to his back. He lifts it off with difficulty, takes down his shorts and then, suddenly delighted to think of his body immersed in the cool water, strips naked and leaps forward into the river. He swims towards Gerald who is floating, spreadeagled. He dives and opens his eyes: it is clear and green and as he goes deeper, icy. Sunlight arrows down and he can make out Gerald floating above, the smooth curve of his back, his hair flaming out, his arms and legs paddling him gently afloat. He comes up beside him, laughing.
‘There’s nothing like it, is there?’ Gerald says. ‘Come on, Fiamma! Come and cool down.’
She takes a final swig of wine, stands and shakes her head, then steps down to the river’s edge. She unpins her hair and it tumbles down to her shoulders. She lifts the skirt of her dress up over her head and stands for a moment in her bra and smalls.
‘Nello’, she says, ‘used to take me swimming. When I was still a little girl.’ Esmond and Gerald watch her and she meets their gaze. She steps in, the whiteness of her underclothes striking against the darkness of her arms and legs. She swims towards them.
They are careful of each other at first. Esmond looks down at his body, caressed by the same water, swimming in the wake of skin scurf and sweat that links them. He and Gerald dive underwater. They all know these submarine plunges are intended to catch better glimpses of each other, the arrangement of limbs. Gerald’s nakedness, which had come to seem natural by the swimming pool at L’Ombrellino, is changed by the fact that he, Esmond, is naked himself. He thinks his friend looks like a Greek sea god, Proteus or Glaucus, and Fiamma a nereid.
They swim downstream to one of the islands that prods up from the river near the mill. Gerald is the first to pull himself out onto the sand. Esmond does his best to leave the water gracefully and sits down, the sand warm and soft beneath him. Then Fiamma joins them, elbowing herself a place between them. At the touch of her skin, Esmond feels a warm jolt of longing in his groin and has to turn over and lie on his front. The water evaporates from their bodies as the sun moves across the sky.
‘It must be nearly four,’ Esmond says.
‘I’m going to swim to the other bank,’ says Gerald. ‘See what’s over there.’
Esmond watches Fiamma through half-closed eyes and the strong sound of Gerald’s strokes. There is a slight reddening under her brassiere, on the tops of her thighs where she has allowed the sun to catch her. He realises she is looking back at him, that she can tell he is watching her. He reaches up and moves his finger over her lips; she smiles at the contact and then bites him.
‘Turn over,’ she says.
He opens his eyes. ‘No.’
‘Turn over, Esmond. I’ve had a terrible day.’
He lifts his head and sees that Gerald is much further upstream, bobbing in the silver reflection of the sun. He turns. He and Fiamma stare downwards. She smiles, not taking her eyes from his gently pulsing cock. Carefully, she lays a soft hand on it, closes her fingers and leans over to kiss him. Her lips have the warm tackiness of a child’s. She draws back and then bows to place a kiss at the place where his cock emerges from her clenched fist. She leaves her lips there. A long slice of time. He hears voices, splashing. Fiamma raises her head and they look upstream.
Gerald is swimming towards them. On the bank, running and waddling, red-faced and bellowing, holding what look like branches, comes a group of seven or eight contadini.
‘Swim for the shore, you two,’ Gerald shouts. ‘Quickly!’
Esmond helps Fiamma to her feet and they move swiftly into the river and towards the beach. Gerald is already there, pulling on his clothes and filling the canvas bag with their picnic. Esmond takes great handfuls of water and is on the bank, his cock still half-hard. He turns to see Fiamma ten metres from shore. In the other direction, the red-faced contadini are almost upon them, shouting and cursing.
‘Get on your bike,’ says Gerald, ‘I’ve got your clothes.’
Fiamma is staggering up the beach and Gerald puts the bike in her hands. The contadini stop for a moment, nonplussed to have landed their quarry so easily. Esmond realises they are not holding branches but nettles, grasped at the stem. The leader, a squat, paunchy fellow of fifty or so, steps towards them.
‘Deliquenti! Furfanti!’ he shouts, and whips one of the nettles across Esmond’s back.
Another steps towards Fiamma and slashes at her thighs as she tries to mount her bike. ‘Putana!’ he cries. Esmond makes to get down from his bicycle.
‘No, Esmond. Just go!’ Gerald is already heading up the path towards the mill.
‘You first,’ Esmond shouts to Fiamma, and she pedals f
uriously up the rocky slope, brambles scything at her legs.
