by Mahita Varma
Chapter 19- Doubts
I am happy that we reached the mansion. As I went upstairs opening the door for my room, I heard voices. I stood at the door not in the intention of eavesdropping but shocked to find another woman's voice in my room.
"Damon come on, darling harder." said the girl.
"Will you slow down, Simona" He replied.
"I can't wait for your"
"Shut up, will you" He shouted.
Enough I couldn't take it anymore, so I rushed inside closing the door hard as a reflex. Tears fell from my eyes, when I saw a half-naked pretty girl with Damon on the bed. They saw me and the girl took her clothes and rushed from the room, mumbling sorry.
Damon froze, standing up and walking to me he said,
"So, done shopping? Did Susan behave properly?" He asked coming closer.
"It is you who needs manners, not her." I replied, implying the girl who left the room few minutes ago.
"Love, it is not what you think."
"Then what is it Damon? A girl in our room, half naked, what is she doing on the bed with you? I thought forcing me to marry has at least made you a one woman man. But I was mad to think someone like you would ever change." I said rushing towards the door.
He pulled my hand hard, so that I fell on his chest. This man had the guts to do this after all that I saw.
"Don't you dare touch me" I said pushing him, but he wouldn't budge.
"Love, you forgot who is in charge, didn’t you?" He asked placing his hands on my waist and pulling me closer.
"I didn’t, but you forgot that we were supposed be married in a day. It was you who put forward the marriage proposal and you dint turn up to shop. Wait! You didn’t come because you had some work to finish, so is this the important work for which you ditched your fiancée?" I asked not feeling ashamed on showing jealousy.
"That isn't this wait, you are jealous, which means the queen has feelings for the king." He exclaimed, widening his arms.
"No definitely not, even if I had, they are dead now. I can't understand how you and Alan are brothers. He is such a nice person and you. If it was him in your place I would have fallen in love long back." Saying this I pushed him and went to open the door.
He pulled me hard and carried me to the bed and threw me on it, hovering over me and pinning my hands above my head.
"You like Alan? Do you even know who is he? Do you even know what he can do to you? You know why is he here? WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT MY BROTHER? DO YOU KNOW HIM MORE THAN ME?"
"I know he is better than you, and you are crueller than him." I said.
"Love you don't even know what is cruel. You didn’t see the crueller side of mine. Do you want to see?" He asked, and tore my clothes.
"This time no one is coming to save you from this cruel man." He said.
I kicked him where the sun doesn't shine and took a towel from the bathroom and ran out, to the first room I saw.
I searched for help but dint see anyone. I dint know what to do, I thought of hiding in the closet but if he finds out like that day. So thought of hiding in the bathroom, when I went to open the door, someone touched my shoulder. As a reflex I slapped him hard on the cheek.
"Ouch! You are the one standing in my room with a towel, and I am the one getting hit. Isn't it funny?" He asked sarcastically.
"Alan, send her to me. Now." heard his voice from the entrance.
"Hey brother, I didn’t stop her. Promise." replied Alan.
I hid behind Alan, clutching his shirt and whispering, "Please save me Alan, Please."
Damon came striding towards us, and tried pulling me, but Alan stopped him.
"Nah brother, you are not taking her by force." said Alan.
"Sasha, come with me. He can’t be trusted." He said.
"Can I trust you, Mr. Damon Knight?" I asked.
He tried pulling me, but Alan wouldn't budge.
"Alan I know why you are doing this. I will never let you succeed."
"I didn't do anything brother. It is you who hurt her, not me."
"Alan leave her, you know it wouldn't be good in fighting with me."
"Am not fighting with you brother, not at all. See." He said, raising his hands in the air.
Damon left giving me a death glare. I clutched Alan's shirt even more tightly crying more and more. Alan turned to me, hugging me tighter he cooed in my ear. "He won't trouble you. Am there don't worry."
But nothing made my tears stop. He pushed me a little and cupped my face with his hands. Wiping my tears, and coming closer. So close that almost made our lips touch if I was same height as him. We looked at each other, and then he kissed my lips.
It was magical. His hands made sure to put me in my place. As he kissed me I felt a rush of helplessness, the surging tide of warmth that left my limp. He kissed softly, as if I was a doll, and a little too harsh would make me disappear. He smelled like ripe strawberries which made butterflies flutter in my stomach. Some kind of knot pulled my stomach making me shudder.
This led to realization. I backed away from him. Rubbing my eyes and wiping my tears, I sat on the bed. He came kneeing down, placing his hands on my thighs, he asked,
"Sasha, do you want to go far away from this mansion and people?" I didn't reply. I was fiddling with my hands, on my lap. He caught my waist and pulled me into his lap, nibbling my neck. I dint stop him. I felt good. He trailed down the kisses to my jawline getting lower and lower. Still I dint stop. When he reached my shoulder bone, I caught his hair in my hands,
"SASHA, what are you doing?" shouted Rob, pulling me from Alan's grip.
"Chill Rob” I was just making her feel, better."
"Alan, you very well know that Damon is the king, and she is his queen. Stop whatever you are trying to do." said Rob, giving Alan a stern look.
