Her penance done, she put away all the brooms, mops, vacuum cleaner, cans of soap and wax, bottles of detergent, brushes, dustpan, pail, rags, sponges, and whisks. She undressed in the bedroom while her bath was running. She went into the kitchen, swallowed several vitamin and mineral pills, capsules of this and that. A Valium. A salt tablet.
She started to pour a glass of wine, but changed her mind before opening the bottle. Instead, she poured vodka on the rocks. A big one. Like Maddie. She took that into the bathroom with her.
She eased cautiously into the hot tub. Added scented oil to the water. She floated, sipping her iced vodka. Her weariness became a warm glow. She looked down at her wavering body through half-closed eyes.
“I love you,” she murmured aloud, and wondered who she addressed: Kenneth, Ernest Mittle, or herself. She decided it didn’t matter; the words had a meaning of then-own. They were important. “I love you.”
Ernest Mittle arrived promptly at noon on Sunday, May 25th. He brought an enormous bunch of daffodils, so large that Zoe could fill vases in the living room and bedroom, with a few stalks left over for the kitchen. The golden yellow brought sunlight into her dark apartment.
She had prepared a Sunday brunch of Bloody Marys, scrambled eggs with Canadian bacon, hot biscuits, a watercress salad, and a lemon ice for dessert. She also served chilled May wine with a fresh strawberry in each glass.
They sat at the seldom used dining table, a small oval of mahogany with four ladder-back chairs set before the living room window. The china and plated silver service had been wedding gifts. Zoe had bought the crystal salad bowl and napery after she moved to New York.
Ernest complimented her enthusiastically on everything: the shining apartment, the dining table prepared just so, the excellence of the food, the fruity, almost perfumed flavor of the wine.
“Really,” Zoe said, “it’s nothing.”
They were at ease with each other, talking animatedly of their jobs, summer clothes they were thinking of buying, TV shows they had seen.
They spoke as old friends, for already they were learning each other’s habits, likes and dislikes, prejudices and fancies. And they were building a fund of mutual memories: the dinner at the Italian restaurant, the Kurnitz party, the meatloaf Ernest had made, the balloon in Central Park.
Each recollection was in itself insignificant, but made meaningful by being shared. They knew this pleasant brunch would be added to their bank of shared experience, and seemed all the more precious for that. An occasion to be savored and recalled.
After the brunch, Ernest insisted on helping Zoe clear the table. In the kitchen, she washed and he dried, and it seemed the most natural thing in the world. He even replaced all the clean dishes and cutlery in their proper racks in the correct cupboards.
Then they moved to the living room. The May wine was finished, but Zoe served vodka-and-tonics, with a wedge of fresh lime in each. She brought her little radio in from the bedroom, and found a station that was featuring Mantovani.
The dreamy music played softly in the background. They sprawled comfortably, sipping their iced drinks. They smiled at each other with satiety and ease. It seemed to them they recaptured the mood they had felt in the park: they owned the world.
“Will you be getting a vacation?” he asked casually.
“Oh yes. Two weeks.”
“When are you taking it?”
“I haven’t decided yet. They’re very good about that. I can take off in June, July, or August.”
“Me, too,” he said. “I get two weeks. I usually go home for a few days. Sometimes a week.”
“I do, too.”
“Zoe …” he said.
She looked at him questioningly.
“Do you think … Would it be possible for us to go somewhere together? For a week, or maybe just a weekend? Don’t get me wrong,” he added hastily. “Not to share a room or anything like that. I just thought it might be fun to be together this summer for a while in some nice place.”
She pondered a moment, head cocked.
“I think that’s a fine idea,” she said. “Maybe somewhere on Long Island.”
“Or New England.”
“There’s a woman in the hotel who arranges tours and cruises and things like that. I could ask her to recommend some nice place.”
“No swinging resorts,” he said. “Where we’d have to dress up and all.”
