Sarah sat opposite Kydd at the small round table, leaving Renzi to the side. For the first time he was able to take his fill of her prettiness; her characterful retroussé nose was complemented by the high, sculpted cheekbones. And the eyes, large and hypnotic: he would need determined self-control to avoid making a fool of himself.
“D’ye not find the Chinese a strange crew?” Kydd asked. He cursed inwardly as he remembered that she was governess to the progeny of a rich Chinese trader, who was now in Canton for the winter.
“Not when you make their further acquaintance,” she said. Her eyes had a powerful effect on Kydd, which he tried to hide. A tiny smile curving her wide-set lips showed perhaps that he was not as successful as he hoped.
Renzi leaned forward. “One might argue that their very precepts make it impossible of a closer acquaintance,” he said.
Sarah’s eyes lingered for a heartbeat on Kydd, then transferred their attention to Renzi. “Sir, I am not in the philosophic line. My dealings are more of a practical nature,” she said daintily. The eyes returned to Kydd, and dropped modestly.
They were underneath a hibiscus tree, which in season would have been a picture. The dull pearlescence of the winter monsoon swirled about them in the form of a fine mist of tiny dewdrops, which caught in Sarah’s hair like a halo.
Kydd could not think of anything to say, and looked at Renzi. His friend lolled back, but was not at ease. He returned the look, and Kydd was startled at the stony hostility in his expression.
“I think Nicholas meant th’ Chinese have, er, things in their civilization which we find difficult t’ take to—I saw sights in Canton that would make y’ stare,” he said.
Renzi lurched upright. “I most certainly did not! I say that by their contempt for our civilization they have withdrawn themselves from our society and thus from all possibility of fellowship.”
“Oh!” Sarah said, her hand flying to her mouth and without a glance at Renzi. “You have been to Canton? I would die to go—just the once—but ladies are not permitted.” Her eyes grew yet larger, and she leant forward toward Kydd.
Flustered, he knew what was happening, but was out of his depth. In Guildford he was vaguely aware that females were one of two types; the earnest but dowdy ones you married, and the exciting ones who always turned out to be shameless doxies. Sarah looked neither—or both. And she was driving a wedge between him and Renzi.
“Why, er, yes,” he said.
“Do tell me.” She cupped her face in her hands. Her eyes were enormous.
There was movement to the side. Renzi got to his feet. “Pray excuse me, Miss Bullivant … it is not often I get the opportunity—Honrar Nuñez is expecting me. Do not trouble, I beg …” His voice seemed distant and preoccupied. “Your servant,” he said, with a bow, and left without a glance at Kydd.
“He’s sometimes a difficult fellow to understand,” mumbled Kydd.
“But he is your particular friend,” Sarah said immediately. “I can tell. You have no idea how jealous that makes a woman—the closeness, I mean,” she said, dropping her eyes.
“We have—done much t’gether,” Kydd said defiantly.
“Yet you are so different.” Somehow her candor made things much easier than the delicacies of conversation before.
“What do you talk about?” she asked. “No, that’s unfair. You would not be friends unless you shared something—deep,” she said.
She sat back and stared at Kydd appraisingly. “You look every part a sailor, Mr. Kydd, and I do confess that before today I would rather be seen dead than talk to a … sailor.”
“I understand,” Kydd said, stiffly.
“No, I don’t mean that,” she said, her gloved hand coming out to squeeze his. “Please forgive what I said about sailors before, but …”
He forced her to feel her shame, then smiled. “It’s the most wonderful thing that ever happened t’ me,” he said in simple sincerity.
She looked at him steadily. “There are things in this life …” she began.
“My father is a schoolmaster also,” Kydd put in, thinking of her duty as a governess, but being a little hazy as to what that implied in pedagogy.
“Is he?” she said, looking puzzled.
“Well, not really,” Kydd said, and explained the saga of the naval school.
She sat still, her eyes unblinking. At the end she sighed. “You’re a very nice man, Mr. Kydd.”
He was not sure if this meant his duty to his family or something more, so he compromised with an inaudible mutter.
“And a very interesting one—I demand you will tell me of your voyages across the bounding main. What marvelous things have you seen? Do tell!”
