by Brent Weeks
“Blackmail,” she agreed.
He lowered his voice further. “Among the deceived, Adrasteia, you will always be a former slave. The highest you can rise is to be a Blackguard. It is a good position, for a former slave. Usually. Less good in wartime. Everyone knows that the Blackguards’ standards have slipped in order to replenish the ranks. You will be thrown at problems that the peacetime Blackguard would never accept. You will die for the White, perhaps, though this one is almost dead. She won’t last two more years. And who will replace her? Someone you can love and respect? Will you be happy to give your life for the Red? Is that the life you want? A slave exalted, but a slave still. Is that the best you can do?”
He nodded to two of the masked figures and backed away.
Louder now, he said, “We want you, initiate, but we won’t blackmail you into service. The Order isn’t looking for slaves. You can be a soldier to be used as cannon fodder for them, or for us you can be more. We’re looking for Shadows. We’re looking to give you a chance to make a difference. To change the course of all history. To pick up the pittance this world has given you and demand more, and in turn give more. There will be no work as hard as what we offer, but together we can remake the world.”
The figures stepped forward and set the silver items in a pitted bowl at the end of a paddle. They lifted it into the fire, and Teia watched as the silver wobbled, lost form, and melted, ready to be remade.
Chapter 39
“I want you to stab me,” Gavin said. He and the Malargos boy Antonius were standing on deck in the early morning light.
“Your pardon?”
“I’ve been stabbed by it before. Maybe twice.”
“Where?” Antonius asked.
“Off Garriston and off Ru. See? It’s even been on boats both times.”
“I meant on your body.”
“Oh, in the back, here, and straight through my chest, here.” They were still short on clothing, so like the rest of the former slaves, Gavin went shirtless. It had scandalized the young lord, who had offered his own garments, but Gavin couldn’t accept them, for reasons he couldn’t have said. Regardless, it meant that when he gestured to where he’d been attacked, he was gesturing to skin.
Antonius leaned close. “No scars. No scars?”
“I think that’s part of the magic. Well, it has to be.”
Antonius hefted the sword and stabbed it down on the deck. Its point sank deeply into the polished, fire-hardened wood. He looked at Gavin skeptically.
“I think it’s different, for me,” Gavin said.
He’d been doing a lot of thinking in the last day of freedom. First he’d thought of Karris, Karris, who had been so painful to think about when he was in the hell belowdecks. He could see her smile, the arch of her neck, her hair—blonde, now—and her tears of joy as they embraced once more. He could feel her fingers touching his face while he slept, assuring herself he was real. He could imagine nipping her fingers to startle her, and laughing together. He imagined her slim legs around his hips, her warm embraces—but then that, too, still hurt. His body had been hollowed out like a bowl for sorrows, and imagining pleasure filling it again was torture. He tried to imagine what she would say when she saw his eyes, instead. She had married a Prism. She had accepted the costs of being married to the most powerful man in the world, but she’d accepted the rewards, too.
He was that man no more. What he had promised was not what he was going to give her. What would she say to this withered husk?
I am not now that which once I was. What work of noble note might yet be done, by me? By this cripple?
That, too, was too cruel to countenance. So he’d thought about the musket-sword. It was the black in it that captivated him. It looked like obsidian. But no one could work obsidian into such delicate spirals; the stuff wasn’t malleable. Obsidian fractured with hard, sharp edges. During the war, those who could afford obsidian had edged their arrowheads with the stuff, as it cut through luxin better than steel did. But few could afford it. That it interfered with drafting was known, though. Hellstone, drafters called it, thinking it darkness personified, a negation of light, and thereby a tool of the enemy.
Gavin had his—the real Gavin’s—men collect all the weapons lined with hellstone and any gems or decorative pieces, put them in a few crates, and had them ‘lost’ when they got back to Big Jasper. It was war, albeit the end of the war, and things go missing. He’d used that treasure to line the tunnels of Gavin’s prison beneath the Chromeria. He was very familiar with obsidian.
And this didn’t make sense.