Esmond is last, nettle-whips raining on his back until he crests the hill to the mill’s forecourt. They pick up speed and pull away. Only when they are back on the main road, cycling past the woman selling peaches at her stall, does Esmond realise he is still naked, Fiamma in her damp and muddy underwear. He looks ahead to see the muscles of her thighs working, the jounce of her breasts as she pedals, and he cycles up beside her with a long whoop of pleasure. Soon Fiamma is laughing too and they race along the road, the wind and warm sun bathing them, Fiamma’s hair streaming behind her like steam.
18
Back at the Institute, they sit out on the loggia as the sky fades around them.
‘Vodka and the last of Gesuina’s lemonade, doctor’s orders,’ Gerald says, and they sip, stretching their tingling limbs, Gerald swirling his drink and looking out over the rooftops.
‘It’s easy to forget how conservative they are, the contadini. They couldn’t care less about a revolutionary government. It’s why the aristocrats are still so popular.’
‘Hasn’t Mussolini banned indentured labour?’ Esmond asks, reaching to touch his shoulders with his glass.
Gerald considers his drink. ‘The spirit lingers.’
‘I thought they were going to kill us,’ Fiamma says.
‘Did one of them have a pitchfork?’ Esmond laughs. ‘Or did I imagine it?’
Gerald stands up. ‘I need a piss.’
Esmond and Fiamma are left on the terrace. She leans and looks at the sky.
‘I keep thinking about them,’ she says.
‘The contadini?’
‘Carlo and Nello. They were stabbed to death, you know.’ She’s silent for a while. ‘How hard they must have fought. I keep trying to imagine how their faces looked.’ She looks at him. ‘Promise me one thing, Esmond.’
‘Anything,’ he says.
‘Promise me that you’re not one of them, not one of the bastardi who did this to my friends.’
‘Of course I’m not.’
‘You know what I mean.’
He pauses for a moment and then takes her hand. ‘I do know, of course. I grew up with it, you understand.’
‘That’s not enough. It’s not right, or decent. It’s not you.’
Gerald comes back and they sit under the swooping bats and the stars until San Gaetano strikes twelve and, drunk, they stumble towards bed. Outside her room, Fiamma pauses.
‘I’m never going to sleep in this heat. Will someone rub some Pond’s Cream on my shoulders? I feel like I’m on fire.’
‘Yes,’ say Esmond and Gerald at the same time, stepping forward and following her into her room. Esmond remembers seeing her at her dressing table, the way her hair fell down her back, the reflection of her breasts in the mirror. Then he thinks of her body earlier on the sand, her lips. She has turned on the bedside lamp and her skin looks extraordinarily dark in the light.
‘Do this, will you?’ she says to Gerald, turning so he can unzip her dress at the back. Esmond watches her slip out of the straps and pull it down to her waist. She sits at the table of her dresser and he wonders if she’s deliberately recreating that initial glimpse, the scorcio he’d caught through the door three months ago. She unhooks the clasp of her brassiere, crossing her arms over her chest and smiling coyly over her shoulder.
‘Now, Gerald.’ She reaches back and hands him the cream then leans forward, her hands on the dresser. Esmond can see the heavy curve of her breasts in the mirror, dark circled nipples, the beginning of a grin on her face as Gerald rubs the cream into her neck and her back. She lets out a long sigh, which begins as a shiver, and ends in a definite moan.
After a few minutes, she raises her head, stands up and turns around. Her eyes are bright, her hair falling in sweat-damp tails to her shoulders. She looks like a goddess, with her burnished skin and bare breasts, a dark Venus.
‘I think Esmond is the most sunburnt,’ she says, looking over at him.
Gerald grins. ‘I agree. Kit off, Lowndes. Come and lie on the bed.’
Stumbling, laughing, Esmond takes his shirt and trousers off. He lies down on the bedspread in his briefs, his face pressed into Fiamma’s pillow, smelling her scent and hair. The first of the cream is almost painfully cold against his skin. But then the hands, indistinguishable and swift across his body, begin to smooth and caress and he closes his eyes and gives himself over to the pleasure.
When he opens them again, he realises he has been asleep. The lamp is extinguished and there is only the low light of the moon from the door to the corridor. His briefs have been removed and his cock stirs gently between his legs. He is lying against the wall and beside him on the bed, Gerald is naked on his back, Fiamma pressing cream along him. Gerald groans every so often. Esmond lies there, hardly breathing, eyes half-closed, watching. Fiamma sucks in her lower lip, pausing when her hands reach the centre of Gerald’s body. Esmond realises she has taken the dress off completely and shifts to get a better look. She stops, Gerald turns, Esmond smiles foolishly.
