by Matson, TC
“Touché,” he says holding his beer up and taking a long pull from it.
“Speaking of journeys, are you still pursuing Lacy?”
I know…stupid question. Of course he is.
He narrows his eyes. “Just like you, my ride will take me there when it’s ready. She’s still a vulnerable mess over that dickwad, Conner. He’s such an idiot.”
Suddenly, a strong arm wraps around me and spins me. Levi grasps my head and captures my lips, growling against them. Explosions of emotions try taking my legs out from under me. The floor rocks below me. The world fades and it’s just him and me until…
“There are just some things I don’t need to witness with my own two eyes,” Blain chimes into the foggy haze of my evaporated world.
Levi chuckles and then looks up to Blain. “Will you be witnessing things with someone else’s eyes? If so, this is an ability I’d like to learn.” He slides his hands down my arms and pulls me in by the waist. “You can travel the world with me. Let that car ride land you beside me.”
I crinkle my nose. “But that’s you driving. I want to be in control.”
“Oh, I’ll let you be in control,” he says wolfishly.
“And this is my cue to take my ass elsewhere,” Blain says grabbing his beer and exiting to the living room.
With Blain out of the room, Levi sharpens his eyes on me. “Sunshine, we both want it. You want to travel the world and although I don’t normally leave the states, you can ride along with me.”
And let my stubbornness kick in. “When the time is right I will, but for now, I can’t afford it.”
He drops his arms to his sides letting out an exhausted sigh. “You don’t have to afford it. I got that part.”
“You’re not—”
“Don’t you say a damn thing about me being your pimp. I wouldn’t be. You’ll still be able to do as you please. We both hate missing each other so that eliminates the distance.”
I pat his chest. “You win the championship and see where your career takes you. Then maybe I’ll take you up on the offer.”
Something flashes in his eyes. “Let’s change the wager. I win the championship and you’re with me. Period.”
“And what happens if you lose?” I ask.
“With a wager like that, you think I’m going to let that happen?”
“There’s always the possibility.”
“If I lose, which I’m not, then we’ll discuss this again.”
I stretch to my tiptoes and kiss his cheek. “We’ll talk about it when the time comes.”
He backs me against the wall, places his hands beside my head, and then lowers his face to mine. “If working and making your own money is what’s stopping you, then I’ll hire you to—”
I burst with laughter involuntarily, interrupting him. “You will not become my boss.”
His eyes flick to my mouth and he licks his lips. “I can separate business from pleasure. I’ll only be the boss when I’m dominating the bed with you in it.”
A shudder rolls down my spine, wrapping around and tugging between my legs.
He suppresses a laugh brushing his lips across my cheek. “Picture being able to have me anytime you want. My hard cock pushing into you in different states. Moaning my name from different beds. Having me without waiting days or weeks.”
I swear my eyes just rolled.
“You can share my journey with me while enjoying life. We can do all that cutesy crap you enjoy like sightseeing, relaxing on a beach, having dinner together and sleeping beside each other every night.” He pauses, allowing me to soak his words in, and then kisses the tip of my nose. “Think about it, Sunshine. The offer stands.”
Those are his last words before he strolls to the living room, not looking back to see the breath I finally just took. He leaves me stranded to fight my own thoughts. It’s his game and his plan is wearing on me.
Chapter 18
Boy did I fuck up Paige’s mind yesterday. After telling her all the benefits of life with me on the road, she couldn’t gather her thoughts for the rest of the day. I know her well enough to know that what I said played continuously in her mind. That’s right. I positioned myself exactly where I wanted to be—overruling all her thoughts.
I hate being a phone call away. I want to be a glance a way. A tap away. Not a fucking plane ride or hours away. It’s not the way it’s supposed to be. It seems I’m old fashioned. I don’t want Paige to have to work. I’m the man, therefore I should be providing for the family. I should give her a life without worry. I’ll make the money. She’ll make sure the bills are paid and food is bought.
Don’t mistake this as chauvinistic or some sort of dominance. It’s not. I just want my girl to be happy without the worries life enjoys throwing at us. If she wants to work, she can. I’ll never take that away from her. If she wants twenty dogs on a ranch, she can have that too. I just want her beside me.
I’ve been thinking about all this for hours. Where I want to be in years to come. Never have I wanted to be with just one woman. Okay, well maybe Rebecca Track but that’s only because she was my first dip of pussy and it scattered my thoughts. I was fourteen, basically a walking hard-on and with a girl who wanted to fuck just as much as I wanted to. I was in heaven.
Where the hell was I? Right. Future with Paige. Look, all I know is I don’t want to be anywhere else and I sure as fuck only want her. I hate missing her all the time, wondering what the hell she’s doing, and not being able to taste her when I want.
My arm is painfully numb when she begins to stir. “Hmmm…good morning,” she mumbles and tries rolling off me.
I stop her and pull her closer. “Good morning, Sunshine. Sleep well?”
She nestles against my chest. “Yes. Did you?”
“The answer will always be yes as long as you’re beside me.”
What the fuck? I might as well toss my man card right out the window. She makes me an affectionate blob of emotions.