“Can we try a little bit at a time, rather than just run you through and hope for the best?” Antonius asked.
“When you put it like that,” Gavin said, “that sort of makes sense.”
Antonius grimaced. He lofted the sword and extended it toward Gavin’s chest. “How about I hold the sword in place, and you can move forward as much as you want, and maybe the crew won’t keelhaul me for killing you?”
“Fair.” Gavin held the tip of the white-and-black sword to his chest. He leaned in—
—and jumped back, cursing, blood dribbling down his chest.
Antonius jumped back, too, eyes wide. There was a moment of silence, while Gavin rubbed at the wound. “So … that wasn’t how it worked before?” Antonius asked.
Gavin cursed louder, swore at the heavens. There was no way he’d been imagining it. At least not the second time. The dagger had been a dagger when he’d fought his father and Grinwoody and Kip for it, and a sword thereafter. Gunner had admitted that he’d pulled it out of Gavin’s chest—that Gavin had been fully impaled.
Maybe it only worked once. It took all your magic, and then it was done. But obsidian didn’t do that. It could drain luxin from your blood, sure, but it didn’t stop you from ever drafting again. Not even all obsidian did that.
“Can I try it on you?” Gavin asked.
“You said it took away your ability to draft,” Antonius said.
It wasn’t as if Gavin had wanted to tell him, but there hadn’t been any way to avoid it, either. The boy had asked him to draft some repair to the galley, and Gavin had no lie ready for why he wouldn’t. “That’s right,” Gavin said. “It’s a guess, of course, but the events correlate.”
“So you want me to give up my ability to do magic to satisfy your curiosity?” Antonius asked. “Don’t get me wrong, I want to help, but … Maybe we could wait and try some other way?”
Gavin sighed. He couldn’t exactly blame the boy. “It’s almost first watch. Time’s up. We need to decide.”
Yesterday, in their initial exuberance and fear, they’d simply rowed until dark to get away. None of the slaves had thought to use sextant and compass to find their position, and it had been overcast. Antonius Malargos said they were between Rath and the Jaspers, two days out from Rath.
The crew gathered on deck. Many of them had slept on deck, not trusting that someone wouldn’t come and lock them to an oar once again. In the growing light of the rosy-fingered dawn, they took their places.
Antonius spoke first. “This day, we must decide our destination. We’ve food and water for what? Five days? I’ve heard tales of your rowing prowess, and I’m sure you could reach half the coast of Blood Forest and half the coast again of Ruthgar. But there are only two viable options: go to Big Jasper, or go to Rath.”
“Why would we go to Rath?” someone asked.
“You left out the third option,” someone else said. “We can keep pirating. Sun Day’s coming, all sort of fat fish in the water for us to take.”
“Listen to me!” Antonius said. He was too fearful, too young. He thought he was losing the sailors’ attention. He wasn’t. They simply wanted to taste their freedom a bit. What could make a man feel more like a free man than interrupting his betters without consequence? For men who’d lived under the lash, it was fine wine.
“I’m offering you freedom, and more,” Antonius said. “My cousin, Lady Eirene
Malargos, is fair and rich and connected. If you land in the wrong city, you’ll be seen as fugitive slaves, game for anyone to recapture. You land somewhere worse, and you’re mutineers. You could be hanged or ’hauled. My cousin will give you papers, filed in every capital. Freedom. Never having to run again. It goes without saying that we split the cargo. Even shares for everyone. No share for me, though I rescued you. All that, and fifty danars each.”
“We want to keep the ship, too!” someone shouted out.
“The Bitter Cob will be sold and the profit divided up with the rest of the shares,” Antonius said. “That’s the only way everyone gets an even split. If some of you want to go in together and buy it, that’s your business.”
Gavin stood up. “Lord Antonius,” he said, inclining his head. “I want you to know how much we all appreciate you and your actions. We’ll make sure you’re amply rewarded. However. I’m not really sure why you’re even trying. We’re going to Big Jasper, because whatever you offer, I’ll double.”
The men cheered.
