by Howard Owen
Ruth said she could.
The only other thing of note they had found, he said, was an instant camera, which he would have someone send to her. She held her breath, but the sheriff said nothing about any photographs.
He told her that one of his deputies had poured the rest of the bourbon out and stacked that final bottle next to the penultimate empty, the fifth Henry had drunk first and the last one he would ever finish.
“I guess he’d have wanted us to do that,” the sheriff said, and Ruth didn’t say anything.
Paul would come back for the funeral. Naomi wouldn’t.
“I asked Hank to call her,” Ruth said. “I wasn’t up to speaking to her just then. Hank got upset with her for saying she just couldn’t get away right then, but I knew this was one funeral she wouldn’t be coming to. I tried to smooth it over with Hank, told him that Naomi had some bad memories about this place that she might never get over. I did get her to write him a note later.”
After Harry Stein came back to Saraw, she worked up the courage to tell Naomi that she knew, too late, what Henry Flood was.
“You know, though,” she told Harry, after she had finished, “there’s a part of me that thinks I’m still going to be called to justice someday. The way forensic medicine is progressing, I have no doubt that they could dig Henry Flood up right now and prove he’d drunk enough digoxin to kill him. And somewhere back in Kinlaw’s Hell, there’s a cabin with a few hundred empty bourbon bottles in it, and one of them probably has enough digoxin residue to put me in the state penitentiary for the rest of my life, if anybody ever found it and knew what to do with it.”
She looked over at him.
“But that’s only right. It’s good for me to live with it, to look out my window and know my undoing lies there, mocking me. I don’t visit Henry’s grave any more, and I don’t go into that swamp. My minister would say I’m doomed, maybe in this life and surely in the next. I don’t know if that’s true. I’ve sliced it every way you can, and I still don’t know.
“Some things, Harry, you just have to live with.”
By then, her eyes were swollen.
“Damn you, Harry Stein,” she said. “Damn you for pushing me until I told you that story. I had sworn nobody would ever hear that story. What if I tell somebody else, or you tell somebody?”
Harry, though, has had no regrets about forcing the story from her. He doesn’t believe anyone is strong enough to keep a story like that inside forever. Not even Ruth.
He has never mentioned it again, after they left the old shed and put the wooden latch back in place, and neither has she, not until this dark morning.
Ruth feels surrounded, by her daughter and her past. She has just told her story a second time, 14 years later, on the deck of a Florida beach house, on the morning of her 70th birthday, with a stiff Gulf breeze trying to drive the three of them indoors. They refuse to leave, though, because each knows this might be the only place, the only time, the one correct temperature and barometric pressure for this particular story. And even Ruth realizes that it has to be told.
She could have told Naomi how Henry Flood died, she supposes. But it seemed to her a kind of protection for her daughter, who shouldn’t have to know that her mother killed her stepfather, shouldn’t have to keep that kind of secret her whole life.
Now, though, it is told.
Naomi finally speaks, her voice trembling.
“So, Hank and Paul don’t know anything about this, about any of this?”
Ruth shakes her head.
“I just can’t believe it. How could you do that?”
“If you could have, and gotten away with it,” Ruth asks her, grabbing her face and forcing Naomi to look at her straight on, “wouldn’t you?”
THIRTY
Paul Flood was not a careless man.
On Tuesday night, just in case, he had made sure that the minivan was filled with gas and the flashlights were well-placed. He even turned the vehicle around so that it was facing the road, only scant minutes from the bridge and the relative safety of the mainland.
Once across, he knew a back street that connected with a county road farther inland that led across the swamps to a state highway, placing him and those in his charge a full 10 miles from the coast before the first threat of major traffic delays. We shouldn’t even have to run for an emergency shelter, if it comes to that, he told Hank and Harry. He figured they would be able to drive straight to Atlanta, then come back later to gawk at the damage.
