Turning into a big, furry cat was definitely a problem.
Chapter 2
Lissa stuck around over the next few weeks and tried to help him. She at least got him to the point where he could go to work with minimal issues, and if he started to freak out, could call her and she could talk him through his self-control.
Sex, was a different story. He always shifted when aroused, either right before, or directly after any kind of intense, sexual frenzy. While he was getting better control over his shifts in day to day life, it would screw up his love life for quite a while at this rate.
Lissa had been working with him slowly, at first, she had no intentions of getting sexually, or emotionally involved with him, but since his control was linked to his heightened emotional state, he had to learn to control himself better, and he let go when he was sexual. He let himself go wild, which was fine if you were with another cat, or shifter who didn’t mind, but a human would panic. Or he might accidentally turn another human and he had to be careful. As long as he didn’t have control over it, he wasn’t safe to be around humans without supervision.
She’d been toying with the idea of sending him away, to a refuge that specialized in helping human-turned shifters learn how to control their newfound powers. Problem was, he was anti-traveling and every time she brought it up, he resisted. She could also tell he was getting more and more attached to her, and she worried about the long-term ramifications.
Shifters mated for life, and he was not her mate. Whatever fun they might be able to have, to scratch an itch so to speak was just that. Fun. An itch to scratch. Not an emotional, long term relationship where she would profess her undying love to him and when he met his mate, or she met hers at some point in the future, it would get messy if they were more than just friends. It was easy to stop a sexual relationship, but if you let your brain and heart get entangled it wasn’t so simple.
The mating bond between shifters started with a mark on the shoulder, in the shape of a heart, over time, it would change colors as the mate bonding took deeper hold. She knew they weren’t mates. It would usually show up the first time you had sex…. And get darker over time.
She liked Jonas well enough, but she was glad he wasn’t her mate. He could be funny, and dramatic, and worried about little stuff. But at the same time, he was honorable and had good ethics.
Filing her nails, she was waiting for him to get home from work. When he came through the door, he looked tired.
“You okay there; J?” She asked him. She’d shortened his name to a single letter. He raised a brow and then nodded at her.
“Let me just change my clothes, do you care if I order a pizza, I just need something fattening for dinner. I’m grumpy.” He told her as he walked through his apartment. He hadn’t minded having her here, and she was a shifter. She had no roots of her own to call home, so she was staying put… for now. Until she was ready to move on again. He was grateful for everything she was doing for him, so having her here seemed like the least he could do while she was helping him.
She was a natural born shifter, not a bitten or scratched, so what he had to learn, came naturally to her and most born shifters. They learned as children and through puberty how to control their emotions and their sexuality and other animal instincts in order to have complete control over their shifts.
Jonas ordered the pizza, extra meat, and then took a quick shower while he waited for it to arrive.
“How was work today?” Lissa asked him when he came out of his bedroom, toweling off his hair.
He shrugged, “Fine I suppose. Just tired, the subway is crowded and I’m not a fan of being pushed around or jostled, and I find it difficult to not growl at people these days.”
“You are doing great though. You haven’t shifted in public, you’re able to go to work, and you can mostly control it for now. I’m proud of you!” Lissa told him and got up off the couch. She tossed the nail file onto the coffee table and walked over to him and put her fingers against his chest. She dug them in slightly, just enough for him to hiss out a breath.
She kissed him, her tongue teased his, and she started to yank on the buttons of his shirt. When they wouldn’t easily come undone, she gave it a hard tug and popped the buttons off, sending them flying across the room.
Jonas moaned softly, but didn’t complain about his ruined shirt. Lissa drug her nails down his skin, then used the palms of her hands to press and rub against his nipples. He didn’t have much chest hair for her to tug, but she moved on to his stomach, touching it. He was softer than most shifters. He needed to work out a little more, you could tell he sat behind a desk all day. But she didn’t let that stop her. Instead, she nipped at his shoulder with her sharp little teeth.
