by The Rascal
She went on, but Jack could hardly listen. His whole body tautened as he clenched his brandy more tightly. Visions of his past unraveling in the pages of the town newspaper swirled before him. Remembrances of his very public debacle in Boston assaulted him, too. Before, publicity had cost him his reputation and livelihood alike. This time…
“Why would you do that?” he demanded.
Obviously taken aback at his abrupt tone, Grace hesitated. Her gaze darted from his brandy to his abandoned book. Then, evidently deciding he must still be grouchy from his enforced literature appreciation session, she brightened.
“In case we could return these drawings to their proper owner, of course. In certain instances, Papa even has the capacity to wire notices to other newspapers all across the territory. The country even. I’m sure he’d give permission to do so.” She glanced at the papers. “These are extraordinary.”
At her praise, the tightness in Jack’s chest eased a fraction. His past faded by degrees.
“Are they?” He made himself suck down the remaining half of his brandy. Its warmth spread through him. “Extraordinary?”
“Of course!” Grace shook her head as though unable to believe he’d find them otherwise. “Here, look at the detail. The richness of scale and quality. The surety of the strokes.” She beamed at the whole lot like a proud explorer. “Whoever drew these will certainly want them back.”
Warmed by more than his liquor now, Jack gazed at her in wonderment. This complicated things greatly, he realized. But somehow, he couldn’t find it in himself to be sorry. Not while Grace held his schematics in her careful fingers…not while she regarded the lot of them with such awe in her expression. Not even the widow Marjorie Lancaster, his most ardent supporter in Boston, had viewed his work with so much admiration.
A part of him felt glad Grace had found them.
Those drawings, it occurred to him with a surge of pleasure, were among the most genuine parts of him she’d seen.
“I haven’t examined them all yet,” Grace was saying, deftly laying aside the first two schematics. “I wanted to bring them back here where the light was better.” She bent her head over the next paper to be uncovered. “Ooh, look. This one is—”
She paused, her finger hovering over the paper. Her gaze skated from the drawing depicted there to his face, then back again. Her cheeks pinkened prettily.
“But this—” Looking confounded, Grace stared again. “I don’t understand. This bustle contraption with the lifting mechanism attached…the model for it looks somewhat—” Gamely, Grace tried again. “Well, I know it sounds absurd, especially since she’s holding a spyglass, but she almost seems—”
“It’s you.” Jack finished his brandy. He lifted the bottle and pointed it toward Grace. “Shall we have another?”
Chapter Thirteen
If not for the caution Jack had learned during his first hardscrabble days in the territory, he would have grinned unabashedly at the look on Grace’s face. For once, he had surprised her. Doing so felt better than…
Well, better than playacting at being incapacitated for the sake of staying next to her did, that was for certain.
She stared at the drawing. “It’s me?”
“Yes.” Hell, he might as well come out with it all. He’d come this far. “When I had the idea for the noiseless bustle buckler,” Jack explained, “meant for use by female ornithologists in the field who did not want to scare away…oh, let’s just say the dark-hooded, red-backed Junco, for example’s sake, you seemed a natural model.”
Grace’s gaze met his. She seemed wholly unable to speak. Her brow furrowed in consternation. “But this model—” she gestured to the paper “—is beautiful.”
Jack shrugged. “So?”
“So you are teasing me.” But her eyes said she hoped he wasn’t.
“Believe what you want.” Jack spread his arms, experiencing a certain reckless freedom now that one of his secrets was out. “I know you will, no matter what I say.”
“Of course I will. But—but—”
He rose, gulped the remainder of his brandy, then set the glass aside. He scooped up the telltale drawings. “But you were never meant to find these. They’re a diversion, nothing more.”
The moment the papers left her lap, Grace recovered. She bolted upright, her gaze fastened on the bundle.
“I’ve seen you scribbling before.” She all but pounced on him as she considered everything she’d learned. “I thought you were wasting time, the way you’re prone to do!”
Jack arched his brow. “Wasting time?”