Should the storm hit (and Paul possessed the skepticism of someone who has spent a moderately breezy night sleeping on a gymnasium floor because he’d been bluffed out of his comfortable home), he would be more than ready. He had set his alarm for 5 a.m., just in case.
Paul was positive, sure to his no-nonsense, science-and-math bones, that he knew when to leave. He wouldn’t be with the old ladies who cut their vacations short for no good reason, and he wouldn’t be one of those heroes trying to surf a hurricane. There was a certain grace in timing, he felt: not too early, not too late.
His plans would have thwarted the first surprise that greeted them Wednesday morning.
At 11:15 the night before, the television weather report had “situated” the storm 180 miles out to sea, meandering toward a position west of Mobile, barely moving at all, with top winds of 95 miles per hour. In the face and voice of the local reporter, a young woman barely out of college who still had trouble differentiating Utah from Colorado on the weather map, there was disrespect.
“Jim,” she had told the anchor, “I think this storm is a little bit of a sissy.”
But by 4:30 a.m., the hurricane apparently had decided to reinvent itself, something Theron and Belle Crowder might have appreciated.
Without warning, it had begun moving forward at 25 miles an hour, and it had swung like a magnet, like a bull to a red cape, toward the part of the Florida Panhandle that contains Sugar Beach. Its wind speed increased to 120 miles per hour and would reach 140. It was, before anyone could think about preparing for its undependability, on a course that would have it making landfall 10 miles from Sugar Beach, before 9 a.m.
This hundred-to-one shot Paul was prepared for. But he hadn’t counted on the other surprise, the one that would turn self-sufficiency into negligence.
Across the sound from Sugar Beach is the mouth of the Wewahitchka River. The sound catches everything that the Wewa sends down: red clay from the Georgia foothills, pesticides, tree limbs, the discarded and drowned. The sound reciprocates by sending a variety of items back up the Wewa: small pleasure boats, larger commercial vessels, barges to haul pine wood back down to the Gulf and the big world beyond.
Sometime after dark the evening before, a tugboat had maneuvered a barge many times its size into the sound, seeking to wait out the weather, see which way the hurricane was going, then continue on up the Wewa to Bonner, Georgia, where harvested pine trees awaited.
The barge was sitting idle and harmless in the quiet shallow water behind the island, one of dozens that would bide their time overnight there in any given year, weathering large and small storms. If the hurricane took a turn toward Sugar Beach, Wewa Sound was as safe a place as any for a barge and a tug.
The tugboat’s crew was catching a few hours’ sleep. Someone was later alleged to have been on duty at 4:30 that morning.
The water sometimes sends its warning even before the wind does, to those paying attention. And the Gulf was showing Harry, Ruth and Naomi some uncharacteristic muscle by the time the three of them went to bed in the predawn, making promises to talk more later. Harry wondered if the promises would be valid in sunlight.
The pounding surf did not really register. Ruth later would realize that she was, in her distraction, equating it to the ocean waves to which she was accustomed.
Around 4:30, Harry collapses on their bed and assumes Ruth will follow soon, overwrought as she is.
He closes his eyes, just for a second.
Harry fi
gures he must have been asleep for only a few minutes when he hears the horn’s relentless, maddening blast. At what seems the exact same time, Paul bangs on their door.
“Get up! We’ve got to go.”
It’s as loud or urgent as he has ever heard Paul.
“Oh, God,” Ruth says, wide awake. “Oh, my God.”
She is dressed and out the door in the time it takes Harry to sit upright. He feels as if he would like to throw up and then go to sleep for a very long time. That he has time to do neither is soon evident.
Normally, the barge would have been in no danger of losing its mooring.
But Harry and Ruth have drifted beyond normality, into a world where men who have worked too many hours think they deserve to rest rather than stand watch, where taxpayers see no sense in building a second causeway over a body of water until it is ready to devour them, where hurricanes change their minds.
When the barge breaks loose, it is a quarter-mile from the causeway, closer than it should be. In a calm sea it wouldn’t matter, but in a calm sea, it never would have lost its mooring in the first place.
