“Well, obviously, I’ve read this many times. I understand perfectly the need for the male of this species to wander. I’m telling you I accept the inevitable and don’t want you to feel bad about it.” Even as she spoke, she took a small step backward, her hand going protectively to her throat. Her pulse beat frantically as if calling to him. The spot where he had left his mark the night before throbbed and burned.
“There is an inevitable, but I doubt it is what you envision.” He reached out casually, almost lazily, and circled the nape of her neck with his palm, drawing her toward him. She went reluctantly, taking one small step at his urging, then another until she could feel the heat of his body right through the thin barrier of her clothing.
Both hands found his chest. “Why are you angry?”
He was smoldering with anger, with the thought that she was certain he would leave her. That he would want to leave her. That she seemed totally accepting, even grateful that he would leave her. Byron made an effort to tamp down the seething cauldron of emotions. That way lay disaster. “What it says on this wall is that a group of women and children arrived, seeking sanctuary. There were a few males, old mostly, or very young, but the women had no men to protect them. They wanted permission to live on Scarletti land, under the protection of the Scarletti family. They were foreigners, come from a distant land with strange ways. It is said these women had tremendous psychic abilities. They were telepaths. Healers. And all of them were shape-shifters.”
Antonietta nodded. He wasn’t holding her in place, his fingers were very light, almost gentle around her neck, but she still felt the tension vibrating in the air between them. “The picture clearly shows a large cat of some kind.”
“The Jaguar,” he supplied. “I have heard of this species. They are all but extinct. The males refused to stay with the females, and eventually the females took on human husbands. The bloodline thinned over the centuries.”
She nodded her head in agreement. “I feel the cat inside of me at times. Warning me. I have an acute sense of smell. I’m blind, yet at times when the wildness inside of me is growing, I see in colors of red and yellow and white. Heat images. I thought when you smelled the cat last night perhaps one of my cousins is the same, and I’m not such a freak. It’s true, Byron. This is the reason the Scarlettis made a bargain with the women in the village. They wanted the gift of the Jaguar people for their own. Some of the Scarletti men intermarried with those women, and some have the blood strong and some don’t. I read the wall carefully. You are so correct about the men leaving. The women were willing to stay with humans because their males never stayed. They got them pregnant, and they left, even during times of war and hunger and plague. So the women turned to our race for companionship and love and a family.”
“As they did in other places as well,” Byron said.
“In the old days, women had few rights and little protection, but in the world today, we’re quite capable of caring for our children and providing for them. I have a good life, and I never expected to meet someone I was so attracted to. Honestly, Byron, I’m just saying I didn’t expect nor want a lover for more than a short period of time.”
His breath escaped in a long, slow hiss of annoyance. “Unfortunately, that is not what I expect or want, Antonietta. I am not Jaguar. My people do not leave one another for reasons of convenience or wanderlust. We mate for life. For eternity. I do not want less, nor will I accept less. You have much to learn of who and what I am.” His dark gaze roamed possessively over her face.
She could feel the impact, the intensity, as his gaze burned over her. She was immediately reminded of the suffocating darkness she lived in. Alone in the close confines of the room, it was too late to remember she knew very little of this man standing so close to her. She knew nothing of his family or his heritage or even his heart. He was always alone and very quiet, very polite, but he could be shockingly violent in an instant if need be.
“Who are you, Byron?” Her voice came out a husky whisper of fear when she needed her confidence most. “Tell me who you are then. Tell me what you are. If not Jaguar, like me, what are you then?” She held her breath, pressed her hand to her somersaulting stomach.
Byron’s thumb tipped her chin up. She felt his breath on her face. Warm. Inviting. His lips skimmed the corner of her mouth. Velvet soft. So persuasive her heart leapt. “I am your lifemate. Keeper of your heart as you are the keeper of mine.” The words were whispered against her eyes. His lips trailed down her face to find her mouth again. Soft. Insistent. Feather light, yet with all the power to rob her of breath. Of speech. Of sanity. Her brain refused to think of anything other than wanting him. Having him for her own.
