“Catherine?”
She opened her eyes slowly, not daring to move or breathe. It was a trick of the wind, it had to be—a torturous murmur of frosted air that carried the echo of a voice, nothing more.
“Catherine?”
She gasped and whirled around. Louder this time, the voice had not been a trick of the wind nor a taunt of her imagination. It was real!
“Alex?”
“Catherine, are you here?”
With a sob she ran back along the path. She saw a cloaked figure standing partially concealed behind two tightly interwoven evergreens and hesitated the merest fraction of a second before flinging herself into his outstretched arms.
“Damien! Oh, Damien, it’s you! You’ve come home! You’ve come home!”
“Good heavens.” Her brother was taken aback as he cradled the sobbing bundle against his chest. “For a greeting like this I would make a point of coming back to Derby every other day. Here now, what’s all this? I know it’s been almost two months since I removed myself to London, but—”
Catherine lifted her tearstained face from his shoulder. For a long moment his confusion was genuine, but then he looked around and cursed his own stupidity.
“Damn, Kitty. I’m sorry. I should have waited and called at the house, but I wasn’t thinking. I saw you ride out of the stables and wanted to see you alone, without Mother or Father badgering me with endless questions … and, well … I guess I just didn’t think.”
Catherine sniffed loudly and wetly. Having brought no handkerchief with her, she patted Damien’s breast pocket and relieved him of his. She held the linen to her nose and blew, looking up into her brother’s face as she did so and nearly gasping aloud. He looked dreadful! His complexion was sallow and unhealthy, his eyes were clouded with fatigue that could not be the mere result of a hurried trip from London.
“Dear God,” she cried. “Has something happened to Harriet?” Reaching out, she clutched his arm, nearly tearing the seam of his cloak in her anxiety. “Is she ill? Has something happened to the baby?”
“No! No, Harriet is fine. Honestly. She’s fine. A little plumper around the middle, but otherwise shamelessly content.”
Catherine swallowed a deep gulp of air to regain her composure. “Then what is it? Why are you sneaking about the woods like a thief?”
Damien arched an eyebrow wryly. “I think I prefer your first greeting, thank you. And since when is it a crime to seek out the bosom of one’s own family on one’s own land?”
“Damien Ashbrooke, the only bosom you have cared to seek out for the past few months has belonged to Harriet.” She finished wiping away the streaks of tears from her cheeks and glared up at him accusingly. “And what leads you to believe Father would badger you with anything less than a trowel after the argument the two of you had following the happy occasion of my wedding? You have been carved up and served for dinner in absentia more often than a joint of mutton.”
“I gather he is still angry over my decision to take permanent residence in London? It never seemed to bother him before I was married.”
“Before you were married and while you were sowing your wild oats all over hell and gone, he was perfectly content to keep you and your scandals in London. But, may I remind you, you are his son and heir. You are respectably—if somewhat hastily—married, with a possible son and heir of your own on its way. He assumes there is just as much law to be practiced in Derby as in London, and as much determination in your soul to preserve the fortunes of Rosewood Hall as there was in the souls of twelve preceding generations of Ashbrookes.”
“Kitty—” He sighed. “I am abandoning neither my heritage nor my duty. I am twenty-four years old, hardly the age to consider retiring into dotage. I have a thriving practice in London, which I am not prepared to forfeit just yet. I am fully aware of my responsibilities as an Ashbrooke—good Lord, they have been drummed into me since birth—but I am also concerned with my responsibilities to my wife and child.”
“Bravo.” Catherine smiled. “Well said, my brave and beautiful brother. And said well in the seclusion of the forest.”
“I have said the exact same thing to Father’s face.”
“Indeed, you have. Unfortunately, he isn’t nearly as astute or sympathetic as the trees, nor as perceptive as your little sister. There is something more going on behind all this skulduggery, and if you don’t out with it soon, I shall go after you with a trowel of my own.”
