by Amy Love
“Dude,” I say in the most normal, most even tone I can muster at this moment, “c’mon now. Calm down.” The kid, probably no older than twenty, is shivering in my grip like he’s about ready to keel over from frostbite. I let him go as he flies backward to the wall of one of the buildings. I place my hands in the air, showing him it’s all cool as I add, “Look, look, chill, okay? Chill. I’m not robbing you or anything. I just need to know where the English building is located. Can you show me?”
“Uhh…” He looks skeptical. Great. Now I get to deal with some yellow-bellied tween being suspicious of me. This was not my day. I was going to have to move faster if I was going to find out where Alana was. But to my complete surprise, he finally points to a white stone building with long pillars framing the front. “It’s over there by the math center.”
I quickly thank him, picking up his backpack that had dropped to the ground and running in a sprint towards the building. I have no clue what I am going to do when I get there. The few things I know about Alana that could help me get an idea of where she is are only that she’s an English graduate and that she lives with Jana. That’s about all I got, but at least it is something.
As soon as I step foot in the building, I feel completely out of place again. All the kids dress like Alana; button down pressed shirts and oversized black glasses. A group of them sit along the wall with their heads pressed down into massive textbooks. Others pass me without a second glance. They’re too into their talk about some class assignment a professor threw on them at the last minute.
I scan the room for signs of Jana. I doubt she’s here. By the way Alana made it sound, most graduate students took classes at night, and a few of them worked on campus during the day. But her friend was pretty distinct looking. Maybe one of these undergrads could tell me where to find her. I go on my hunch and grab an older looking guy carrying a bundle of papers stacked together neatly in a brown folder.
I do my best to look distracted and nonchalant as I smack straight into him, causing the papers to fly. The man angrily hollers, but he sure does shut his mouth when he gets a look at me. “I’m so sorry man,” I say apologetically as I pick up the papers that have scattered by our feet. “I wasn’t looking where I was going. I was too busy looking for someone -- a graduate student that I know.”
The man looks down at me skeptically. I can’t say I blame him. I mean, what in the hell would I be doing with an English major, let alone a graduate student? Still, whether it’s that I look if I am capable of murdering his family (true) or that I am being so polite (also true, but more because of the circumstances than anything), he gives me a lopsided smile and bends down to help me gather the rest of the documents.
“Look, man, maybe I can help you,” he offers. “I’m an undergrad TA. I work with a lot of the graduate students in the department. Most of them have class at night, but I know where some of them live.”
What were the odds?
“Yeah, really?” I feign excitement, knowing this kid somehow turned out to be the key I was looking for. “Look, I am looking for a girl named Jana and her roommate Alana. I’ve met them a couple of times, and the last time, Alana left me something I really need to get back to her…” I panic as I try to think of something that I could realistically have found… “A -- uh -- a ring. Her -- uh -- dad, he gave it to her, and I know he’s, y’know, in the hospital, so I am sure she is worried sick about it. I just want to make sure I give it to her myself since it’s so valuable.”
“Jana? Jana Richardson?” he responds. I blink, realizing that I have literally no idea if that’s her last name. The few times that I’ve met her, she was lost in the haze that was Alana. Just another pretty face in the endless sea of women.
“Uh, yeah, I think. Maybe. I’m not sure. I didn’t get her last name. But she had black hair, tall, curvy…” I don’t want to push this, but what I notice about girls is probably the same thing this poindexter here notices too.
“Oh yeah,” he says, “yeah, that’s Jana.” He quickly adds to mark his territory, “We’ve been seeing each other for awhile.”
“Oh, that’s cool,” I say nonchalantly, “I didn’t really get to meet her. I just know her through Alana. I figured that if I could find Jana, I could get the ring back to Alana. Do you know where she lives or works? It’s kind of important that I get it to her ASAP since I’m leaving town tonight.” Even I’m surprised at how good I am getting at making this crap up.
“Yeah. I actually know where she lives. If you can wait, I am just about to go give an exam and then I can walk you over there…”
“No!” I shout uncontrollably. His eyes light up in a flash. I’m back to square one with this guy. Fuck. “Is there any way you could call Jana and have her meet me here? I don’t want to make her… uh… uncomfortable by going to her place if she’s not expecting me.”
The guy looks around the entrance to the building. No doubt, he’s going over his options. He probably can sense that I am not going to leave him alone until he either gets Jana to come to me in this public spot or gives me the address to her and Alana’s dorm room so I can do it in private. I’m giving him the best option, and he knows it. Finally, he takes the phone out of his back pocket and dials a number. I listen in as she finally picks up.
“Hey… Yeah… I know what you said bu-- No, this is about your roommate, Alana. There’s a guy here in Emerson Hall that says he knows you guys. He’s got a ring of Alana’s that was her dad’s or something. Can you meet him here ASAP?” There’s a pause before he puts a hand on the receiver and asks me, “What’s your name?”