His words sounded foreign and even formal, but it still didn’t stop her from turning her mouth up to his. Of wanting him with every cell in her body. Byron. She had dreamt of him for so many lonely nights. Erotic, passionate dreams of wild sex and heights of pleasure she didn’t believe really existed. His lips crushed hers, and he was devouring her, his mouth hot and male and exciting there in the dark of the hidden room where the bizarre secrets of her ancestors decorated the wall.
They simply melted together, two halves of the same whole. There was fire and electricity. There was a curious rippling of the earth beneath their feet. He pulled her closer, fit her body tightly against his, imprinting his every muscle on her soft flesh. He knew how she would feel, all soft curves and mesmerizing heat. The flood of passion welling up in her to meet his darkest cravings. Byron had known almost from the moment he had heard the first exquisite note of her music.
Antonietta circled his neck with her arms. Byron took her into a world of hunger and passion and light. Where her music came from. Her deepest joys and sorrows and erotic dreams. Her every want. She couldn’t help wanting to be closer, wanting to feel the incredible heat of his skin. She slipped her hands beneath his shirt to feel his defined muscles. She ached with wanting him, her body already turning liquid and needy.
“Byron,” she whispered his name, the voice of a siren. An invitation to paradise.
His teeth nipped her full lower lip. “Do you want me to make love to you, Antonietta? That would be so simple for you. No attachment. No love between us to get in the way.” His hand shaped her breast, his thumb teasing her nipple into a hard peak. He bent his head to the temptation right through the thin fabric of her blouse. Her breasts were luxuriously soft and full. She had a woman’s curving body and was generously endowed. His mouth closed over the soft, luscious mound, hot and moist and suckling strongly so that Antonietta arched back and caught his hair in her hands to drag him closer to her.
Her knees went weak, and she cried out, afraid she would have an orgasm right there, just from his mouth on her breast. His tongue licked along the valley between her breasts up toward her throat. “Is this what you want? Just a physical relationship?” He lifted his head, and she felt his eyes burning like lasers. “This is good enough for you?”
Antonietta’s fingers bunched in his hair, nearly desperate to pull him back to her. There was no reason to feel guilty, but she did. “It has always been good enough in the past,” she said defiantly, and then was instantly ashamed that he had managed to rattle her when it was none of his business what she did or even what she preferred.
Byron straightened slowly, his hands slowly releasing her. His body withdrew from hers, leaving her feeling cold and alone and bereft. “It is not good enough for me.”
Antonietta pushed an unsteady hand through her hair deliberately stepping into the passageway to give herself space. “You can’t possibly want a long-term, permanent relationship with me. You don’t even know me.”
“That is not precisely true, Antonietta. There is very little about you I do not know. I took the time, sitting quietly in your home, listening to you. Hearing the music you play, watching you with your family. I know you far better than you think. You have not taken the time to get to know me. You thought you could have me for a lover, and your
perfect world would remain intact. You wouldn’t have to do anything different at all, but in truth, there is always change and consequences.”
She didn’t like seeing herself through his eyes. He made her feel shallow and self-centered. “There is nothing wrong with a woman being practical, Byron. Men take lovers and walk away all the time. They’ve been doing it for centuries. I’m practical, not unemotional. I have a family depending on me, I have a full-time career. Can’t you see that I’m making sense? You’re not in love with me.” She dared him to lie to her and say he was.
He paced away from her, returned to stand over her. She felt his shadow even in the darkened passageway. Felt his presence, not the man she was so comfortable with, not the man she had come to think of as sweet and courtly, but a dangerous predator stalking her in the narrow confines of the Scarletti passageway. She had the impression of lips drawn back in a silent snarl and fangs exposed. “How would you know what I feel or do not feel?” His voice was so low it could barely be heard, yet there was a note in it that increased her fear even more.