He brought his hands up to touch her hair, and massage the back of her neck, he knew what she wanted, and he was stressed out. He was working hard on controlling his shifts during sex, and he wanted a blow job. Pushing her head down, he guided her until she sank to her knees and then unzipped his pants. He guided himself to her mouth and buried his hands hard in her hair as he felt her lips parts and her tongue rub against the tip.
Moaning, he started to move his hips back and forth, rocking against her face as she swirled her tongue around his shaft. He grabbed her head and thrust himself deep down her throat as he groaned. He needed this, but he could feel the animalistic reins in his mind slowly giving over to the lion side of him. The side that would shift if he didn’t keep it on a tight leash. Focusing his attention on holding on to that mental leash, he focused on keeping human. While he also tried to relax and enjoy what Lissa was doing. It was always a challenge, When he came, he still almost always shifted directly afterwards, while his body was relaxed and his mind was complete mush.
Lissa toyed with him, taking her sweet time to bring him to orgasm. She used her tongue to rub against the underneath part of his cock, and swallowed him all the way to his balls. She massaged him softly, grabbing his stomach with one hand and pushed against his groin as the other hand cupped his balls softly. She applied pressure around his nuts to increase the pleasure he felt.
Feeling the pressure increase, he grunted and jerked against her face hard, as he came in her mouth. He growled deep in his throat, and before he knew what was happening, he’d stumbled back away from her and he started to shift. He tried to focus and force himself to stay human, but he lost the battle with his animal side and landed on all fours as a furry lion.
Sighing, he looked at her with a frustrated look on his face, as the doorbell rang for the pizza. His pants were shredded, as they didn’t fit his lion frame and she scooped his wallet up off the ground where it had fallen out of his pocket.
“I’ll just pay for the pizza. Go hide in the kitchen while I pay. And you owe me an orgasm,” Lissa told him and wagged a finger in his direction. “I really did think you were going to last this time without shifting, oh well. There’s always later.”
Jonas padded into the kitchen to sit down on the tile while Lissa grabbed the pizza and paid for it. A few minutes later she brought it into the kitchen and it made his nose twitch. He could smell it and he wanted to eat it as a human. He tried to force himself to shift back, but nothing happened.
Tilting his head, he furrowed his brow as he tried to concentrate to shift back.
“You’re trying too hard; I can see it. Relax, you want to be human, don’t fight the lion, be one with the lion.” Lissa set the pizza on the counter and didn’t bother with a plate. She grabbed a napkin and took out a slice, eating it in front of him and moaned softly as the hot cheese melted onto her tongue as she bit into a small piece of heaven. “Also, if you stay a lion, I’m eating the whole pizza….”
Jonas growled at her, but sat down, focusing on his human form and taking deep breaths. Eventually, he felt it roll over him, the way the magic hit his senses and tingled, and then finally, he was naked and human again.
Walking over to her naked, he yanked the third piece out of her hand bef
ore she could take a bite and bit into it, not giving her the satisfaction.
“My pizza,” he said and growled at her, but he meant it lightheartedly. He knew if it wasn’t for her, he wouldn’t even be able to stand here, eating this pizza, going to work during the daytime, or even making love to a beautiful redhead.
A while later after they’d devoured the pizza, Lissa looked at him more seriously and put her hand on his shoulder.
“Jonas, I have a friend… who has a retreat in Africa, I really think you should consider going there for a vacation for a while. They specialize in helping shifters who weren’t born shifters, to help them find their place in life. You’re doing great, all things considered, but I’m not sure it’s enough.” Lissa told him. She’d been thinking about this for a while, she was getting antsy to move on, but couldn’t just abandon him before he’d been helped. She liked helping people, but he needed more than she could handle.
“I don’t want to go on vacation!” Jonas told her and made a sour face at her. “I’m doing fine. I just need more time.”