Paul knows there is trouble even before the alarm sounds. The slow-motion collision, the discordant, ghostly grinding of barge metal with bridge metal, followed by the crashing of something heavy into shallow water—he hears it all.
And he doesn’t need The Weather Channel to know he has erred, in a position where his pride has left no cushion for mistakes. The sound of the wind and the surf tell him all he needs to know.
Now, he’s going through the house, not running but with hurry in his steps and his voice, rousing everyone. Hank and Naomi have to come for Harry and help him out. He sees Ruth standing there, waiting for him, wringing her hands.
Harry sees that they are in various stages of dress. Ruth is wearing her nightgown; he’s still in his old-man’s pajamas. Naomi, Tran, Paul and Hank have on a mixture of daywear and nightwear, whatever they could find quickly by the illumination of the hallway light. Stephen and Leigh, the most mobile, quickest to reach full consciousness, have T-shirts and jeans, even shoes.
Leigh asks her father again what’s the matter.
“It’s the causeway,’ he says. “I think we need to leave now.”
They want to know more, but Paul isn’t talking.
“Ruth?” Tran says. She’s been silent until this point.
Ruth looks at her, mute.
“Happy birthday.”
Ruth just nods her head. The others laugh, all except Paul, who tells them to hurry up. He shoos them out the door, trying hard not to show panic. They spill into the van, Paul last, keys in hand.
The engine doesn’t start on the first try.
“Oh, please,” he says it like a prayer, and the second time it catches.
They head down the street to the cottage’s rear, parallel to the Gulf and the sound, and Harry knows there’s a problem before they even reach the road leading to the causeway. Fuzzy red stars shine out at them from ground level up ahead through the foggy, soupy air, some of them twinkling on and off as drivers momentarily take their feet off the brakes.
They are stuck in a traffic jam 100 yards from the left turn that, in another 100 yards, they expect to lead them to permanently dry land. On an island which Harry figures can’t contain more than a few dozen people by this time, they are in gridlock. Ahead, people are blowing their horns, as if some Sunday driver, some lost tourist, is the cause of their delay. Endlessly, tirelessly the alarm continues bleating. It seems to be coming from the tug.
“Shut up!” Stephen says, putting his hands to his ears, speaking for them all.
Paul pulls off the street, gets out and starts running. Hank goes with him, taking a step and then stopping to tell them he will be back. After a few seconds, Naomi follows.
In the car, the rest sit in their abandonment and wonder. In the distance, higher than the brake lights and out in the sound, they see other, larger lights. They can hear angry, desperate, foreign voices, too far away to understand, even if they knew the language.
In a few minutes that seem to Harry like an hour, the three of them come back. They’re arguing, then grow quiet as they reach the minivan.
Inside, Paul tells them the extent of their problem.
Where the barge hit, it tore a section that Paul estimates to be at least 150 feet long out of the center of the low-slung causeway.
“Normally,” he says, “it wouldn’t be much of a swim.”
Normal it isn’t, Harry thinks, and he knows he doesn’t have to remind Paul that Ruth could not swim 10 feet on a sunny day with angels throwing rose petals on the water in front of her. And the 1935 Virginia state breaststroke age-group champion wonders if he could do a lap in a pool right now.
Harry can barely keep his eyes open. He should be energized by fear and desperation, but he can’t seem to raise any adrenaline. In saner times, he supposes he might be asking someone how far to the nearest hospital. He feels that some unwelcome corner has been turned, and the door at the end of the tunnel has Worse written on it.
Hank reaches over and turns on the radio. The stations still operating are full of laconic yet somehow urgent voices: “… residents of lower Bay County should evacuate immediately …” “… took an unexpected turn and has picked up in intensity and speed, with landfall now predicted for between 8:30 and 9 a.m., Eastern Daylight Time …” “… winds that could reach 140 miles per hour …” “… somewhere between Bay Shores and Sugar Beach …”
By the time Paul starts the van again, it’s past 6. In the line up ahead, there’s chaos. It won’t be light yet for more than an hour, so most of what can be seen are outlines, but they can tell that the occupants of two of the cars are fighting. Men, women and children have all poured out of two other vehicles and now wrestle with and gesture at each other in the chill and wind like some primitive tribe trying to dance the storm back to sea.
