“No. What do they call him?” she asked me and I laughed.
“Monae, tell her what they call Dre.”
I didn’t want to be the one to say it, and I knew Monae would have no problem blurting it out.
“Big dick Dre,” she said and I burst out laughing.
“Oh hell, I already know that,” Toya said.
I sat up in the tub to do one last wash of my entire body.
“Toya! You didn’t!” Monae said in a shocked voice.
“No, we didn’t do anything, but I felt it before. That day I went to show him the house, he had me by my waist and the shit was literally touching my back. I couldn’t even say anything after I moved away from him because I was in a state of shock. A bitch had to act professionally because I was still on the clock, but I swear this dude is something else,” Toya said.
I smiled because I could hear it in her voice that she was slowly falling for Dre, even if she didn’t want to say it.
“Mommy, the food is ready. Someone is knocking on the door,” I heard my daughter say from behind the door.
“Okay, I’m coming now. Don’t answer it. Ladies, I’m going to talk to y’all tomorrow and we can probably link up for drinks or something.” I said to them as I got out of the tub.
“Okay, I’m down,” they both said.
After saying our “I love you’s,” I hung up the phone. I quickly dried off my body and threw on a tank top, without my bra, some panties, and my long pajama bottoms from Pink. I then went to the door to get our food. After getting the food from the man standing at the door, I tipped him and rolled the tray into the room.
In the kitchen area of the of the suite, I placed our food on the table. I placed China’s chicken tenders and fries on her side and my shrimp pasta on my side.
“China, come on so you can eat,” I called out to her.
She came to the table and sat down. After I finished praying over our food, we began to eat. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until now because this was the first time that I had eaten all day.
“Dang, Mommy,” my daughter said, laughing at how fast I was eating my food.
“Hush. Let me get one of your chicken tenders because I know you’re not going to eat it all,” I said and she laughed as she passed me one.
“Mommy, when are we going back to Daddy’s house because I miss him?” my daughter asked.
I immediately felt guilty for keeping her away from her father. China was under the impression that her daddy was out of town, but I guess since she hasn’t been in contact with him like she normally is, it started to make her wonder.
“I promise we will go and see Daddy tomorrow,” I told her, hoping that she would leave the conversation alone.
It wasn’t like I was lying or anything because the plan was to check out tomorrow, and then I was going to drop China off over Jaquan’s mother’s house and text him to let him know that he could pick up China. Then I was going to take my ass home.
After we finished our food, I cleaned up our area and then we went back to the bedroom, laid down together and watched TV. About another hour later, China was sleep, so I was able to turn the TV from cartoons and put something on for me. I searched through the TV guide until I came across the movie San Andreas and I decided to put it on. I wasn’t even thirty minutes into the movie before the TV was watching me.
3:11 A.M
I woke up to the sound of someone knocking on my room door. I looked over at my daughter and she was still knocked out. I was a light sleeper, so whoever it was at the door had easily woken me up from my nap. I got out of the bed, stepped into my house shoes and walked to the front of the room. I looked through the peephole and I didn’t see anyone, so I was about to get back in my bed. I figured that they were probably knocking on another door, but I thought that it was coming from mine.
It wasn’t until I heard the knock again that I realized someone was indeed knocking on my door. Against my better judgment, I opened up the door, not having the slightest idea was knocking because I couldn’t see anyone through the peephole.
“I think I taught your ass not to answer the doors this time of night, especially when you don’t know who the fuck it is,” I heard a voice say. I looked up and it was Jaquan standing there. He reached over and pulled me to him, putting a tight grip around my waist. “In a situation like this, if someone was knocking on the door and you couldn’t see who it was, then don’t answer that shit because clearly it’s a setup. What would you have done if I was a nigga coming here to kill your ass? You made it that easy for me to have access to kill your ass and my baby. Think smart the next time, Charlie,” Jaquan said and softly pushed my body away from him.
I breathed a sigh of relief because clearly, I wasn’t thinking straight.
I watched as he stepped into my hotel suite and I followed him. I stayed glued to the front of the room and I watched as he went over to China and placed a kiss on her forehead. She stirred a little bit in her sleep, but she never woke up. I was hoping that he was about to leave, but when I saw him walk toward the balcony, I knew that he wasn’t leaving so soon.
“Come out here with me,” he said.
I wanted to object but I was scared. The look on Jaquan’s face right now was telling me that he wasn’t in the mood and I could tell that he was somewhat aggravated with my whole disappearing act. I slowly walked outside on the balcony and joined him. Instead of sitting in the empty chair next to him, I opted to stand, just in case I had to make a run back into the room and lock his ass out there.
“Come sit down,” he ordered.
I shook my head no. “I don’t want to. I’ll stand,” I said, shifting my weight from one foot to the other.
Jaquan reached over from his seat, grabbed me by the front of my shirt and forced me into the chair next to him.
“Why you can’t just fuckin’ listen sometime, Charlie? And why do I have to hunt your ass down just to get in contact with you. If me and you beefing, that’s between you and me, don’t bring my daughter into our bullshit. You not gone have me out here looking like some deadbeat ass nigga that don’t take care of his seeds,” Jaquan fussed at me.