Kydd was no raconteur, his masculine directness only hinting at the loneliness and terror, the consuming bloodlust and exultation, the deeply affecting love of the sea, but it held Sarah spellbound in quite the same way as it had Cecilia. The afternoon passed, tea had come round at least three times, the fine mist insinuating cool and damp but still she would not let him go.
For Kydd, it was a dream, unreal, not of this existence. Less than a year ago he had been a perruquier in a small Surrey town, glad to be noticed by ordinary girls. Here, sitting in front of him, was a handsome woman of the world in far China who was fascinated by him.
Sarah stood, smiling down at him. He snapped out of his daze and scrambled to his feet. “Would you see me home, if you please, Mr. Kydd?”
“Ah, of course, er, Miss Bullivant,” he said. She waited; he waited.
“Take my arm, if you please,” she said primly. “It is unseemly to be seen walking at a distance.”
He settled his tricorne on firmly, and held out his arm. Hers entwined and lay gently on his, and the electric soft touch of the side of her breast turned his arm into a rigid claw.
They moved off in sedate promenade. Magically, Ah Lee appeared, to follow at a respectful distance, her face blank but watchful. The touch of Sarah’s arm on his was all fire and flowers; Kydd felt twenty feet tall.
He carefully matched his pace to hers, across the praça and into the streaming hubbub of the bazaars. As they walked, Sarah pressed closer to him, turning to speak with a flashing smile. He could manage only monosyllables in reply, but something of his happiness must have communicated itself, for she was plainly flattered. He wondered what sort of picture he made in the fine clothing he wore with such a woman on his arm, and lifted his chin in defiance. He might be a common sailor, but at the moment he was king of the world!
The road widened to a leafy avenue, and in the gathering dusk she stopped before an imposing mansion. Rearing up behind the building was a pagoda, smaller than the ones Kydd had seen in Canton, but more richly appointed. Lanterns gleamed discreetly at the entrance to the mansion; the whole smacked of careless wealth. Ah Lee scurried forward to open the door and waited inside.
Kydd’s heart sank. It was self-evident that Sarah was of a different social order, but had been amused for the length of the afternoon. It had been kind of her, but he had to be realistic.
“Thank you, Mr. Kydd. I did enjoy our tea this afternoon—you are wonderful company, you know.”. Her eyes caught the soft lantern light; they seemed to steal into his soul. She held out her hand. It was bare, the glove had been removed.
“Er, the same f’r me, Miss Bullivant,” he blurted, and shook her hand warmly. A brief shadow flickered across her face. He caught the expression, then realized that probably what was wanted was a more formal exchange. He bowed deeply, but forgot to put a leg forward; the gesture ended awkwardly and he blushed.
He looked up again, fearing ridicule, but her face was set, albeit with the tiniest trace of vexation. She brightened. “Do you know? We never did get to see the Sao Tiago. Do you think it would be very wicked of me to suggest that we meet again tomorrow to remedy the omission?”
Kydd was thunderstruck.
“That is, if your duties on board your boat do allow,” she said.
“After noon, we are fre
e t’ step ashore,” Kydd stammered.
“Splendid!” Sarah exclaimed, clasping her hands. “If we meet at two at Honrar Nuñez’s, perhaps I can prevail on Ah Lee to provide a picnic basket.”
Her mood was infectious and Kydd found himself grinning inanely, his hat passing from hand to hand.
“Very well—until two then, Mr. Kydd,” she said decisively. A final radiant smile came that stabbed right through him, then she swept up the steps and into the mansion. The door closed soundlessly. For a moment he stared after her, then slowly turned to make his way back the short distance to the priest’s residência.
There was no way Kydd could think of returning on board so early, but equally he had no desire to join his friends at their roistering in the Solmar. He paced slowly along the seafront, conscious but uncaring that a lone sailor strolling past at this hour was an unusual sight.
Sarah wanted to see more of him. The simple fact kept repeating itself, raising his hopes to levels of fantasy he knew to be foolish. At the same time he was uncomfortably aware that her proximity and physical contacts, however slight, ad awakened powerful urges that in no sense could be termed honorable. One thing was certain, next to Renzi he was nothing but an oaf. He cringed at the memory of his awkwardness and lack of conversation.