“Okay, I can give you a few more weeks, but if you don’t have it under control before I need to move on, you need to seriously consider going. The shifter council will not tolerate an out of control shifter, and they will put you down. I’m here to help for now, but I have to move on eventually. As much as I enjoy your company, and I like you, I still have my own life to live.” Lissa told him and leaned over to soften her words with a kiss on his cheek. “Just think about it okay? Warm sunshine, gazelles to chase, water to frolic in, it may just be what you need.”
“I will think about it. I just haven’t had a vacation in a long time. I’m not sure I even know what to do with myself on one of those,” Jonas told her, raising an eyebrow as he tried to picture the African savannah.
“You relax, soak in the sun, socialize with sexy women. Drink some alcohol and have fun.” Lissa said laughing and rubbed his naked chest with her hand. “I think you’ll be able to figure it out once your there, and my friend Amanda who owns the resort with her family is very good at what she does.”
“And what is that exactly?” Jonas asked, raising his brows.
“Helping shifters. Not like me, I do it… dirty style.” Lissa winked at him. “Amanda is all about Zen and the Asian arts of mediation. She’d make a monk go insane with how calm she usually is, and she’s been very successful in her endeavors to help shifters who are extreme cases.”
“You think I’m an extreme case?” Jonas asked her, feeling shocked.
Lissa shrugged, “I think that you are a high-stress person, who is more emotional than he realizes, and he is very in touch with his animalistic side. That’s not a bad thing, but as a lion shifter, can be dangerous.”
“So you’re saying I’m a danger?”
“I’m saying you have the potential to be a large, out of control animal if you lost control and gave into your lion before you realized what damage you were causing. I would hate to see you be put down. I think you need to learn to meld your lion and your human side together, so your human side is ultimately always in control.” Lissa told him. “You have a lot of potential J, I want to see you reach it.”
“And why would this retreat help me more than you?” Jonas was confused, but he could understand her concerns. He’d had plenty of them on his own and knew that he often felt like a walking time-bomb waiting to explode.
“I don’t even think it’s so much that I can’t help you, but the amount of time that it takes. Amanda can invest more time in you than I can. I get the itch to wander. I need to leave soon Jonas, and if you’re not ready by the time I go… well you’re a liability to yourself.” Lissa told him softly. She searched his face, hoping it sunk in.
“I get it, but I don’t want to talk about it anymore.” Jonas said gruffly, then changed the subject, “didn’t you say I owed you an orgasm, or five?”
Lissa laughed, and nodded. She squealed when he scooped her up in his arms and carried her to his bedroom.
Chapter 3
Jonas had his arm curled around Lissa, she was asleep, her head on his shoulder. He’d spent the whole night pleasuring her, and woke up tired. He’d managed to give her a few orgasms before he got so excited he shifted again, and then he’d managed to shift back, screw her brains out, and keep from shifting after sex. He was feeling all proud of himself because of his self-control.
He woke her up before his alarm went off for him to go to work for the day, nibbling on her arm. He worked his way down on her belly, and she moaned softly, still half asleep. He spread her legs and buried himself between them. Jonas used his tongue to caress her lips, skimming across the top of her clit. A soft moan escaping her throat in her dream addled mind. She spread her legs opening herself to his attention. He used his lips to suck her clit between his teeth and held it there while his tongue flicked across the head. Her hips twitched towards his mouth every time he made contact. He sucked the sensitive nub between his teeth and lips, letting his tongue roll around it like he was having the best ice cream cone of his life. Bringing his hand up under her ass, he supported her, so he could get a better angle. Jonas brought his other hand up to insert two fingers inside her now swollen, wet mound. Her pussy was tight and he could feel her squeeze his fingers as he massaged her insides gently. He brought her to the edge of a climax and then backed off and licked her thigh, letting her climax fall back down without ever cresting the top. He wasn’t ready for her to cum, just yet.