I kept bouncing my leg up and down because I was pissed that he was chastising me like I was some little kid.
“Are you done now?” I asked.
I no longer wanted to have this conversation with him. If anyone had the right to have an attitude, it would be me! I was the one who was lied to and embarrassed and had a video floating around of me fighting in public like I didn’t have any sense. From the outside looking in, most people would think that I fought her over Jaquan, but that wasn’t the case at all. I fought her because she had hit a nerve and I just took my anger out on her.
“Fuck you mean, are we done? Did I say that? Charlie, what the hell is wrong with you? Talk to me,” Jaquan said.
I sucked my teeth and looked at him like he was crazy.
“Do you really have to ask me that? You’re what’s wrong with me! You don’t respect me and you prove that shit to me every day. I don’t even look at other niggas the way that I look at you. Why can’t you give me the same amount of respect? It’s not like I asked for us to be together, we both came to a mutual agreement that it would be good if we got back together, but you doing shit to me that you never even did before,” I vented.
“So, what you trying to say?’ he asked, looking over at me with a mug on his handsome face.
“This rapping shit has changed you,” I said, and it killed me to say that.
“Get the fuck out of here with that shit, man,” he said and waved me off, but he never denied it either.
“I’m not even trying to argue with you, Jaquan. Just know who loved you before you became Quan. I loved you when you didn’t have nothing. If I had twenty dollars, I only had ten because ten would go to you, and that’s without saying. I did shit like that because I loved you and I supported you. I remember that night where we had to steal pampers out of Walgreens for China b
ecause we both didn’t have a steady income. I’m not trying to go down memory lane with you, Jaquan, just know that I was always there and that alone should speak for itself. You have proven to me that you don’t respect me as a woman because if you did, you wouldn’t have sent me over to that bitch in the first place.”
I got up from my seat and punched him dead in his chest. I had been holding that in since he came in here, and I felt relieved to finally take some of my anger out on him.
“Only because I know you pissed off, I’m going to let that punch slide. Hit me again and I’m slapping your ass back. You say I don’t respect you, but Charlie, answer me this. Who the fuck you think I’m doing this rapping shit for? Huh? What did I always tell you back in the day when we would just sit down and think about our future? I want to hear you say it,” he said.
I looked down at him. “You used to say that when you became rich and famous, you were going to make sure me and China never wanted for anything, and wouldn’t have to ever work a day in our lives,” I said, repeating something that he would always recite to me back in the days.
“Okay then, Charlie, I’m doing this shit for y’all! Baby, I’m human, and it’s going to be times when I fuck up, but I promise it’s never going to be my intention to hurt you. I can’t ever in my life see me loving another female the way I love you because we done been through so much. When I look at these bitches now, I can’t take them serious because five years ago, these bitches wouldn’t have given me the time of day. I know these bitches after my money, and I know that you’re after my heart, but you can stop chasing it because you already got it. I apologize for putting you in a fucked up situation, but baby I promise that I didn’t lie to you. For the life of me, I just couldn’t remember fuckin’ that girl, and I put that on my mama,” he said.
I believed his lying ass. I specialized in body language, and I’ve been knowing this nigga long enough to know when he is lying. For one, when Jaquan lies, like everybody else, he avoids eye contact and he talks with his hands. Right now, his hands were I his lap, which led me to believe that he was telling the truth.
“You go around fuckin’ all of these bitches and can’t even remember who the hell you fucked?’ I asked, getting pissed off.
I was a type of person, for whom some things were better left unsaid. I knew the type of nigga I was fuckin’ with, but damn, I didn’t think that it was this bad. His ass sounded like he needed to be in rehab for not knowing how to keep his dick in his pants. Was I not enough? Since Jaquan and I got back together, I was damn near fuckin’ him every night. He could come home I the wee hours of the morning from out of town or from a studio session wanting to fuck, and I gladly rolled over and gave it to him, but clearly that wasn’t enough either.
“It’s not even like that, Charlie. When you and I were apart, I was out here doing dumb shit. I mean, hell, I was single and constantly surrounded by pussy. Fuck I’m supposed to do, stare at the shit?” he asked.
I gave him a look, letting him know not to fuck with me.
“You tell them hoes the same shit you tell me when you’re fuckin’ me?” I asked him.
I know it may sound childish, but shit, I wanted to know. We had already gotten this far into the conversation, so I wanted to know. I wanted to know the type of shit that Mr. Quan himself does when I’m not around.
“Shit like what, Charlie?” he asked with a smirk on his face, but I was everything but playing with his ass right now.
“You know, shit like how my pussy is so wet and how it grips perfectly for you. Also, how much you love me and let’s not forget your favorite line when you tell me that you want me to have your baby. You know, shit like that! Do you tell them hoes that?” I asked, folding my arms across my chest and daring him to say yes because I swear I was going to punch his ass right in his shit.
“Hell no I don’t tell them hoes that shit. The only hoe I tell that to is you.” He laughed, but I didn’t find it funny, so I shoved him hard as hell in his chest and turned around so that I could go back into the room but he pulled me down into his lap, stopping me from making my exit.
