Dedication
For my dearest Grandma Sally who makes the world a brighter and more lovely place
Epigraph
Do small things with great love.
—a favorite motto of Mother Teresa of Kolkata
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Epigraph
Part 1: Seattle Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Part 2: Sunbeam Key, Florida Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Part 3: Mumbai Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Part 4: Hungary Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Part 5: Florida and Seattle Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Epilogue
A Note from the Author
Discussion Questions
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Acclaim for Rachel Linden
Other Books by Rachel Linden
Copyright
Part 1
Seattle
Chapter 1
Early April
The day my world crumbles I am dreaming about piecrust. Cubes of chilled butter, ice bobbing in a Pyrex measuring cup of water, a pastry cutter to slice the butter and flour and salt into baby-pea-sized gobbets. A light touch, light as a feather. And honeybees.
Their contented hum is a droning undercurrent to the ting ting of my pastry cutter against the chilled bowl straight from the refrigerator. The air is heavy with the scent of lavender, sharp and pungent from the fields of purple stretching beyond my family’s farmhouse kitchen window. One by one bees buzz through the open window and land on the rim of the bowl. I shoo them away. They are fat and slow as they fly off, legs laden with orange saddlebags of pollen, buzzing across the fields and over the silver waters of Puget Sound. On the lip of the bowl where they rested, each leaves a dot of honey that trickles down the glass in a slow golden rivulet.
When my ringing cell phone wakes me, I burrow out from under my duvet with a muffled exclamation and a shiver, scrambling to silence the cheery tune. My room feels like an icebox. I’d accidentally fallen asleep reading with the window open, and the wet April air wafts under the curtain, sharp and salty from the sea.
“H’llo,” I stage-whisper, not wanting to rouse my housemate, Rosie, who I’m guessing is still asleep across the hall after her late-night performance in a jazz club on Capitol Hill.
“Good morning, Mia. Kate here.” The activities director at Sunny Days Retirement Community where my grandmother, Nana Alice, lives.
“Good morning, Kate.” I try to match her chipper tone, covering my confusion and erasing the sleep from my voice. I open and close my eyes like an owl; the insides of my eyelids feel like sandpaper. Splayed on the floor near my feet is Mary Berry’s Baking Bible, open to the alluring chapter on traybakes and flapjacks. I must have fallen asleep reading it after my shift.
“Just checking to see if you’re bringing baked goods for the residents today as usual,” Kate says in a perky voice.
“Oh sure.” I glance at the clock and startle. Ten forty! I was up at 4 a.m. for my four-hour baking shift at the Butter Emporium, an artisan bakery and coffee shop in historic Ballard where I’m an apprentice baker. On Sundays I deliver our day-old baked goods to Sunny Days.
“Be there in a jiffy.” I hang up, already throwing on a plaid flannel shirt over my fitted tee. I rub a smudge of flour off the elbow and twist my hair up into a messy bun. Olga, the Ukrainian woman who cuts my hair, bluntly describes it as “crazy vitch hair” with a disapproving shake of her own militantly subdued blonde bob. I think it’s more accurate to label it unruly, a disheveled sort of curly, like I’m in a perpetually brisk breeze.
In college my English lit professor told me that my hair was the color of an Irish peat bog stream, which sounded a little insulting until I looked it up. He was right. A rich brown with glints of red and gold, the color leached from the peat bogs. It matches my eyes, hazel shot through with green. Ethan swears they’re so wide and innocent that I look like a Japanese anime character or a dewy forest creature, like Bambi.
I snatch my phone on the way out the door and dictate a text.
Happy 6 years to us! How’s the meeting going? Love you!
Ethan’s been in meetings all weekend. The Internet start-up he founded with a couple of friends right out of college is potentially being bought by a tech company from San Jose, and the decision makers flew to Seattle on Friday to hammer out the details. And later today, when it’s all over, we are celebrating our six-year dating anniversary. At the thought my heart skips a beat. I have a premonition, a shiver of delight down my spine, that today could be a very special day indeed. I am over the moon at the anticipation of it at last.
With the box of baked goods securely fastened to my white Cannondale, I pedal fast across the north slope of Queen Anne, the genteel Seattle neighborhood where I live. Even the chilly gray spring weather doesn’t stop me from relishing the speed and the freedom and the feeling of flying, like the gulls that circle high over Puget Sound.
Near the Trader Joe’s grocery store on Queen Anne Avenue, a familiar figure is standing on the corner, sporting an afro and a purple T-shirt with a peace sign and the slogan Kindness Is Karma.
“Angie!” I wave and she waves back. She’s holding aloft copies of Real Change, the magazine pages fluttering in the breeze. Her German shepherd, Cargo, is lying on the pavement at her feet, his nose touching her shoes.
“How are sales this morning?” I ask, wheeling to a stop and opening my pastry box. I hand her a mascarpone and strawberry Danish, her favorite.
Angie shrugs. “Good enough. Me and Cargo can’t complain.”
