With his feet tap-dancing over the floor, he shuffled backward to the wall; the corpse on the other side uttered a short exhalation:⦠aaâ¦
And Tommy sawâ¦
A little elephant, an animated elephant, and here comes (toooot) the BIG elephant and then⦠trunks up!⦠and toot “A” and then Magnus, Brasse, and Eva enter and sing “There! Is Here! Where you are not⦔
No, how did it goâ¦
The corpse must have bumped into the stack of boxes because he could hear thuds, the rattle of stereo equipment that fell to the floor, as Tommy slid up against the wall, hitting the back of his head and seeing a kind of static. Through the roar he could hear the smack of stiff, bare feet walking across the floor, searching.
Here. Is There. Where you are not. No. Yes.
Just like that. He wasn’t here. He couldn’t see himself, couldn’t see the thing that was making the noise. So it was only sound. It was just something he was listening to as he stared into the black mesh of the speaker. This was something that didn’t even exist.
Here. Is There. Where you are not.
He almost started to sing out loud, but a sensible remnant of his consciousness told him not to. The white buzz started to die down, leaving an empty surface where he started to stack new thoughts, with effort.
The face. The face.
He didn’t want to think about its face, did not want to think aboutâ¦
Something about the face that had been momentarily illuminated by the lighter.
It was getting closer. Not only did the footsteps sound closer, now hissing across the floor, no, he could feel its presence like a shadow more impenetrable than the darkness.
He bit down on his lower lip until he tasted blood, shut his eyes. Saw his own two eyes disappear out of the picture like twoâ¦
Eyes.
It doesn’t have eyes.
A faint breeze on his face as a hand went through the air.
Blind. It is blind.
He wasn’t sure, but the lump on the creature’s shoulders had not had any eyes.
When the hand went through the air again Tommy felt the caress of air on his cheek one tenth of a second before it reached him, had time to turn his face so the hand only brushed against his hair. He finished the movement and threw himself flat on the floor, started to snake along the floor with his hands circling in front of him, swimming.
The lighter, the lighterâ¦
Something poked into his cheek. A wave of nausea when he realized it was the thing’s toenail, but he quickly rolled over so he wouldn’t be in the same place when the hands came groping for him.
Here. Is There. Where I am not.
An involuntary chuckle issued from his mouth. He tried to stop it, but couldn’t. Saliva sprayed out of his mouth and out of his hoarse-from-screaming throat came hiccoughs of laughter or crying, while his hands, two radar beams, continued searching the floor for the only advantage he maybe, maybe had over the darkness that wanted to devour him.
God, help me. Let the light of thy face.. . God⦠sorry about that thing in church, sorry about⦠everything. God. I will always believe in you, however you want, if you just⦠let me find the lighter⦠be my friend, please God.
Something happened.
At the same moment that Tommy felt the thing’s hand flailing across his foot the room was illuminated for a split second with blue-white light, like from a flash, and during that split second Tommy really did see the boxes that had tumbled to the floor, the uneven surface of the walls, the passageway into the storage rooms.
And he saw the lighter.
It was only one meter from his right hand, and when the darkness engulfed him again the location of the lighter was burned onto the inside of his eyelid. He yanked his foot from the thing’s grip, flung his arm out and managed to grab the lighter, held it firmly in his hand, jumped up onto his feet.
Without thinking about whether it was too much to ask, he started to chant a new prayer inside his head.
Let the thing he blind, God. Let it he blind. God. Let it be blindâ¦
He flicked the lighter. A flash, like the one he just experienced, then a yellow flame with a blue center.
The thing stood still, turned its head toward the sound. Started to walk in that direction. The flame flickered when Tommy slid two steps to the side and arrived at the door. The thing stopped where Tommy had been three seconds earlier.
If he had been able to feel joy, he would have. But in the weak light from the lighter everything suddenly became mercilessly real. It was no longer possible to escape into some fantasy that he was really not here at all, that this wasn’t happening to him.
He was locked into a soundproofed room with the thing he was most afraid of. Something turned in his stomach but there was nothing more to be emptied. All that came was a little fart and the thing turned its head again, toward him.
Tommy pulled at the wheel of the locking mechanism with his free hand so that the hand holding the lighter trembled, and the flame went out. The wheel didn’t budge, but out of the corner of his eye Tommy had had time to see how the thing was coming toward him and he threw himself away from the door, in the direction of the wall where he had been sitting before.
He sobbed, snuffled.
Let this end. God, let it end.
Again the big elephant who raised his hat and with his nasal voice said:
This is the eeeend! Blow the trumpet, trunk, tooootl This is the end!
I’m going crazy, I⦠itâ¦
He shook his head, flicked the lighter on again. There on the floor in front of him was the trophy. He bent over, picked it up, and jumped a few steps to the side, kept going toward the other wall. Looked at the thing groping the space where he had just been.
Blind man’s bluff.
The lighter in one hand, the trophy in the other. He opened his mouth to say something but only managed a hoarse whisper.
“Come on, then⦔
The thing appeared alert, turned around, came toward him.