But Antonius held up his hand silent, waiting. Someone shouted, “Shut yer yaps, ya rabble, let the lord drive the price up!” The men laughed, but eventually quieted.
“Two things,” Antonius said. “One that you know, and one that you can’t. First, you all know Eirene Malargos’s reputation. She is a tough trader, but she always keeps her word, no matter what. Second, in normal times, Gavin Guile could indeed double whatever she and I could offer you. In normal times, I know Gavin Guile would honor his promise to us, though we all know that the Guiles have earned their surname anew a thousand times each generation.”
That was a bit too complicated a construction for the sailors. These were simple men. But Gavin didn’t interrupt. Let the boy play his gambit. Gavin was ascendant once more. This was his game. He wasn’t going to have a crew he’d served with for months be taken out from under him. He wouldn’t allow it. He saw Orholam staring at him, his prophet eyes intent.
“But these are not normal times. As I heard from you all last night, Luxlord Andross Guile stabbed his own son and threw him overboard.” He paused. “I tell you now that the luxlord has not been idle since his son has been gone.”
Men were looking at Gavin, and he felt dread rising in him.
“Andross Guile has been named promachos,” Antonius said. “And he has consolidated power in a way that even Gavin Guile couldn’t do during the False Prism’s War. He doesn’t want the enemy son he thought he murdered to come back. For your own sakes and for Gavin’s, the last place you want to go is Big Jasper.”
It took Gavin’s breath. In that moment, he knew it was true.
And, too late, he realized that they had only Antonius’s word on this. But these sailors, not schooled in oratory, many of them unable even to read, were able to read a face. Gavin’s undisguised dread was a confirmation of everything Antonius said.
“But Gavin is the Prism. That’s gotta count for—”
“Is he?” Antonius said. “I know you believe he is. I believe he is, too. But if he came into Big Jasper and his father’s men seized him, and he shouted, ‘I am the Prism!’ would they not say, ‘Then draft, Prism, save yourself, prove yourself!’? He can’t draft. He can’t prove who he is. Gavin is our friend, and our Prism—aye, I believe it! But now, in wanting to go home, he is like a drunk friend who wants to swim across the sea. It is not a good friend who encourages that drunk to swim. Prove your friendship to Gavin, and your devotion to your Prism—by not letting him throw his life away.”
Gavin had no answer, no counter. His golden tongue was too heavy to make words. He hadn’t thought it through, had been too busy thinking about the wrong things. He’d been outmaneuvered by a boy. He was slipping. He was lost.
“Tell me,” Antonius said, “what happens to the simple sailor who comes between two warring giants? I tell you what doesn’t happen. A simple sailor doesn’t get paid double. He doesn’t get rewarded. He gets killed outright. So tell me, who wants to head to Rath?”
Chapter 40
Kip didn’t know why he was surprised. He’d thought once he got into the restricted libraries his problems would be solved. As if merely because you’d had to fight for something that meant it was good. The truth was harder to find. The books were filled with accounts the luxiats didn’t want read, but finding exactly what Kip needed—when he didn’t know what that was—was far harder.
The forbidden library had become the squad’s second home. When Kip wasn’t training with Karris or attending lectures or training with the Blackguards, he was here. If Andross Guile had been initially irritated that Kip had used his writ to get all of his friends access to the library as well, he’d been placated when Kip reported how the luxiats had been secretly defying the promachos.
Kip was sure there were some very unpleasant discussions between Andross and the High Luxiats after that, but of course he didn’t get to see any of that. He was also glad to see that Andross had blocked any direct vengeance the luxiats might have wanted to take on Quentin. Not that the young scholar took much hope of that. “Light never forgets,” he said.
“Huh?” Kip asked.
“It’s how we say luxiats have long memories,” Quentin said, not even looking up from some boring tome of archaic theology. Quentin mostly filled his time doing his own research, exploiting the access Kip had given him to restricted materials for a treatise he was writing, but he’d also become a vital resource and good friend to the squad.