Damien laughed softly. “Obviously, my concerns for your welfare have been unfounded; you haven’t lost the edge to your wit yet. Has all been forgiven, or have you just managed to stay out of Father’s way?”
It was Catherine’s turn to sigh. “He has been so damned civil since you confided the extent of the absent Mr. Montgomery’s wealth that one would think he had orchestrated the whole affair himself. Hearing him wax profound on his new son-in-law even has me listening in awe sometimes and wishing I could meet the fellow myself.”
“Better that than the alternative. Father can be a self-righteous swine when he wants to be.”
“Swine is hardly the word I would have used to describe a man who forces his only daughter into marriage with a complete stranger. He should just dare to lecture me on my behavior.”
“Meaning … what?”
She glared up at him again. “I haven’t been following in dear Mother’s footsteps, if that’s what you are asking, though not for any lack of opportunity.”
“It never occurred to me that you might. You do, after all, have Alex.”
“Do I? Where?” She looked around angrily. “Are you seeing someone here that I am not?”
“Kitty—”
“Don’t Kitty me. And don’t patronize me either. I haven’t seen Alex, haven’t heard one single word from him in over three months.”
“He hasn’t exactly been languishing on his laurels all this time. And if you love him—”
“If I love him? If I love him?” She clasped her hands tightly together in frustration. “You have no idea how many times I have asked myself the same question. Do I love him? Do I even know him? I spent less than four weeks with the man—half of the time plotting how to turn him over to the authorities and collect the reward! The rest of the time …” Her shoulders slumped and she shook her head slowly. “The rest of the time I was so frightened I think I could have convinced myself I loved Attila the Hun if he had rescued me.”
“Kitty … you don’t mean that.”
“Don’t I? Maybe you’re right. Maybe I don’t know anything anymore. Who is to say I would not have been just as happy—or as miserable—married to Hamilton Garner? At least I would know where he was and know what he was doing all these miles from home. Every time I turn around someone is talking about Hamilton Garner. Lo—the brave hero! Did you know he was promoted to major? I could have been the wife of a respected army officer, boasting night after endless night of my husband’s accomplishments. Instead, I find myself spending so much time in my rooms I have begun to tat the cobwebs into lace. Have I spent one moment at Rosewood that hasn’t been plagued with doubts and fears? Is my husband alive? Is he dead? Did everything happen the way I remember it, or am I seeing things, believing things that just are not true, not even real? Does he think about me? Does he wonder how I spend my days and nights? If I have enough food to eat? If I’m warm or cold? Am I one-tenth as important to him as … as …”
“As he is to you?” Damien provided softly.
She looked up at him and scowled. “Do not put words in my mouth, Damien Ashbrooke. Especially when you cannot possibly be sure of what they are.”
He sighed expansively, “Very well. I guess I was wrong. I guess I should not have told him you wanted to see him.”
Catherine grew very still. It came together, like two tin pans crashing in the silence, why Damien had followed her into the woods instead of meeting her at the house, why he looked so tired, so haggard, so … worried!
“You’ve seen him. Has
something happened to him? Has he been hurt?”
“No! I mean, yes, I’ve seen him, but no, he hasn’t been hurt. Well, not that you’d notice at any rate. He was wounded at Prestonpans, but—”
A roaring filled Catherine’s ears. The roaring was Damien’s voice and she could see his lips moving, but the words were running together in a series of distorted sounds and echoes.
She swayed forward slightly and he had to reach out and catch her about the waist to prevent her from falling. He led her to a nearby tree stump and made her sit down. Watching the color come and go in her cheeks, he searched beneath the frilly jabot at her throat until he found and unfastened the top three buttons on her jacket.
“Wounded?” she gasped. “You said he was wounded?”
“He has a few new scars to show you. Nothing serious. Nothing missing, nothing broken, nothing twisted out of shape or disfigured. My word of honor, Kitty. He’s fine.”
“Wh-where did you see him?”