Antonietta put out her hand. A test. Byron instantly caught her hand, drew her palm to the warmth of his chest. She could feel his heart beating. Steady. Strong. A perfect rhythm, and her own heart seemed to want to follow. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” She stepped closer to him. “I did, didn’t I? I hurt you by saying I didn’t want a permanent relationship with you. I didn’t mean it the way it came out.” Why had she been so afraid? How could she ever think that Byron, with his impeccable manners, would be anything but generous and courteous? She was becoming fanciful after her misadventure in the night.
“No man wants to be told he will be discarded gladly,” Byron said. “It is a bit hard on the ego.” He brought her fingers to his mouth.
Antonietta expected a brief kiss. His mouth closed over her finger. And it was hot and moist and everything it had been when he had been lavishing attention on her breast. She thought she might fall down, simply melt into a puddle on the floor. “I think my hormones are in overdrive, Byron.” She had no other defense besides humor. “If you keep that up, I might have to consider ripping your shirt right off of you.”
“I do not think that is designed to stop me, Antonietta.” There was a hint of laughter in his voice. His teeth nibbled at her finger, scraped along the pad of her thumb. “How did you discover this room? You do not come into the passageway that often, do you?”
His tone sounded mildly curious, yet she had the impression he was waiting for her answer. That his tone was quite at odds with his emotions. “Most of my life I could manage to read people, Byron. I’ve always thought it was because I was blind, and I had to rely on other senses to get by. You’re very difficult, because you don’t say very much and I can’t rely on your voice to give away your emotions.” She reached up to touch his face, gently mapping his expression with her fingertips.
“I have never been blind, Antonietta, although for a long time I was color-blind. I saw the world in shades of gray and white and charcoal. It is a condition in the males of my people. Most lose the ability to see in color when they come into full power, but I took much longer.”
Byron seemed so sad, suddenly she pressed closer to him. “What is it? What are you thinking of?”
“A time long ago when I had a childhood friend. More than a friend. In my world, our siblings can be quite a bit older. My friend was my family. We were never far apart from one another, and he made life bearable for me. I worked with jewelry, and Jacques would try his hand at it.” His mouth curved at the memory of Jacques’s antics. Byron was a gem-caller, able to sing the stones of the Earth into revealing themselves, and Jacques often accompanied him into the deepest caves. “My friend disappeared for several years and was presumed dead. My life was hell after that. I felt alone, and maybe I was even angry with him for dying and leaving me behind. I felt lost, without an anchor. And one day I saw a woman. I could see her in color. I knew she had red hair and green eyes. When that happens, the male of our species knows she is the one woman. But I could not see anyone or anything else in color, which did not make sense if she were my lifemate, as colors are fully restored to us through our lifemate. I should have known better, should have taken the time to think things through, but I was not so patient back then.”
The sadness weighed so heavily on him, it seemed a burden, a great sorrow. Antonietta felt it in her heart, in her mind, but she remained silent, hoping he would continue. She had a feeling he had never told the story to anyone else.
Byron turned his head to kiss her fingertips. “Later, I realized my friend Jacques and I were so close I was picking up visions from his head. He had been tortured, and he was half mad. He did not remember any of us, so it did not occur to me, at the time that I was still connected to him, still seeing through his eyes as we had often done, sharing information on our personal path. But by the time I figured out what was happening, it was too late; I had ruined our friendship and instilled a deep distrust of me in him. He needed me, and I let him down. I have regretted those rash days bitterly.”
“How sad, Byron. I hope your friend is better now. And if he was such a good friend, I’m certain as he heals, he’ll forgive anything you might have done.”
“The connection between us is still there, should either of us decide to use it, but I no longer saw in colors. My life returned to grays and shadows. Until I met you.”