“Oh no,” she said. “A quiet place on the beach. Where we can swim and walk and just relax.”
“Right!” he said. “With good food. And not too crowded. It doesn’t have to be supermodern with chrome and glitter and organized activities.”
“Nothing like that,” she agreed. “Maybe just an old, family-run tourist home or motel. Where no one would bother us.”
“And we could do whatever we want. Swim and walk the beach. Collect shells and driftwood. Explore the neighborhood. I’d like that.”
“I would, too,” she said. She took their glasses into the kitchen and brought them fresh drinks. “Ernie,” she said, sitting alongside him on the couch and taking his hand, “what you said about our not sharing a room—I was glad you said that. I suppose you think I’m some kind of a prude?”
“I don’t think anything of the sort.”
“Well, I’m not. It’s just that going away together would be such a—such a new thing for us. And sharing a room would just make it more complicated. You understand?”
“Of course,” he said. “That’s exactly what I think. Who knows—if we’re together for three days or a week, I might drive you batty.”
“Oh no,” she protested. “I think we’ll get along very well and have a good time. I just don’t think we should, you know, start off knowing we were going to sleep together. I’d be very nervous and embarrassed.”
He looked at her with admiration.
“Just the way I feel, Zoe. We’re so much alike. We don’t have to rush anything or do anything that might spoil what we’ve got. Don’t you feel that way?”
“Oh, I do, Ernie, I do! You’re so considerate.”
She had turned to look at him. He seemed a quiet, inoffensive man, no more exciting than she. But she saw beauty in his clear features and guileless eyes. There was a clean innocence about him, an openness. He would never deceive her or hurt her; she knew that.
“I don’t want you to think I’m sexless,” she said intently.
“Zoe, I could never think that. I think you’re a very deep, passionate woman.”
“Do you?” she said. “Do you really? I’m not very modern, you know. I mean, I don’t hop around from bed to bed. I think that’s terrible.”
“It’s worse than terrible,” he said. “It just reduces everyone to animals. I think sex has to be the result of a very deep emotional need, and a desire for honest intimacy.”
“Yes,” she said. “And physical love should be gentle and tender and sweet.”
“Correct,” he said, nodding. “It should be something two people decide to share because they really and truly love each other and want to, uh, give each other pleasure. Happiness.”
“Oh, that’s very true,” she said, “and I’m so glad you feel that way. It’s really valuable, isn’t it? Sex, I mean. You just don’t throw it around all over the place. That cheapens it.”
“It makes it nothing,” he said. “Like, ‘Should we have another martini or should we go to bed?’ It really should mean more than that. I guess I’m a romantic.”
“I guess I am, too.”
“You know what’s so wonderful, dear?” he said, twisting around to face her. “It’s that with both of us feeling this way, we found each other. With the millions and millions of people in the world, we found each other. Don’t you think that’s marvelous?”
“Oh yes, darling,” she breathed, touching his cheek.
“Just think of the odds against it! I know I’ve never met a woman like you before.”
“And I’ve never met a man like you.”
He kissed her palm.
“I’m nothing much,” he said. “I know that. I mean, I’m not tall and strong and handsome. I suppose someday I’ll be making a good living, but I’ll never be rich. I’m just not—not ruthless enough. But still, I don’t want to change. I don’t want to be greedy and cruel, out for all I can get.”
“Oh no!” she cried. “Don’t change, Ernie. I like you just the way you are. I don’t want you different. I couldn’t stand that.”
They put their drinks aside. They embraced. It seemed to them they were huddling, giving comfort to each other in the face of catastrophe. As survivors might hold each other, in fear and in hope.
“We’ll go away together this summer, darling,” she whispered. “We’ll spend every minute with each other. We’ll swim and walk the beach and explore.”
“Oh yes,” he said dreamily. “Just the two of us.”
“Against the world,” Zoe Kohler said, kissing him.