As soon as she relaxed at bit, he would suck her clit back into his mouth, his fingers digging into her. Her hips were pumping his fingers like a small cock, trying to get more of him into her. He’d quickly learned how to bring her close to the edge of climax, without letting her fall over the edge. He wanted her to explode, but only when he was ready. She was so responsive and her little noises encouraged him. He pulled his fingers from inside her, and grabbed her knees, pushing them up to her chest giving him access to her cute rosebud. He swirled his tongue around it, feeling it pucker from the excitement. He pushed his tongue into her ass, while his nose mashed into her swollen pussy. Jonas used his nose to flick her clit and keep his tongue pushing into her ass. Her hips were bucking, but he used her knees to keep her firmly pinned to the bed. She was nearing an orgasm again, so he pulled back to let her calm herself. She’d shift her body, be vocal, and tell him what she liked or didn’t like. He liked communication in a partner, and she didn’t play games.
He placed her knees over his shoulders and lowered his mouth back to her super-heated lips. He licked her lips softly as he brought his fingers back to her opening. He pushed two fingers into her hot soaked opening. He found the spongy flesh deep inside her vagina and pushed with two fingers, stroking at it until she started quivering. He knew she’d squirt on his hands if he pressed hard and wiggled with his fingers, so he took her to the brink. Switching his movements he held her at the verge of orgasm for a bit. Moans tearing from her throat, her head thrashing from side to side. She was ready, and he was willing to let her have this one. Right before she came, he pulled his mouth away from her clit, pressed hard, so he could watch her squirt all over his hand and wrist and then bit the inside of her thigh. She liked it a little rough and he bit her just hard enough to leave a red mark.
She screamed, her orgasm tearing through her. Her juices flowed freely and her hips bucked up hard. Juices sprayed forth from her clit to coat his wrist. Her orgasm so strong that she splashed her fluids across Jonas’s face, as well. Her muscles clamped down painfully around his fingers. Pulling his hand out, he grabbed her and pushed her down, spreading her legs with his knees. In one deep thrust, he took her. Burying himself to the hilt, he moved fast and hard, pounding his cock deep into her. His head was bashing into her cervix, causing her to moan loudly when it hit. Her eyes snapped open and locked to his when his hand circled her throat. His grip held tight as he pounded his hips into hers. She was thrusting her own hips to meet his, moaning louder which each thru
st. She wrapped her legs around Jonas and used them to pull him deeper into her. She started to quiver and thrash about on the bed, impaled on his cock. Screaming out another orgasm, she squirted again covering his lower stomach with her hot sticky juice. He slammed his cock into her, a growl rumbling from his throat as he fucked her and bringing himself to his own climax. He released her throat and sat up, his cock was being gripped by her muscles milking his cock. Right before he came, he pulled out, and grabbed his cock. His fist pumping the shaft as he let his orgasm take over. Jonas watched his seed spill all over her flat stomach.
She giggled as he let his cock hit her flesh and lay there against her as he recovered his breath. Watching her cum made him hot, and hard. After a few minutes, they both stared at each other. They realized he hadn’t shifted. He stayed human.
He got off the bed and did a little jig, making her laugh harder. She propped herself up on her elbows to stare at him, surprised.
“You didn’t shift!” She said, praising him.
“I didn’t even think about it, I was so busy on what I was doing with you, I didn’t even have time to think about being a lion.” He told her.
“Maybe that’s your problem, you can’t ever let go of the fear of shifting, and it turns into a self-fulfilling prophecy.” She told him, musing. “I’m going to take a shower. Your task is to shift into a lion on purpose, then shift back to a human, and join me in the shower before work. Chop, Chop!”
Jonas nodded, watching her go naked into his bathroom. She really did have the nicest ass he’d seen in a while. Her long legs and red hair with her pale white skin really made her stand out in a crowd. She was gorgeous and though he knew their arrangement was temporary, he was grateful for the experiences he was having with her.
Getting off the bed, he focused on his lion, trying to shift. After a few minutes of standing there, he was puzzled. He couldn’t shift. He tried again, his lion was silent, the magic felt gone. He tried for a good twenty minutes and nearly broke out in a sweat as he tried to force himself to change.
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