"Robsy, Is this how a queen gets treated by the king?" I asked showing myself.
"Sasha, I know Damon is wrong. But believe me he loves you a lot, he is only worried of losing you." tried defending Rob.
"Don't you DARE" I replied.
"Sasha ple.."
"Leave me alone Rob."
"But"
"Leave me alone Rob."
"Well am leaving, but don't do anything that you will regret once you know the truth. Please for me, Mary and your family."
"Thanks for the advice, but I know what is right and what is wrong. For you to know, I am seventeen but can make decisions like a twenty year old. Courtesy your big brother" I emitted frustrated.
He left giving Alan a look that could kill.
"Sasha, say a word and I will take you miles away from everyone. I will put an end to your misery. I promise." said Alan.
I thought a lot about everything that happened till now. I didn’t know whom to trust, Alan, or everyone? It was one versus many. But my hate for Damon was more, than the question of trust on Alan. So I did something, which I may or may not regret later.
"Let's go for a long walk, Alan. But, after my marriage."
Chapter 20- Vows
The whole mansion looked beautiful, with all the decorations. They were many people running here and there for the preparations. My family had arrived for the same. Everyone was happy, if anyone wasn't happy with our wedding then it is my family, Alan, me and a little of Robsy.
I am sitting in front of the mirror, getting ready. The reflection that was staring back at me was of a girl who looked like a princess and she is definitely not me. They were servants; designers running around making me wear which would be good for the event.
"Ma'am, do you like this lip colour or the previous one?" asked the lady, who came to make me look presentable, for the ceremony.
"You know better than me Julia. Use whatever you feel is better." I replied, giving her a smile that doesn't reach my eyes.
"But ma'am this is your wedding. How can I decide?" She asked alarmed.
Then all the things that happened came in to my mind, I remembered mine and Alan's conversation from yesterday,
Yesterday:
"Sasha, say a word and I will take you miles away from everyone. I will put an end to your misery. I promise." said Alan.
"Let's go for a long walk, Alan. But, after my marriage." I replied.
"What? Are you going to marry him? Didn’t you see how he is treating you? Don't put yourself in misery, Sasha. Let's leave this place." He tried to persuade me in leaving the mansion, and Dam.
I don't know what is happening to me, but I am not able to make myself leave him. He gives me sorrow and nothing else, but something is pulling me towards him, compelling me to believe him with all my heart and will.
But no enough, I can't myself get hurt thinking about him. I will not forgive him this time. This is the second time, he tried raping me. Now, I will see to that he gets enough damage as me.
"Alan, I want him to suffer the way I am now. All he wants is to be crowned the king of this empire, but I won't let him have it. Marrying me will make his dreams come true, but I won't let them happen. I promise you that will leave today, this mansion, his father and hi...m." I controlled the tears that were threatening to fall.
Thinking about leaving him is killing me inside. But I have to.
"Woah Beautiful, I didn’t know you could do this. I mean hotness with brains, is a sexy combination." He said hugging me, nibbling my ear and kissing my earlobe.
"Well see you at the wedding." Saying I left.
Today:
I took a deep sigh, assuring myself on doing what I was about to.
"You can, because you have better knowledge about all these than me." I smiled.
She nodded and used the previous colour when dad, came walking in.
"Sash, are you ready baby girl?" He asked tears welling up his eyes.
I hugged him whispering, "Take care of yourself and mom. Don't worry about me."
"I will Elle. You didn’t tell me about her."
"She already has someone so good, that she doesn't need your protection dad. At Least one of your daughters is in safe hands. Don't worry about her." I assured him, placing my hand on his cheek.
"Sash, are you up to something?" He asked, not sure why I was saying something like this.
"Dad, it's time for a walk."
"Where?"
"Down the aisle" I said linking my arm with his and taking him outside.
I walked, inside the church looking at the man who took away my breath at that moment, making my plan harder to implement.
He looked like a God in his White and Black suit with gold on the suit here and there.
As I walked without turning my head from him, I heard someone clear their throat, which is when I realized I had a plan to complete.
Alan stood behind Damon bringing me out of my fantasy with the man I am supposed to get married.
Damon said something in his dad's ears and in next few minutes everyone moved to a far corner, leaving us alone.
"Sasha I am sorry. I know you don't want to listen anything from me now. But trust me, am trying to mend my ways for you. Can't you just help me with it? I know I was wrong and doing that again yesterday, only made my chance with you weaken. But please I need you Sasha, I want to be yours. I know you won't believe me, but trust me Alan is not a person to be trusted. He is doing all this to take revenge from me. Please Sasha I need you, I love you Sasha West. I promise to love only you and no one else. Will you give me another chance?" He asked which almost made my heart soften for this man. All that he spoke made my stomach flutter, as I was about to respond I saw Alan nodding a no.
I saw Alan and then Damon. I didn't know who was right and who was wrong. My heart and mind didn't go with each other. Mind wanted to go with Alan, but heart was with the man standing here, to get married to me.
Then I made a decision, that I will surely regret but I made it.