Suddenly resolved, he set out for the quay where the ship’s boats secured—he would return aboard and resume his acquaintance with the literature.
On the berth deck there was only one occupant, still and silent at the table under a lanthorn glow. It was Renzi, reading. Kydd slid into the seat opposite. Renzi did not acknowledge his presence, continuing to read his slim volume with great concentration.
“At y’r books still, I find,” Kydd said lightly.
Renzi looked up balefully then resumed his concentration.
“The priest has tired of y’r company?” Kydd said, with more emphasis.
“He does have other duties,” Renzi said.
Kydd bit off a hot rejoinder and remembered his intention. “Then I’d be obliged were you to suggest t’ me one of our books,” he said, “that would improve th’ mind.”
Renzi laid down his Wordsworth. “So Miss Bullivant might be agreeably impressed with your undoubted erudition?”
“So I might have th’ chance of knowing somethin’ more of this ragabash world.”
With a theatrical sigh, Renzi leant back. Then his expression softened. “You are not—yet—a friend to logic, the rational course, but should you so desire then I have in our sea chest an old and very dear piece by John Locke, An Essay Concerning Human Understanding, which may yet persuade you.”
Sarah was wearing light blue, with many tiny bows sewn into the skirt of her frock, and a gay lace bonnet that was very fetching.
“M’lady!” Kydd smiled, rising to greet her. Nuñez was silent, watchful as a bird.
“Kind sir!” Sarah replied, bobbing a curtsy with a radiant smile just for him. Kydd felt a rush of feeling that left him in confusion.
He collected himself and said casually, “I rejoice t’ see you in looks, Miss Bullivant, if th’ validity of th’ inference may be allowed as experientially rooted.” The bit about empiricism could come out later.
Nuñez’s eyebrows shot up. Sarah hesitated in puzzlement, then her expression cleared. “You have been disputing with Nicholas,” she said, in an accusing tone, “and now you mean to quiz me.”
Kydd couldn’t keep it up, and a wide grin spread. She was caught by his infectious glee and returned the smile. They stepped out into the street, as prim a couple as any to be seen. There was little small talk as they walked companionably together.
At São Tiago they stood on the ancient battlements and looked out to sea, to the islands and scattered ships at anchor, the bobbing sampans and serene junks. Sarah stood in front of Kydd, her bonnet held in her hands and looking outward in silence. Kydd stood close behind: the scent of her hair came up to him, the lines of her body inches from him.
As if it were some other he watched as his hands came up to take her shoulders, his head bent and he kissed the top of her hair very gently, her female scent briefly enclosing him. She froze; her hands came up slowly to touch his, still facing away, still silent.
Suddenly she turned round, but said in a quite practical tone, as if nothing had passed, “I believe you would like to see a Chinese pagoda—Thomas.” Her eyes held his but moved past, over his shoulder. Kydd knew that something was happening, but was unsure, painfully aware of a thudding heart. “Come,” she commanded, her grip on his arm a fierce imperative.
In a trance Kydd conveyed her back along the narrow streets the way they had come, feeling his masculinity uncomfortably, and longing with a fierce dread for what he knew must lie ahead.
Ah Lee opened the door to the mansion for them, and they entered arm in arm. “Mr. Tsoi journeys to Canton in the winter season,” Sarah said, with a peculiar air of defiance. “The house is deserted.”
Kydd glanced at Ah Lee, whose expression was even more blank than usual. The house was easily the richest and most spacious that he had ever entered, but had an alien look and smell with a compelling exoticism.
“We will have our picnic in the pagoda,” Sarah said, and in halting Cantonese told Ah Lee, who looked shocked, but bowed once and withdrew.
Sarah steered Kydd through the vast house and out into the garden. Her arm still in his she chatted on, remarking on this Oriental bloom and that until they reached the door at the base of the pagoda. Kydd wondered what lay in the dark interior. Fiddling with the bronze latch, Sarah eased open the tiny door and held up her lantern.
