The Queen of All that Dies (The Fallen World Book 1)

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by Thalassa, Laura


  The sky outside has a predawn glow. It’s not morning yet, which means …

  “Again?” I widen my eyes. Of course we weren’t going to do this only once. I’d just hoped that it wouldn’t happen again so soon. I enjoyed it far too much the first time.

  “I plan on acquainting myself with you many times.”

  I feel his erection press against me, and my breath catches. Just like last night, his fingers touch the soft skin between my legs. His thumb dances circles around my sensitive flesh until I moan. I bite back the sound, but it’s too late.

  Montes wears a knowing grin, and his finger moves faster. “Like that?” he whispers against my ear.

  “This changes nothing,” I gasp out.

  “I think it does.” I can feel myself getting slick against him, and the bastard’s fully aware of this as well. He removes his hand, and I feel the hard press of him against my opening.

  I’m still sore from last night, so when he pushes himself inside me, air whistles through my teeth as I inhale. And just like last night, the soreness is soon replaced by the first stirrings of pleasure. The whole thing is wrong, wrong, wrong. Then again, I’m not the most morally righteous person; war hasn’t afforded me that luxury. So instead of retreating into my mind, I tentatively begin to touch the king.

  First my hands glide over his shoulders and arms, stroking the bunched muscles beneath the skin. Above me the king stills, and I meet his gaze.

  “What are you doing?” he asks.

  “Discovering my . . . husband.” It’s hard for me to call him that—to think of him like that, but some wars are won by surrendering certain, doomed battles, and this is one of them.

  He watches me, unmoving, and I squirm against him. “Why have you stopped?”

  Something a whole lot like affection—or maybe victory—brightens his eyes. He leans in and kisses me, and the feeling of being joined in two places nearly throws me over the edge. Who knew that beneath my tough exterior was a sex-starved woman?

  When the kiss ends, he begins moving again. “Does that feel better?” he whispers.

  I close my eyes and hum in response. We continue like that, enjoying extremely sinful and morally questionable sex for a while, before I open my eyes again and run my fingers down his cheek. His large, dark eyes shutter at my touch and his tempo increases.

  Heat builds at my core, and finally I cry out and clutch him as my orgasm lashes through me. His strokes become harder and deeper, and I feel him throb inside me as he finds his own release.

  He collapses against me, and we’re both slick with sweat. In some ways sex is a lot like the lifestyle I’m used to, and that surprises me. I’d always imagined that it was something purely soft and sweet, but what we’ve done tonight proves otherwise. That there’s something primal in the act—some strange combo of pain and pleasure, an adrenaline rush, exertion—just like there is in war.

  I’d never really thought through marrying the king. The horror of it eclipsed any curiosity I might’ve had at being someone’s partner. I’m greatly surprised to find that in private the king can be gentle and—dare I think it—caring.

  I watch him as morning sunlight streams through our balcony windows and find I want to touch him again. His tan skin dips and rises over corded muscles. I see a solitary freckle just below his shoulder blade.

  He’s human.

  It’s the stupid freckle that reminds me. He may be broken and wicked and narcissistic, but he’s human. He bleeds, he feels.

  Thinking like this is risky, particularly when I still plan on killing him. I don’t want to grow close to this man, but I can’t seem to help myself, even after all he’s done. Maybe he doesn’t need to die. Maybe he can be changed.

  I scoff at my own ridiculous thought. If nothing has swayed the king into growing a conscience before now, I doubt I’ll be what does.

  His thick hair dusts his cheekbones, hiding his features. Before I can think twice, I reach out and push the dark locks away from his face. In sleep, he’s lovely. At my touch, he stirs but doesn’t wake.

  I didn’t quite realize humans could savor each other the way we did last night. In the bunker, people didn’t talk about these things, and if they did them, they kept their business private.

  The bed shifts next to me, and when I refocus my attention on the king, his eyes open. “What is my queen doing up?” Sleep roughens his voice, and again, I’m reminded that at the end of the day—or the beginning of it, rather—the king is just a man.

  He scoops me to him when I don’t respond, and we spend a minute staring at each other. “Sore?” he finally asks.

  I feel my cheeks flush. I hate that this subject still makes me uncomfortable. “I’m fine.”

  His fingers brush across my face. “Hmm. I thought we were past the lies.”

  Lying and discussing this with the king seem like two very different things. My eyes move between his. “Are you happy now that you finally have me?”

  The king shakes his head. “I don’t have you—yet. But I will.”

  Someone brings in strawberries and champagne shortly after we wake up, and now it’s clear that not only can one enjoy good food and good sex, but also enjoy the two together. It seems outrageously gluttonous, but it doesn’t stop me from reaching over to the platter and picking up a strawberry while the king pours champagne.

  Just as I open my mouth, the king catches my hand and makes a tsk-ing sound. “This, I believe, is my job.”

  He takes the strawberry from me and presses a champagne flute into my hand.

  “So now I’m permitted to drink?”

  “As long as I’m the one pouring, you are.”

  “You’re a control freak.”