“He showed up in London a few days ago. Completely unannounced, of course, and walking bold as brass through Piccadilly Square as if he owned the place. He stayed a few hours, gave me a list of errands as long as your arm to run, then vanished again, him and that great bloody stallion of his.”
“Alex was in London?” She repeated it slowly, her heart hammering against the confines of her tightly laced stomacher. To reach London he would have had to pass by Derby … wouldn’t he?
“His business was urgent,” Damien said, reading the question in Catherine’s eyes. “He could not afford to stop or delay on the way there. However—”
“He is coming here on the way back?” she cried.
“That, uh, was his intention. Until I, in a more rational state of mind, managed to dissuade him.”
“You did what?”
“Well, for one thing, there is the trifling matter of the two companies of militia Father has so generously invited to encamp on our grounds.” The point, well-made, was also thickly coated in sarcasm. At the first news of the Pretender’s intent to march south, Lord Alfred Ashbrooke had run, wig askew, to Colonel Halfyard’s headquarters and demanded armed protection for his property. “A tinker cannot get close to the house without running a gauntlet of questions and accusations. I was stopped four times in the final mile.”
“I could meet him,” she gasped. “Anywhere!”
“Anywhere and everywhere is swarming with soldiers. And I wasn’t the only one who followed you away from the stables. A rather priggish-looking lieutenant stopped me at the edge of the forest and would have run me through with his saber if I hadn’t been able to convince him I was your brother. If you don’t believe me, look behind you … carefully. You can just catch a glimpse of a red tunic through the trees. Lord help both of us if we don’t walk away from here arm in arm singing praises to the King.”
Catherine felt a surge of anger. “Father! How dare he have me watched!”
“Undoubtedly for your own protection,” Damien said placatingly. “But a distinct nuisance, nonetheless.”
“A damned nuisance,” she retorted, jumping to her feet. “And one that shall end here and now.”
“Frankly, I wouldn’t say anything about it if I were you. The old Catherine Ashbrooke we all knew and loved would probably have demanded an entire regiment to escort her on a walk through the gardens. You wouldn’t want to lapse too much out of character now, would you?”
Catherine opened her mouth to toss back a retort, but thought better of it and sank back down onto her seat on the log.
“Was I really so troublesome?” she asked, chewing on the tip of a gloved finger.
“You were just young and foolish and more in love with who you were supposed to be than who you actually were.”
“A sage observation, brother dear. Considerate of you not to mention it before now.”
Damien shrugged. “I had hopes it would pass. And I can see by the look in your eyes every time you say your husband’s name that it has.”
“Alex,” she whispered. “Oh, Damien, I have to see him. I just have to!”
“He’ll be relieved to hear it. I got the distinct impression he was not altogether certain what to expect by way of a reception. He seemed to dwell particularly upon the chilliness of a certain young lady’s departure from Scotland and her reluctance to acknowledge even the tiniest bit of good judgment on his part for taking such swift action to see to her safety.”
“He thinks I am still angry?”
“In truth, I think the two of you have more in common than you realize. He paced a rut in my floorboards telling me how it would have been better for all concerned if he’d never accepted the challenge from Hamilton, never taken you out of England, never so much as spoken to you let alone touched you. I told him he was absolutely right, of course.”
Catherine’s heart missed a beat. Her chest, her shoulders were suddenly so heavy under the weight of her emotions, she felt doubled over. “Is that why he did not come here?” she asked softly. “Is that why he went to London first?”
“Actually … he went to London because he wasn’t sure you were here.”
“Not here? Where would I be?”
“Considering half the shires are evacuating before the descending hordes, it was not an altogether unreasonable concern.” He paused and tilted Catherine’s chin higher so that she was forced to meet the rarefied blue of his eyes. “He wasn’t even sure if you were living here as a widow or as the wife of an absentee merchant.”
“He didn’t know? All this time and … he didn’t know!”
