by Amy Love
My blog, Graduate-Level Ice Cream, is still up in my browser. My last mini-blog post has gone live with a few comments trickling in. I take a second to read one from Jana, who is, no doubt, following along from her consistently boring American Literature grad class. She’s written almost prophetically about the deadbeat dad, Oh, GLIC girl… I am glad to hear you saw right through that slick asshole’s game. You can tell your picks in guys is getting smarter every day. ;-)
That winking face is practically taunting me. It’s the right and wrong comment to be reading right now when my mind is still spinning around fantasies of being kidnapped in my own truck by an ice cream loving Robin Hood. Part of me is ashamed to write what I want to write, but I need to get this out. The blog is supposed to be a place for my confessions, even if they are a bit insane and a whole lot of wrong. Jana was just going to have to deal with it.
I open up a draft page and begin to type as furiously as I can with as little time as I have left to go pick up the guy from the boxing gym:
Dear GLIC readers: I’m not sure if this is a cry for help or what, but I am sitting in my truck, still covered by today’s ice cream and melted chocolate sauce, and completely shaken. I just had something insane happen to me, and I don’t know if I should share it. But because I believe in honesty and confessions, here it goes:
I was kidnapped today. Okay, maybe kidnapped is the wrong word for what is going on with me. But let’s just say that a stranger I’ve never seen in my entire life just popped up, as I was about to pull away from my parking spot. For about a total of two seconds, he made it clear he had a gun, and if I didn’t drive him to a location, he would use it. Something he told me he wouldn’t. It wasn’t that he was weak, but it was that he was in control.
So I did probably the most stupid thing I could have done, and I drove. Like I said, I had no idea who he was or what he wanted from me, but I drove. It wasn’t far -- the location-- but it was enough to make me feel as if I had done something absolutely terrible. Maybe I’m his alibi or his getaway. Maybe he’s mistaken me for some weird bus route he didn’t have a token for. I don’t know. But I dropped him off, and I am being forced to pick him up in a few minutes time. I am not going to test what happens if I don’t come.
I hesitate slightly, chewing on my nails, as I write out the last part of the blog post. This is the kicker, but it’s important. At least, I think it is.
The truth is that this isn’t your run of the mill kidnapper or hardened criminal. (Is there a standard prototype on them?) The truth is that this guy, who goes by Henry, is one of the most amazing looking men I have ever seen in my life. He has these green eyes that practically pulsate in the dark and a face that is both deliriously hopeful and scared at the same time.
And he must have sensed my fear or the weight of the world hanging on my shoulders because instead of forcing that gun to my head again, he handed me money. Cash. Cold har--
I stop myself as I try to finish the last few paragraphs. I have a strict rule at GLIC to tell it as it is but to also protect myself. If I was going to lay it out to the world that I am a victim of a possible wanted madman, I better not give away my innocence as well by saying that I accepted a bribe. That could potentially put me in prison right beside him, and I do not look good in orange.
So I delete that last section about him giving me money, and I end it with the ambiguous description of not-Henry. I’m about to hit “submit” when I pause. The clock on the wall tells me I have a good ten minutes to get back to him. That’s just enough time to let this go out there, but it dawns on me what happens after this post goes live. I can see Jana freaking out, grabbing her books from her desk in the lecture hall, and running out of the room in a flurry. She’ll call the cops; give them the description of my car, and the location of my main stops. Within an hour, they’ll be hunting me, and that guy down, and I’ll be putting myself at more risk than ever.
I can’t do this. Even though I know it could gain me readers -- drama always does -- I can’t risk this. And the thought of worrying Jana for something I admit that I am not even that terrified made me feel even more guilty at myself for writing this down. I don’t need this extra stress right now.
Frustrated, I shut the lid of my laptop and return to the driver’s seat. I lean back in my seat, my head leaning firm up against the headrest and my hands curled around the arms. I give myself a moment to think about my dad in this truck as he manned the helm. I was doing this for him. That’s all that mattered. I could be brave because of him. I could do whatever I needed to do because of him.
I turn on the truck and head back towards where I came from. I’m driving slower than before, but it’s more at the risk of not being pulled over. Believe it or not, but cops do catch speeding ice cream trucks. It’s hard not to notice us, even during rush hour traffic. I reach behind me and grab my black sweatshirt I left on the other side of the seat and toss it over my shoulders. The hood covers my head and masks my face. At least this gave me some sense of control.
Minutes and miles pass in a weird, otherworldly haze and I’m suddenly back at the Beat Gym. It’s a pretty happening place by the looks of it. The larger area of the gym is full of crowds streaming slowly into the two or three open doors. Security dressed in all black, like the mystery man I’m waiting for, sit by the door taking tickets and checking IDs. I idly wonder if that’s why we’re here. Maybe the guy commandeering my truck is actually some kind of bouncer in need of a ride...
… Yeah, it sounds ridiculous to even think that. I need to stop giving Henry, or whatever his real name is, a story. Whatever he needs my truck for is going to remain a mystery to me. I have to keep deniability here just in case this spirals out of control. Asking too many questions of him is just going to make me go down that hole of no return.