I slide out from under her and get out of bed. “I’m gonna take a shower. Come with me.”
We’ve rocked this bed many times over the past several days. I want her knees to wobble somewhere else. I slide my thumbs under my waistband and allow my shorts to fall to the floor. Her eyes glaze over, and she watches my hand as I drag it down my chest, over my abs, and grip my hard dick. Wickedness emerges across her lips. I stroke myself several times, just enough to feel my balls tighten, and then leave her with the image.
I’m already in the shower when she opens the shower door. That didn’t take as long as I thought it would. Wasting no time, I pull her into the warm water molding her slick, smooth, naked body against mine. Our lips connect while water cascades around our faces. She presses her hands against the center of my chest and exhales a moan as I squeeze her closer by the waist.
Dragging my fingers across her clavicle, I slowly reach my first destination of pleasure. She bows her back the moment I begin to knead her tits, gently teasing her hard nipples. She grabs my cock and a burst of excitement rushes my veins. With enough pressure to ensure insanity, I slide my hand down her ribs, over her hips and directly to my next stop of pleasure.
I begin circling her clit and she drops her head back ripping her lips away from mine. I’m not complaining. The sight is impeccable. Water spills from her arched body, dripping from all her curves. Taking her hand, I place it on her breast and squeeze, making her play with those beautiful tits of hers. Even though she’s crazy self-conscious, she doesn’t fight it and continues to follow my lead.
I drag her hand down her stomach and watch as her body jerks at her own touch. With my help, she grazes her clit, slowly circling it. Her mouth parts and she begins to pant.
“Don’t stop,” I tell her, leaving her hand to do the work as I insert a finger into her wet pussy.
My cock fucking throbs as the mind-blowing show is happening before me. Her hips rock against my fingers while she continues to work her clit. I can feel her walls tightening a
nd I begin shoving my fingers into her deeper. I smile watching her quickening her strokes. She’s loosening up, losing herself in the moment.
“I don’t want to come without you,” she says shyly.
“You’re about to lose your fucking mind, Paige,” I say low.
I slide my cock over her hand working her clit, then down to her entrance only pressing the tip in and backing off. I tease her like this several times until her body starts to become rigid. Oh, she’s close. I grab her hand, stopping her and placing it back on her tit.
“Not yet,” I tell her. “You said you wanted me with you.”
I place my pulsating dick to her and slam into her. She gasps, bows her back, and digs her nails into my arms. Her pussy begs for me, clenching against my skin as I drag in and out of her.
“As many times as we’ve done this why must I remind you to open your eyes,” I gruff, bucking another hard thrust into her.
Because it feels so fucking good. I love your cock and it drives me to the perfect euphoria, which makes me lose myself. I’m sure that would be her answer if she wasn’t too busy riding my dick.
Her bright green eyes are lusty slits, begging to roll back. Her mouth parts as she breathes heavily. She’s so fucking beautiful.
“Levi…” she warns.
Her hips press forward as she arches her back into the wall, but I’m not ready for this to end and I pull out, pressing my lips against hers. Confusion falls from her moans. I smile grabbing her hands and raising them above her head.
“You’re so fucking beautiful,” I tell her. I lean and brush my lips against her ear. “Is your pussy begging for my cock, baby?” I ask running my fingers against her clit.
She doesn’t answer, but her body does, responding with a jerky shudder. I’m teasing the hell out of her, pushing her body to build up and give her a superior and powerful orgasm. I want her to walk on clouds of delirium for the rest of the day.
She pulls against my hand, trying to free hers, but my grip tightens. I ease my cock back into her, stopping when I’ve filled her completely then slowly dragging back out leaving just the tip in. I trace my tongue along the top of her shoulder and sink my teeth in.
She gasps, dropping her head against the wall, and lurching her hips shoving my dick deep inside of her. Her hands slip from mine and instantly she grabs a handful of hair pulling me to her mouth. The kiss is hard, messy and frantic. Her pussy begins clamping again, and I lean back brushing my thumb across her clit, shoving into her.
The fucking sight of my dick, slick and dragging in and out of her, is undeniably the most incredible sight I’ve ever seen.
“Levi…” she warns with urgency.
I stop my assault on her clit, and make my way to her nipples. Something she loves. I pinch them hard and she bucks again. She’s throbbing and I know there’s not much more time.
I make fast work with her clit, plunging into her as deeply as she can handle. And then…she explodes. My name falls from her lips in a pleasurable scream. Her body is rocked with ecstasy and she’s damn near climbing the wall. I grasp her hips, driving into her as she loses herself. Carnal appetite overwhelms me, and I slap her ass. She sucks in air, and her pussy tightens more.
She’s writhing, hips a shuddering mess when my release is spilled. I’m digging my fingers into her hips, slamming her onto my cock and shoving every inch I have into her. I lose all feeling in my legs, but I’m still somehow managing to buck into her. I growl toward the ceiling, thrusting in and out, convulsing with waves of pleasure.
Our breaths are rapid as I drop my head against her forehead.
“Oh my God,” she whispers.
I chuckle. I will never tire of hearing that.