Something was happening. Zoe Kohler read it in the newspapers, heard it on radio, saw it on TV. The search for the Hotel Ripper had been widened, the investigating force enlarged, the leads being followed had multiplied.
More important, the police were now discussing publicly the possibility that the killer was a woman. The “Daughter of Sam” headline was revived. Statements were issued warning visitors to midtown Manhattan of the dangers of striking up acquaintance with strangers, men or women, on the streets, in bars and cocktail lounges, in discos and restaurants.
The search for the slayer took on a new urgency. The summer tourist season was approaching; the number of canceled conventions and tours was increasing. Newspaper editorialists quoted the dollar loss that could be expected if the killer was not quickly caught.
Surprisingly, there was little of the public hysteria that had engulfed the city during the Son of Sam case. One columnist suggested this might be due to the fact that, so far, all the victims had been out-of-towners.
More likely, he added, familiarity with mass murder had dulled the public’s reaction. The recent Chicago case, with more than a score of victims, made the Hotel Ripper of minor interest. There now seemed to be an intercity competition in existence, similar to the contest to build the highest skyscraper.
But despite the revived interest of the media in the Hotel Ripper case, Zoe could find no evidence that the police had any specific information about the killer’s identity. She was convinced they were no closer to solving the case than they had been after her first adventure.
So what happened to her on the afternoon of May 28th came as a numbing shock.
Mr. Pinckney had originally obtained the Chemical Mace for her as a protection against muggers and rapists. She did not want to risk telling him it had been used, lying about the circumstances, and asking him to supply another container. So she said nothing. The Mace wasn’t an absolute necessity; a knife was.
She had purchased her Swiss Army pocket knife at a cutlery shop, one of a chain, in Grand Central Station. This time she determined to buy a heavier knife at a different store of the same chain. During her lunch hour, she walked over to Fifth Avenue and 46th Street.
An enormous selection of pocket knives, jackknives, and hunting knives was offered. Zoe waited patiently at the counter while the customer ahead of her made his choice. She was bemused to see that he picked a Swiss Army knife, but with more blades than the one she had owned.
While the clerk was writing up the sales check, he said, “Could I have your name and address, sir? We’d like to send you our mail-order catalog. Absolutely no charge, of course.”
The customer left his name and address. Then it was Zoe’s turn.
“I’d like a pocket knife as a gift for my nephew,” she told the clerk. “Nothing too large or too heavy.”
He laid out several knives for her inspection. She selected a handsome instrument with four blades, a horn handle, and a metal loop at one end for clipping onto a belt or hanging from a hook.
She paid for her purchase in cash, deciding that if the clerk asked for her name and address, she would give him false identity. But he didn’t ask.
“I heard you offer to send that other customer your mail-order catalog,” she said as the clerk was gift-wrapping her knife.
“Oh, we don’t have a catalog,” he said. He looked around carefully, then leaned toward her. “We’re cooperating with the police,” he whispered. “They want us to try and get the name and address of everyone who buys a Swiss Army knife. And if we can’t get their names, to jot down a description.”
Zoe Kohler was proud of her calmness.
“Whatever for?” she asked.
The clerk seemed uncomfortable. “I think it has something to do with the Hotel Ripper. They didn’t really tell us.”
Walking back to the Hotel Granger, the new knife in her purse, Zoe realized what must have happened: the police had identified the knife used from the tip of the broken blade found at the Cameron Arms Hotel.
But nothing had been published about it in the newspapers. Obviously the police were keeping the identification of the weapon a secret. That suggested there were other things they were keeping secret as well. Her fingerprints, perhaps, or something she had dropped at the scene, or some other clue that would lead them inevitably to her.
She should have felt dismayed, she knew, and frightened. But she didn’t. If anything, she felt a sense of heightened excitement. The exhilaration of her adventures was sharpened by the risk, made more intense.
She imagined the police as a single malevolent intelligence with a single implacable resolve: to bring her down. To accomplish that, they would lie and deceive, work in underhanded and probably illegal ways, use all the powers at their command, including physical force and violence.
