by Caroline Day
No! I’m not fine! My brother died, and I found out that the man I love killed all my family members. My heart is broken, my soul is devastated, and my guilt haunts me every second.
Because of one person...
Why did you come into my life? Why did you pursue me so fiercely? Why did you tame me? Why did you do your best to make me need you? Why? To shock me with the truth later and make me realize what a fool I am? To send me to say goodbye to my brother and then kill him?
Have you thought what will happen to me? I got used to you, I needed you, I couldn't live without you. I even rejected my mindset because you came into my life. You were cold, unpredictable, but so hot and beloved. I loved you.
And it took me a few minutes to realize you are a monster...
Heck!
I burst into tears, sobbing loudly and desperately. Dressed in men's clothes smelled of Alex's cologne, with my hood pulled up, I feel safe. I reproach myself for being soft in my mind. For being a naive little fool who fell into the clutches of a villain.
Fuck!
What have I done to deserve this? Why?
The choking lump rises in my throat again. Not due to tears...
‘Andrew, stop the car!’ I ask my friend, and he immediately fulfills my request.
I throw up right through the half-open door. Well, at least it makes me feel better – neither blurring, no dizziness bothers me anymore. We've been driving for several hours, and this reaction of my body is not surprising.
‘Let's stop at a motel and get back on the road tomorrow,’ my friend says, patting me on the back.
I don't resist when we park the car at the gas station, Andrew takes me to the second floor and leaves me in the room upon telling me that he will call Alex from the local phone.
And now I'm alone again. He leaves me alone with my memories, pain, and awareness of my stupidity, with the terrifying thoughts and emptiness in my heart. Or rather with the desired emptiness since it will take time to forget the heartbreaker... Or...
I rush to the bathroom, feeling the urge to vomit. But my stomach is absolutely empty. I didn't eat anything on the way, and the latest food has already left my stomach. This is weird. I've never thought the pain of loss was so strong that it would affect my physical condition. When my parents died, I didn't feel like this, and I had no complaints about my health, except for the devastated grief. But he finished me off. He broke my bones, gutted me, and left only my heart to make me suffer.
He made me to lose my mind, killed my nerve cells. Or maybe...
I come up to my backpack and look for the pregnancy test. I don't believe it’s possible but I should better check it up now. Let everything attacks me right now, so that I could settle all the issues at once.
‘Hey Lo! What are you doing?’
Andrew finds me sitting on the toilet lid with a paper strip in my hand. The result surprises not only me, but also my friend, who stares at me, bewildered.
‘I think I have a problem…’
Afterword
Friends, thank you for reading my book. A sequel is on the way! The book is now available for preorder.
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Thank you very much for your attention. Sincerely yours, Caroline Day :)
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