The way he said it, starkly, honestly, tugged at her heart-strings. Until I met you. It had to be his voice that affected her so completely. “What changed?” There seemed to be a lump in her throat. Antonietta gave herself a stern warning. He was a man, just like other men, one who would come and go just as they all did. It mattered little what sweet words he came up with, in the long run, the prenuptial agreement always told what they were after. And it was never Antonietta, the woman.
“My entire life,” he said simply.
And there in the absolute darkness, she wanted to believe him. “Kiss me, Byron. Just kiss me again.” Her arms slid around his neck, and she pressed her body close to his. An offering. A hunger. A need. She might not want him to be special, might not want to believe he was different from all the others to her, but she needed him to kiss her. And she had never needed anyone.
He murmured something in a language she had never heard before and bent his head to hers. His lips feathered over her face, along her cheekbones, a soft assault on her senses. There was tremendous strength in his hands as he pulled her even closer, fitting her body into the cradle of his hips. His mouth teased hers. His teeth tugged at her bottom lip, a sweet temptation that left her helpless to resist had she wanted.
Antonietta moved restlessly, a deliberate enticement. When he was with her, when he was near, she had a difficult time thinking of anyone else. Anything else. She craved him in the way an addict might a drug. “A compulsion,” she murmured. “That’s what you are. A sorcerer, and you’ve cast a spell on me.”
“And here I thought it was the other way around.” He whispered the words against her lips.
Before she could answer, his mouth took possession of hers, and the world turned upside down. It didn’t matter that there was no light, colors burst behind her eyes and exploded like fireworks in her mind. Beneath her feet the earth rippled so that she clung to him. She lost all ability to breathe, yet he was the very air for her. Antonietta clung to him, unprepared for the way her body simply went soft and pliant and needy. “This has never happened before.”
He kissed her again. Thoroughly. Hungrily. As if she were the only woman in the world, and he had to kiss her. Needed to kiss her. And then, abruptly, he lifted his head. His eyes glittered a fiery red above her head and for just a moment fangs gleamed white in the stark black of the passageway. “There is someone coming this way,” he said. His tone was free of all menace, but she caught a brief glimpse of the inherent violence in him. A beast roared for release, struggled for supremacy. His calm demeanor never wavered, but she felt it
just as if it were in her.
She felt him reaching out with all his senses, inhaling deeply as if he could scent an enemy. “No one comes in here, Byron,” she whispered. “We store great treasures, artwork, and jewels. The rooms are designed to keep them in the precise temperatures needed to preserve them. Not even family comes in here without first getting permission from Nonno or from me.”
He placed his lips against her ear. “Someone is in the passageway and moving stealthily, not with confidence. I doubt they have permission.” He saw the glimmer of a light moving toward them. “They are nearing us. I can hide us from his sight, but the passage is too narrow for him not to bump into you. We will have to go into your history room and close the door.”
Byron felt her swift intake of breath in reaction to his words. The involuntary clenching of her fingers into a fist in the fabric of his shirt. His arm tightened around her. “You will be safe with me. I know the space is small, but I can get out, should something go wrong with the mechanism.”
There was complete confidence in his voice. Antonietta could not tell him of a world of suffocating darkness. Of waking up choking, strangling, her throat closed, fighting desperately for air. Her heart pounded with alarming force. She nodded wordlessly, not trusting her voice. She abhorred the mind-numbing fear that inevitably caught hold of her when she was on unfamiliar ground.
Byron drew her into the small confines of the little room and nudged the door until it swung shut, sealing them in. He dragged her close beneath the protection of his shoulder. With the door closed, the light was gone, hiding the Scarletti secrets as it had for centuries. Byron ran his fingertips along the wall. The carvings were smooth and precise, a work of art, even as it was a kind of diary of each generation. He caressed the figure of a shape-shifter, first in human, then half and half, and then fully in cat form. The Jaguar. A sad ending to a species. The blood was so diluted it was doubtful if more than a handful remained with full abilities. So many species gone or nearly gone from the earth.
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