I don’t say a word and pull her into my chest under the water. I don’t know how long we’ve been standing here before her words jolt me.
“The water’s getting cold.”
“I can warm you up again,” I say licking my lips.
She looks up from underneath her wet lashes smiling. “You’re insatiable.”
“When it comes to you, I can never get enough.”
Something flashes before her eyes. For just an instant, I swear I see doubt blur her vision until she blinks it away.
I tilt my head. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” she says quickly.
There’s the infamous “nothing.” This word can mean many things, but you women think men can read your minds. The battle then becomes one of expectation. Am I supposed to know what this “nothing” means? Is it going to bother her if I don’t ask about it? Will she accuse me of not caring? Or does it truly mean nothing is wrong? It’s a dangerous word most of the time with hidden agendas.
Unfortunately, I’m not going to play along with the complicated conundrum. If she wants to tell me, she will. I don’t push it further and reach behind me turning the hot water as far as it will go. It only changes the temperature a fraction.
“We’ll need to hurry.” I hand her the washrag. “That’s all we got.”
Chapter 19
“I don’t want this anymore,” I tell him wiping my tears from my cheek.
His compassionate blue eyes blink. “Not much longer, Sunshine. Not too many more of these.”
Goodbyes are getting harder and this time I’m unable to stop my tears.
“I don’t want this one,” I say pressing my face back into his chest.
“Me neither, but I have to.”
“Couldn’t you bartend?” I ask causing myself to giggle. But there isn’t a response and guilt starts pulling at my heart. I look up to him. “I’m sorry.” I wipe my tears again, pulling my shoulders back. “I shouldn’t have said that. I want you to chase your dreams. Become the best. I know you hate this just as much as I do. I shouldn’t make it any harder.”
He smiles. “If I started bartending, you’d lose your job.”
I jerk back. “And what makes you think that?”
“Look at me.” He spreads his arms to the side. “Perfection doesn’t get any better than this.”
I slap his arm. “Conceited ass.”
“Just telling the truth,” he says pulling me to his lips. “I’ll call you when I get to the hotel.”
And just like that, he smashes my smile reminding me it will be another unknown time until I see him again. I take to his lips. Our kiss is slow and passionate. My heart flutters and aches at the same time.
“I love you,” I tell him with a shaky voice.
He grabs his bag, throwing it over his shoulder, and peck kisses my nose. “Love you.” He smiles widely and walks to his car.
He doesn’t look back and I don’t move from the spot I’m frozen in. My heart feels like it’s been dropped and shattered into a million pieces. It’s funny what you’ll put yourself through for love.
I no longer see his tail lights. Half of me is convinced he’s going to drive around the block and come back. The other half knows the truth.
I take a deep breath of the crisp fall air, filling my lungs to their capacity. Like I just breathed life into my limbs, I finally move back into the house, unfreezing my feet from their spot.
I walk aimlessly to the couch. I feel lost and empty. A soul stuck in Purgatory. Life felt more purposeful with him here. I had something to look forward to every morning I woke up and every night I went to sleep. Now, I’m stuck looking forward to hearing his voice or seeing a gritty video of him on my phone’s screen.
I experienced something different with him this time. I saw a side of him I didn’t know existed. He was somehow softer, more tender. He spoke differently toward me and regardless of the subject, his words held emotion.
I sigh plopping my butt on the couch. The house is silent. No sound from the TV. No talking amongst friends. No laughing and cutting up with Levi. Nope. Just me and my thoughts. Which isn’t a good thing so I grab the remote and turn the TV on.
“Always in my spot,” Blain says waking me from my peaceful nap.
I glance up to a smile.
“Again,” I groan. “Why can’t you be an amazing wanna-be brother and just let me sleep?”
He pokes me in the ribs, something he’s done since we were kids. “What would the fun in that be? Besides, you’re small, I’m large. The couch fits me much better.”
“You’re a large ass is what you are,” I joke, pushing myself to sit up.
“And that’s why you love me so much.”
“I do? I thought I just had to put up with you.”
He chuckles as I cross the living room to get to the loveseat. “No. I put up with you.”
“Is it safe to say we love putting up with each other?”
“Comfort yourself how you want.” He laughs.
Since we were little, Blain has always picked on me. He can act however he wants, but he loves me and couldn’t live a week without me.
It’s been twenty minutes of silence except for the commentary of the sports anchor. That’s all Blain ever watches. He’s into all sports, but his preference is football regardless of professional or college.
“Do you have to work Tonic tonight?” he asks still glued to the show.
I sigh. “Yes.” I’m not ready to work. I want to sulk in misery over my boyfriend.
“It will be good for you. You know, get your mind off everything.”
Ugh. “I know.”
“How long is Levi’s flight to Florida?”
“Right at three hours.”
He looks down at his phone. “He doesn’t have much longer.”
“Yeah. He said he’d be able to talk to me for a little bit before I had to go to work.”
“It was good seeing him.”
“Yes…” I trail off. But I hated saying goodbye, I think. “It got a little awkward when Matt was around though.”
“That’s because he’s Ryker’s friend. No one knew what we could say and it not get back to him. I bet Levi wanted to knock the dude’s teeth out.”