I place a mini lemon bundt cake in front of Cargo, who wags his tail appreciatively.
Angie and I met a year ago when I started volunteering at Hope House, a women and children’s shelter in downtown Seattle. Originally from Florida, she’s been living in Seattle for five years, all of them on the street.
“Well, I’ve got to scoot. I’m late with my delivery today.” I scratch Cargo behind the ears and turn to go. “See you around.”
I mount my bike, then hesitate, wishing as always that I could give Angie more than a pastry every week. She’s making good strides at Hope House, in her AA meetings, and with Real Change, but I wish I could wave a magic wand and untangle the complicated mess of her substance addiction, childhood abuse, family dysfunction, and mental illness.
“Bye, girl.” Angie waves. “Thanks for stop
ping. See you next week.”
Now even tardier, I pedal fast through picturesque neighborhoods of neatly kept historic Craftsman houses nestled up to million-dollar newly built townhomes, the product of the tech boom in Seattle and the seemingly insatiable demand for housing in the city. Zipping along the peaceful streets, I hum the Beatles’ “Love Me Do” under my breath. One of Ethan’s favorites. How many times has he sung it to me, strumming his guitar with that endearing smile, slow and sweet as maple syrup?
“Love, love me do,” I belt out, flying down the hill toward Sunny Days. For a moment I let go of the handlebars and spread my arms wide, turning my smiling face to the sun as it just barely peeks through the gray clouds. I feel almost giddy with the promise of what I hope is to come, as though gravity itself is lightening, as though any moment I might take off into the air and soar. I have a fabulous feeling about today.
Chapter 2
“Nana Alice?” After delivering the pastries to the kitchen, I rap lightly on my grandmother’s studio apartment door. A moment later she opens it, wheeling into the doorway with her cherry-red walker, which she’s dubbed Greased Lightning.
“Mia,” she says, beaming with delight. “I just got back from my hike.”
Nana Alice is my father’s mother and one of my favorite people on earth. At eighty-two, she’s spry and pert, more sugar than spice with her white hair a pouf of cotton candy on her head and her bright hazel eyes fixed on me. Today she is wearing a hot pink Patagonia fleece and yoga pants after her morning hike in Discovery Park with a vanload of residents.
“We saw a seal pup along the shore,” she tells me. “They’re so cute, look just like puppies, but they carry leprosy. The nature guide told us that. He had very muscular calves.”
Nana Alice has lived at Sunny Days for almost four years, ever since my uncle Carl caught her perched on the roof of her house, cleaning her own gutters. At his insistence she relocated, settling somewhat unwillingly into this gracious and tasteful assisted-living residence for seniors. Nestled on the north slope of Queen Anne hill, it’s just a mile from her former home, the cottage that Rosie and I currently rent from her for a mercifully discounted price.
“I was just about to make a cup of coffee.” She pulls her walker aside and waves me in. “You want a cup before we watch our show? I think we’re judging pastry week today, isn’t that right?”
Nana Alice and I have a standing weekly date to watch reruns of The Great British Bake Off and act as amateur judges.
“Nana Alice, I can’t stay today,” I say apologetically. “Remember, Ethan and I are celebrating our anniversary?”
“Oh, that’s right.” Her eyes brighten with anticipation. “A big day ahead, we hope! Well then, you’d best get home and put on a nice dress.” She casts a pointed look at what she refers to as my lumberjack attire. She is a liberated modern woman but was still raised in a time when ladies never went out without a pressed skirt and combed hair.
“Here, I brought you some treats.” I offer her a small white Butter Emporium bag, and she peeks inside.
“Ooh, those buttermilk lemon bars are my favorite.”
“I made that batch, so taste them and tell me what you think. I think I got the filling right. It’s zesty, but the shortbread layer is a little tough.”
As I was growing up, Nana Alice was the domestic paragon by which I measured all else. For years she owned a bakery on the top of Queen Anne hill. It was called Alice’s Wonderland Bakery and featured a vaguely Carrollian theme with marzipan mushrooms and a stuffed white rabbit with red glass eyes—the rabbit was, in retrospect, rather unsettling. As a girl I loved to visit the bakery for a free butterscotch oatmeal cookie and a hug from Nana Alice, her apron always floury and stained with vanilla extract. Sometimes she would even let me operate the big stainless steel mixer.
“Tomorrow I’ve got medical tests all morning,” Nana Alice says, folding over the top of the bag. “These will be a perfect treat while I wait.”
“Tests for what? Is everything okay?”
She waves away my worry. “I’m sure it’s nothing. Just a mammogram and an ultrasound. When you get old, going to the doctor is a full-time job.” She sets the bag in the little basket on the front of Greased Lightning, then peers at me searchingly for a moment. “Are you ready if Ethan pops the question?”
I take a deep breath and nod. “Yes, I think so.” How could I not be ready? Any qualms I’ve had about our differing visions of the future I’ve laid aside long ago. After six years we’ve learned how to compromise. We’re good together. I love him. He loves me. It’s that simple.
