“They have found more, then?” he says in German.
“What? Found what, sir?”
“Glow eyes.” Revik’s own shift up. “Jews. Communists. Are they bringing them back alive, or just shooting them?” He half-smiles, his voice bitter. “...Because we could use the bullets.”
I stare at him, more shocked by his eyes than his words.
“Sir.” The soldier takes a breath. “Sir...we cannot remain here. Russian infantry traveling south from Rostov, moving fast. The panzers are stuck in the mud a few miles up—”
“Pull them back,” Revik says. “Those in the town, too. I imagine their fun is spent...or their tolerance for the smell of burning flesh, at least.” The bitterness edges towards what lies under it now, something more raw, that edges into hatred.
“Do as I say, Lieutenant,” he says, when the other hesitates. When the soldier turns to go, however, Revik’s voice stops him.
“Any news on von Rundstedt?”
I cannot tear my eyes from Revik’s face, lost in the unhappiness I see there.
“Sir.” The man hesitates again. “The advance divisions were forced to turn back. Von Rundstedt has been, well...replaced, sir. For health reasons is the word of the office.” At Revik’s harder look, the soldier’s face reddens. “...We are to be led by General von Reichenau in the next attempt. You are in charge of the Eleventh until von Reichenau can evaluate our status.”
Revik’s expression hardens more. Stomping snow off his boots, he turns, gazing out over the body-strewn field. The feeling in his eyes is gone by the time he completes the motion. He clasps black-gloved hands at his back.
“And my recommendation to Berlin?” he says. “We could be helping them in the West...”
“Denied, sir. Blauvelt felt—”
“Blauvelt?” Revik’s eyes turn to ash. “Is our Fuhrer no longer deciding strategy on the Eastern Front? It is fallen to his swine, instead?”
The other hesitates. Stepping closer, he lowers his voice.
“Sir...when I spoke to his man, he had news, sir...a message. He claimed to know you, and recommended me to assist him in this...” The man’s voice trails as Revik’s eyes narrow.
“Well?”
The man takes a breath. “It’s about your wife, sir...”
Revik’s face grows whiter than the snow flurrying around them in dry bursts. He is reading the man’s mind now, and no longer hears the words coming from his lips.
The world fades around the wind-chapped face of the unnamed soldier speaking to him earnestly. Details remain with me briefly, the smell of rotting corpses and unwashed clothes, burnt flesh imprinted permanently behind his eyes, knowing that friends and even relatives burned in those ovens, that the humans are no longer simply doing it to one another...
Then, all of it is gone.
...I JERK BACK, indoors, in a dated room that doesn’t feel dated here.
A mirror hangs over the fireplace. Fresh flowers bloom yellow blossoms over a flower-patterned vase with wing-like handles. I gaze into reflective glass, see a room washed in dusty pinks and rosewood trim. Lamplight warms a stained-glass shade from a table beside a standing wardrobe. A thin carpet of eggshell blue lays over the hardwood floor.
For a moment, the sounds of wet wood crackling distract me.
Then I hear breathing...the heavy, half-expressed breaths of a rhythm I recognize. I look at the bed. Tufts of gray hair stand unevenly across a man’s bare shoulders and in patches along the sides of his thick back. He lets out a low grunt.
The woman under him, I recognize. Her brunette hair lays in an artful fan on the bed, and she smiles at him. I feel a shiver of revulsion; it’s gone before I realize it’s not mine.
The woman is tired. I feel her unhappiness like a shroud...
The door slams open and I turn.
The sound is loud, but I can only watch, unsurprised to see him, although he looks different to me now, older than he’s ever looked to me, his eyes nearly black as he stands in shadow by the door. My gaze drifts to his white, long-fingered hands, and I see them clutching the wooden handle of an ax.
The woman has seen him too. Her voice is filled with terror, but not for herself. Her words come out in a near wail.
“Rolf! Rolf, no! Darling, no!”
He is walking to them in a straight line, his long legs moving with a quiet grace I recognize from a park on the other side of the world over seventy years in the future.
“Rolf! They know what you are!”
He doesn’t look at his wife, but at the stretch of skin and tufted hair.
He swings the ax before he has completed his last stride, embedding it between the man’s shoulder blades. It sinks down to the thickest part of the blade.
Revik slams the wooden stock forward, ripping it out with a thick, wet sound and Blauvelt screams and screams and screams...
Revik’s wife screams with him.
Unflinching, his face a mask of emptiness, Revik raises the blade and swings again...
...I AM LOST. I am lost.
A farmhouse lays buried in snow, two forms huddled in ratty blankets, a man and a woman. The woman is pregnant, at least seven months, and she is asleep, though the man is not.
Revik lays in the dark, watching the snow fall through the square window at one end of the hay loft, and his face looks almost dead to me now.
His eyes sharpen with a sudden flash of light, and he raises his head.
His skin is whiter, his weight less. His beard is shorter, and unevenly cut.
He is listening. There is a resignation in his eyes as he looks down at his wife. She has lost weight also, and her dark hair is matted with dirt, limp on the straw by her hollow cheeks and eyes bruised with fatigue. When the doors burst open below, he hesitates, then shakes her gently awake. Hearing the sounds in the barn, she stiffens, clasping his arm.