He raised Staffan’s trophy like a club and when the creature was half a meter away he swung it at its face.
And like in a perfect penalty kick in soccer, when at the same moment as your foot meets the ball you feel that this one⦠this one has hit the spot exactly, Tommy felt the same thing already halfway into his swing, that—
Yes!
â and when the sharp stone corner met the thing’s temple with a force that continued in an arc along Tommy’s arm, he was already feeling triumph. It was only a confirmation of this feeling when the skull crumpled and with a crack of splitting ice, cold liquid splashed onto Tommy’s face and the thing crashed to the ground.
Tommy remained in place, panting. Looked at the body that was laid out on the ground.
He has an erection.
Yes. The thing’s penis was sticking out like a minimal, half overturned gravestone and Tommy stood there staring, waiting for it to wilt. It didn’t. Tommy wanted to laugh, but his throat hurt too much.
A throbbing pain in his thumb. Tommy looked down. The lighter had started to burn the skin on his thumb that was holding the gas tab down. Instinctively he let go. But his thumb didn’t obey him. It was locked in a cramp over the tab.
He turned the lighter the other direction. Didn’t want to turn it off anyway. Didn’t want to be left in the dark with thisâ¦
A movement.
And Tommy felt how something important, something he needed in
order to be Tommy, left him when the creature lifted its head again, and started to get up.
An elephant balancing on the little, little thread of a spiderweb!
The thread broke. The elephant fell through.
And Tommy hit again. And again.
After a while he started to think it was fun.
MONDAY
9 November
Morgan walked through the controls, waved the monthly pass that had expired six m
onths ago, while Larry dutifully stopped and pulled out a wrinkled coupon strip and said “Angbyplan.”
The ticket collector looked up from the book he was reading, stamped two coupon spaces. Morgan laughed when Larry came over to him and they started to walk down the stairs.
“What the hell do you bother to do that for?”
“What? Get my ticket stamped?”
“Yeah. It’s not like you’re some model citizen.”
“It’s not that.”
“What is it?”
“I’m not like you, OK?”
“But come on⦠the guy was just⦠you could have shown him a picture of the king for all he cared.”
“Yes, fine. Quit talking so loud.”
“Think he’s going to come after us or something?”
Before they opened the doors down to the platform Morgan cupped his hands into a makeshift megaphone and shouted back up to the station hall: “Alert! Alert! Illegal riders!”
Larry slunk away, taking a few steps toward the platform. When Morgan reached him he said:
“You’re pretty childish, you know that?”
“Absolutely. Now, run the whole thing by me again. From the top.”
Larry had called Morgan already that night and given a summary of what Gosta had told him ten minutes earlier on the telephone. They had agreed to meet at the subway station early in the morning in order to go to the hospital.
Now Larry went over it all again. Virginia, Lacke, Gosta, the cats. The ambulance that Lacke had climbed into with her. Added a few extra details of his own, and before he was done the subway train to the city arrived. They got on and claimed a four-seater for themselves, and Larry finished his story with:
“⦠and then it drove off with sirens going full blast.”
Morgan nodded, chewing on a thumbnail, looking out of the window while the train climbed out of the tunnel, stopped at Iceland Square.
“What the hell made them go off like that?”
“You mean the cats? I don’t know. Something made them all crazy.”
“But all of them? And at the same time?”
“You have a better suggestion?”
“No. Damn cats. Lacke must be completely crushed and all.”
“Mm. Wasn’t doing so great before either.”
“No,” Morgan sighed. “I feel damned sorry for the guy, actually. We should⦠I don’t know. Do something.”
“What about Virginia?”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah. But you know, being injured. Sick. What can you do. You have to lie there. The hard part is sitting next to the bed and⦠no, I don’t know, but he was right⦠last time, when he⦠what the hell did he ramble on about? Werewolves?”
“Vampires.”
“Yeah. That’s not a sign that you’re doing so damned great, is it?”
The train pulled into the Angbyplan station. When the doors closed Morgan said:
“There. Now we’re in the same boat.”
“I think they’re more lenient if you have at least two stamped sections.”
“That’s what you think. But you don’t know.”
“Did you see the results of the poll? For the Swedish Communist Party?”
“Yes, yes. It’ll straighten itself out after the election. There’re a lot of people, who are leftist at heart, that when they stand there with the ballot still vote according to their conscience.”
“That’s what you think.”
“No. I know. The day the Communists are pushed out of parliament is the day I start believing in vampires. But of course: there’s always the conservatives. Bohman and his lot, you know. Talk about bloodsuckers⦔
Morgan launched into one of his monologues. Larry stopped listening somewhere near Akeshov. There was a lone police officer outside the greenhouses, looking up at the subway. Larry felt a brief pang of conscience when he thought about his understamped ticket, but immediately suppressed the thought when he remembered why the police were there.
But this police officer looked simply bored. Larry relaxed; the occasional word in Morgan’s rambling made its way into his consciousness while they thundered on toward Sabbatsberg.
***
A quarter to eight, and no nurse had yet appeared.