But when I see him, I can’t help but come up with a thousand more questions. He goes the opposite direction of the crowd, pushing through the surrounding bodies. He’s wearing an entirely different outfit now -- some workout gear. That doesn’t give me pause. I mean, he’s at a gym after all. What’s making me stop and stare, mouth open and all, are the women pulling at him. They all seem to know or recognize him as if he were this celebrity. A blond with fake tits holds on to him possessively while a redhead stands on her toes to whisper something in his ear that makes his head turn in milliseconds towards her. He laughs, his white teeth showing, as he pulls forward, shaking off the blonde on his way.
He spots me, raising a hand in my direction. I nod under my hoodie and unlock the doors as he sprints towards me. His black and white workout boxers blow in the wind as he goes. To my surprise, Not-Henry opens the driver’s side door and jumps up next to me. He’s so close I can smell the faint scent of his cologne mixed with fresh body sweat and maybe a hint of bourbon.
“Scoot over, girl. Let me drive.” He gestures over to the empty passenger seat as he looks back at the crowd impatiently.
I put my hands on the steering wheel firmly as I reply, “What? No! This wasn’t part of the deal. I drive. You pay me. That’s it. I’m not letting you touch my dad’s ice cream truck.” The part about my father somehow just slipped out. He doesn’t need to know those details, yet I was giving them away freely.
“Listen, honey--”
“Don’t call me honey.”
“Okay, fine. I’m going to call you Alana since that’s the name on the truck.” He winks at me as he continues, “Alana -- I’m about to make you a ton of money in addition to what I am going to pay you. If you trust me, I will sell out this entire truck in under an hour, but I need to drive, and you need to go along with whatever I tell you to do.”
“I -- I don’t know.” I hesitate. He hasn’t lied about money so far, and he obviously has connections here. After the slow business day at the park, I could really use a turnaround.
“Come on, Alana.” His voice is as smooth as the ice cream in the back. It’s deep and earthy with a hint of planned seduction. This guy knows he is hot st
uff. Those girls eyeing the truck and me with deep suspicion obviously built his ego up enough that he knew he could use it against me.
And like I a fool, I give in. I hand him the keys as I unbuckle and slide into the passenger seat. He turns back to me and looks me up and down. He points to my sweatshirt as he mimes unzipping, “Whatever this is you got going on isn’t going to work. We need to sex it up.”
“I sell ice cream to kids. I don’t do sexy,” I reply as I toss off the fleece and adjust my wrinkled t-shirt.
“You’ve got a tank under that stained shirt?” He stares me down a little too long as I huff and pull off my official work t-shirt. Underneath is a little white tank I wear in case the truck gets too hot to sleep in at night. It’s not in the best condition, but it will do until he reaches over and pulls down the shirt by the stomach, exposing my black push-up bra. A wicked smile creeps across his face as he proclaims, “Now that I can work with.”
Before I can argue with him, he’s already driving straight towards the crowd, aiming for a group of kids coming towards the arena section with their parents. “How do I turn on the…”
I’ve already got him covered as I press a button that turns on the classic ice cream truck music. I hate these songs. They practically haunt my childhood, but seeing his and those kid’s faces light up is something else. Not-Henry puts the car in park and runs towards the back. As I struggle with my seatbelt, I hear him figuring out the window latch. The sound of eager voices comes bursting through.
“Mom! Mom!” A kid shouts excitedly, “It’s Mr. Murphy! Can we get ice cream from him? Please!”
I get to the back of the truck just in time to hear Henry call back loudly, “For you, kid, you can have a scoop on the house.” He opens up the cooler and grabs a scoop from the drying rack. It’s like he’s already been back here, examined the territory, and worked a shift or two. He even manages to scoop out a perfect round ball of ice cream on a candy coated waffle cone. The ten-year-old boy looks even more thrilled than before.
He’s not alone. Behind him are at least forty others waiting to buy ice cream from the man they keep calling, “Mr. Murphy.” He even throws on an apron and my dad’s hat as he poses for pictures with busty girls in tight dresses all holding Miss Alana ice cream cones. The truck is practically going viral before my eyes, all because of my kidnapper.
And for his part, Henry looks as happy as ever handing out ice cream like it’s his second job. I help out behind the scenes by telling him the price of each item and restocking sundae toppings as we run out. When the person is done ordering, he hands me the credit card or cash and the occasional tip, not even bothering to count it or pocket it. My small register fills up as I transfer it to my overcrowded safe.
Buzzers and the sound of a man speaking over the roar of loud, booming music finally chases the customers away. They all make their way into the arena as the security guards fall behind them. Mr. Murphy, or Henry, or whatever his name is, waves in their direction before shutting the window and locking the hatch.
When it’s just us two, I give myself a second to count the cash. My eyes grow wide as I say in complete shock, “There is over two thousand dollars in cash and another three hundred in credit card sales! How did you do that? How did you know…?”