“How could he, Kitty? He has been fighting a war, remember?”
“Well, yes, but … he should have known. He promised. He gave me his word of honor. He should have known I would wait for him. Damien, please … you must take me to him. You must!”
“I can’t do that—” He held up his hand and pressed a fingertip over the protest forming on her lips. “Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know where he is.”
“Then how—”
“He, on the other hand, knows where I will be staying tomorrow night—”
“Tomorrow!”
“—after I leave here. And that is where he will go in search of your answer.”
“Answer? Answer to what?”
“To this—” Catherine stared, her eyes rounded with disbelief as her brother reached to an inside pocket of his frock coat and withdrew a folded, sealed sheet of paper. She gaped at the letter, then up into his handsome face, and his expectant smile faded under the hot flare of violet sparks that burned in her eyes.
“Do you mean to tell me you have been standing here for ten minutes with this in your pocket?”
Without waiting for a reply she snatched the letter out of his hand and pressed it to her bosom for a long, breathless moment before daring to break the wax seal. Her hands were shaking as she unfolded the single sheet, and she had to read the opening salutation twice before her eyes would focus properly to continue.
My dearest Catherine …
She stopped, clutched the letter to her breast again, and felt Damien’s arm circle her shoulder.
“I’m all right,” she gasped. “I’m all right.”
He kissed her tenderly on the forehead, then walked a few paces away to give her some privacy.
My dearest Catherine,
I pray Damien has found you well and in good spirits. We had heard most of the gentry were relocating, and so I did not hold much hope of seeing you. I was happy enough and relieved just to hear that Mrs. Montgomery was visiting at Rosewood Hall while her husband is out of the country.
Somehow, a piece of paper seems hopelessly inadequate for expressing what I want to say. I should have had Aluinn’s talent for poetry to know how to properly tell you what is in my heart. Instead, I shall simply have to be content with the truth, blunt as it may be. Not one single hour of one single day has gone by wherein I have not thought of you. I sometimes find myself wondering if it was a
ll a dream, if I only conjured you out of a desperate need to have something warm and loving in my life again. If I am dreaming, I pray I never wake up. If I am awake, then I pray you dream me into your arms and, one night soon, God willing, we shall waken together.
Your devoted servant, A. C.
Catherine’s lips trembled as she read it a second and third time. “Damien … Damien, I must go to him. Take me with you when you leave tomorrow. We can take precautions, we can—”
“I can’t do that, Kitty. It isn’t safe.”
“I don’t care! I’m tired of being safe! I am going back with you, and there is nothing you can say or do to prevent it! I listened to logic and reason and concerns for my safety once before, and see where it has gotten me?”
“If you won’t think of your safety, then think about his. Kitty—” He took her hands into his. “I have had more inquiries in the past two months as to the whereabouts of the mysterious Raefer Montgomery than I could tally on five pairs of hands.”
“Good gracious, what has that to do with—”
“Some were just the usual curiosity seekers, those who had heard about the duel and wanted the gory details. But there were others not the least bit interested in the duel, but damned persistent when it came to questions about his current and past affiliations—including his lovely new wife. At the same time I’m hearing another name discussed in the coffeehouses and men’s clubs—Alexander Cameron—complete with questions and curiosities.”
Catherine felt the warmth drain out of her face. “What do you mean?”
“The Camerons are a large and important clan. Without Lochiel backing his cause, the Prince might not have found himself ten men willing to support a rebellion, let alone thousands. As for Alex’s importance, well, it might interest you to know that your husband has won himself a great deal of attention. He and his men were responsible for sending our valiant dragoons cantering away from Colt’s Bridge; they were instrumental in taking Perth, Stirling, and Edinburgh. At Prestonpans, it is said he single-handedly led a charge against heavy artillery, and instead of being blown to hell and gone like any other mortal man, captured more Hanover cannon than they have men knowledgable enough to shoot them. Shall I go on?”
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