‘I fell asleep,’ he says, but Gerald pushes a finger to his lips and then reaches across to kiss him. Fiamma clambers over to lie on top of the two boys and Esmond feels her fingers close around his cock again. She slides downwards, guiding him into the damp warmth of her and then it is just flesh and sweat and spit, the warm breach of a mouth, the slippery press of a tongue, hot breath panting, laughing, groaning. They melt into the sweating night and into each other. By dawn, they are nothing but husks of bodies on the bed, burnished with sweat, sheets torn to the floor. A jug of water lies shattered on the tiles, its contents soaking into the sheets. Fiamma sleeps with her mouth open, her head on Gerald’s chest, one arm around Esmond. Their limbs have been shuffled, redistributed; they might be one spiritless creature. The bells of San Gaetano chime for matins, but they sleep on in sluggard happiness.
19
‘Come on Esmond, up we get.’ Gerald has opened the blinds and sunlight streaks into the room. Fiamma rubs her eyes and stares down at the wreckage on the floor. Esmond stretches, looks over at Gerald, who is dressed and carrying a mug of coffee.
‘Leave us alone,’ he says, trying to pull the pillow over his head.
‘Not a chance. You and I are going to church. Bailey was a real brick to the old man while he was in hospital and we haven’t so much as glanced at him since. You’ve got twenty minutes to get vertical.’
Esmond bathes in cold water, his head pounding, mouth dry. He sinks down beneath the surface for a moment and blows bubbles out of his nose. He dresses quickly, hands shaking as he knots his tie. He looks into Fiamma’s room, whispers goodbye to her sleeping body and then walks down to meet Gerald in the courtyard.
The church is emptier than the last time, despite the worshippers from Holy Trinity. As he steps through the wicket gate and down the aisle, Esmond discovers in himself an affection for the gloomy place, for its tortured paintings. Gerald bows deeply before the altar, crossing himself, and then takes a seat near the front, Esmond beside him.
‘Love the decor,’ Gerald says, nodding towards the triptych. ‘Fucking terrifying. Just what you need in church.’
Esmond smiles. He makes a rough calculation: their combined age, he thinks, still less than half that of anyone else in the congregation. Bailey beams when he sees them, and Esmond senses a verve and bluster to the sermon, a twinkle as they go up to take communion.
During the slow, prayerful parts of the service, Esmond feels Gerald breathing beside him and, looking at the slim-fitting suit on his thigh, remembers his head in Esmond’s lap, grinning wolfishly; Fiamma perched above them, her legs apart showing slick darkness, swaying; he remembers how, at one point, the two of them had pinned him down, taken turns to have him inside them, Gerald letting a silver string of spit down onto the tip of his cock beforehand. He feels a hot rush to his face as he realises he must stand for the Peace and carefully adjusts himself through the fabric of his pocket. Ge
rald looks at him and grins.
After the service, they wait for Bailey while he and Reggie Turner clear up. Gerald stands looking at the triptych, a warm detachment on his face. Esmond lounges in the pew, longing for his bed, wondering what it will be like to see Fiamma again. Now Bailey bounces down towards them from the sacristy, rubbing his hands. Esmond had forgotten how big he was, how his body seemed out of place in the small, dark church.
‘How’ve you chaps been? Any word from your father, Gerald?’
They walk out and into the entrance hall with its faded notices and plaques.
‘I telephoned him on Friday. He says he’s better, although he sounded awfully tired. Gesuina tells Fiamma that the doctors are still in a dither. I’m going to catch the bus up there next week, see for myself.’
‘Why don’t you let me drive you? Always good to give the Alfa a run. Hold on a minute, Esmond.’ Bailey takes him by the elbow. He can smell the priest’s cologne, feel the strength in the fingers that close around him. ‘There’s something I wanted to show you,’ he says, guiding him up the stairs. ‘You come too, Gerald. It’ll give you something to tell your father, buck him up.’
They make their way up the stone steps and then along the corridor to the room overlooking the Piazza Santo Spirito. Esmond pauses for a moment, allowing Bailey and Gerald to pass in front of him. He thinks of the airless feel of Aston Magna, the ancient dust of his prep school at West Down.
‘Ecco là,’ Bailey says, opening the door to the studio.
Esmond steps into the room and lets out a gasp. The studio is no longer empty. A walnut desk, a pair of microphones. A silver cross-hatch BBC standard, a direct-to-disc recorder. An RCA sound-mixing desk and reel-to-reel electromagnetic tape machine sit on a chest of drawers. Against the far wall, hiding the mould patches Esmond had noticed before, stands a large cupboard with what looks like a transmitter. There are wires spewing out from the front, a series of parts, screwdrivers, spanners and a hammer on the mantelpiece.