“Chill, Charlie, I’m just fuckin’ with you, girl. I do a lot of shit, but I’ll never tell another bitch no shit like that while I’m fuckin’ her. Take me back and I promise I won’t even fuck another bitch. I know you probably think I’m lying, but I already done sampled too much pussy and I had enough. I’m at the point now where I want something of the same kind every night, and that’s you. You can’t be mad at me over this shit forever,” he said.
I just nodded my head. I wasn’t about to agree to anything yet because I needed to teach him some sort of lesson. I never wanted to come across as weak and so easy to forgive Jaquan because then he’ll take me for a joke and continue to do little shit that would hurt me.
“Now that I think about it, how did you even know where to find me?” I asked him, making myself comfortable on his lap.
“I heard your conversation with Monae. Yeah, I heard everything that came out your mouth. Where dude that was trying to talk to you at?” I made a mental note to get in Monae’s ass for lying about taking me off of speaker. Because of her, Jaquan was able to hear my conversation about dude and where I had been hiding.
I could tell that he was jealous and it caused me to smile. “He’s coming. We’re going on a date tomorrow,” I said, fuckin’ with him.
“You a damn lie, I heard you say on the phone that dude was a lame. Face it, baby, you’ll never find another nigga like me, so don’t even waste your time looking for him,” he said, cockily.
“That’s your problem right there, Jaquan. You underestimate me too much. You’re right, I won’t find another nigga like you because I might find one better who actually respects me and doesn’t continue to cheat on me. Move!” I tried to get up from his lap because he had pissed me off again just that quick.
“Ay, is your period on or something? Hold up, what’s today’s date because I got that shit saved in my phone.”
Jaquan lifted me up and I watched as he went into his pocket and pulled out his iPhone. He unlocked the phone and his background was a picture of China and I, with her sitting on my lap and kissing my cheek. He then went to his calendar and on March 13th, he had a title that said, “Charlie’s time,” which was short for Charlie’s time of the month. I knew Jaquan made it his business to ask about my periods, but damn, I didn’t think his ass went around saving notifications and shit to his damn phone.
“Todays the 17th. Your period on, ain’t it?”
For the first time all week, I realized that I was four days late, which was really no big deal.
“Actually, it’s not,” I said, looking down at him. I noticed a smile on his lips.
“Don’t start thinking anything because I think it has to do with the fact that I’ve been stressing these past few days.” At least, I hoped that was what it was.
“What I have to do to make you get unstressed?” he asked me.
I rolled my eyes at his corny ass. “You can start by making your way out of my suite so that I can get back in the bed with my baby.”
He looked at me and sucked his teeth. “You crazier than I thought if you think I’m about to leave y’all here alone, now that I know where y’all at. Come on, let’s go inside before China wake up and see us not in the room with her.”
I didn’t even object to him, I just nodded and led us back inside the suite. Jaquan walked over to the bed and picked China up and placed her in the middle of the bed. I went over to my side, kicked off my house shoes and got as far away on my side as possible. I had my back turned to them, but I felt the bed dip down, so that led me to believe that Jaquan was now in the bed.
“Charlie?’ Jaquan called out after I was finally able to get my eyes to close.
“Yes?” I answered lazily, never even opening my eyes.
“I love you, girl, and I’m going to do better,” he said.
I heard him, but actions speak louder than words, so,
in order for me to take what he just said into consideration, he was going to have to prove that he can be that perfect guy for me. If he couldn’t do that, then our main focus needed to be China and nothing less, nothing more. So, instead of replying to him, I just closed my eyes and finally took my ass back to sleep.
Chapter 9: Tracy
Word around town was that Charlie had found out that her grimy ass baby daddy wasn’t shit after all. I was a nosey nigga, so seeing shit on social media about Charlie beating another bitch up in the nail salon had me wanting to investigate and find out more shit. The perfect way to get at a woman is when she’s feeling vulnerable because she’s suffering from a broken heart. When I spotted Charlie the other day at the beach, I just knew that she would be so pissed off with that nigga, Quan, that she would be willing to at least hold a decent conversation with my ass, but boy was I wrong.
I wanted that bitch in the worst way, I wasn’t even going to lie. Mainly, I wanted her because she was a bad bitch, and the other reason is that I wanted her to help me set up her bitch ass baby daddy and rob his ass. Originally, the plan was to go through Chantel, but honestly, I didn’t trust that bitch. That hoe was going around trying to pin babies on niggas, so I didn’t know if I really wanted her a part of my team yet. Her greed for money mixed with mine would probably result in the two of us killing each other, and that was a chance I wasn’t willing to take.
I figured it would be easy to get with Charlie now, but the way she damn near ignored my ass led me to believe that she was still very much in love with that nigga. I had all type of plans running through my mind, and I just didn’t know what I wanted to do anymore. I wanted this rapping shit in the beginning because a nigga was trying to get this money. But now, I’m starting to see the bigger picture. Why not just set this nigga up and take him for everything he has? That way, I won’t have to worry about all these fuckin’ problems that these rappers go through nowadays. If that plan doesn’t work out, I’ll kidnap that pretty daughter of theirs and make that nigga pay up if he ever wants to see the little bitch again.
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