“You must admit, you enjoy far too much leisure as it is.” Grace watched with plain dismay as he rerolled the drawings. “Your whole life—your livelihood!—is devoted to pleasure. And you enjoy it far too much for a man of your position.”
“My position?”
“And your potential.”
“Potential?”
She paid his questions no mind at all, so fixed was she on the papers in his hand. “What are you planning to do with those?” Grace demanded.
This time, Jack couldn’t hide his grin—but he could turn away before she saw it. “Find a better hiding place.”
“No!” Grace followed him, clutching at his sleeve. “Wait. I haven’t even seen them all yet.”
“That’s just as well.”
“Please!” Impatience blanketed the word. “You can’t seriously think to keep those from me. After all this time, I have learned that you have a talent—an artistic talent just waiting to be nurtured—and you’re going to hide it?”
Thoughtfully, Jack gazed at the rolled papers in his hand. “Looks that way. Yep.”
She trailed him all the way to the kitchen table, heedless of the determined manner his boots rang across the floorboards. As pleased as Jack was by her interest, he had to be resolute. Nothing good could come of Grace knowing about his drawings—especially given her original intentions to publicize them in her father’s newspaper. The less she saw of them, the better.
What he’d said was true, Jack reflected. Those drawings—and the inventions they depicted—were only a diversion. They could be nothing more, not after everything that had happened in Boston. He had tried to resist drafting them. But he’d failed.
No matter how hard he’d strived to leave all his past behind him—giving away his fine suits, hiding his books, grunting and simplifying his speech—Jack had proven woefully unable to do one thing: quiet his mind.
It chattered at him night and day, tossing out notions for new inventions and improvements on the things he worked with and myriad wild ideas. It harped especially strongly whenever someone he knew encountered a problem and confided it in him—hence the schematics for an automatic log-splitting device for Marcus’s lumber mill and the silent bustle buckler for Grace’s ornithology club members, among others.
At first Jack had endeavored to ignore those urgings. But, like his pestering attraction toward Grace Crabtree, they had proven too fierce to be denied. So he had scribbled a few of them during slow times at the saloon, or late at night when he couldn’t sleep, and stuffed them all away in his cubbyhole. He’d never intended anyone to find them.
He might have known Grace would have.
Stubbornly beside him, she tried to wrest his arm downward, making the sheaf of papers rattle. “Just let me see them all first. I want to tell you if they’re any good.”
Jack almost took the bait. Instantly, indignation rose in him. Of course they were good. He might be a western man now, but once he’d been a very successful—no. He had to remain firm.
“The few I saw looked brilliant,” Grace coaxed as though sensing his indecision. “I had no idea you had such raw talent.”
Raw? Incredulous, Jack hesitated further. He cast Grace a measuring look, taking in her blooming cheeks, her bright eyes, her barely parted mouth. He remembered his plans for the night.
He decided to continue them.
“I’ll let you have another
look,” he conceded, twisting his arm to hold his drawings behind his back. “If you can remember you want to view them at all…after this kiss.”
Her eyes widened. She recognized his challenge then.
“All right,” Grace bargained after a minute. “But you’ll have to tell me why I’m pictured in one of those drawings, too. In detail. And don’t tell me it was because I was beautiful,” she scoffed, “because I’m too sensible to believe it.”
An urge to argue struck him. Jack tightened his mouth against it. He did find her beautiful, in person and in ink. But there was no sense saying so. His hand-drawn rendition of Grace, outfitted in his noiseless bustle buckler, rose in his mind. He’d drawn her as the model because…because…
Damn it. Just because she’d been in his thoughts.
And often was. More than he was willing to admit.
And had been, for a far longer time than he’d say.
Not that those details would matter. Grace would never have a chance to learn them once he started kissing her again.
Assured, Jack nodded. “Done. Now let’s get you settled.”