“Liam. Liam Murphy. She’ll know who I am.” He repeats my name into the receiver and then spins away out of earshot. I rock back and forth on my toes, spying the clock above my head. It’s now been about an hour since I heard what I am sure was Alana’s scream in the background of that phone call from Amy. Every second that I waste here with him was just putting Alana more at risk to whatever that bitch’s plan is.
Finally, he turns around and says, “She’s on her way. I hope you can get that ring back to Alana.” I thank him as I find a seat in one of the leather couches near the doorway. The man stares at me for a long time before heading to the back of the hall where I assume the classrooms are tucked away.
I only wait a few minutes before I spot Jana’s familiar face bursting through the doors. As soon as she sees me, she shouts across the hall, “What the hell did you do to Alana?”
I stand and walk quickly towards her, grabbing her firmly by the arm and bringing her to a corner out of ear and eyeshot of everyone else. “What I did? I didn’t do anything! I am trying to find her.”
“What are you talking about? She isn’t with you?” Jana places a neatly manicured hand on her lips. Her dark eyes dart around, as they look more and more panicked. “I know about the breakup. She told me about that. She wanted to be left alone, so she took the ice cream truck and went to the park. If I know Alana, she was drinking. But usually, she answers the phone. I haven’t heard from her since last night.”
“Shit!” I shout. I had hoped at least she made contact with Jana, but her being completely out of the loop is a surprise. If Amy did find her, she did it against her will. I don’t want to worry Jana or even get her involved with this crap, but she has to know. “It’s my ex --”
“Amy? What the hell did she do to Alana?!”
“She called me and said that the breakup was too late. Then she said she would see me soon. Before she hung up, I heard something… a scream. I know it was Alana’s.”
“Oh my God, Liam! You don’t think that -- I mean, she’s fucking nuts but she wouldn’t --”
I don’t blame Jana. I can’t let myself think of the possibility that Amy has done more than touch Alana, let alone the alternative. But the truth is, I know she’s capable. The night of the fight where I killed a man, Amy stood in my dressing room, washing the blood off my gloves. When she was done, she threw them at me and said with a laugh, “
You’ll want to keep this pair, Liam. Nothing like your first kill.” I never asked her what she meant by that. Now I just have to connect the dots.
I shake my head as I come back to Jana. I place my hands on her shoulders and look deep into her eyes. “Nothing is going to happen to Alana. I am going to find her, and everything is going to be alright. What I need you to do is go to her dad’s hospital. If I know Amy, she’s already thought about this and may be targeting him. And I want you to take this with you…” I pull out a black handgun from under my belt. “You know how to use this, right?”
Her hands shake as she takes it gently from me and places it into her backpack. “No, but I think I’ll know how to use it when I need to know.”
“There’s a safety on it, so when you get to the hospital, turn it off just in case. If you get scared or can’t do what you need to do, pretend to be Alana and get security involved. I want you to be the only person in that room with him no matter what. In the meantime, I’ll get my guys at the station involved. They can probably add some patrols or send a guy to help you out.”
She breaks free from the corner and runs off towards the doorway. As she goes, she yells back, “Find Alana, Liam!”
My feet freeze in their place as it hits me -- I’ve lost everything before. My family is gone. My childhood was never there. My career as a pro boxer is one step away from falling apart. And now, I can’t bare to lose Alana. No matter the cost, I have to save her.
If I’m going to find her, I need to start at the beginning. Jana mentioned the park, and a part of me knows exactly which one she went to -- the place where we met. I run back out to my motorcycle parked at the edge of campus and head straight there.
While I try to focus on the road, my mind drifts to something I have never done in my entire life -- prayer. I pray to God that’s she’s there, sitting drunk with a tub of ice cream while she is bent over that laptop of hers. I pray that she’s alive and just broken. I pray that she can forgive me for what this has and will do to her. I pray that we can go back to the start, to a beginning where I don’t kidnap her or use her truck to sell my stolen goods. I pray that she can see me as the Liam Murphy that wasn’t president of a motorcycle club, the Liam that she always chose to see me as.
But she isn’t in the back of the truck. The doors are wide open with a few scattered leaves blowing inside. Her laptop is there, tossed on the ground beside her chair. The keys to the van are just a few feet from it. The ice cream supplies are thrown everywhere on the floor like landmines and booby traps. She wouldn’t have left things like this, but she wouldn’t have gone easily with Amy either. Amy had to have help to do this sort of damage.
I quickly dial up Jason knowing that he would have answers for me. “Liam? I can’t talk to you right now. You don’t know what’s going on here, but I can’t talk…”
Jason sounds completely out of breath. He murmurs into the receiver as if he’s hiding something or, more likely, hiding himself. But I can’t stand this. I need answers now, and I am not about to waste any more time. “Fuck. Don’t you dare hang up on me. I’m still your president.”
“No, you’re not, Liam,” he replies quickly. “That’s the thing. Amy and those assholes Tyler, Mateo, and Rodney pulled a full on coup. They walked in with guns and guys from the Black Flag Mafia and took everything over. There were too many of them to take down ourselves.”