“Good.” Nana Alice nods. She adores Ethan, who charmed her the first time they met by telling her she looks like Debbie Reynolds and bringing her dahlias he’d handpicked from a flower farm. Still, after six years, even she is chafing at the delay. “If we’re not judging pastry, I think I’ll head to the dining room for tea. There’s a piano concert starting right now. The pianist isn’t very good, but he tries, dear man.” Nana Alice zips her fleece and maneuvers Greased Lightning into the hall. “I’ll walk with you.”
As we amble slowly down the hallway, she sighs. “You know, I envy you a little, Mia. All of your life still before you. You can do anything, go anywhere. That’s a great gift. Time and youth and opportunity.”
I wince. “Yeah, if I could just figure out what I want to do.”
It’s a sore subject for me. In the four years since college graduation, I’ve cycled through a variety of volunteer positions and a few short stints in different careers, but nothing has been the right fit. I finally started the apprenticeship at the bakery, but while I adore baking, it just doesn’t feel big enough. I want to make a difference, change the world for the better. Making cookies doesn’t seem quite grand enough.
“Your parents still hope you’ll take over the farm one day,” Nana Alice says.
“I just can’t,” I sigh, feeling the weight of their hopes and bridling just a bit under the gentle pressure.
My parents run an organic lavender farm on the Olympic Peninsula a few hours from Seattle. It provided the setting for an idyllic childhood, but is not where I want to settle down as an adult. I don’t want to spend my days growing lavender and making honey. I envision a very different life, like my mother’s younger sister, my aunt Frances.
Aunt Frannie has spent the last twenty-five years crisscrossing sub-Saharan Africa with a small team and a portable dental clinic in a Land Cruiser, reaching remote areas. Fiercely smart, witty, and independent, she is my hero, living a life so different from my parents’ peaceful, ordered existence on the lavender farm.
I want to make the type of impact Aunt Frannie has made on people. I just have to figure out how exactly I can do that in a way that doesn’t involve crowns and molars and novocaine.
“I’ll figure it out someday, right?” I ask plaintively.
Nana Alice stops and takes my hand, her skin papery thin but her grip surprisingly strong. “My dear girl,” she says, looking me in the eye, “don’t be disheartened. You are a smart, gifted young lady with a tender heart. You were made to do good in this world. To love and be loved. Don’t you forget it.”
I glance away, blinking back the prickle of tears, and nod. She’s been giving me this pep talk practically since I was in diapers. I believe her, I just wish I could see the end result of all her faith and expectation.
“I think your concert is starting.” I gently place her hand back on Greased Lightning.
The opening strains of “I’ve Got You Under My Skin” drift across the lobby as we head toward the dining room. Outside the glass front doors rain drizzles steadily down. It’s going to be a wet ride home. An older gentleman in a trench coat and a trilby is just coming in. He opens the door with a gust of cool air, fumbling to maneuver an open red tartan umbrella through the doorway in front of him. Nana Alice stops to let him cross our path, but he doesn’t seem to see us. He gives the umbrella a thorough shake and then furls it sma
rtly, spraying both of us with a shower of raindrops.
“Gracious, watch where you’re going,” Nana Alice protests.
“Why ladies, my apologies.” He peers over the umbrella at us. Under the trilby his face is lined but good-humored, his pale blue eyes sharp. He looks about Nana Alice’s age. His figure is lean and he walks nimbly but with a slight stoop. “I didn’t see you there.” He tips his hat to us. “Albert Prentice. I just moved into 4B.”
Nana Alice gives him a startled look. “Albert Prentice?” she says. “I went to school with an Albert Prentice. Eleventh grade at Holy Cross. Sister Mary Teresa’s English class. I was Alice Freeman then.”
Albert takes a step back and removes his hat, holding it to his chest. “Alice Freeman,” he says slowly, almost reverently. “Of course I remember you. We performed a scene from Much Ado About Nothing. You were radiant as Beatrice.”
Nana Alice grips Greased Lightning and stands up a little straighter. “Well, your Benedick wasn’t half bad either, if I recall correctly.” She beams at Albert. “What a coincidence.” She pauses. “Are you here alone?”
His eyes cloud. “My wife, Jeanne, died three months ago. Heart failure. And my kids think I can’t manage on my own. Sixty years in our home in Laurelhurst, and now here I am.” He shakes his head and puts his hat back on. “It’s tough to start over at my age.”
Nana Alice reaches forward and grips his hand, her gaze sympathetic. “Albert, you are among friends here. You come by my table for dinner tonight. I’ll introduce you to everyone.”
Albert looks pleased. “It would be my pleasure. Thank you, Alice. That’s kind of you.” He releases her hand, tips his hat to us, and heads toward the east wing, his stride jaunty.
When he’s out of earshot, Nana Alice shakes her head in amazement. “Albert Prentice. Imagine that. And newly widowed, poor man.”
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