He set aside his rolled drawings to a nearby kitchen shelf, noting Grace’s yearning glance toward them. Extraordinary, she’d called them. Brilliant. However unwittingly, Grace had admired the real him. The secret, wholly authentic him. For that, he decided, she deserved an especially worthy kiss.
“What are you waiting for?” she prodded.
He grinned. “Eager, are you?”
“Impatient,” she countered smartly. “Our nightly political discussion awaits, you know, just as it does every evening. I’d hate to see us miss such a lively experience, given how much it’s broadened your outlook already.”
“I’ll try to keep this lively then,” he promised. “Maybe it will prove a fair substitute.”
Jack found himself smiling, anticipating, even as he slid his hand to Grace’s cheek and stepped nearer. Her skirts brushed his knees, sober today in shades of brown and white, like cream poured into coffee. He tilted her face up, gazing into her eyes.
What he saw there spurred him further. Jack would swear his heart opened wide in that moment, however poetic and unlikely it sounded. “Ah.” He paused. “This is lively already, I’d say.”
Grace’s expression agreed. She leaned closer.
It was time. Jack’s mouth touched hers, and all the floorboards rocked. Sucking in her breath, her fragrance, her spirit, he spread his feet wide for balance.
Something about Grace set him akilter every time, making her the only solid thing in a world turned dizzying. Her warmth slid over him. Her hands touched his shoulders as she strove to tiptoe higher…nearer. Their kiss ended too soon.
Her dark gaze met his. She seemed bedazzled for a moment.
She smiled. “Now may I see your drawings?”
Jack shook his head. He refused to believe he was the only one affected by their kisses. He could not be. Not while Grace looked at him that way…not while she clutched at him so eagerly. He slid his hands to her waist, enjoying its subtle curve beneath his fingers.
“I’m not done yet,” he told her.
“Oh.” The firelight shimmered over her face, wrapping them both in a sultry glow. It made Grace look lovely, even as she furrowed her brow. “Perhaps we should enlist some parameters then. Exactly how many kisses do you intend to trade for a viewing of your drawings?” she asked. “Because I feel I could safely withstand—I mean, one or two seems more than fair.”
“I’m not interested in parameters.”
“Hmm. Well, if you’re curious, a parameter is defined as a fact or circumstance intended to restrict—”
“I know what it means.” Jack tightened his grasp and lifted her, setting her neatly atop the kitchen table. She squealed, but he paid no mind. “There,” he said in his gruffest voice. “That’s better. Now I can reach you properly.” He grinned. “Without your man-shoes, you’re just not as tall.”
Grace scoffed, her eyes wide. “This won’t do! You—your—” She gaped as he stepped even closer, directly between her skirt-covered knees. She appeared to muster a stern expression. “You have an unfair advantage.”
“I never said this would be fair.” Jack kissed her again.
This time, he coaxed open her mouth immediately, hungry for a deeper taste. Grace obliged despite everything, her hands closing around his ears. She tugged at his lobes, holding him steadily to her. It was an unusual approach, but effective.
“Why are you grinning?” she demanded, peering at him.
“Because you kiss the same way you do everything else.” He hugged her closer, his arms firm around her waist. “Bossily.”
For an instant, Grace looked offended. Then she smiled in an utterly brash manner. “I daresay you can withstand that.”
“You’d better believe I can.”
Jack kissed her again, pouring all his feelings—all his need—into giving Grace pleasure. He swallowed her breathy cries, welcomed the helpless squeeze of her knees against his hips, stroked her hair. All he wanted, all he needed, was to stay here exactly like this.
With Grace. Together.
Encouraged by her smiles, her whispered compliments, her free response, Jack pressed nearer. The table edge pushed at his thighs; a nearby peach tin rolled and thumped to the floor. Neither of them cared. He lost himself in Grace again and again, bracing his palm flat against the tabletop to support both of them. With a glance to Grace’s flushed face and closed eyes, he brought his mouth to her arched neck and kissed her there, too.