The dirt-gray strip of light on the ceiling had turned light gray, and the blinds let in enough light to make Virginia feel like she was on a tanning bed. Her body was hot, throbbed, but that was all. It wouldn’t get any worse.
Lacke lay in the bed next to her, snarling, chewing in his sleep. She was ready. If she had been able to press a button to summon a nurse, she would have done so. But her hands were bound and she couldn’t.
So she waited. The heat in her skin was painful, not excruciating. What was worse was the constant effort to try to stay awake. One moment’s forgetfulness and her breathing stopped, lights started to go off in her head with increasing speed, and she had to open her eyes wide and shake her head in order to get them to turn on again.
At the same time, this necessary wakefulness was a blessing; it stopped her from having to think. All her mental energy went to keeping herself awake. There was no room for hesitation, regret, an alternative.
The nurse came in at exactly eight o’clock.
When she opened her mouth to say “Good morning, how are we today!” or whatever it was that nurses said in the morning, Virginia hissed: “Shhhhhh!”
The nurse closed her mouth with a surprised click, and she frowned when she walked through the dim room to Virginia’s bed, leaned over her and said, “and how-”
“Shhh!” Virginia whispered. “Sorry, but I don’t want to wake him up.” She made a gesture with her head in Lacke’s direction.
The nurse nodded, said in a lower voice, “No, of course not. But I need to take your temperature and a little blood.”
“Sure, whatever. But could you⦠take him out first?”
“Take him⦠do you want me to wake him up?”
“No. But if you could⦠roll him out while he’s still sleeping.”
The nurse looked at Lacke as if to determine if it was even physically possible, then smiled, shook her head and said: “I think this will be alright. We’ll take your temperature orally, so you don’t have to feel⦔
“It’s not that. Couldn’t you just⦠do what I’m asking?”
The nurse cast a glance at her watch.
“You’ll have to excuse me, but I have other patients and I-”
Virginia snapped, as loud as she dared:
“Please!”
The nurse took half a step back. She had clearly been informed of Virginia’s actions during the night. Her eyes quickly went to the bindings holding Virginia’s arms. She appeared to be reassured by what she saw, went back up to the bed. Now she talked to Virginia as if she was weak in the head.
“You see⦠I need⦠we need, in order to be able to help you get better again, just a little⦔
Virginia closed her eyes, sighed, gave up. Then she said: “Would you be so kind as to open the blinds?”
The nurse nodded and walked over to the window. Virginia took the opportunity to kick off the blanket, exposing her body. Held her breath. Kept her eyes tightly shut.
It was over. Now she wanted to turn off. The same function she had been resisting all morning she now consciously tried to let forth. But she
couldn’t. Instead she experienced that thing that you heard about: seeing your life pass before you like a strip of film in fast forward.
The bird I had in the cardboard box⦠the smell of freshly mangled sheets in the laundry room⦠my mother leaning over the cinnamon bun crumbs⦠my father⦠the smoke from his pipe⦠Per⦠the cottage⦠Len and I, the big mushroom we found that summer⦠Ted with mashed blueberries on his cheek⦠Lacke, his back⦠Lackeâ¦
A clattering noise as the blinds were raised, and she was sucked down into a sea of fire.
***
/> Oskar’s mom had woken him up at ten past seven, the usual. He had climbed out of bed and had breakfast, as usual. He had put his clothes on and then hugged his mom goodbye at half past seven, as usual.
He felt like normal.
Filled with anxiety, dread, sure. But even that wasn’t unusual when he was heading back to school after the weekend.
He packed his geography book, the atlas, and the photocopy he had not finished. Was ready at twenty-five minutes to eight. Didn’t need to leave for fifteen minutes. Should he sit down and do that worksheet anyway? No. Didn’t have the energy.
He sat down at his desk, stared at the wall.
This must mean he wasn’t infected? Or was there an incubation period? No. That old man⦠that had only taken a few hours.
I’m not infected.
He should be happy, relieved. But he wasn’t. The phone rang.
Eli! Something has happened toâ¦
He shot up from the table, out into the hall, yanked up the telephone receiver.
“HithisisOskar!”
“Oh⦠hello there.”
Dad. It was only Dad.
“Hi.”
“Well, so⦠you’re at home.”
“About to leave for school.”
“Right, in that case I won’t⦠Is your mother home?”
“No, she’s left for work.”
“I see, I thought as much.”
Oskar got it. That was why he was calling at this strange time: because he knew Mom wasn’t home. His dad cleared his throat.
“So I was thinking⦠about what happened Saturday night. It was a bit⦠unfortunate.”
“Yes.”
“Yes. Did you tell your mother about⦠what happened?”
“What do you think?”
There was silence on the other end. The static crackle from one hundred kilometers of telephone lines. Crows sitting on them, shivering, while people’s conversations darted past under their feet. His dad cleared his throat again.
“You know, I asked about those ice skates and it worked out. You can have them.”
“I have to go now.”
“Yes, of course. Hope you⦠have a good day at school.”
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