“We are caught,” he says quietly. “They know we are here.”
Her eyes widen like a frightened animal. “No—”
“You need a doctor, Ellie.”
She starts to argue, but he puts a finger to her lips. He is just sitting there when the SS Commander lifts his head above the lip of the hayloft, holding a Lugar. Before the man can speak, Revik sits up, raises his hands so they are visible.
“Rolf Schenck?”
Revik nods. “That is me.”
“You are under arrest.”
His wife, still half-lying beside him, bursts into tears.
...DARKNESS FILLS ME, cold. I hear her last words to him. She thinks he let them be caught, and there is some truth to that, too.
He did not do it for the reasons she thinks.
He has no place to take her, not anymore.
You want to die so much? I hope they torture you! I hope they beat you half to death...
She bursts into tears, clutching at him, begging him.
...And then she is gone, too.
There is nothing to push against, nothing with which to push. A faint whisper of voices speaks softly, a tinge of warmth that he will not let near enough to feel. The light is gone.
It is gone.
...I WAKE IN the dark.
The mind-numbing disinterest remains.
Anger lives here, as well, a wanting of...something. That something is death, but death itself feels unsatisfactory. His muscles hurt from disuse, and of all things he would like to use now, it is them.
He amuses himself with their minds instead, if they are foolish enough to be alone with him. He flexes the only muscle he can, and ignores the voices that grow fainter and fainter as he learns new trails in the light.
They know what he is.
His marriage is void. He was never married.
He gets the followers, too...those who believe him an angel beside them who think him a devil. He doesn’t discriminate; he hates them all. His wife gets her wish, too. They beat him when they’re bored, but it’s never enough...for them, or for him.
He has forgotten the rea
son that brought him here, the thing that once seemed so important.
It is a story to him now, and childish. In any case, his own people will not come for him now. Not anymore. Perhaps not even before he became a murderer.
This will all end soon. He knows enough to allow it to happen. He sits, leaning on a stone wall. His hands crumple together in his lap, his wrists encased in iron chains. His face is covered in bruises. His skin twitches when a fly alights on a cut, but he does not brush it away.
It happens again. And again.
Then...a clanking emerges from outside.
The door opens and Revik squints as two men enter. Surprise touches his light; his internal clock tells him it is too soon. But these are not priest and guard. The first man is of medium build and wears expensive clothes. Where his face should sit, I see only a blur, a movie screen on which several movies are being projected at once.
The second man I know from Golden Gate Park.
Like Revik, Terian does not appear to have aged. He wears the black uniform of the Gestapo. On him, it looks like a party costume.
“Rolf Schenck?” the man who is not Terian says.
Revik looks the two men over. He doesn’t know either of them.
“I've answered all of your...questions,” he says. “Or would you like to hit me some more?” He raises his bound hands. “Maybe you could take these off? I could use the exercise.”
Terian laughs, nudging the man with no face.
“I'll hit him, sir,” he says. “He seems to want it so badly.”
“No.” The new man’s focus stays on Revik. “No. I think we could find better ways to spend our time together. Perhaps, as Terian here believes, we could be frank with one another, yes?”
Revik gives Terian a dismissive look, looking at the man with no face.
“Does he make you feel safe, worm?” he says only.
The faceless man smiles through his shifting countenance.
“You are operating under a misconception, Rolf. I do not speak for the Reich, nor for any of the human governments. I would like to offer you a job. One you’ll find interesting, I think, even apart from your current lack of options.”
Revik scans the human in the expensive clothes. He cannot read this faceless man. He assumes the seer with him shields them both.
He lets his hands fall to his lap, shrugs.
“I'll be otherwise engaged. Or hadn't they told you they plan to cut off my head?”
Terian laughs, and Revik’s eyes flicker back to his.
“I told you, sir.” Terian smiles, looking at Revik like he’s his favorite new toy. “He will be well worth our time...once we’ve honed the snarl a bit.”
The faceless man acts like he doesn’t hear. “I think we can help you with your little problem, Rolf,” he says. “Or should I just call you Revik? Living amongst us hasn't made you forget yourself entirely, I hope?”
Revik’s eyes swivel to Terian, this time in utter disbelief.
“Yes,” the faceless man says. “I know who you are. Not only Rolf Schenck, German patriot, but Dehgoies Revik, seer of clan Arenthis.”
Revik continues to look only at Terian. He speaks in that other language next, the one with the clicks and rolling purrs.
Only this time, I understand him.
“What game is this?” Revik says to the other seer. “You gave our clan keys to a human? The elders will hang you for this...”
It is the faceless human who answers him though, using the same language.
“Rules were broken, it is true,” he says, gesturing smoothly, seer-like. Revik follows the motion with his eyes, his expression stunned. “But you can be selective with rules as well, Rolf. Such as the one against choosing a mate from among the females of my kind.”
He clucks his tongue ruefully.
“...For these things tend to happen with humans, do they not? Sadly, my kind does not have the same respect for loyalty. Nor do most in my race understand the true repercussions of commitment...” His hands open as if in prayer.