I still have cash in my hand as Mr. Murphy wraps an arm around my chest and pulls me in towards his large, towering body. His chest heaves slightly as he arcs his head down towards my lips and kisses me with his slightly parted thick lips. I am knocked off my feet by the heat of his kiss and the chill of his hands that have crept under the hem of my tank top.
It only lasts a second, maybe two. Our lips linger on the other. Deep inside of me is the burning desire to just go for it, to throw the money to the ground and wrap my arms and legs around his thick, strong body. But my wild urges are somehow calmed by the presence of his hands upon my waist and his mouth firmly pressed against mine.
I let go first. My eyes pop open, watching his close in the moment. It makes me remember that behind those darkened lids, are eyes I don’t know. Eyes that belong to a man whom I have only just met -- a man whose motivations are still a mystery.
CHAPTER 4
Whoa. Did I really just give in to that? I’m no romantic. Hell if I can think of one romantic thing I’ve done in my entire life, but that was like some movie-level kiss. You know -- like when a girl and a guy are stuck in a small space together, and their bodies are like magnets pulled towards one another slowly until they both just… collide.
That’s what we did. We collided. I know I made the first move. I am not sure why I leaned in towards her or why my hands seemed to grab firmly at her petite little waist. I’m not sure why I pulled my head down to meet hers or why my fingers slipped under her shirt. I’m not even clear why my mouth slightly parted, and my eyes closed when I kissed her. That movie hero guy giving into some busty movie star girl is not who I am. I don’t close my eyes when I kiss, and I certainly don’t touch gently.
All the ladies in my life are like the girls that were standing outside the ice cream truck earlier. They’re the ones that seem to grab on to me when I least expect it. They’re the leggy girls who keep up their steps with me, even in sky-high heels and tight little mini-dresses. They whisper the things I want to hear into my ear to make the hairs on my neck stand on end… “I’ve got a friend over there who would love if you joined us back at our place. We share.” … “Did you know that I used to be a gymnast?” … “I can do things to you, Mr. Murphy, that could knock you out.”
I accepted almost every single one of those invitations. None of them have up to their promised hype, though. So many naked girls lying on their stomachs in darkened bedrooms seem to run together. None of them were terribly interesting or challenging. Most just wanted to lie there and let me take over like it was an experience to add to their list of accomplishments. Get through one night with Mr. Murphy… check!
But as for me, I hate to be alone. I’ve been alone most of my life. My deadbeat dad ran out on my mom when she was only a teenager. He ran himself straight to prison on a twenty-year term for trying to stupidly rob some podunk casino rest stop out in the desert. My mom, on the other hand, ran herself into bars and didn’t stop running until it killed her when I was only ten years old. My grandma and grandpa raised me. They were good, salt of the earth people, but they weren’t exactly on their feet or really involved. They let me do what I wanted as long as they didn’t know what I wanted was.
Each night in my grandparent’s house, I slept alone on a cot in my mom’s old bedroom. No one tucked me in or even said goodnight. It wasn’t until I started sneaking in girls through a back window that I could sleep at night. They stroked my hair and undressed me. And I promised them a good night -- one they would never forget.
When my grandpa died, he left me his motorcycle. He never drove it. In fact, I didn’t even know it was in our garage until the lawyer in a suit pointed it out to me. (If I had known, I would have stolen it years earlier). But I rode that little Indian cream and black motorcycle up and down the streets and highways, through the Vegas strip, and out to the west coast until my ass hurt from the worn down leather seats.
It was in Cali where I met Tommy Willis. He had a motorcycle club up in LA called The Damned. Good group of guys -- they taught me everything I knew about running a gang, from how to make money dealing and transporting, to how to assign jobs and how the hierarchy of club life goes. When I was ready to go back to Vegas and help my grandma out at the family restaurant, Willis pulled me aside with his wrinkled hand on my shoulder and said, “You take five of my guys, and you make your own money, Liam.”
The Possessed was born on the back of my grandparent’s Irish bar and grill, The Emerald Pub. I don’t know if my grandma realized what was going on or why I brought five guys back to work shifts in the kitchen during the day, but it worked. The restaurant boomed. The Possessed started recruiting young guys like me. And we started making money with our conne
ctions with The Damned -- more money than I had ever seen in my entire life. I was hooked, and being president of The Possessed only made me more and more motivated to keep it going.
Still, with all those guys around me constantly and the chicks piling up from the boxing, I still could never get over that desperate, hollow feeling of needing to never be alone. Maybe this girl Alana was a symptom of that. It has been a few days since I’ve gotten laid. Club politics has interrupted that mood and my nerves over robbing the mafia owner has put me on some kind of edge. Girls don’t particularly respond to that, even the masochistic ones.
I’m going to blame that mood and my desperation for some kind of human affection as to why I kissed this strange girl in the back of an ice cream truck I hijacked. It made sense in my mind -- even if it didn’t explain that, although she pulled away, I’m still holding her close to my chest, my fingers rubbing up and down the side of her love handles.