Kydd started uncomfortably. In the flickering gleam he saw her face turn to him, and in his heightened state it seemed distorted, devilish, leading him on into an unknown perdition. “Come on, silly!” She giggled at his hesitation, and ducking down, entered the pagoda.
Quite used to the low deckhead of a man-o’-war, Kydd followed. The golden light of the lantern steadied and strengthened away from the evening breezes, revealing mysterious forms and carvings on all sides. He stared uneasily, the odor of cedarwood and the dust of ages acrid and strong.
“These are Mr. Tsoi’s ancestors,” Sarah said, then girlishly tripped around a spiral passageway at the periphery. They circled madly in a dizzying whirl that left Kydd breathless. At the very top they finally stopped, laughing. The curved roof above provided a small room, which was barely furnished with a small table and some red straight-backed Chinese chairs on a dark carpet. Many richly ornamented hangings with elaborate writing characters decorated the walls.
Taking his hand, Sarah pulled him over to a window opening and looked at him in triumph. “There, Thomas, is it not worth the climb to see this?” In the clear dusk the twinkling lights of Macao spread away over the hills, fairylike from this height. The dense, wafting fragrance of the Orient enveloped him and Kydd knew he would never forget that night. The moment hung mysteriously, enigmatically.
“Ah Lee will not be long,” Sarah said, in her matter-of-fact way. “She will not stay, though, she dislikes being here.” She drew him back inside, and they sat in the hard chairs, the lantern hooked to a beam overhead.
“Where do you come from, Thomas?” she asked politely.
By degrees his hot desire subsided. He had misread the situation, and if he were to press his attentions now he would suffer a stinging rebuff. Yet she had already compromised her reputation by being alone with him—he wondered why she trusted him, then remembered that she had called him “a nice man”; he didn’t know if he should take this as a compliment or resent it.
The tapping of footsteps on wood began far below. “Ah Lee,” said Sarah unnecessarily. The conversation tailed off until finally Ah Lee appeared with a big tray.
Kydd jumped to his feet to take the tray but was stopped by a warning cough and meaningful frown from Sarah. He sat down again in an awkward silence, while Ah Lee patiently laid out the table, her eyes surreptitiously flicking from one to the ot
her. It was a Chinese meal, many small dishes holding hidden pleasures, and in the middle what looked like a flower vase.
“Fa tiu,” Sarah said, pouring an opaque liquid the color of varnish into delicate porcelain cups. “A Chinese wine, best served hot.” She smiled at him over her cup, and he raised his own to her and sipped. It was dense and cloying to his taste, but he felt the glow begin to spread.
Ah Lee left quietly; they heard her steps rapidly diminishing until once more they were alone together.
Sarah’s eyes fixed on his face and she spoke levelly. “Do you know, Thomas, that with half a thousand bachelors out here, there isn’t one I’d call a man—not a real one who’s big and strong, daring, handsome.”
Kydd stirred in his chair. Did this mean she really … “Damn you, Thomas, do you make me beg?” The tone was shrill, and had an edge of hysteria.
“Sarah …” he began hoarsely, but she was on the opposite side of the table and he hesitated.
She breathed deeply, then got abruptly to her feet, in the process sending the table and its contents to one side in an appalling crash of china. Kydd stood up in horror.
At first he could not respond to the passionate assault. The kiss was deep and hungry, her mouth taking his violently, her body pressed into him without restraint. They swayed, clamped together. “Thomas!” she whispered, drawing away slightly. “My darling, sweet Thomas! My dear sailor man! Do you not know we’re meant to be one, my love?” Her eyes were huge and lambent in the lantern’s glow.
Kydd held her in an intoxicated trance, not daring to move. Her leg interposed slowly, caressing between his thighs in an excruciating sensual invasion; his hands in response moved down her back.
“Thomas—I’ve never been with a man,” she blurted. Her hands slid down his body and discovered his arousal. She gasped, her breath came fast and ragged; he lowered her gently to the floor.
As with a stranger’s eyes he saw her tear off her shoes, and with a flood of sexual feeling he saw her pull up her dress to the white of knees and upper thighs. She lay on the carpet, writhing and vulnerable.
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