“Mmm. Delicious.” He smiled as she fluttered her eyelashes, then fisted her hand in his shirt to hold him close. He nuzzled her again, thoroughly enjoying himself. “You taste—” Jack sampled again, her smooth skin touching his tongue “—like everything I’ve ever wanted. Ah, Grace. You’re remarkable.”
Moaning sweetly, she trailed her hands upward. Her touch on his chest, his shoulders, was like a blessing. Jack could scarcely believe he found himself here…with Grace. Eagerly, she grabbed a fistful of his hair, tugging passionately.
“Oh, Jack! I don’t—oh, my.” She sighed, tipping her head back with abandon. She wiggled, making the kitchen table creak beneath her. “Please, you really ought to—I mean—”
He’d never known her to be at a loss for words. That she was right now gave Jack a fierce sense of protectiveness. Even gratitude. He doubted anyone had gotten this close to Grace before…and he knew no one had gotten this close to him.
“Ought to what?” he urged. The inquiry required all his effort. He only wanted to kiss her more thoroughly, to touch her everywhere, to forget every contention that had ever lain between them and savor this moment instead. Jack slipped his hand to her high-buttoned shirtwaist collar. Deftly, unable to help himself, he slid the top button free. “Tell me, Grace. Tell me.”
Another button came free. Then a third. Jack regarded the bare skin he’d revealed with reverence—and desire. He spread the gap wider, then kissed her there, making her gasp.
“Ought to do something about all this.” Impatiently, Grace wriggled on the table, her body arching upward to meet his. “I’m not sure—perhaps you’re not kissing me properly.” Her breath panted across his neck as she twisted his hair harder. “I feel as though there really ought to be more, Jack.”
He smiled manfully. “There is. I promise.”
“Oh.” Her hand roved higher, doubtless ruffling his hair beyond recognition. “Then I insist you should—”
All at once she stopped. Her eyelids popped open with almost comic suddenness. Tentatively, she probed at his head.
“Should do what?” Jack asked, feeling equally needful. He knew there was something about this kissing business he ought to have remembered, some purpose to it he’d set out with. But he couldn’t quite recall what it was. Also he seemed to remember having begun this evening with a plan of some sort, but that was lost to him, too. “Do what, Grace? What do you want?”
Something
was wrong. Grace had quit squirming, quit sighing, quit tossing her head back like the sauciest of coquettes. As much as Jack missed those things, he missed knowing she was with him—truly with him—even more.
Confused, he squeezed her.
“You must still be delirious,” she announced, her appalled gaze going straight to his. She snatched her fingers away from his bandages, obviously having just encountered them again. “You don’t know what you’re doing.”
“I know what I’m doing. I intend to do much more of it.”
He met her dubious look with a confident one of his own.
Jack meant every word. He wanted to revel in the togetherness he felt with Grace. Wanted to indulge in all his old fancies of having her in his arms, eager and ready and wanting him in return. He wanted to kiss her till she gazed at him with stars in her eyes and a smile on her lips and announced that he was the man she needed—exactly as he was.
Or pretended not to be. Damnation, this was a muddle.
“No.” Grace shook her head. “I’m afraid I can’t allow that.” Astonishingly, she hoisted her fabric-frothed skirts and wiggled backward. She slid from the table to the floor beside him in one adroit move. “I will not have you risk your health with this…this overexertion, Jack. I will not. What kind of caretaker would I be then?”
Jack tried a rascally grin. “Every man’s favorite kind?”
For an instant, Grace almost seemed persuaded by his smile.
But then—disappointingly—she brushed her hands together.
“You need more tea,” she announced with vigor. “I will brew a pot for you right now. With extra castor oil!”
Then, leaving Jack gawking in her wake, Grace bustled to the cast-iron stove and proceeded to do exactly that.
Over the next few days, Grace noticed, Jack achieved a near-miraculous recovery. He even sent for Doctor Finney and convinced the old sawbones to remove his bandages. To her surprise, Jack’s head had seemed as good as new afterward, looking as handsome and undented as it ever had.
Jack winked. “I guess I’ll try sledding again.”