Defying Destiny

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by Olivia Downing


  tender he was when he drew her against

  his side.

  “I remember you telling me that I

  would eventually fall for woman, even

  when I had given up all hope,” Nash said

  to his brother’s grave. “I bet you never

  would have guessed that she’d be human

  and a Hunter.” He laughed at the irony of

  it all.

  “I’m sorry,” Maralee whispered.

  “You’d have liked her, Cort. She’s

  almost as impulsive as you were.”

  “Please,” Maralee begged. Having

  Nash talk to Cort as if he were still alive

  was more than she could stand. Tears

  began to leak from her eyes as she closed

  them to block out the letters of his name

  lovingly carved in the trunk of the old tree.

  “She cries over you more than I do,”

  Nash continued. He drew Maralee closer

  and whispered in her ear, “Show him that

  beautiful smile of yours, love. Come on.

  He wouldn’t want to see such a pretty girl

  cry.”

  “You’re so cruel,” she gasped,

  pushing at him to free herself from his

  grasp.

  “It’s not intentional,” he murmured, his

  arms like steel around her. “I’m being

  sincere. Cort would never want to see

  someone suffer over him the way you do.

  You need to make peace with yourself,

  Maralee. Make peace with Cort. He

  would have wanted it that way.”

  “I can’t, Nash,” she said. “You don’t

  know what it feels like to have ended a

  life. Even worse, it’s someone important

  to you. Someone who has a wonderful

  family that needs him.”

  “You make peace with him, Maralee,”

  Nash said forcefully. “Right here, right

  now. I don’t care what you have to do to

  forgive yourself, but we aren’t leaving

  here until you do.”

  He set her away from him and she fell

  to her hands and knees on the soggy earth.

  “I’m going to talk to my father. You

  are going to talk to Cort,” he said, leaving

  no room for argument.

  “I can’t,” she muttered to herself. “I

  don’t deserve his forgiveness. I won’t

  forgive myself.” She was barely aware of

  Nash’s low voice as he spoke to his father

  several feet away. She remained there on

  her hands and knees for a long time, just

  staring at the ground between her muddy

  hands. She didn’t even feel the cold.

  “Sorry isn’t good enough,” she said,

  more to herself than the Wolf that was

  buried beneath the ground. “I could tell

  you how sorry I am, but it wouldn’t

  change anything.” It was strange how she

  felt he could actually hear her—that he

  was listening somehow.

  “You have a wonderful family,” she

  said. “I don’t know Rella very well, but

  she seems to be keeping them all together

  and well cared for. Carsha is amazing, so

  resilient. Cheerful. Nash says Lark is like

  you. You must have always been the

  center of attention.” She laughed softly,

  her heart twisting.

  “And then there’s Lord. Lord hates me,

  but that’s all right. He’s the only one I

  understand at all.” She paused, trying to

  think of something to make up for their

  loss. She came up totally lacking. “I guess

  the only thing I can do is promise I’ll do

  everything I can to help your family. It

  isn’t enough, I know,” she said, “but I’ll

  do whatever necessary to keep them

  together—happy and cared for.”

  “Now, that wasn’t so hard, was it?”

  Nash asked her, bending down to urge her

  to her feet.

  He wrapped her in his arms, mindless

  of the mud she smeared over his back as

  she clung to him.

  “No more tears,” he said. “Whenever

  you feel like crying over Cort, then you’ll

  just make good on your promise to him

  instead, right?”

  “Yes,” she agreed. “I’ll try.”

  He held her for a moment and then

  eased her away so they could return to the

  cabin. This time he held her hand as they

  walked side by side through the slowly

  awakening trees. Spring was approaching

  and with it, the promise of new life and

  new hope.

  “Nash,” she said after a moment.

  “How can you forgive me so easily?”

  He hesitated and did not look at her

  when he responded. “Because it’s not

  your fault he’s dead. It’s mine.”

  “You don’t really believe that.”

  He nodded, looking grim as if he’d

  never bless her with his smile again.

  “Like my mother said, I always hesitate.”

  She squeezed his hand, feeling this

  was nothing to be ashamed about. “You

  just think about things before you act. I

  wish I was more like that.”

  “Then we would have never been

  together,” he said. “What kind of

  impulsive fool goes wandering through the

  woods to find a howling Wolf?”

  She flushed. “Me.”

  “And who would think to mouth off to

  a dangerous man until he kissed her just to

  shut her up?”

  “Me.”

  “And who would tease a man to his

  limit just to get him to take her virginity?”

  She sighed. He made it sound so

  despicable. “Me.”