“Shit,” Paul says, and the rest are quiet.
Some of the stranded are doing U-turns in the soft sand and heading back to their cottages. Some have left their 4-wheel drive trucks and are walking and running in the direction of the severed causeway.
“Well,” Paul says, and he sounds a little more collected, “we ain’t going to figure anything out sitting here.” And he backs up and turns around.
The next thing Harry knows, Ruth is waking him, back at the cottage.
Paul leads them inside. They go silently and all settle in the living room.
“Are you OK, honey?” Ruth asks, and Harry realizes he is leaning against her. He can’t seem to wake up.
He squeezes her hand with as much strength as he has and tells her he’s fine.
Paul, Hank, Tran and Naomi try to attack it logically: They can either try to ride the storm out in their cottage or they can try to get across 150 feet of choppy water.
“It looked to me like part of the road was still there, just broken off,” Naomi says. “Maybe it would be like two short swims instead of one long one.”
Paul and Tran, it turns out, have four life-jackets. They try to figure how those go into eight people, then look to Paul, who is, despite everything, still the reigning expert.
“I just can’t see it,” he says, slowly and deliberately. “I know Naomi could make it, and maybe some of the rest could, but …”
“Then what you need to do is leave the ones that can’t swim back here,” Ruth says. Ever the pragmatist. “Harry and I have a better chance here than we do out in that water.”
This is violently vetoed, even though to Harry it makes sense.
Paul goes outside. The wind is getting stronger, slowly but inevitably. An aluminum lawn chair from a house somewhere down the beach flies onto their deck, barely missing him, and crashes into the side railing.
When he returns, he says he thinks the cottage will hold, but he calls Stephen outside to help him with something. They come back with the small, bright-green boat they store underneath, next to the pilings; they use it
for fishing in the sound. And he has the four life-jackets. They have to turn the boat sideways to get it into the living room, where it looks ridiculous and ominous.
“Will we need that?” Naomi asks, what they’re all thinking.
“No,” Paul says, “but it’s like wearing your seatbelt. You want to be sure.”
No one else says anything.
They find a radio station across the sound that is still on the air, and they are told what they already know: Sugar Beach is cut off, not a tethered link to mainland America anymore but the independent entity it was until the bridge was built 20 years earlier, proud, free and vulnerable.
The station reports that a rescue operation is being attempted. On that thin hope, they leave again, get back in the minivan, now swaying in the gusts of wind, and try the causeway a second time. They get closer, to the bridge road itself, where they park and walk to the sundered edge of the pavement. It is broken cleanly and falls off like a tabletop. There, most of the island’s remaining population is standing and pacing. One woman in front of them is screaming loudly enough to be heard above the howling wind. Two men are holding her, to keep her from diving in. Another woman, her voice quavering, tells Ruth, leaning and shouting into her ear, that the screaming woman’s husband tried to swim across. They both did, but she turned back.
“They could swim good,” the woman says, then turns her eyes back to the blackness and water. Harry knows it’s near dawn, but he doubts that the dark will lift anytime soon.
Across the way, on the bridge, someone has managed to produce a light like the ones highway crews use at night. It only succeeds in blinding those on the island. In the intermediate distance, what appears to be a charter boat is bouncing around, bobbing up and down in the waves. It seems to be meant for their salvation, but Harry can see that it is making no progress at all. Several men have elbowed their way to the front of the crowd, urging the boat on, sure to be first in line if it happens to reach the island.
They never see the wave that combines with the wind to flip the small boat, and Harry will never know what happens to their would-be rescuers. The boat, under no one’s control, smashes sickeningly against the almost-submerged ruins of the causeway’s center span.