It seemed to her the police were fit representatives of a world that had cheated her, debased her, demolished her dreams and refused to concede her worth as a woman or her value as a human being.
The police and the world wanted nothing but her total extinction so that things might go along as if she had never been.
The evening of June 4th …
Zoe Kohler, alert, erect, strides into the crowded lobby of the Hotel Adler on Seventh Avenue and 50th Street. She pauses to scan the display board near the entrance. Under Current Events, it lists a convention of orthopedic surgeons, a banquet for a labor leader, and a three-day gathering of ballroom dancing teachers.
The hotel directory she had consulted listed the Adler’s two restaurants, a “pub-type tavern,” and a cocktail lounge. But Zoe is accosted before she can decide on her next move.
“See anything you like?” someone asks. A male voice, assured, amused.
She turns to look at him coolly. A tall man. Slender. A saturnine smile. Heavy, drooping eyelids. Olive skin. Black, gleaming hair slicked back from a widow’s peak. The long fingers holding his cigarette look as if they have been squeezed from tubes.
“I don’t believe we’ve met,” she says frostily.
“We have now,” he says. “You could save my life if you wanted to.”
She cannot resist …
“How could I do that?”
“Have a drink with me. Keep me from going back into that meeting.”
“What are you?” she challenges. “An orthopedic surgeon, a labor leader, or a ballroom dancing teacher?”
“A little of all three,” he says, the smile never flickering. “But mostly I’m a magician.”
He takes a silver dollar from his pocket, makes it flip-flop across his knuckles. It disappears into his palm. It reappears, begins the knuckle dance again. Zoe Kohler watches, fascinated.
“Now you see it,” he says, “now you don’t. The hand is quicker than the eye.”
“Is that the only trick you know?” she asks archly.
“I know tricks you wouldn’t believe. How about that drink?”
She doesn’t think he is a police decoy. Too elegantly dressed. And a cop would not make the first approa
ch—or would he?
“Where are you from?” she asks.
“Here, there, and everywhere,” he says. “I’ve got a name you could never pronounce, but you can call me Nick. What’s yours?”
“Irene,” she says. “I’ll have one drink with you. Only one.”
“Of course,” he says, plucking the silver dollar from her left ear. “Let’s go, Irene.”
But the cocktail lounge and the tavern are jammed. People Wait on line. Nick takes her elbow in a tight grip.
“We’ll go upstairs,” he says, “to my room.”
“One drink,” she repeats. He doesn’t answer. His confidence daunts her. He pulls her along. But she cannot stop, cause a scene. No identity in her purse. But a knife with a sharpened blade.
His room looks as if he had moved in five minutes ago. Nothing to mark his presence but an unopened suitcase on a luggage rack.
He locks and chains the door behind them. He takes her coat and bag, throws them onto a chair.
“You want to see more tricks?” he says. “How about this?”
He unzips his fly, digs, pulls out his penis. It is long, dark, slender. Uncircumcised. He strokes it.
“Nice?” he says, his sardonic smile unwavering. “You like this trick?”
“I’m going,” she says, reaching for her coat and bag.
He moves quickly between her and the door.
“What are you going to do?” he says. “Scream? Go ahead—scream.”
She fumbles in her bag. He is there, and plucks it from her hands. She cannot believe anyone can move that swiftly. He is a blur.
He takes out her wallet, flips through it.
“No ID,” he says. “That’s smart.”
He picks out the closed knife, dangles it by the steel loop.
“What’s this for?” he asks. “Gleaning your toenails?”
He laughs, drops the knife back into the bag. He tosses it aside.
“You know the old saying,” he says roguishly. “When rape is inevitable, relax and enjoy it.”
“Why me?” she cries desperately.
He shrugs. “Just to pass the time. Something to do. You want to get undressed like a lady or do you want your pretty dress ripped?”
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