  “And who would stand before a pack

  of three hundred mad Wolves and toss her

  only weapon into a snow bank?”

  “Okay, I get it, I’m an impulsive, crazy

  woman who follows her heart blindly and

  never thinks anything through,” she said

  hotly.

  He chuckled affectionately. “You’re

  perfect, Maralee. Don’t ever change.”

  She looked up at him and found she’d

  been wrong about him never smiling

  again. He was smiling at her now.

  “You’re the one who is perfect,” she

  said. “I really do wish I was more like

  you.”

  “And I wish I was more like you,” he

  murmured, “I guess our only option is to

  stay together forever.”

  Her smile was more brilliant than the

  sun. “I’m impulsive enough to take you up

  on that offer,” she warned.

  “Don’t worry. I’ve already thought it

  through.”

  She laughed happily and hugged him.

  Where would she be without him? She

  couldn’t imagine returning to her life of

  loneliness.

  The door of a nearby cabin opened.

  Rella and an unidentified man stepped out

  on her front porch.

  “I need some time to think about this,”

  Rella said and the man nodded.

  Nash turned his head towards them

  and Rella looked directly at her brother-

  in-law. Rella grabbed the unidentified
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br />   man by the collar and kissed him long and

  hard on the mouth. The object of her

  passion stumbled off the porch when she

  released him.

  “Come back in a couple of days,” she

  told the man and returned to her house.

  Nash moved so quickly Maralee was

  almost sent tumbling to the ground. She

  watched with wide eyes as he punched the

  unknown man in the jaw and sent him

  flying. Nash was on top of him with his

  hands wrapped around the man’s throat

  before Maralee could even react.

  “You keep your goddamned hands off

  of my brother’s wife,” he growled angrily,

  smashing the man’s head against the

  ground.

  Maralee rushed forward and pulled at

  Nash’s shoulders with all of her strength.

  “Nash! Stop it!” she demanded. “What are

  you doing?”

  “If you touch her again, I’ll kill you,”

  he warned, punching him in the nose for

  good measure before he climbed to his

  feet and stalked off towards his cabin.

  Maralee watched him storm into the

  house before she turned her attention to the

  dazed, bleeding man at her feet. She knelt

  down beside him and helped him sit up.

  “What in the hell?” he muttered in

  disbelief.

  Maralee was equally perplexed.

  “Are you all right?” she asked,

  searching her pocket for a handkerchief.

  He found his own before she realized

  she didn’t have one. He pressed the cloth

  to his nose and tilted his head back to stem

  the flow of blood.

  “I’ll live,” he said, climbing to his

  feet. He swayed and Maralee steadied him

  with her hands. “Who was that?” he

  asked, staring at the cabin where Nash had

  disappeared. “Was that the Guardian?”

  “Uh, yeah.”

  “I heard he was a mean son-of-a-bitch,

  but man…”

  “He isn’t mean,” Maralee insisted.

  “Are you seeing, Rella?”

  “I plan to marry her, if she’ll have

  me,” he said. “She’s the most beautiful

  woman I’ve ever seen and she’ll need a

  father for those pups of hers.”

  Maralee glanced at the house where

  Nash had disappeared. She wondered

  how he would feel about a man taking his

  brother’s place in the lives of his nephews

  and niece. Obviously, he didn’t like the

  idea much.

  “I’m sorry he attacked you like that,”

  Maralee said.

  The man was staring at Nash’s cabin

  as well, a thoughtful look on his face. He

  wasn’t as good-looking as Nash, but even

  Maralee had to admit that he was

  attractive with his dark brown hair and

  golden eyes. “It will probably be the best

  thing for those kids, taking them away

  from here. With a man like that for an

  uncle, I’m surprised they’re as healthy and

  happy as they are.”

  “Take them away from here?”

  “Well I obviously wouldn’t be

  welcomed into this pack with him as alpha

  male,” he said, eyes narrowing.

  “You can’t take the children away

  from Nash, he’d just die,” Maralee said,

  gripping the man’s sleeve as if to

  convince him of her words.

  “That’s up to Rella,” he said. “Excuse

  me. I need to get home.”

  Her hold on his sleeve slipped as he

  pulled away. Maralee watched him

  disappear among the trees before she

  followed Nash into the house. She found

  him sitting at his desk, calmly reading the

  book that was now missing its final page.

  “Are you all right?” she asked him,

  closing the door behind her and removing

  her cloak.

  He didn’t answer her, just kept staring

  at the book in front of him. A muscle in his

  jaw was twitching as he clenched his

  teeth.