I see a ring on his finger, what looks like an Iron Cross.
“She was lovely, cousin,” he adds. “I am sorry you lost her to such a vile representative of my species. Truly.”
Revik’s eyes change. For the first time, they belong to the Revik I know. The anger and youth is leached out of them.
“What do you want?” he says.
I glance at Terian, who is smiling. His gaze is predatory too, like he sees that thing in Revik, and wants it.
“My name is Galaith,” the faceless man says. “Perhaps you have heard it?”
There is a silence. Then Revik snorts a short laugh.
“You are the scourge of the seer world?” he says. “The one who downed Syrimne, single-handed? You are lying...”
Terian takes a step closer, his humor less visible now.
Galaith holds up a hand to each of them, like a teacher breaking up a fight at school.
“Who I was is perhaps less important than who I have become,” he says diplomatically. He asks Revik, “Why have you not simply walked out of this cell, cousin? If you wanted out, they could not hold you.”
Revik lets his shoulders unclench. Still eyeing Terian, he shrugs, folding his arms tighter.
“Perhaps I deserve to die,” he says.
Galaith nods. “Are you so tired of this life then?”
Revik stares at Terian. “Perhaps.”
The faceless man glances at Terian, too. They exchange a subtle smile, then Galaith’s voice warms.
“I understand, cousin. More than you know. But, you see, there are many like you and I, Rolf. Tired of senseless death and war. Tired of the world being led by liars and old men, dreamers and fanatics. Those who feel the Codes, laws, bibles and prejudices of both species no longer represent the current realities of either. We would like to see these Codes...” He smiles. “...Modernized, as it were.”
Revik closes his eyes, leaning his head on stone. “Approach my brother, Whelen.”
“You have not yet heard my proposal—”
“—And yet I am not a fool,” Revik cuts in, opening his eyes again. “Whatever game you and your pet Sark are playing, it is my family name you want. You picked the wrong son. Nothing I said would ever be heard in the Pamir, least of all by my own family. And I have had my fill of humans and your...‘modernization.’”
The faceless man holds up a hand, another gesture of supplication.
“I know your life has been hard, Revik. I know of the death of your parents. I know too that you were adopted by a family that did not want you.” His tone grows cautious.
“...I also know of your current problems, as I have said. But women die in childbirth, cousin. Even among your kind. It is pointless to throw away such a promising, young life for what is a relatively natural event. She was not seer. This suicide of yours cannot be inevitable.”
He pauses, watching Revik’s face.
“Was the child Blauvelt's? Or another’s?”
Revik doesn’t answer at first. He gives a short laugh.
“You really want me to kill you. Perhaps I should oblige this wish of yours.”
Galaith holds up his hand again. “You are wrong about me. My regret for your misfortune is sincere, cousin.” He pauses, still watching Revik’s face. “And I have already spoken with your blood cousin, Whelen,” he adds. “I told him where you are, too. I told him of your predicament. Your family understands more than you believe, despite your decision to distance yourself, to live among my people and participate in this heinous war on her behalf.”
“It was not for her,” Revik said.
“It was for her, brother. You felt obligated—”
“I meant, it was not her fault.” Revik is once more staring at the shadow-darkened corners of the cell. “Please go.”
“Revik, your blood cousin, Whelen, doesn’t interest me.” Galaith’s words contain a gentle pull. “We have no need of family names. That clan nonsense is of the past.
I want your talent, Revik. I believe you will prove to be our most valuable asset yet.”
Terian leans closer. He holds up two fingers in a backwards V, wiggling them at Revik.
“...Second-most valuable,” he says, winking.
Galaith chuckles, patting Terian on the back with one hand. “Yes,” he says. “It was Terian here who petitioned hardest for your recruitment, Rolf. Our little Terian is most anxious to see what you can do...he may have created a bit of a reputation for you in advance, I’m afraid. One you may have to defend in not too long a time.”
His smile grows more visible as he discerns Revik’s involuntary reaction to his words.
“...I, too, am anxious to witness these talents, cousin,” he says. “Indeed I am. Most anxious.”
A flush of warmth grows in some part of Revik that doesn’t need to feel much else.
He is still thinking, turning over this spark in his mind, when the walls around me fall once more into black.
I CHOKE...CHOKED...am choking...caught inside a fisted clutch of light, an egg-shaped pocket that holds me unflinchingly in place. Inside that heated glow, I birth. The turning planet brings stars past me in a pale swath, sky broken by sharp eyes and lightning flashes, snaking charges of gold and orange and crimson, the late side of the setting sun.
The pain worsens, a spike that arcs, a taste before it keens steeply up, inexorable, becoming gradually more unbearable, until I am sure my insides will be ripped out, torn into so many pieces there is nothing left.
Beyond where I lay, a golden ocean beckons. It is familiar.
He is there too.
I’m sorry, he says. It’s not why I asked for you. I’m sorry, Allie—
Shhh. My voice is steady, somehow apart from the lights clashing, the ghosts winging over both of our heads. Revik, it's all right.
Don't leave me, Allie. Don't leave me alone with this...
The pain worsens again, makes it hard to see.
Still, the words come easily, without thought or regret.
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