All the people assembled back to their previous positions. The priest started the ceremony, but I wasn't paying attention. I felt like crumbling down, crawling like a ball and disappearing from everyone I knew.
Then came the time where I had to say I do,
"Mr. Damon Knight, do you take, Ms. Sasha West as your legally wedded wife?" asked the priest.
"I Do." said he.
"Miss. Sasha West, do you take, Mr. Damon Knight as your legally wedded husband?" Priest asked me.
"I Don't."
Chapter 21- Revenge
I sat in the room, thinking about all the events that happened today. Damon's confession made all the self-control in me to die. His face when I said I don’t drained pale. He made my decision feel so wrong.
Whether right or wrong I don't care, but I don't want my plan to fail this time.
"Sassy, what happened to you? Did Alan hypnotize you?" asked Rob, coming in bashing the door.
"Robsy, you could have broken the door." I replied.
"Why did you reject him? You know how insulted he felt? Sasha, Peter is furious. It took all of us to stop him from killing you. Why are you doing this, because of Alan?" He asked anger rising with each question he asked.
"And what about the insult those father and son did to me and my family? Doesn’t that count?" I asked equally angry.
"But that and this are different Sassy. Damon changed he loves you so much now. Didn’t he propose you saying sorry before the marriage in the church? Then why did you do all that?" He asked trying to reason.
"Oh he changed so I should forget and forgive him for everything he has done to me? And what about the trauma that I was put through? Isn't that has anything to do with my best friend?" I asked on the verge of crying.
"Sassy it's not li.."
"Please Rob, leave me alone."
"But"
"LEAVE." as he was about to,
"And tell him, I would never ever love him, not in this birth or the next. If I were ever to be born again, I will to kill him." I said walking to the door and slamming it on his face.
I fell down, weeping profusely. After crying for an hour, I curled up as a ball bringing my knees to my head. Soon sleep took over.
I woke up to high voices been heard. I stood up and kept my ear closer to the door to hear them talk.
"...purposely, ....don't...become....kill..."I could hear very less. But by what I heard I knew that the speaker was Peter, and I was been talked about.
I didn’t feel fear, because I reached a stage in my life where I wished to die more than live.
There was no one in my life for whom, I wanted to live. Mom has dad, Elle had Rob and me all alone. Today it became clear that I lost a very close friend called Robsy.
Now there wasn't anyone I would wish to live for. Then I heard a sound click on my window. I went to see what it was finding Alan.
"Hey beautiful, come jump with me. Let's leave." He said to which I nodded and did as I was told.
We ran to the main entrance, and the guard there opened the gate for us.
"How did the guard let us out?"
"Am not the king but, I am a prince beautiful. So I have my people here." He replied.
As we went, there was a Lamborghini outside the gate. We got into it and rode.
"Won't you ask me, where are we going?" asked Alan, after fifteen minutes of silence.
"I will come where ever you go, Alan. I can't take the risk of visiting my home so I have nowhere else to go." I said fiddling with my dress.
That brought memories of Damon, his flawless face, his heavily built body, his baritone voice and his touch. Then a thought I never expected came into my mind, did I do wrong, leaving him?
I came back to my present, when I felt Alan's hand caress my collar bone and the other, my thigh.
"Alan how much more time?" I asked pushing his hands aside.
He was taken aback by my reaction, but went back to being normal.
"We are here beautiful." He said getting down and taking my hand, for escorting me to the beautiful farmhouse we would be staying in.
The whole interior and exterior was similar to
the mansion, which again brought memories about me walking with him. His hand on my waist and me asking him questions about the mansion and getting a reply from him.
"Hey beautiful, come back."
"Where did I go?"
"Day dreaming" He said making me smile.
"Come let me show you the house." He said.
When he was busy showing me the house, we heard a knock on the door. Alan stiffed for a second, told me he will be back in a second, and went to see.
I roamed the house. It was small with only two floors, ground and first. But it was beautiful. I went upstairs, seeing each and every room there.
I reached a room which had the most beautiful door, sculpted with nature. I moved my hand on the door touching every little detail.
Then I opened, walking in. I saw a beautiful bed of gold colour in the centre. The room was beautiful. I turned to find frames of Dam's childhood.
I went touching those, which brought a light smile and tears to my face. It was his room. He was innocent as a child, which was rare to find now.
Maybe Rob was right. Damon wasn't born badly, his profession made him, like the man he is now.
I wanted to call Damon. At this point, standing before his photographs, made me want to talk to him. But my ego, dint let me.
So I walked to the railing near the steps, wiping my tears. There I saw a girl leaving the house, and as she went to the exit. She turned to hug Alan.
Simona.
I stood there seeing them both. As she left, Alan closed the door and turned to the stairs.
"Hey beautiful, what are you doing here? Didn't you see the house?" asked Alan, shocked.
"Alan, what is Simona doing here? How did she know you are here?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Oh she is my friend. And when am depressed I mostly come here. As no one searches this place, they think this is demolished. So she expects me here when am not in the mansion. By the way how do you know her?" asked he.
"She is the root of all my problems."
Chapter 22- Past
"What are you talking about beautiful?" asked Alan, shocked.