  “I swear, Nash, that is the most

  impulsive thing I’ve ever seen you do,”

  she said, trying to lighten the mood.

  He continued to ignore her. For some

  reason, he seemed to be angry with her as

  well. She moved closer to him and

  touched his shoulder. He glared up at her

  and she gasped. The frightening animal in

  him, which she hadn’t seen since their

  early days of knowing each other, was

  there, shining in his amber eyes.

  “Stay away from me.”

  She backed away from him, actually

  afraid of the man she knew to be so gentle.

  It was as if he wasn’t even the same

  person.

  “Nash?”

  He took a deep, shuddering breath.

  “Go change your clothes, Maralee. I’ll be

  okay in a minute.”

  She didn’t even think to argue and

  obeyed him immediately, going so far as

  to lock the door of the water closet while

  she washed the mud from her hands and

  out of the knees of her pants. When she

  garnered the courage to return to the living

  area, Nash seemed to be back to normal.

  He glanced up from his reading, grim but

  no longer angry.

  “If you feel like it, you can start

  looking through one of the books written

  by the last Wolf Guardian,” he said to her,

  nodding in the direction of the bookshelf

  beside his desk. “Perhaps a different point

  of view might wring some meaning out of

  his words.”

  He trusts me, she thought happily.

  “All right.”

  She took a book from the shelf and

  settled into the comfortable chair in the

  corner. She tucked her legs beneath her

  and opened the book. As she read, she

  realized the Wolves had an entirely

  different perspective on the curse. The

  way their immortality was obtained was

  barely mentioned, instead the first Wolf

  Guardian seemed to think they had been

  treated unfairly in being cursed by the

  cruel sage. Never once did the author

  mention the sage was his father, and he

  never even alluded to being half-human. It

  was no wonder Nash had been so

  astonished. The anti-human tone of the text

  made Maralee wonder how Nash could be

  so open to her.

  “Do you feel this way about humans?”

  she asked, after she had read a

  particularly scathing passage about human

  ignorance.

  Nash glanced up from his reading. “I

  always thought it strange that the last Wolf

  Guardian was so embittered towards

  humans,” he commented. “I think I better

  understand why he felt that way now.”

  “Is it so bad? Being half-human, I

  mean.”

  He didn’t answer her question,

  probably because she wouldn’t want to

  hear the answer. “At least I know why I’m

  sterile now. I’m like a mule. A mix

>   between two different species that has no

  right to create a new life to carry on my

  blood; a malformation that goes against

  the laws of nature. I’m surprised such a

  travesty of life was allowed to be born.”

  “What are you talking about?”

  He shook his head, and said, “Never

  mind.”

  “It’s not like you to feel sorry for

  yourself.”

  He

  laughed

  derisively.

  “You’re

  wrong,” he said. “You just don’t know me

  very well. It’s just like me to feel sorry

  for myself. Somebody has to.”

  “What do you have to feel sorry

  about?”

  she asked, her ire sparking.

  “You’re healthy. You have a family who

  adores you and a woman who believes in

  you enough to give up her entire life to

  stay beside you.”

  He stared at her for a long moment.

  “You’re right,” he said finally. “I don’t

  have any reason to feel sorry for myself. It

  could be worse. My pack could realize

  that I’m half human.”

  “Nash!” she admonished. “Your pack

  respects you. Even I can see that.”

  “You can’t even imagine how quickly

  that would change if they found out the

  truth of my parentage. They’re barely

  tolerating me since I brought you, a human,

  an outsider, into the village. Why do you

  think they attacked me when we came

  back from Sarbough?”

  “I don’t know,” she admitted. “But

  they stopped didn’t they?”

  “Only because I’m the only one who

  can break this curse. If they knew why,

  they wouldn’t even bother with me. This

  is why the sage gave his son the power in

  the first place. I can’t even imagine how

  things must have been for the last

  Guardian. It’s hard to believe the pack

  allowed him to live among them. It’s

  obvious they didn’t accept him, and I

  would suffer the same fate if my people

  knew about me. Do you understand what

  I’m saying, Maralee? I would never

  survive as a human and I don’t belong

  here either. I’ve always felt a bit outside

  the loop. I just thought it had something to

  do with my reclusive personality, but it’s

  because I don’t fit. Anywhere.”

  “That’s not true, Nash. You fit, you

  belong, with me.”

  He sighed. “If only it were that easy.”

  “Why isn’t it?” she asked him

  brusquely. “Aren’t I enough for you?”

  He laughed. “You know that you’re

  more than enough for any man,” he said.

  “Though we fit together, together we fit

 

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