  The king scoops cream onto the strawberry from a nearby bowl. “This surprises you?” he asks.

  “No, but you could try loosening up for once in your life.”

  He raises an eyebrow. “What, exactly, do you think I’ve been doing for the last twelve hours?”

  “Punishing me,” I say without missing a beat.

  He sighs. “You keep lying. Hasn’t anyone told you the key to a healthy marriage is trust and honesty?”

  I scoff at him. “There are so many things I could say to that statement.”

  The king smirks and lifts the strawberry like he wants to feed me.

  “Do that, and I’ll bite your fingers off.”

  “You like my fingers too much to do them harm. Now, open your mouth.”

  I eye him like a wary creature even as I part my lips and he feeds the berry to me. My annoyance with him is less compelling than my desire to eat the fruit.

  My eyes close as I bite down on it and enjoy the taste. I can’t remember the last time I had a strawberry.

  When my eyelids lift, Montes is watching me with fascination, like he craves these reactions.

  That sense of wrongness comes back. I shouldn’t be doing this with the king while the world toils on. I feel like the traitor everyone made me out to be.

  I flash him a cautious look, and never taking my eyes off of him, down the champagne.

  Bad idea. Whether it’s my empty stomach, all the alcohol I’ve imbibed, or the rich palace food, something’s not sitting well.

  “Serenity?”

  I scramble out of bed. I don’t bother grabbing the silk robe on my way to the bathroom. I barely make it in time. The water’s tinged red, and I can’t tell if it’s from the berry or the blood.

  Behind me, the king swears. What’s he doing in here?

  “Get out,” I say weakly.

  “Last I checked, I’m the king, not you.”

  I flush the toilet and rise to my feet. I’m more fatigued than I should be. I fear that just when I decided I had the will to live, my body decided it didn�
�t.

  Montes presses a button built into the wall of the bathroom. “Marco, get me a doctor—”

  “No.” My voice is sharper than I intend it. “Please,” I add, leaning against the counter, “the alcohol didn’t sit well. That’s all.”

  “Your Majesty?” Marco’s static-y voice blares into the room. Just the sound of it makes my trigger finger itch.

  The king scrutinizes me for a long time before he turns back to the intercom. “Scratch that, Marco. Just bring some broth, crackers, and something with electrolytes in it. Oh, and I believe it’s time to put the queen on my pills.”

  My ears perk up at this.

  “Consider it done,” Marco says, and the line clicks off.

  “Pills?” I inquire. “Trying to poison me?” I fish.

  Montes’s gaze lands meaningfully on the toilet. “Seems like you’re doing a perfectly good job of that on your own.”

  “Then what are they for?”

  “Your long-term health,” he says cryptically, and that’s the last he’ll say on the subject.

  Even on the king’s honeymoon he has to work; it’s one of the drawbacks of being the leader of the entire globe.

  “I’m coming with you,” I say, as he buttons his cufflinks.

  The king assesses me. “You’re fatigued. You should spend the day resting. One of the servants can give you a massage if you’d like.”

  I yank a dress from a hanger in our closet. “I wasn’t asking.”

  “Nor was I.”

  Today I’ll discover what happens when two stubborn people reach an impasse.

  “You’re going to have to physically stop me from leaving, then.” I’ve been cooped up for too long. I need to get back to the world of the living.

  “Don’t tempt me. I can get creative.” The look Montes is giving me makes me flush. I wouldn’t mind his methods one bit, and I’ve made peace with this disturbing realization.

  His words, however, don’t stop me from getting dressed. When he’s about to leave, I block his exit. “I’m coming with you.”

  “No, you’re not.”

  I reach up and trickle my fingers over his jaw. I’ve learned that the king enjoys any casual affection I give him—likely because I have so little to offer. “Find something for me to do, Montes. Surely you have more than enough work to keep the both of us occupied.”

  I’m more than ready to begin healing the damaged lands of the world. I need to prove to myself and to my people that I haven’t turned my back on my past.

  He scrutinizes me, then sighs. He must have figured out what I already know: if he leaves me alone, I’m going to get myself in more trouble than if he simply drags me along.

  “Aw,” I give him a fake pout, “is someone having buyer’s remorse?” The king’s finally realizing just what a handful I can be.

  He catches my jaw. “You believe you can push me without repercussions. You can’t, and you will be repaying me for this later.”

  The king should know by now that threats don’t scare me. I hope he can see in my eyes that I don’t give a flying fuck about his words.

  When I don’t back down, Montes drops his hold so that he can reach around me and open the door.

  I turn to go, but he catches my wrist, reeling me back in. “Serenity?” he says, his lips brushing against my ear. “I’m glad you’re not frightened by my words, but you should be.”

  Five hours later, I’m sitting in a conference room, trying to keep my lunch down. The king flashes me a concerned glance, like he has been all day. Perhaps part of the reason he’s come to rule the world is because he misses nothing.

  I finger the document in front of me and focus on evening my breaths. It helps with the nausea. If I concentrate long enough, I can ride this out. I shouldn’t have let myself go following my father’s death. My body’s paying for it now and making it painfully obvious that I’m not okay.