“Where the fuck are you then?” I ask. “You’re not with them, are you?”
“Are you fucking kidding me? I’m at headquarters, hiding out. They don’t know I’m here. They already found Winston and shot his head off. Hell if I’m letting them kill me in my own motherfucking headquarters!” His voice rises, but then falls quickly as he realizes the danger he’s in. “There’s still some guys loyal to us. I know they’re just as freaked out as I am. If you could rally them, there’s a chance we could get The Possessed back.”
“When Amy and those guys came in, did you see them? Were they with anyone?”
“It was just Tyler and Mateo. Rodney wasn’t with them. I hear he’s out doing a run for them. God knows what. But they had someone with them -- a chick with a bag over her he—Oh, shit. Liam?”
“I need you to keep hiding out for just a bit longer. I’ve got a plan. I just need to get it together. Can you get to Alana and make sure she’s safe? Send me a text on where she’s located?”
“I’m sorry man… I didn’t realize that Amy would--”
“Don’t fucking apologize now. Just try to keep her safe and stay alive for me. I’m going to need you when I get there.”
CHAPTER 25
“What’s the endgame here, Amy? You’re not going to want to keep her alive forever…”
“She can sit here and rot for all I care. She’s just bait for Liam. Once we have him here in headquarters, we will figure out what to do with the princess.”
“But Amy -- what if he doesn’t come? I mean, they did break up. He might not want her anymore.”
“Oh, trust me. He wants this one. He’ll do anything in his power to protect her. Little does he know that it’s all a trap. She gets to be our own, personal bobby trap… KAPOW!”
Even in my knocked out haze, Amy sounds as crazy as I had imagined. Now, it’s more unhinged. And you can tell that the guy questioning her, Mateo (I think), isn’t exactly sure he put all his trust in the right person. Amy may be powerful and connected, but there is something completely dangerous and combustible about her. Unlike Liam, she is her own worst enemy.
“Have you called him to tell her where we’ve brought her? It’s been a while since the first phone call. Shouldn’t he be here by now?”
I watch Amy’s heels click on the cement floor as she makes her way over to the man who is hanging around in the corner. From my partially closed eyes, I make out her bare arm reach over to slap his cheek and chin. There’s a loud clap as he flies backward against the brick. This was Amy completely out of control, and not even the big ol’ motorcycle gang could contain her. Part of me is impressed. The other part is completely terrified of what is about to come next.
“Don’t you fucking talk to me like that. Your job is to listen to my orders and execute them. If you want to see the last guy who dared question me, you can step out back and take a look, Mateo.” She snarls fiercely at him as if she is about to spit fire.
Mateo takes a moment to recover, reeling around slowly and pressing a hand to his sore cheek. From my limited view, I can make out the imprint of her thin, long hand on his pale skin. “All I care about is what’s owed to me, Amy. You get me that money, and you can do whatever you want to this fucking club.”
Money? Is he talking about the diamonds? Or is there something else I don’t know about behind the scenes. Liam has been open to me about the ins and outs of the club since we got together. He’s explained the whole security business and how they have moved into pimping and car snatches, but it never sounded like they made much. The restaurant was basically supplementing each of their incomes to get by.
“Liam has them. The Mafia knows he’s the one who took it. They got him on camera grabbing both the diamonds and the gemstones. If the money trail is right, he sold the diamonds, but he’s the one you should be pissed at. Liam is the one who is stealing from the club?”
What the hell is she talking about? I was with him from the start, and I never caught sight of anything but the diamonds. If he had them, they certainly weren’t around when I was. And why would he hide that from me? Something wasn’t adding up here...
“I get that. I trust you, Amy.” Mateo’s voice suddenly changes. He coos at her as he just his chin juts out slightly. She leans in and kisses him gently; the tip of her tongue sliding along his lips. His eyes close tight, savoring the moment. I watch as his hands tense and then relax by his sides as if he is too afraid to touch her.
Amy presses her body into his. Her red, form-fitting dress ruffles up against his legs and jacket as she whispers quietly into his ear, “Once we get hi
m in, I’ll let you beat it out of him, and I’ll sit here and watch. It will be so… so hot.”
“You got it, baby. You just keep doing what I say, and we’ll celebrate tonight. Me, you, and a big bottle of champagne.” She kisses Mateo again, this time a little slower, a little shorter, before pulling away. Amy fixes her dress and steadies her posture. Without a look at Mateo or me, she saunters out the closed door, shutting it slowly behind her. In the distance, I can hear her go back to crazy Amy as she yells, “WHERE THE HELL ARE THE REST OF LIAM’S GUYS? IF ONE OF YOU BASTARDS DON’T FIND THEM IN AN HOUR, I WILL KILL YOU!”
Everything goes back to that strange calm it was the first time I was put in this room and strapped to the chair with the long white extension cord. Mateo takes a seat back in the corner and pulls out his phone as if nothing has happened. After awhile, he gets back up onto his feet and begins to walk the length of the room, his hands washing over his bald, tattooed head. I close my eyes tight and begin to count.