“Orholam have mercy,” Cruxer said. He’d finished his own studies for the day and had been helping Kip search for books on the black cards. He sat back from the scroll he had unrolled in front of him.
“What?” Ferkudi asked.
All of them were seated around a table. Ferkudi and Daelos—who had only learned to read in the last year and still read slowly—were agonizing over their own studies nearly as much as Ben-hadad, who’d known how to read for years, but still had trouble with the words swimming around the page.
All paused from their work. It had turned out there was a lot of boring material that the Magisterium had banned, but every once in a while they found a gem.
Big Leo said, “You can’t not tell us. I’ve been reading about flowering plants for two hours. Flowering plants, Cruxer. Flowering. Plants.” Kip liked Big Leo a lot. His mother had been an acrobat and his father a strongman for a traveling circus. They’d been killed in the False Prism’s War; Ferkudi had said it was because Leo’s father didn’t know how to fight, despite his enormous strength. Big Leo had vowed to become the best fighter he could, to never be vulnerable. But other than the intensity that sometimes came out when he was drafting red or sub-red, he was good-humored and wry.
Cruxer said, “I sort of had this picture of the greens worship—” He looked around at them, suddenly embarrassed. “Sorry, Teia.”
“Shut up,” she said. “Go on.” The squad treated her like one of the boys most of the time, but neither the squad nor Teia was terribly consistent about when she wanted to not be treated like one of the boys.
He shook his head. “It sounds like fun, right? Orgies and wild drunkenness and dancing and, uh, temple girls—”
“It wasn’t only temple girls,” Teia said.
They looked at her.
“Don’t even,” she said.
Cruxer cleared his throat. “Uh, anyway. I just came across instructions for the planting ritual. It’s, uh, it’s instructions on how to prepare the infants for human sacrifice. It’s not just how to remove the heart from such a small space, but also how to have musical instruments play loudly at the point when the infant starts wailing as they’re cut open so that the worshippers don’t … don’t lose faith.”
The whole squad went silent for a moment. “Orholam curse them,” Big Leo said.
“I could handle that. I mean, I’d heard they passed babies through the flames, and I…” Cruxer shrugged. “It was just a story. But this … the worst part is it details how to choose
the babies by lot, ‘due to the usual problem of there being many more infants offered by parents than the dozen needed.’ This wasn’t some evil priest ripping a babe out of the arms of some young mother. They did it willingly. Our ancestors. Our people. How could they?”
Quentin said, “If I may? There was a warrior-priest once named Darjan who they say saw and participated in all the worst of war: massacres and murders and torture and worse, and excelled at all of it. He was a leading pagan priest, but he became one of Lucidonius’s personal converts, and after a lifetime of war around seven of the nine kingdoms, he put out one of his eyes, moved to Tyrea and lived out his days as an ascetic, climbing daily to the top of—well, a statue or what is now Sundered Rock or—there are arguments, and—not important. He spent the last thirty years of his life praying dawn to dusk, and—more not important stuff. He once said, ‘For most of our lives, that Orholam is just should fill us with fear, but there are moments when that truth is the only thing that can fill us with peace.’”
Kip said, “Are you telling me this is what I’ve been missing out on by skipping the ‘Lives of the Saints’ lectures? Murderous warrior-priests who camped out back in Rekton? I climbed on that statue!”
“Way to miss the point, Breaker,” Teia said.
“You have to sit through a lot of lectures to get the good ones,” Quentin admitted. They all laughed a little, and they all knew it was only to cover over what they’d heard. But they were all ready to let it go.
“It’s sort of a ‘Look inward first, but look outward, too’?” Teia asked Quentin. It was an old saying.
“Pretty much—the real quote was Ambrosius Abraxes, ‘Look ye first to thy innermost parts. Search and know them as does Orholam himself, and then may ye turn thy gaze to the deeds of those who persecute thee.’ Some of the saints had a real way with words, others…” He grinned.
Still serious, Cruxer said, “This is who we’re fighting. This wasn’t an individual’s guilt—one bad priest oppressing a community that feared him. It was the entire community, eager to participate in what they knew was evil.”