  “Reports suggest the Resistance is growing in unprecedented numbers,” one of the king’s political advisors says. “They’ve raided the Toulouse research facility and bombed the Department of Defense in Berlin. There have also been threats to air footage of the queen.”

  I suck in air too quickly and choke on my own saliva. I begin to cough, and once I start, I can’t seem to stop.

  Next to me Montes stands. “Bringing you along was a bad idea.” He’s been waiting for an excuse to say this. “You should go back to the room and rest.”

  I wave him off but continue to cough. My lungs seem to rattle with the effort, and my whole body shakes. Finally I manage to clear my throat. As I draw my fist away from my mouth, I notice the bright red speckles.

  Blood.

  I drop my hand before the king can see what I have. “I think I will.”

  The king’s brow crinkles. If anything, my easy agreement only worries him more.

  I stand to leave, hiding my hand in the folds of my dress. The king’s eyes dart to the action, then up to me. He doesn’t say anything, instead waving his royal guards over. “Escort the queen back to our rooms,” he commands.

  “I’ll be back in a few hours,” he says to me. “If you need anything, you only need to ask the staff.”

  Without waiting for further direction, I nod and leave the room. Behind me the guards scurry to catch up. My heels click as I cross the halls. I should be wondering what the king thinks about my behavior, or what will happen if the footage of me leaks.

  Instead I think of my dwindling health. I’ve never coughed up blood before, but I’ve known people who have. This is the moment of truth, the one I’ve ignored for so long.

  It’s starting. The beginning of the end.

  Chapter 18

  Serenity

  A hand glides through my hair, and I blink my eyes open. Montes sits on the edge of the bed. He’s fully dressed, while I’m only clad in skimpy lingerie. I pull the sheets a little tighter around me before I realize that he’s already seen it all, touched it all.

  His lips quirk when he sees what I’m doing. “You have an appointment,” he says.

  “What are you talking about?” I ask, edging away from him. Outside the sky is dark. I can’t imagine any appointment occurring this late in the day.

  Instead of answering, Montes crosses the room, opens a drawer in a nearby dresser, and pulls out a pair of stretchy-looking pants and a cotton shirt. I almost cry out with joy when I see that the outfit is, one, not a dress, and two, made out of something that’s neither too soft nor too itchy.

  “I need a shower,” I say. I already took one, but between Montes’s news, and the determined set of his jaw, I’m pretty sure I want to avoid whatever it is he’s arranged.

  “It’s going to have to wait,” he says. “We need to go right now.”

  This can’t be good.

  I shake my head. “No. No, no—”

  “Yes,” Montes says to the doctor that’s trying to hand me a hospital gown.

  I fold my arms. “You’re going to have to force that thing on me.”

  A doctor’s appointment, that’s what Montes had in mind this evening. The king was right not to say anything earlier. I’m practically shaking from nervousness. Most people don’t fear the doctor; they have no reason to. I do. War has given me plenty of reasons to.

  “If I must.” Montes casts a lazy glance at the two guards who stand on either side of the doorway. “Guards, why don’t you help your queen remove her clothing?”

  I flash them a heated look. “You touch me, you die.”

  Five minutes later, I’m screaming as Montes and his guards hold me down. The doctor has a pair of scissors poised over the thin cotton of my shirt.

  “Fine, fine! I’ll put on the goddamn robe, just get your hands off of me!”

  I will say this for Mon
tes, his methods may be inhumane, but they are effective.

  Montes nods to his soldiers, and they back off immediately. He flashes me a victorious smile as he pushes himself off the ground and holds out a hand to help me up.

  I ignore his hand and snatch the robe from the doctor. “Where’s the bathroom?”

  “Uh-uh, Serenity,” the king says. “It doesn’t work like that. Not after that little demonstration. You’re going to have to change right here.”

  My nostrils flare as I stare him down. I’m the first to break eye contact. I shake my head and strip off my shirt. Instead of looking at the king, I smile at one of his guards while I take off my pants.

  The king glances between the stoic guard and me. Just as I reach back to unclasp my bra, the king steps in front of my line of sight, his eyes narrowed. I smirk at him and finish sliding off my bra.

  Montes’s eyes draw down to my breasts. For a moment his look is hungry. Then he shutters the expression. He takes the thin cotton hospital gown from me, shakes it out, and holds it open for me to step into.

  I thread my arms into the gown while the king ties the strings in the back. Once Montes is done, I move to the sole hospital bed in the room and lie down. A strange device arches over it.

  “This is for yesterday’s comment, isn’t it?” I ask, remembering the way Montes looked at me after I stated that I couldn’t have children.

  “I want an heir … eventually,” he says, coming to stand next to me.

  I snort at this. “As if you’d ever give up the throne,” I say.

  “All good things must end at some point.” His fingers press against the bare skin of my leg.

  “That they do,” I agree.

  “More importantly,” he says, “I want to make sure you’re in good health.”

  He knows. Somehow, after only spending a full day in my presence, he’s figured out what no one else has: that something other than grief has weakened me.

 

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